Monday, 19 October 2020

Book Review: 'The Single Dad’s Handbook' by Lynsey James

⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ out of 5

I've read 8 chapters before lunch and it's been a fantastic book so far, WTG the author.  I thought that the swearing on the first page would be a signal of swearing throughout and it'd spoil a potentially good book, but I was wrong... there *is* swearing, but it's well-placed and not just written for the sake of being written.

I'm wondering about the semi-frequent use of big brand names though, if the author hasn't got written permission from the brands to use them, then they could be in a lot of hot water if the brands find out!

Just finished this book and it definitely deserves every one of those 5 stars that everything I review starts off with.  If you've got a day of boredom ahead of you, get your nose into this book and hopefully you won't regret it, I certainly don't.

I've put the second wheelchair slopey thing...

...outside our back door to start practising walking up and down slopes so that I'll hopefully be more confident using the one in the pavement that's just outside my GP surgery.  Almost fell over twice but the last time I went up and down it I achieved it without holding on to the wall, so I stopped trying then so that I didn't lose the confidence it gave me lol

The food processor is going at 🕑 2pm so I'll try again after that's been picked up... I'm feeling really hopeful that I'll feel semi-confident about it by the time the puppy comes home though 🤞

Pills taken, brekkie eaten, virus scan...

...still clear, spreadsheets up on my homepage, rubbish and recycling collected and containers brought back in, slopes adjusted, food processor going at 2pm, which means I've got a couple of hours to work on my slope confidence using my quad cane.


Sunday, 18 October 2020

Pills taken, virus scan clear, breakfast eaten, Fitbit...

...has completely given up the ghost and the puppy has thrown up 3 times and not touched her breakfast 😟  Overall, not a good start to the day 😞

Saturday, 17 October 2020

I've taken my last two pills of the day, so...

...I'm gonna shut down for the night and hit the sack.


Nite nite orl!


That's 2 kitchen things Freegle'd today, so just got...

...the food processor to go now then there will be loads of space for food preparation and dishing up and stuff.  In theory we can put the bread machine and slow cooker on there too, but we do very occasionally use them, so I'd like to keep hold of them just as a standby, like with our microwave.


The puppy's had her tea and her second pill of the day, so just waiting for me to take my last two now then we can all chill out until bed time.


All dosed up until this evening now

Taken my pills, including the Calcium (because it's Saturday so I don't take the FA today) so I'm all dosed up until tonight now.  Had almost 10 hours of sleep last night and I'm freeeeeeezing now!  The daily virus scan is under way and the pasta machine is going at lunchtime today so then it's time to put the ice cream maker up on Freegle.

Friday, 16 October 2020

Just about finished... mug of coffee so I'm slowly closing down all my programmes in preparation for the 'patch Tuesday' update, then I'm heading to bed.

Nite nite orl 💤

The puppy poo'd on her evening stroll, so... I'm legally required to do, I picked it up, finished our walk, came home and fed her, so hopefully she'll be able to have a quiet night tonight.  I'm gonna hopefully have an early night tonight too, so I'm gonna take my last two pills of the day at 7pm on the dot then pretty much head straight to bed.


Apparently the puppy is going back with Helen on Sunday and coming back on Monday, so I'll temporarily make our 'marathon Monday' strolls into a 'trecking Tuesday' just until she's back home full-time again.  Her health is a priority and we need to do what's best for her, so if that means shunting the once a week long walk to a different day, then so be it.


Photos are up on my homepage now, so...

...time to try and persuade the puppy to wake up and go for her last stroll of the day and her tea, then that'll be it unless she needs to go out the back for a wee or another poo.


The puppy gobbled down her lunch too, then...

...went out for a 💩 poo then came back in and curled up in front of the heater, bless 'er.


I'm gonna add a couple of fresh lemons and squeezy bottle of honey to the shopping now before I forget, then get this morning's photos of the puppy dog up on my homepage and take her out for her last walk of the day... assuming she wakes up before it gets too dark of course 😉


That's another one of my domains renewed for another year

Just renewed one of my many domains for another year, and after my hosting company sorted out the issue they were having with their site it was all done and dusted in literally 1 minute - I just logged in, clicked a button on the invoice, waited for a few seconds while my hosting company took the money et voila.

Genuine question, not a joke...

...what's the difference between a police officer/PCSO and a "law enforcement officer" please?

While I was walking the puppy this morning she made friends with a "law enforcement officer" whose uniform looked like a traffic wardens, but the "law" bit is the bit that's confusing me 'cos it sounds like a more general legal thing like the police as opposed to just vehicles like traffic wardens!  Are they like highly trained traffic wardens or something please?

The puppy scoffed her breakfast straight away this morning and other than being a touch anxious at the start of our stroll, she's back to the puppy that we know and love again, thankfully.

She's got a dental thing to go through that's gonna cost over £300, but she's an old lady now, so that's to be expected!

Marie very kindly got me an' 'im a box of doughnuts to share as a joint birthday gift, so that's 3 people who are getting birthday gifts next year now.


