Thursday, 19 April 2018
That's saved me £25 a month that I'm going to move over to BC then I'll be able to pay another £200 a month extra too and still have £20 left over for myself!
I can so do this!!
Wednesday, 18 April 2018
I can so do this!!
Tuesday, 17 April 2018
Beginner (Level 1) courses: 57 in 29 days
Intermediate (Level 2) courses: 4 in 1 day so far
Got a book to read and review so I'm gonna have the day off studying for the first time in a month so that I can do it, then I'm getting me hair cut on Thursday, so I'll start studying again on Friday and spend all weekend on it too. Think I deserve a break for a few days!
I've found where the modules are again on the OU site too, so I'll add those to my study plan tomorrow too... you watch me forget where they are by this afternoon though! lol
Monday, 16 April 2018
It's an extract from a level 3 course!!
I took a couple of level 1 courses that were extracts from level 2 and they were OK but a level 3 course is the last year of undergraduate study!!
Sunday, 15 April 2018
Either way, I'm going to go back to looking at all the courses and 'save' all the intermediate ones I want to do ready for making a start on them tomorrow!
I could be wrong, but I think the 'beginner' courses I've done this month are tasters of Level 1 undergraduate courses, in which case, if they are, I can cope with Level 1 courses at the Open University as long as there isn't an exam and I'm genuinely interested in what I'm studying.
Saturday, 14 April 2018
Friday, 13 April 2018
I can so do this!
Thursday, 12 April 2018
Gonna unsave the other technology and maths courses I've currently got saved in my profile so that I'm not tempted to try them any more!
From first look, it seems to be a genuine email from Google... technical words used, perfect spelling and grammar etc, but it wasn't addressed to me personally so the alarm bells started ringing, it used an address I don't use for Google Analytics, so the alarm bells carried on ringing, then there was a link at the bottom of the email asking me to go to a page to update my settings, so I hovered over it and it wasn't a Google address so there's no way I'm clicking on it.
Even a week ago I would have done and I would have been victim to a phishing scam, but thanks to the course telling me what checks to make, I'm free and safe from a phishing scam! Yaaaaay!
Thank you OpenLearn!!
Wednesday, 11 April 2018
Feeling a little bit more human already so I just need to keep taking 'em now! lol
Tuesday, 10 April 2018
Steve registered with OpenLearn this afternoon and enrolled on a course that took his interest... it's an Advanced level course though which is the equivalent to the last year of an Undergraduate course!!
Monday, 9 April 2018
I'm really proud of myself for scoring so well considering I struggled with the week 4 quiz and I got a "very well done" for my score too which has made it all worthwhile!
I'm gonna crack open a bottle of J2O in celebration now!
Saturday, 7 April 2018
This is a good book, but other than the introduction, the author hadn't been talking to her younger self at all, she's talking to the reader of the book, so the title of the book is very misleading! The only hint that it's written to someone else is just two words at the start of each section ("Dear P,") then immediately goes back into talking directly to the reader! Seems pointless to say that it's written to the younger you when the author barely mentions her younger self!
It's worth having a read of, just don't expect to find out too much from the notes that don't actually make an appearance in the book!
Friday, 6 April 2018
Basically, 100% of the courses I've enrolled on today have been for level 2 (out of 3) courses even though they are on OpenLearn as being introductory courses! Assuming I get through this course reasonably OK, I'll know that I can handle level 2 as well as level 1 courses at University level... it really was just the exam that I didn't pass because of my brain damage when I tried it the first time, so I'll keep working on improving my memory knowing that, in theory, I can cope with a level 2 course at the OU!
I never thought I'd say that!!
In that time, it's changed twice.
The first time was to change it from a brand name to a generic one.
The second time was because the brand I'd been getting had changed their recipe and it now had lactose in it.
No other changes in 18 years.
So why are they suddenly finding it so difficult to get hold of it?
This is the second month the pharmacy have had problems and it's only because I've got some left over that I'm reasonably sane still!
When my GP phoned me about the recipe changing he said he'd get on to the pharmacy about a different generic brand that was lactose free.
12 pills arrived a few days later with an IOU from the pharmacy for another 16 pills.
