I just wanna reassure you right away that I'm NOT suicidal and I AM totally safe, I just wanna get these things written down before I forget to tell the people who need to know.
I've got a rare, life-long, neurological disability that I'll never recover from and it's very unlikely that a cure will be found in my lifetime, which is fair enough. I wanna donate my organs to the people who need them (I've been on the organ donor register since I was 11 years old) and the rest of me to medical research.
It'll be too late for me, obviously, but if I can provide information to researchers to find out more about my neurological disability (or any other illness for that matter) then my life won't be wasted entirely. Maybe my body could be used to help medical students or test new, top-secret, things on. I haven't got a clue what happens and I don't fancy losing my lunch by finding out the gory details either, I just don't see why I can't do one last thing to help future patients.
If you're that desperate for a way to remember me, hold a small memorial service for me and plant a cherry tree (a sweet rather than sour cherry though please) and/or lavendar bush in your garden with one of those £5.99 wooden and metallic tags with "Amanda woz 'ere" or something on it. I certainly don't want you to spend thousands of pounds on coffins and services and wakes and stuff like that. If it's during the right season, go to the Harvester and order a roasted butternut squash for your lunch... you might wanna warn them in advance if there's going to be a few of you so that they can be sure they've got enough in stock! 😉 😏
Basically, I ain't gonna need my body any more so why not put it to good use in the medical community?
Like I said, I'm totally safe so I don't want any panicky phone calls or emails making sure I'm OK 'cos I promise you, I'm totally fine and I've gotta wait for my eldest nephew's birthday gifts to turn up tomorrow (although hopefully well before the 9pm cut off time and hopefully not when I'm in the middle of getting washed and dressed either lol) then I've gotta take them with me next weekend and I've gotta get my first couple of bills for my new smart metre that was recently fitted too. It's less than £30 for this month so far, so I wanna be able to prove to my electricity provider that I'm NOT using over £300 of electricity a month lol
Basically, I'm totally OK, I just wanna make my wishes known while I remember is all.
Talk to you all tomorrow.
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