I took my pills before we went for our stroll and put more courses that I want to do on my navigation page.  Had porridge with golden syrup for my brekkie and we're having the doughnuts for our lunch, so my blood sugar is gonna be through the roof today 🙄🤣

My laptop is still free of viruses and malware, thankfully, so my friends are all safe from this machine.  It may not be necessary to run virus scans as often as I do, but it gives me peace of mind, so it's worth it to me.


I've already taken a couple of photos of the sleepy puppy in her bed before we went for our morning stroll, so I'll put them up on my homepage now, while I'm waiting for my prescriptions to be delivered.

Thursday, 15 October 2020

Just asked Steve when he was going to... me back for the almost £2,000 I've lent him since March and he replied "I said I'll do it" meaning the software that's almost 18 months late, but taking that payment into account too, it's getting on for £4,000 he's had off me this year but he's demanding the £187 back as soon as he got the invoice.  Maybe I should do like he does and keep promising to pay him back but keep putting it off and putting it off for 7 or 8 months, then deny that I owe him it.  He wouldn't put up with it, but he's been doing exactly that and gets arsey whenever I bring it up.


I'll keep putting up with it until December 30th, but as soon as it ticks over to 1st January, I won't put up with it any more.

The puppy's home!!!

We've got a new routine to get into with her food 'cos she's having the wet and dry mixed together, but Steve says he'll do the weighing out of it when he does our porridge each morning then we've just gotta mix it up for her three meals each day.


As predicted, with the money, to quote Steve he said "I can phone up and pay the bill tomorrow, but I'm gonna need the money back sooner rather than later" so, yet again, he wants credit for paying it, but the money will be coming out of my account.  Again.



Even more courses I want to study now lol

Just had an email from the New Skills Academy with loads of courses that I wanna take so I've added them all to my navigation page and in particular the courses I wanna take page.  The list is getting loooong again, so it'll keep me busy and out of trouble after NaNo and JanNo 😀

Just done a bit of...

...rejigging, coding and uploaded a more organised navigation on my homepage - if you've been recently then hit Ctrl F5 'cos there's a couple of changes to the navigation as well as photos and videos of our senior puppy, but if you haven't visited for a while then there is more to see and it's more organised now too, so go and take a peek and leave me a message in my guestbook?  Please?


Steve's just had a message about the puppy... she's on a combination of wet and dry food for the moment "until her dental stuff is sorted out, then she can go back onto her normal food".  Basically it sounds like her teeth have been playing her up which is why she was so reluctant to eat, but mixing the wet and dry is working for her right now, so when the dental stuff is sorted she'll hopefully be back to her usual cheeky, happy, cuddly, terrier self soon.  Considering her age (11.5 years young) and that she didn't have the best start in life (she's a rescued puppy courtesy of the Dogs Trust who came to us with half a body of fur that the Dogs Trust had been treating since she was given up by her previous owners), she's been a really good, mostly healthy, addition to our little family!

Book Review: "To Argue With Oblivion" by Anthony Wright

⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ out of 5

This is my second ever memoir and it's starting off, like all the books I review, with the full 5 stars... I hope it keeps them all the way through!

I'm currently reading chapter 2 and I've already found a possible inconsistency between real geography and what the author has written lol.

Ah right, I've just been proved wrong by the hubby's quick search of the internet... apparently the distance is about right and the 18 hour days could be the time he was working as opposed to travelling, so ignore that part of the review up there ^^  lol

This is a fantastic book so far... I'm currently up to chapter 6 and I'll keep reading and reviewing it when I log on tomorrow.  Goodnight for now though.

Morning!  I'm about half way through the book now and I'm still enjoying it... I agree with the author's regret over not keeping a record of my achievements and mistakes since I came out of hospital... my memory is still atrocious and can barely remember 5 minutes ago, but that's a vast improvement to when I first came out of hospital and I couldn't even make it through saying a short sentence before I forgot what I was going to say and holding a conversation was pretty much impossible unless each speaker only said maybe 4 or 5 words, maximum.  I can hold a very short conversation with people I know well now though which is a huuuuge improvement and the diary would have shown me just how great that improvement had been.  I wish this book had been written and published 17 years ago, for that reason alone!

I'm reading chapter 10 atm and I'm wondering if mindfullness might help my damaged brain too, even after all these years?!  I certainly hope so and I'm gonna try and remember to ask a doc about it during my next appointment with them.  This book would have really helped me over 15 years ago after I came out of the Neurology ward!

This man is incredible!  He's running now, so maybe if he can do it then I just need to find the right focus and motivation too?  His was collecting up all his golf balls, maybe mine can be something similar?  Tiny steps and aims but hopefully that would make things more achievable wouldn't it?

Just finished and it's been a fantastic book throughout - it should be recommended to all patients with Neurological issues and has completely deserved the full 5 stars throughout.  A definite must-read.

Wednesday, 14 October 2020

My heart is absolutely breaking!!