I phoned the pharmacy and asked them to keep these in stock for me.
I was told it'd take up to 4 days for the first lot because it wasn't named and I didn't have a repeat naming it but it'd be with me within the normal 5 days after that.
No probs says I.
Logged on to the GP prescription thing and put in another repeat which was sorted and sent to the pharmacy 10 days ago.
I've been waiting ever since.
In theory I'll be getting 44 pills 'cos of the 16 that the pharmacy owe me and 28 for the repeat I put in.
That won't happen though! I can almost guarantee it!
I'm just glad that I've got most of my previous prescription left before they changed the recipe otherwise I'd have gone totally nuts again by now!
Thursday, 5 April 2018
Wednesday, 4 April 2018
Tuesday, 3 April 2018
Monday, 2 April 2018
Sunday, 1 April 2018
Steve sees his dad for 5 of those hours a week and his sister for a couple of hours a week as standard, then we spent 7 hours with his entire family today, so 5+2+7=14 so Steve's seen his family more in 2 weeks than I've seen my mum in almost 9 years!!
No, that's not a typo. Steve's seen his family more in a fortnight that I've seen my mum in getting on for 9 years.
So much for going to see her regularly eh?
Saturday, 31 March 2018
Friday, 30 March 2018
Thursday, 29 March 2018
After I've done all the OpenLearn courses I wanna study, I'm gonna look into modules instead of full courses, just while I'm re-training my brain to remember again!
Wednesday, 28 March 2018
☆☆ out of 5
I had high hopes for this book, given the title.
I thought it'd give me ideas of how to improve my life and inspire me to make my life better than it had ever been before.
It's full of lecturing and made me constantly feel that the author was talking down to me. Made me feel like she knew me personally and knew what was best for me so kept going on about how you can do this and you can do that, which sounds inspirational but after the first few times it gets to be really annoying.
There's all sorts of spelling and grammar mistakes, on top of hypenating random words that have never been hypenated outside this book.
There are small bits that are kinda OK, but the content of the book isn't anything like the title promises.
There's a title image at the top of every page that takes up at least a quarter of each page and the font is huge as well as being double line spaced so it's more like 75 pages than 209 if you take the image and double line spacing out!
There are way too many characters who make an appearance for a couple of pages then are never mentioned again.
I appreciate that the author put a lot of herself into the book, but it needs oneheckuva lot of proof-reading and editing as well as a lot less lecturing in the content of the book.
Save your money on this book. Sorry.
Tuesday, 27 March 2018
It's done and dusted now though, thankfully, and I know for sure that I can't handle University level maths so I'm not even going to try unless it's a necessary part of a different course... no more maths only courses though!
I very much doubt I've been awarded PIP 'cos I couldn't answer a lot of the questions and the doctor said that Korsakov is mainly Dementia instead of physical and I need to ask my GP about why my mobility problems aren't in my notes either.
Ho hum. If I don't get re-awarded the ESA in November then I know exactly how I'm going to take my life at the start of 2019. I'm not suicidal but if I don't get the ESA then I will have exactly £0.00 a month to live on, which isn't realistic, so it's better all round for me not to be here.
Monday, 26 March 2018
Sunday, 25 March 2018
I refuse to open the zip file with my info in it though, 'cos it's got malware in it!!
If it weren't for AVG's constant vigilence, I'd have opened it without a thought!
Thank you for protecting me, AVG!
There were little bits of new information, but most of it was word for word the same as one of the other courses!
Saturday, 24 March 2018
Just finished studying the child psychology course and it was totally fascinating!
I was dreading it being pages full of theories and I was imagining a child psychologist sitting in a room with a child and their parent/carer/adult sitting next to them just talking and talking but it's not like that at all! There are so many settings a child psychologist can work in that I never realised before!
It's reignited my love of childcare and it's something I want to study more of for definite!
I'll take the key skills courses off and find a different course to do instead.
The first page, the introduction of all things, had maths as well as science in it and a few of the activities involved maths as well - if there had been marked quizes like the previous 10, I would definitely have failed the course!
