I'm doing OK. I've taken my morning pills already and hopefully fixed yesterday's problem with my anti-virus programme 'cos it's running now. My groceries are being delivered this morning and there's a lot of chocolate on it lol
My body and especially head are starting to shut down because the only time the vast majority of people contact me is when they either want something from me or they want to have a go at me about something. I've tried telling them how much it hurts when that happens and things are OK for a couple of hours after that while they ignore me then it all starts all over again. I'm doing what I can to survive but they don't seem to realise just how much I'm struggling myself right now and I've got no-one to turn to without having to pay for it over and over again for years to come, so my body and mind are reverting back to their trusty old coping methods of shutting down and self-harming so the 5-HTP is gonna get a real hammering from now on.
Have I already said about taking my morning pills? I have and the first 3 went down OK, but there was so little squash left for the fourth one that I very nearly threw them all back up again. I managed to keep them all in my stomach but I definitely need to re-fill my squash bottle before lunchtime now.
My morning carer could be here any time from now until 11am so I'm gonna put my to-do list up and hope that I've got time to publish it before she arrives lol
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