Just heard back about the senior puppy - she's not coming home today after all 💔 and won't be until tomorrow evening 'cos she needs to be bathed and there is something wrong with her teeth, as well as needing a thyroid check-up, so that's being sorted now, waiting for the blood test results and she's getting a bath then hopefully coming home after Steve's cousin finishes work tomorrow 😢




Blood results are back and her thyroid meds need to be doubled and all treats cut out completely again, 'cos she's 9.7kg instead of 8kg, so no more licking bowls or plates or bits of sandwiches from Steve and no biscuits for doing poo's any more either.  It's what is best for her though and that has to be top priority.

Calcium taken now, soooo...

...I'm all dosed up until this evening now, just waiting for the shopping to be delivered, then we'll put it away and wait for our little puppy to come home from the vets this evening!


I've done exactly 1,000 steps so far today, so the puppy obviously makes up for the other 6,000-ish steps every day.  My steps graphs on my exercise spreadsheets are going to be invisible today 'cos there's no way I'll do another 4,000 steps before I head to bed and 5k is the minimum on the sit-ups and leg raises graph lol  Won't be able to take any more days off with the steps for the rest of the month either, so that I hit my target of 28 days of at least 7k steps a day lol


Backups have just finished too!

Just put my external hard drive away 'cos the back-ups finished quickly and first time too!  I hope today continues to go so positively for me as it has so far today!



 The virus scan has finished already❗  Only took about 3 and a bit hours❗  It did, of course, help that I didn't open my email programmes so didn't need to reboot 😆🙄🤣

I've just started the backups, so I'm hoping 🤞 that'll go through first time too and will be finished by about lunchtime.

Had a reasonably busy morning so far

Came downstairs, set the virus scan going (even remembered not to open my email programmes), Steve opened his birthday gifts from me and my mum, took my morning pills, had my brekkie and ordered my FILs birthday gift from me and the puppy.  Deliberately didn't put Steve's name on it and it'll hopefully be obvious that Steve had no input into it when he opens it.  The only time Steve's name is going on gifts for Yule is for our two nephews, everyone else will just be from me and the puppy.

I'm missing our little puppy sooo much and can't wait for her to get home this evening - she's the smallest being in the house, but has a huuuge personality and really fills the house with love, more than her humans ever could!

I'm not gonna move far from the sofa today, so that I can make the calories in/out graph even redder than usual, which, in turn, will hopefully help me to put on weight next week.

Happy birthday, Steve!

Happy birthday to you,
Squashed tomato's and stew,
There's a nutter, in the gutter,
And I thought it was you.

I care about him really 😁

He liked his mug that I got for him and took it in the way I had intended, thankfully.


Tuesday, 13 October 2020

Photo of the puppy dog is now...

...coded and uploaded to my homepage.  She's looking straight at you in this one which is a rare occurance with me taking photo's of her!

Browser cache's cleared ready for...

...tomorrow's virus scan.  Gotta remember to not open my email while it's scanning my machine so that it'll be finished by the afternoon instead of leaving it on overnight.  You watch me forget though!  😆


What a day!

Had a veeeery early start this morning, so took my pills first thing, before I forgot again, then took the puppy out and had to literally hand feed her again, then Steve had my doughnuts and I had a banana for breakfast then he went off to his medical appointment and I just about had time to upload my weekly Fitbit report to my homepage before the enabler came about clearing out the house.  She brought someone with her and basically Steve's gotta bag up all the clothes he wants to keep and we've both gotta email the enabler with proof of our incomings and outgoings, which is fine by me, but I bet Steve'll conveniently forget again, just like he did with the expenses he was supposed to do and email her 6 weeks ago but didn't tell me until literally an hour or so before she arrived last time.


I've done everything I can now, just gotta wait for the ESA payment then I'll email it to her and it'll be up to Steve then.  I refuse to take the blame for things that I didn't even know about any more.


The Christmas gifts will be from just me again, but I bet Steve does what he did last year and claims that I forgot to add his name again.  Starting in 2021 I'll just be getting gifts for people who got me gifts the previous year, so I'll be getting my mum and C birthday gifts and getting my mum, C and Steve's family a birthday card each, but that's it now.  I refuse to repeatedly get blamed for things and Steve getting credit for the things I've done. Someone (C maybe??) said that I was a bit naieve sometimes, well not any more... I will take the blame only when something is my fault and I will treat others how they've been treating me from next year onwards.  Hopefully that'll thin out the people who say they care about me from the ones who genuinely do.

Monday, 12 October 2020

That's my last pills of the day taken, so...

...I'm gonna shut down Firefox in preparation for the SCBWI exclusive this evening... it's the last one though, so I really don't wanna miss it.


See you all at some point tomorrow.

Nite nite orl.

Busy evening too!

I've only just remembered to take my supplements and the B12, especially, is already working it's magic 'cos I've got more energy (maybe not such a good thing so close to bed time 🙄), my head is clearer, my vision is sharper... it's brilliant!

The reason that the afternoon and evening have been so busy though is 'cos I've fed the puppy twice and she didn't touch it, I've walked her for the last part of 'marathon Monday' and she's got an appointment with the vet on Wednesday afternoon about her not eating for the last 4 or 5 days.  I managed to get today's food into her by wettening it and hand feeding her, so Steve says his cousin (the vet nurse) says it could be her teeth or a stomach bug that's currently going around.  I just want her to be OK!