If you enjoy science and maths then definitely enrol on the course, but if they freak you out then take things really slowly and make lots of notes!
Just to see what it's like!
It's about nutrition, vitamins and minerals and it's only an introductory (level 1) course so I'm not expecting to get anywhere near passing it, it's just to see what biology course at university level are like is all!
You watch, I'll be doing a history or geography course next! ROFL
No I won't! lol
Friday, 23 March 2018
If my maths is right, he sees his family the same amount in just over 2 weeks as I've seen my mum in almost 8 years.
So much for seeing me mum regularly eh?
I took the first one at 7pm yesterday to see if it sent me to sleep as well as keeping the psychosis at bay.
I was still awake at 10pm and didn't wake up until 7am this morning so it keeps me asleep for 12 hours since I took it.
It's lactose free so I didn't get an allergic reaction which was awesome.
The pill was teeny tiny so was easy peasy to swallow even for me.
I feel more awake and energetic this morning and there isn't even a hint of a psychotic episode which is fabulous!
Just phoned the pharmacy and asked for them to order in yesterday's pills and they said that was no problem, but it would need to be named on the prescription, so I phoned my GP and explained what the pharmacy had said. She made a note of the name I was requesting and said she'd ask a doctor to update my records so hopefully it's sorted now!
The pharmacist said that it'd take 3 days to get it from the manufacturer after they'd got the prescription, then they'll deliver it as soon as they get it, so, in theory, my next lot will take slightly longer because it'll be the first named prescription, so I'll order it 2 weeks before I run out, but after that it'll be back to getting my prescription 5 working days after requesting it from my GP.
The pills are generic instead of brand name, so they can't complain about the cost any more, but hopefully, starting from my May prescription, I'll be having my pills within a week again!
We shall see!
Thursday, 22 March 2018
It seems to have been more like the Windows ME blue screens that happened several times a day though, 'cos I haven't lost anything other than the time it took to report the blue screen to Microsoft and log back in, thankfully!
Even if I *had* lost everything with this blue screen, I would only have lost the stuff that I've used and saved in the last 5 days 'cos I back everything up every Saturday as routine "just in case" paranoia is all. Things like this make me grateful for my paranoia... it's why I run a deep virus scan of my entire laptop every Friday too!
A few months later, because of my dairy allergy, I was told it'd be 7 working days for delivery because they had to order them in from the manufacturer because they were lactose free.
That was fine too, I just phoned through the order a few days sooner.
This time though, I was waiting for two weeks with no updates so Steve phoned them last week to find out what was going on. The pharmacy had "lost the script" and were waiting for a new one from my GP so that they could contact the manufacturer but I'd definitely have them on Tuesday.
It got to 4pm on Tuesday and they still hadn't been delivered so Steve phoned the pharmacy who said they were waiting for the prescription from my surgery but that they "had the pills waiting" for me and they would try and get them out on Wednesday if they could, or definitely Thursday.
They've just been delivered.
But only 10 days worth.
The pharmacy put an IOU form on the front saying that they owe me 16 days so I hope they arrive in the next 12 days.
I'll order my next lot when I've got 14 days left instead of the 5 I was promised when I signed up to get them delivered.
Not a happy bunny.
Wednesday, 21 March 2018
Not a happy bunny.
Tuesday, 20 March 2018
His sister was here for an hour yesterday.
He saw his dad for 2 hours today.
That's 6 hours in 3 days, so he's 10 hours short of seeing his family more in a week than I've seen my mum since 2010.
No, that's not a typo. Steve sees his family the same amount in 7 days as I've seen my mum in 7 years!!
Hardly fair, is it?
Monday, 19 March 2018
Saturday, 17 March 2018
Spent about 10 hours with her for the funeral, 3 hours for the betweeny visit and about 3 hours when we went over with Mitzi so a grand total of about 16ish hours in 2010 and nothing since. Steve's spent part of that with his brother today so there's about 13 hours to go this week and he'll have spent the same amount of time in one week with his family as I have with my mum since 2010.
The only reason I agreed to move to Gloucester was Steve promising that we could go and see my mum regularly... I don't call 16 hours in getting on for 8 years regular visits, do you?