Busy morning again

So far today I've started the virus scan, taken my morning pills, brought the rubbish sack in, walked the puppy, brought the cardboard bag and recycling box back through, had my breakfast, fed the puppy (she didn't eat as much as I'd hoped yesterday) and weighed myself.

I've somehow lost 750g in the last 7 days, and the only thing I can think that has changed has been that I had breakfast and weighed myself before taking the puppy out for her stroll last week and Steve "can't be arsed" to cook earlier now and the puppy isn't so eager to go for her walks any more, so I'm gonna take this week's weight as the baseline to work from unless/until things change again.  I've still put on 1kg since I was weighed to start with by the nurse though, so it's going in the right direction at least.  Assuming I put on at least that much every month, hopefully the nurse will be happy when I go back and see her in January.

Sunday, 11 October 2020

That's her second meal she's eating today, sooo...

...if the same happens for her three meals tomorrow, then I can officially stop worrying and feed her when the humans are fed in the same place that her humans are eating then hopefully she will eat too.  Maybe dogs need reassurance that they won't be left while they're eating??


I think I've worked it out...

...the reason that the puppy has eaten such a small amount in the last week, isn't because she's ill or in pain or on the verge of going to Rainbow Bridge or anything like that, it's not even Westitude, she's just suddenly become a very social eater and doesn't like eating alone any more.




Because since this morning's experiment after her walk of bringing her food bowl into the living room, she's eaten a full meal twice and each time it was when at least one of her humans was eating.  First off it was when the human's were having their lunch, she went to her bowl and polished off pretty much all of her breakfast for the first time in about a week, and I've just opened up my last couple of Graze snacks (both chocolate this time, so I couldn't share them with her) and she went from being deeply asleep to polishing off her breakfast and lunch in one go before I'd even finished the second punnet!

I'm also wondering if she struggles with having her food bowl on the floor 'cos she went straight to her slightly raised food bowl the second time and scoffed the lot.  That small raise seemed to make the world of difference to her too, so I'm thinking for her tea today and all 3 meals tomorrow, we'll try feeding her here in the living room, with us, when we have our meals just to see if my theory is right.  If I am, then it's a tiny adjustment to make to keep our puppy eating and I'll research getting a raised feeding station for her too.


Late start to a busy Sunday morning

Got up late for me at almost 🕖 7am, then took my pills 💊, walked and fed the puppy, sorted out the rubbish and recycling, collected up the puppy's poo 💩, sorted out the living room and bathroom bins then took it all out ready to be collected tomorrow.

Steve's birthday gift is now out for delivery, so hopefully it'll be here within a few hours, instead of at 🕘 9pm.

We're having chips for lunch, so I'm gonna dive into my Graze box to increase my calories too.  Gotta remember to wear my other boots when I weigh myself tomorrow, so that as much as possible is the same each week.

My daily virus scan came back clear again, which is reassuring.

Gonna catch up with my emails and Facebook now.

Saturday, 10 October 2020

Heading to bed as soon as I've...

...finished my (now cold) hot drink, so I'll say nite nite to you all and shut down for the night now.  Back tomorrow.


That's birthday's sorted for this year and I know...

...what I'm getting everyone for Yule too, just gotta save up for it now.  My mum is getting two gifts off me - one at the end of October/beginning of November when it's released and a second token gift for her that says how my heart feels for her to open on Christmas Day.


Steve's birthday gift is due tomorrow but he ain't opening it until the morning of his birthday 👍


I'm gonna veg out for the rest of the evening, now that I've taken the puppy for her walk and fed her.  Taken a 5 minute video of the sleepy puppy first though... just uploading it to YouTube then I'll put it on my homepage.


Good morning all

Very early start to the day.

Was awake before 🕟 4.30am and didn't think Steve would appreciate me coming down that early, so stayed in bed until gone 🕔 5am by which time I had given up on the idea of going back to sleep and I've been down here ever since.

I've taken my daily pills, including the Calcium, so I'm all dosed up until this evening now.

The virus scan has already finished and I'm still free of nasties, thankfully, so it's time to work out what to do with the rest of the day now.  It's still pitch black out there, so I can't even take the puppy out for her morning stroll yet 😞

Friday, 9 October 2020

That's the gifts in my Amazon basket for the rest of the year now...

Got 3 birthday gifts and 9 Yule gifts waiting patiently in my saved items, ready for slowly buying as I get a bit of spare money.  It's about a month later than usual for me, but it's sorted now and I can go to bed.


Nite nite orl 💤

Puppy's been walked and fed for the last time today

It took a while to get her out of her bed and her harness on, bless 'er, but she's been fine ever since then.


I've also decided to get one final birthday gift for Steve, his sister and his dad 'cos I got gifts for his mum and brother, but starting on 1st January 2021 I'm only getting gifts for people who have got me gifts this year, so it really will be 2 gifts and 3 cards for birthdays in 2021 and potentially only 2 Yule gifts for my mum and C.  I don't give to receive and never have, but I don't like spending several hundred pounds on gifts each year when that is rarely returned either. From now on the support and gifts I get is returned and nothing more than that.  If you expect me to support you when you are having a rough day, then I expect that support to be returned.  