I've already paid them £875 which is over £250 more than I got from the claim (£616) so Steve's going to call them on Monday and say that I'll pay £50 a month for the next 7 months 'cos there's no way I can afford it all in one go.
I've had to reduce my payments to BC from £75 a month to £25 to be able to afford that £50 and if I get any more PPI awards the entire amount will go to Citizen as soon as it reaches my account.
I'm so fucking fed up of them. I've had 2 PPI payments and this is the second time they've said I haven't paid when I have - 100% of the time they've done it and I'm fed up to the back teeth of it!
If you think you've been mis-sold PPI then do it yourself instead of going through a PPI company! Especially not Citizen Financial Advisory!!
I've seen my mum for less than 24 hours since 2010 and Steve was with me each time.
I'm relegated upstairs to the bedroom when Andrew comes over and I'm stuck in the living room while Marie's here. The only time I come into contact with Steve' family is when I open the front door for Steve and his dad waves at me from the car and when we get our hair's cut is when I see his mum.
Hardly fair, is it?
Friday, 16 March 2018
I ordered me AP 9 days ago and I still haven't got it and I've had to take one every other day for the last week. I've got 2 left which means that I've got enough to last me until Monday evening then that's it.
If I don't have the prescription by Monday I'm gonna go nuts and there's nothing anyone can do to stop me going totally fruitloop again.
If I go fruitloop I'll become suicidal because of the paranoia.
If I get paranoid I just won't see any reason not to take my life and I've got enough supplements to succeed this time too.
I'm not suicidal and won't be until the middle of next week, but I'll not be responsible or sensible come Wednesday.
I'm safe right now, but come Tuesday I'll have been waiting for my prescription for 2 weeks instead of the 5 days I was promised.
Thursday, 15 March 2018
Wednesday, 14 March 2018
Steve saw a programme about fish being caught and offered to get us chips for tea, so we're waiting for them to be delivered then I'll eat 'em and be forced to have a late night and early morning.
I really don't like missing doses, but better that than taking the full 28 days, going fruitloop while I'm waiting for the manufacturer and pharmacy to get the pills to me then have to start the cycle again... yadda yadda yadda.
I'm gonna phone the pharmacy next week and give them a 3 week window instead of the 2 weeks they've been having for the last decade or so... they promised 5 working days and everything was fine and dandy for years and I wrongly got used to it, then things started going tits up and haven't got any better *sigh*
Tuesday, 13 March 2018
Monday, 12 March 2018
Sunday, 11 March 2018
My wooziness is coming out as sudden bouts of anger and I go from placid to full of rage then back to placid literally within seconds, so I just want to apologise in advance for any sudden bursts of anger for seemingly little or no reason.
For example, I've just had a bath and was fine until I went to get a towel, a couple of things in the pile started to slip off and my rage went from zero to 10 immediately and back to zero just as quickly. I yelled at the top of my lungs in anger as soon as the clothes started slipping down, the hubby called through to find out what was going on and by the time he'd finished his sentence, my anger had disappeared again.
The way that Steve described my wooziness was by saying I'm like a steam train at the hands of someone with no training... I plod along fine until the coal is thrown into the firebox in just the wrong place and the safety valve thingies start blowing off steam. Everything is about steam trains with Steve! lol
Apparently I'm like a cartoon character... walking along fine and dandy one minute and the next there's steam coming out of my ears! lol
Anyway, I just want to apologise in advance for any posts I make that seem rude or angry or like I'm having a go at you... that's really not my intention at all, I just can't control my anger for a while is all... it'll get better and I do still care, I just need you to be patient with me for a while is all.
Saturday, 10 March 2018
I asked Steve how much he had left after all his bills have been paid every month.
"Barely anything" says he.
"How much is that though?" I asked.
"About 20 quid" says he.
"That's 5 times the amount that I'm left with" says I.
Steve sighs and shakes his head in frustration.
"See why I don't want you to spend more than £50 a week on shopping? Even if you spend £51 a week, I'm left with precisly nothing.
He's left with the same amount in one month as I am in five yet he says he struggles to pay for things and have any money left for himself.