Same with money... I'm happy to lend you money if I can afford it, but I also want that money returned.  I'm going to create a spreadsheet of all the money I've lent to people and expect it to be returned too.

I will also not pay for things until they have been delivered either - I've paid Steve to write software for me twice now and I've paid in advance but the first piece of software was getting on for 2 years later than he promised and the most recent piece of software is currently 17 months overdue and is "coming along slowly" despite being promised that it'd only take 10 weeks.

I'm not putting up with it any more.  Come the New Year I'll be a lot less naive and trusting.


We had s'getti and meat free meatballs for lunch which we haven't had for aaaaages and it was completely yummy.  We're both totally stuffed and Steve's currently sleeping it off 😄  We've still, apparently, got "over half" of the packet of spaghetti left too, so that's even better value than we were thinking - 40p for at least 4 meals is great value for money❗  I'm thinking it'll be s'getti and sauce at some point over the weekend so that we can use it up before it goes off.  I'm just glad that the waistband on my trousers is elasticated 😌


Just taken me daily Calcium, soooo...

...I'm all dosed up until this evening now.


We're having s'getti and vegan meatballs for lunch, just for a change.  If we don't get the sauce all over us and drop at least one forkful of spaghetti down us, it'll be a true miracle 🤣

Just had a letter from the hospital...

...apparently they took a biopsy while I was getting the coil replaced and it only showed benign changes, fortunately no cancer or pre-cancer at all, which is reassuring to know... wish I'd been told that they were taking a biopsy though, ideally before they put me under or if that wasn't possible then definitely when I came round and while I was still there in case I had any questions❗

My last birthday order has arrived, soooo...

...if the door goes then it'll be for Steve again 'cos I haven't ordered anything else.

Busy morning so far!

I've taken my morning pills, completed the virus scan, gone through my emails, caught up with the 3 things I've got on Freegle, had my breakfast and sorted out the photo's Steve took of the puppy dog and put it on my site - there was literally no difference between them, so I've just put one up.  My birthday boots are due either today or tomorrow then that's it.


I've decided that starting in 2021 I will only get gifts for people who have got me gifts the previous year, so it should be a very cheap year... two gifts (to my mum and C) and three cards (to my mum, C and the in-laws).  I'm guessing it'll be the same at Christmas too, a card for my mum and C and the same with the gifts.  I'm fed up of spending my money on gifts for people and either Steve getting credit (because I "must have forgotten to add my [Steve's] name") for it or nothing at all in return (Steve, H and D).  I'll donate money to the two people who donated to mine but that's it.  


No more.  


I refuse to keep being forgotten and everyone else assuming that I'll get them a gift.  I'll get gifts for both of my nephews and say that it's from Steve too, 'cos they are waaaay too young to understand, but everyone else will get what they've given me the previous year.  I'm not going to be a push-over any more.

The puppy's awake now, so I'm gonna take her for her first stroll of the day now.

Thursday, 8 October 2020

Taken my last two pills, so...

...that's me starting to close things down for the day now.  Hoping to be in bed by 🕗 8pm and asleep soon after that, hopefully before 🕘 9pm.

Passed the course first time!

Just finished today's course at my first attempt with a score of 85.19% (there were 27 assessment questions instead of the usual 30 for some reason) with at least two (lunch and the puppy's second walk), possibly three (can't remember if I'd already started it when I took the puppy out this morning) long breaks which is even better.

I've updated the appropriate pages on my navigation site now, so I'm gonna check my emails now then relax until it's time for my last two pills of the day, then head to bed for another early night.  I've currently done 7,033 steps according to my Fitbit app, so I've already hit my daily steps for OctoberFEST within the community site so I'm feeling pretty good about that too.

That was a quick and simple solution!

I had the idea that maybe the puppy wasn't eating 'cos she was eating in the kitchen instead of with us, so I brought her food bowl in and put it on the floor for her.  


She devoured it within seconds. 

She's obviously become more of a social eater as she ages 'cos she's 11 now, so maybe that's what they do in the wild or something❓❓  I'm just relieved that she's got food in her stomach now and if that's what it takes to get her to eat her meals, then so be it.  🤷

Puppy's been walked and medicated now, but...

...only ate literally 3 bits of her food.  I put her tea down at about 🕡 6.30pm last night, but Steve said it took her until 🕙 10pm to eat it.  She seems healthy in every other way, just doesn't want her food as soon as I put it down for her atm is all.


It started raining so I used the opportunity to try out the jacket I bought with a voucher I got with my birthday.  It's supposed to be unisex but you can almost fit two of me inside the small so it's definitely aimed more at men 🙄🤣

Time to get on with the studying now... maybe a module before lunch then the other four after we've eaten?  We're having burgers again, home-made of course, with mayo and home-grown onions.

Time for a new day to start!

Mornin' all.


I've just taken my pills, so just my prescriptions to go tonight now.


Steve's decided that I should do the 'negotiation skills' course today (you can go here to see which ones are currently waiting for me to study them and here to see which ones I want to take but haven't signed up for yet), which, apparently, is 5 modules long so I'm hoping I'll be finished this afternoon and can have another early night.

Just started my daily virus scan which'll hopefully be finished by lunchtime too, then I can have my lunch and keep studying.


I put a rare-for-me photo of the puppy dog up on my homepage last night... she was actually looking straight into the camera❗

Time to shut up and start studying now.  BBL.

Wednesday, 7 October 2020

The day has vanished again and now I'm off to bed...

I've put a photo of the puppy dog on my homepage but that's pretty much all I've achieved this afternoon.


I'll try to do better tomorrow... might even study a course again, but for now it's nite nite orl again.


The virus scan has finished now and...

...I'm still free of nasties.


Chris has had his birthday gift handed to him by the deliverer and the first package of my 3 birthday gifts is due today "by 9pm" which is cool and groovy.


Apparently we're having the scrambly eggs for "a late lunch or early tea after the shopping has been and gone" now 🙄

Mornin' all

Got a spectacular amount of sleep last night, according to my FitBit app - 10 hours and 47 minutes and I was restless 10 times, which ain't bad going at all.


I've taken my pills and started the virus scan... even remembered not to open my email this morning, which meant I didn't need to reboot loads of times and get stressed out about it.

We're having scrambly egg for our late breakfast today, then I'll take the puppy out for her walk, have lunch, bring the groceries in and put them away then we can both relax.

Tuesday, 6 October 2020

Where on earth has the day disappeared to?!

The puppy has been fed, walked and medicated as have I (got my last two pills to take in about half an hour), watched an hour-long video while Steve was at his medical appointment and cleared my two caches ready for tomorrow's weekly virus scan... how many times do you reckon I'll have to reboot before I remember not to open up my email programmes❓ 🙄

I'm gonna take my last two pills then have an early night I reckon... nite nite orl and I'll sea ewe 2morro.  💤

Puppy's been walked and fed and medicated now, sooo...

 ...we can all relax until lunchtime now.

Breakfast eaten and judging by the puppy's tail...

...she needs a poo 💩, so I'll wait until she's done that then take her out for our first stroll of the day.  I'm not gonna force her to go out before she's ready today, 'cos she didn't go out until gone 6pm 🕕 yesterday, so I wanna let her recover from that first.

Pills taken, virus scan finished, one of the exercise spreadsheets increased... I'm all set for the day now.  Gonna try and remember to take the puppy for her walk before it gets too dark today 🤣

Because I went to the hospital for the blood test yesterday, as well as doing my nightly exercises, I achieved over 11k steps for the first time since the nurse said to increase my weight (that was when I stopped doing my hourly laps), so I had to update the spreadsheet this morning which was easier than I was dreading, thankfully.

Monday, 5 October 2020

That's just under a third of Steve's defaulted payment on the...

...TV and washing machine.  Still owe them over £250 too.  I've got buggar all in my savings or current account now but at least we only owe £1100 instead of £1400 and we have, hopefully, still got a roof over our heads and the ability to wash our clothes and watch the telly.

Steve had better do exactly what I ask, whenever I request something now... he owes me that at the very least.


Not a happy camper at all right now.


I've just phoned to pay off, what I thought, was...

...a huge chunk of what we owed on the mortgage and found out for myself the shocking reality of just how many payments Steve's missed on the mortgage... it wasn't £300 like he told me on Saturday, nor was it £415 like he told me yesterday, the reality is over £800.  


If he had been honest with me months ago then my trust in him stood a chance of being repaired.  


Not any more though.  


As soon as the back payments have been paid off, I'll be keeping a closer eye on it now that I've got the phone number to call and the account number of our policy.  From now on I have zero trust in Steve and I won't believe a word he says from now on.

Cancelled the surgery blood test online and...

...phoned up to check, it has been and the receptionist wished me a happy birthday too.  I love and appreciate my GP surgery... they are the best ever and can't recommend them highly enough.


Time to go for yet another wee (gotta love caffeinated drinks, this'll be my third wee since I took my first mouthful of it), then take the puppy out for her marathon Monday stroll.  We're having a late lunch today, considering we didn't have breakfast until gone 10.30am 🕥 😆 which is fair enoughski.

Back from the birthday blood test

Got back about half an hour ago but couldn't work out why I couldn't get to the log-in screen on my laptop until I spotted that it wasn't turned on... d'oheth!  It's all sorted now and there were only 5 vials of blood taken this time but I barely felt the needle go in so I'm thinking I'm low in either vitamin D, B12 or both again.  I'm just relieved that my crappy memory is being taken seriously and I might get a diagnosis and/or treatment for it, like I did with my OAB diagnosis.

I can, in theory, relax until January now.

Steve's lied to me again so I trust him even less now

On Saturday it was "about £300" that we were behind on the mortgage and now that' increased to "about £415 'cos it's just over a month".  That's £115 it's gone up in 3 days.  I'm gonna phone the mortgage bods after I get back from the blood test and pay £300 off, which'll leave £115 still owed, which'll just have to wait.