What about me then?? I wanna see how you cope with having £4 a month to survive on instead of your current £20!
See why I buy very little for myself with the weekly groceries? It's because you've already spent most of it on cake and crisps and drinks!
Monday's shopping is exactly £48. I've got 3 bottles of pop on it, costing a grand total of £2.10. The rest of it is Steve's stuff. I'm trying to save money and Steve goes and adds more cake "because we've got more money to play with this week"... erm, no we haven't!!
If you think we've got more money to spend on the shopping, how about moving £16 a month over for the shopping? Then and only then will we have "more money to play with" and it'll put us on a more even monthly budget too.
Doubt that'll happen though.
Steve can afford take aways and books and stuff every month that it takes literally months for me to be able to afford, assuming that none of the shopping has cost over £50 a week for the entire five months! The only way that would happen is if I got 3 bottles of pop a week for myself and literally nothing else.
That'll never happen though.
Three times to be exact.
Once at my dad's funeral, once when we got Mitzi and the last time was December so that we could exchange Christmas gifts.
I haven't seen her since.
Last week Steve saw his family four times and next week it'll be three.
In 8 years I've seen my mum less than Steve saw his family last week.
Hardly fair, is it?!
Friday, 9 March 2018
In less than 3 years I'll be totally debt free for the first time since I was 18! I can count down the months now for the first time in over 20 years!
The pup poo'd in the road right outside the house so Steve picked it up and carried on walking the pup with me following them on the way and them following me on the way back.
Thursday, 8 March 2018
Wednesday, 7 March 2018
If you're looking for an amazing online company to get supplements from, I definitely recommend Simply Supplements and you can get a discount off your first order if you use my name in the referrer thingy too... I've been buying off them for years and wouldn't go anywhere else now!
Tuesday, 6 March 2018
I've cancelled the contract I never wanted 5 times so far, so why is my credit score still showing a default?
Why are they still saying I owe money on a contract I cancelled within 24 hours?
I've just spoken to someone at O2 yet again and she said she's going to email the credit reference agency, equifax and the O2 accounts bods to say that because I cancelled within the cooling off period, the defaults are wrong and she's refunded the missed payment that caused the default.
This evening is the fifth time I've contacted them in less than a year and each of those 5 times I've been told that the contract is cancelled and I don't owe them anything.
Apparently it can take 60 days to show up, so I'm giving them until the first week of May to get it sorted, when it'll be a year of when I cancelled the contract and if it's still not sorted by then, I'll want to speak to a manager at O2... my credit rating was only poor before this default and because of O2 it's back to being very poor now, so I'm not a happy bunny.
They've got 60 days from today to sort it out then I'll take it as high as it needs to go and move my number over to 3 and strongly discourage anyone and everyone from using O2.
They were an amazing company until a year ago... I couldn't recommend them highly enough - not any more though!
Monday, 5 March 2018
The navigation is more organised now and I've given up on the slidey outy navigation for now... caused too many problems this morning, so I'll just stick with what I know works for my personal site.
Means that I can concentrate on other things now that the navigation is sorted on both sites!
He's looking at post-it notes too now!
If he can afford pens, post-it notes and take-aways in less than a week then he can afford to pay for the electricity I reckon!
Just gotta keep up the payments to CO and BC for those 3 years then I can work on improving my credit score!
Right now, after all my bills and the shopping have come out, I'm left with £4 a month. We spent £50 on this week's shopping and £45 of it is Steve's stuff... literally the only things of mine on the entire order are 7 bottles of pop, the rest is for Steve.
I'm paying for the electricity too at £50 a month that I'm moving over to Steve, yet he can afford take-aways and things we don't need... I survive on £4 a month so why can Steve afford more than that? He buys stuff from Amazon too... I haven't bought anything from Amazon since Christmas when I had to get gifts for both families and Steve didn't put a penny towards it.
Not this year though. As of next week, Steve can spend exactly half the weekly grocery budget on food for him (£25) and half the electricity payment too... that'll save me £125 a month that I can put aside for gifts for my mum, C, H and D.