That's the spreadsheets sorted on my site

I've just put the exercise spreadsheets and the Fitbit spreadsheet up on my site, so go see 'em!  😀


Happy birthday to me

H.appy birthday to me,
Squashed tomatoes for tea,
There's a nutter, in the gutter
And yes, it is me.

Morning all.

I'm 43 as of 7 hours ago and as a gift, my flu jab arm is aching, I'm getting blood taken and I'm not sure if I should have taken my vitamin pills this morning or not.  It's too late now, 'cos I just have, but we shall see.

Not got anything out of the ordinary planned for today, other than the blood test, it's just another day to get through as well as I can.

I've put on 50g in the last week though, which is better than losing it, but nowhere near as much as I was hoping unfortunately 😞


Still free of nasties though, and I'm not gonna take the puppy for her stroll until I get back 'cos she's snoring her head off again and I don't want my legs to give way from exhaustion while I'm in the hospital.

Sunday, 4 October 2020

Puppy's been walked, fed, watered and medicated for...

...the last time today, so she's currently snoring her head off on the sofa next to me, bless 'er.

I'm trying to get PSP to open so that I can put this week's walkies spreadsheet up on my homepage, but it doesn't want to play nicely so I'm gonna have to reboot again 🙄  BBS.

Had me bath, shaved my pits and legs, soooo

...I'm all set for the morning now.  Need to add bubble bath to the grocery shop before I forget though.


Lunch eaten, puppy fed, so I reckon I'm gonna...

...take the empty plates through, finish my drink (decaff tea) then have a bath and shave my pits ready for tomorrow.  What a way to spend your birthday - being drained of your blood 💉😆


Steve's almost finished his last sandwich, so I'm gonna publish this, drain my mug and jump in the bath now.  BBL.


Puppy walked and fed, laptop unplugged and...

...breakfast eaten and put into the Fitbit app.  Apparently, for lunch today we're having sandwiches for lunch (cheese, tomato and onion) and cake for tea "'cos I [Steve] can't be arsed to cook on Sunday's right now".  That's fair enough and as long as he cooks for the rest of the week, then I think he's allowed one day off a week  👌


Gotta remember to have a bath at some point today so that I don't stink Marie's car and the hospital out when I go for my blood test tomorrow.

Money sorted, not at all happy but... had to be done so that we've still got a roof over our heads.  Gonna email the enabler now with the updated expenses list.


Mornin' all.

I've just taken me pills and refilled the organiser ready for next week.  I'm gonna take my second 5-HTP of the season too... hold on while I do that now.



OK, it's been crunched up and swallowed, so hopefully my mood will start to improve in the next little while.

I'm not at all happy about this, but I'm gonna have to move the money I'd been saving up for H and use it to pay off the missed payments on the mortgage so that we still have somewhere to, you know, stay... it seems to concern me more than Steve though.

I'll go and move the money out of the account and close it now, while Steve's asleep, so that I'm ready to pay off the missed payments tomorrow morning, when I get back from the blood test.  Not at all happy about this.

Saturday, 3 October 2020

Book Review: "The Boy Between" by Josiah Hartley and Amanda Prowse

⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ out of 5

 Wowsers.  The first 9% of the book have been amazingly powerful and I've been nodding throughout 'cos it's where I've been too many times in the past.

My initial thoughts?  A definite must-read by everyone.

My hubby made me a mug of tea just after I started reading and I've only just taken my first sip.  It's cold now.  It's not often that a book achieves that - maybe only once in the last 9 months has it happened before.  Get this book, just don't hope that you'll finish a hot drink before it gets cold  ;-)

I'm up to chapter 4 and I'm still nodding throughout as I read... so many of the things that Josh felt as a youngster are what I went through at about the same age too.  I'm heading to bed for an early night now but I'll hopefully remember to keep reading as soon as I come downstairs and have walked our dog tomorrow.

Back now and I've already read two chapters without moving lol  Up to chapter 7 and I'm still nodding throughout every page.  Josh is more intelligent than I ever have been so his struggles must have been worse due to his dyslexia too.

Oh yeah, I remember that darkness, that feeling of the only safe place being my bed, being asleep.

Chapter 9 and his mum has finally got it... she still doesn't understand the depths of suffering we go through though, seemingly.

I wish I had had a Simeon when I was thinking those exact thoughts.  I'm sat here with huge great tears streaming out of my eyes.

Just reading the last 30-odd pages now and it's a relieved as opposed to happy ending so far.  I definitely recommend this book in the highest possible way!

Wow.  What an incredible book.  A must-read for fellow suffers of depression, for friends and family of those with depression and professionals too.  This is definitely a must-read book for everyone and still well-deserves those 5 stars that it started off with yesterday.

Walked and fed the puppy today and I've just...

...finished reading the memoir so gonna put the review up on my site and here on my blog now, as well, of course, as Amazon... a definite must-read!


Puppy's been walked and fed, so I can now...

...carry on reading and reviewing the book.  Not gonna move far from the sofa today 'cos my legs are really feeling it right now, even though I haven't done anything out of the ordinary so far today.

Pills taken already, virus scan started and it's still...