I'm fed up of getting £460 a month and being left with £4 yet Steve gets more than that and he can still afford take-aways!
Hardly fair, is it!
Sunday, 4 March 2018
Wanna try and remember to take them every morning but the brain damage has really affected my memory unfortunately 😟
Saturday, 3 March 2018
I've taken me AP already, so just waiting for it to kick in then I'll head to bed, feeling really proud of myself.
Friday, 2 March 2018
Not any more though!
I just had to find, copy and paste a couple of dll's from one folder to 3 others, et voila! Sorted! I can now send emails straight from websites instead of going 'round the houses!
Thursday, 1 March 2018
In January and February, thousands of little voices took on Google and Apple and got them to remove an anonymous pro-bullying app from their stores.
In February we took on PG Tips about removing plastic from their teabags so that they could be used then composted. They've agreed to remove the plastic.
In 2 months, the consumers have spoken to 3 huge companies and made requests of them... and won!
I emailed my MP about privatising our NHS too and he backed himself into a corner... the email he sent me was talking about his personal life and what he'd achieved as a person as well as telling me how many emails he replies to a year without even mentioning the NHS and without any prompting from me. I just hope he takes his constituents concerns into Parliment and fights for every one of us... that's his job after all!
I said that to Steve, then added "wanna renew the delivery pass with Sainsburys or do you wanna go back to Tesco?"
His reply, and I quote, was "see how they do throughout March and decide later, but they're doing OK right now aren't they so we can stay with them if you like?"
Never thought Steve would agree to that... he's been a Tesco boy the entire time I've known him, so Sainsbury's must have impressed him over the last couple of months!
I've always been a Sainsbury's gal because I've had a Nectar card for decades, but I've got a Tesco loyalty card now too so I'm genuinely not bothered either way! I like that you pay in advance with Sainsbury's then you don't need to worry about it, but you pay monthly at Tesco but that's all!
Wednesday, 28 February 2018
Tuesday, 27 February 2018
Monday, 26 February 2018
Apparently Gloucester has been around since 97AD!! That means that just the city I live in is older than most of America! lol
Only Native Americans even start to approach the oldness of where I live and even then it's a close-run thing!
Sunday, 25 February 2018
I took the pup's lead off, folded it up and took it into the kitchen then fed her. Came back in here to get the mugs and took them out to Steve after I'd backed up my hard drive.
My laptop has been on non-stop for 3 days now, because I forgot to set the virus scan going on Friday!
Saturday, 24 February 2018
I don't know about you, but there's no way I can afford to fork out hundreds a month just to get my prescription! I don't want to have to decide between eating or taking a prescription that I need, but that's what could happen!
After all my bills, the electricity and groceries have come out, I'm left with a grand total of £4 a month!! I don't know where they're expecting me to find an extra £750 a month just for a single prescription, then another £1000 to see my GP, £500 for a blood test and even more for smears and jabs and things like that!
Our NHS isn't perfect, but it's free at the point of service and there are millions of people who use it to help to keep them healthy every day.
In all seriousness, if the Accountable Care thingy goes through in April, I'll have to stop taking my prescription and I'd prolly jump under the nearest bus within a month 'cos I just couldn't cope!
For those that *could* cope and survive without their prescription, they may end up homeless just so that they could pay for the insurance. We've already got way too many homeless people on the street who can't afford to eat but Mr Hunt doesn't seem to care about that!
Come on, Mr Hunt... take a pay cut and put the money into the NHS! Same with all the MPs and especially our PM... take a 10% pay cut and use the money that suddenly appears to invest in our NHS.
You earn more in a week than I do in an entire year! Be human and think about the whole country instead of lining your pockets with money that could be better used elsewhere!
Friday, 23 February 2018
Thursday, 22 February 2018
Wednesday, 21 February 2018
Tuesday, 20 February 2018
Hold on, let's start again.
I've got £19 left in my account after all my bills have come out.
I've got £50 for Monday's shopping but I'll be paid on Monday, so the shopping will come out of Monday's pay day, so I've got £69 left, yeah?
I bought something on Amazon for £30 so add that to the £69 makes £99 spare in March, right?