...pitch black outside so I won't take the puppy out yet, so gonna keep reading yesterday's memoir until it gets light and Steve wakes up, then I'll walk the puppy and have my breakfast, then carry on reading this incredible (so far) book.

Friday, 2 October 2020

I'm loving the memoir so far and I've just...

...taken my last two pills of the day, so I'm hoping for an early night and a bright and early start to reading more of the book tomorrow.


Steve eventually phoned his mum and asked her to ask Marie about taking me to the hospital for the blood test.  Gotta remember to cancel the November appointment when I get home though.


I'm thinking I'll finish this chapter then head straight to bed so that I can bore myself to sleep ready for a 5am 🕔 start tomorrow.


I've walked the puppy and bought two more courses, so now it's time for...

...reading and reviewing my next book.  The first memoir I've ever read so I'm keeping a wide open mind and it's about the depths of depression, so it will hopefully be an interesting read.


Just got back from walking the puppy

The puppy really didn't fancy a stroll first thing and it took until 10.30am 🕥 to even get her harness on her.  About three quarters of an hour later she was eventually ready for our first stroll of the day.  Chilly and soggy 🌂 out there, but that was my fault for not wearing a coat... gonna need to invest in a pair of winter gloves if it gets too much colder though, and especially if it snows❗

Steve's just gone to make our lunch - egg mayonnaise sarnies for me with the spread, which will send my calorie consumption and the FitBit graph through the roof again.

I've just got a reminder to take my Calcium, so I'm gonna do that now.  BBL.

Amazon Prime day

Are you an customer❓


Are you tempted by Amazon Prime but find it a bit expensive❓


Want to see what the deal is with the annual Prime Days❓


Now's your chance❗


If you sign up for Prime now, you will get access to this year's Prime Day... hold on, just wanna make another blog post before I forget...

Back now.

Where was I❓

Oh yeah, you get all the benefits of Prime, plus the exclusive access to Prime Day deals too.  If you sign up now, you get a free 30 day trial as well as access to this year's Prime Day.  I couldn't be without it any more.


Just had the telephone appointment and it was...

...good news for a change.


I've got the doctor's blessing to write to the person I was asking about but because I've got the extra word in the middle of mine, mine is more serious and that if this person writes back to me suggesting things then I should talk to one of my doctors about it first before trying anything because she's not a medical bod and they are, which is fine by me... I just want a friend who understands what I've been going through for the last two decades is all.


He also said that if I get the blood taken at the hospital instead of waiting for the one at the beginning of November at the surgery then he will get the results quicker (obviously 😉) and he can prescribe longer term, higher strength pills and refer me to someone at the hospital for more tests and support.

I like this doctor❗ 👍

I've taken my pills and...

...yesterday's photo's courtesy of Steve are up on my homepage now, ready for your viewing pleasure. 

Steve's currently making our brekkie (porridge, of course) and a hot drink for us, so I'm betting the doctor will call as soon as I've got a gob-full of it 🙄  I'm thinking that I'll take the puppy out for her first walk at lunch-time instead of this morning, so that I don't get stressed out about walking our dog when the doc calls.

He's just called to say that my porridge is ready, so I'll go and grab it to eat now.  BBL.


Pills taken, sooo...

...I'm gonna put the photos up on my site now.


I'm considering going back to the once a day posts again, but might wait until after NaNo... what do you all think and want though please❓


I never remember my dreams, but...

...the dream I had was weird, even for me lol


I've already forgotten it, but C was a main character in it and Steve even put in an appearance right at the end.  I've emailed C to tell him what I remembered and told Steve too, but I don't remember any of it now... d'oheth❗


I'm gonna take my morning pills then put yesterday's photo's on my site while I wait for the telephone appointment with the doc.  I'll take our senior puppy out for her stroll when I've had the call then start reading and reviewing the memoir I bought yesterday evening.  The virus scan has already finished and I'm thankfully still free of nasties.

Thursday, 1 October 2020

Got a busy day ahead of me tomorrow...

...'cos I've got 12 photo's of the puppy that Steve's just taken to put up on my homepage, I've got a book to read and review and a fast appointment with a doctor about a magasine article I read and want to contact the author about, but I want to get my facts straight first.


I've also coded and uploaded 101 courses I want to do on OpenLearn alone and put it on my navigation page.


I've just taken my last two pills of the day so I'm gonna head now, for hopefully an early start tomorrow morning.

Nite nite orl.  Sea ewe 2morro.

Busy early afternoon today!

I had my lunch (golden syrup sarnies), had my flu jab (Patrick took me down there in 20 minutes on the slowest setting), finished updating my courses to take page and now I can check my email for possibly the first time today, before we have our tea (burgers).  Not planning on moving far from the sofa for the rest of today now, after I've got back from taking the puppy for her stroll.

Mornin' all

I've taken my morning pills, put a book review up on my writing site and blog so I'm just waiting for the puppy to wake up so that I can take her for her walk and have my breakfast.

Got my flu jab just after lunch and Steve's got his enabler coming at 10am so it's all go today.  I wanna try and update the OpenLearn courses that I wanna do bit of my navigation page again today too.