Take off Melanie's SCBWI subscription of £60 leaves me with £39 yeah?
Take off the membership to the Dog's Trust at £25 leaves me with £14 in March, yeah?
July and August are going to be expensive months 'cos I've got £87 coming out in July for Patrick's insurance then £60 in August for *my* membership to SCBWI, but as long as I keep the money in the bank and don't spend it on things I don't need as well as using the money in B as a back-up if I need it, things will be OK I reckon.
It'll be a really tight few months, but as long as I'm a tight-wad with me money and we don't spend any more than £50 a week on shopping, it's just about do-able I reckon.
Monday, 19 February 2018
I know now though, so smaller mouthfuls of squash to take me supplements from now on.
Sunday, 18 February 2018
Saturday, 17 February 2018
Just a bit of a rumble for a few seconds but it's not a normal kinda occurrance for us and apparently it was felt up in Scotland too!!
4.4 on the bigness scale!!
I added my sites to Google a couple of days ago but couldn't work out how to add it to Bing.
I had to use my Hotmail account that I'd totally forgotten even existed but that means I've also changed the password on my lock screen now!
You watch me forget tomorrow morning and get stressed out about what it is! lol
Friday, 16 February 2018
Just remembered that I need to kick me virus scan off too, so as soon as it's updated I'll set it going and be sorted for the rest of the day!
Thursday, 15 February 2018
I saw this on my Facebook wall this afternoon and I've just gotta rant about it:
Yes, I am going to be talking about gun ownership. If you don't want to read my opinions about it, navigate away now 'cos I'm not gonna hold back this time.
OK, so Dunblane happened 20 years ago. A gunman burst into a school and murdered 17 innocent people who weren't expecting it.
The UK was like America with gun control at the time, but that shooting was the one and only time that needed to happen to totally stop gun ownership for the general public.
In the 20 years since Dunblane there hasn't been a single school shooting.
In 2 days there has been more deaths from a school shooting in America than there has been in those 20 years since Dunblane.
The UK put a gun law through, stopping the general public from owning a gun.
Yes, there was outrage and violence and disagreements for a while after that but not a single school shooting in 20 years. No more innocent lives lost.
Today is 15th February 2018.
In the month and a half since the start of 2018 there have already been 18 school shootings in America.
That's 3 a fucking week.
There have been more school shootings in 6 weeks in America than there have been in more than 20 years over here in the UK.
Yes, I know that it's in the American constitution that everyone has a right to bear arms.
I also know that the UK used to have a similar right.
It took 17 innocent lives lost to change that here in the UK.
Yes, there were all kinds of riots and violence when the law denying our right to bear arms was changed.
Yes, there are still shootings and murders and other gun crimes.
No, the UK isn't perfect, but we've lost 17 lives to change the law and we've all learnt to deal with it and act like humans now.
The difference is that the UK said enough is enough and did something about it.
America on the other hand?
Guns are still allowed over here in the UK but they are very tightly controlled and has saved so many lives since Dunblane. America have lost more lives in 6 fucking weeks than the UK has lost in the last 20 years combined.
Let me put it simply.
Change the constitution.
If you don't like it then you are part of the problem.
The UK went through it 20 years ago. There were angry people, demonstrations, violence in the streets... but no more deaths.
Not a single school shooting in 20 years.
Certain professions are still allowed to have guns, but they have to go through all kinds of checks and the guns have to be locked away.
Yes, there are still illegal guns on the street.
Yes, there are still gun crimes.
Yes, there are still shots fired.
We know we're not perfect and we've never claimed to be, but stopping Joe Public from owning a gun and opening fire whenever and wherever he likes is onehelluva lot better than in America!
Have a gun amnesty for a month where everyone who hands in their gun gets a free 3 month membership to a shooting range or whatever, then bring in much tighter controls when it comes to getting a new gun, then make it illegal for anyone other than specially trained police to carry a gun unless they have a permit.
Make it so that anyone can hand in a gun to any police station, at any time, with no questions asked and no kind of punishment.
Give the American public a reason to hand in their guns and introduce tighter controls.
Be prepared for outrage amongst the masses and offer support to those who feel they need it, all free of charge and totally anonymously.
Give the American people a reason to give up their guns and the support they need to give them the security they may feel they need.
Offer self-defence lessons instead of gun control lessons.
Introduce free counselling and therapy whenever anybody needs it as they get used to a life without having a gun in their pocket.
There will be a rough while after the new controls come in, but surely saving countless lives a year is worth it? If you had to choose between saving children's lives or owning a gun, what would you choose? I would choose the children every time.
Come on America, time to wake up and smell life without fear now.
Let's make 2018 the year of no more gunfire in America... no more school shootings and a nationwide gun amnesty.
It won't be easy, but there will be so many innocent lives saved.
Isn't that worth it?
It was about food.
Usually I'm screened out within the first few questions because I'm vegan... not this time though!
Not only did it go beyond giving vegetarianism an option to choose in the very first question, it also, for possibly the first time ever, gave veganism a choice too.
I chose the vegan option, expecting to be screened out.
It then asked if my veganism was a choice or medical need.
My mouth dropped open in shock!
On the following pages it asked about the choices available for vegans in shops, bars, cafe's and restaurant.
I still wasn't screened out!
Maybe someone genuinely cared about the lack of variety of available foods and drinks available to vegans?
Throughout the survey they referred to it as a need or a choice which was so refreshing 'cos most people (on and offline) automatically assume that my veganism is a choice as opposed to a need.
I just wish there had been an opportunity to leave feedback at the end of that survey... I would have willingly given it the full 5 stars and a glowing review!
Wednesday, 14 February 2018
Tuesday, 13 February 2018
That means that tomorrow I'll just have surveys to do and that's it for the whole day!
I'm gonna get bored out of me tree! lol
After the analytics thing, I put the meta tag thingies into the pages and uploaded them.
Then I submitted them all to the Google search engine.
I've had me lunch too (2 mugs of soup), so I can spend the rest of the day reading and reviewing a book!
I can so do this!
Monday, 12 February 2018
He wanted to have a day off walking her and whined like a baby when I said I'd do it, but by the time I'd got the pup's lead off the side, he went to put his trousers and "pretend shoes" on.
They went to the postbox and back which is further than I can go and it's more interesting than just walking up and down to our neighbours and back a few times... better than nothing though!
The judge has agreed to a phone hearing, thankfully, so same time and date as the letter they sent with the hearing details on it, someone will call 15 minutes before to go through identity checks and stuff then the hearing and it'll go from there.
I asked about using Skype but the tribunal bloke said it was "too expensive" to use right now, so it's all being done over the phone.
Fine by me!
Gotta go and print off the documents with the bullet points now, so we're all sorted and ready for the call.
Keep yer fingers and toes crossed for me!
Sunday, 11 February 2018
Up until this morning the most that Mitzi had walked was 400% but apparently they did that in just one direction today!
The pup is wiped out and Steve's puffing and panting, but he's recovering quicker than he ever has in the entire time I've known him! His belly has noticeably shrunk too... it used to flop out over his waistband but not any more!
There's a long long way to go for him still, but if he keeps at it he'll keep losing the weight and be a lot healthier which will be brilliant... he'll get there in the end, I'm sure!
I believe in you Steve! Keep going!
Saturday, 10 February 2018
Almost 1,500 files in it that took up 20.8GB of my hard drive but it's all been deleted now.
That'll hopefully make next week's virus scan a bit quicker too... 24 hours this week!!
I'll keep doing it though, just for my own peace of mind! I'd rather leave my laptop on for 24 hours and be able to get rid of viruses and malware then back my machine up once a week than not do it and get a virus that totally wipes my hard drive and sends itself to all my friends!
I know what's coming next.
"So it'll just be me and her again then?" I ask.
"Lemme go for a wee and I'll look out the back" says Steve.
I went to get Mitzi's lead on her and Steve comes out of the bathroom saying "the ground is a bit wet, but it's not raining so I'll take her"
They've just got home and Steve says "it's bitterly cold out there and it's started to rain so we cut it short, but the pup was bloodhounding it all the way there, so I don't know if it was the smells of Friday night or a fox or something, but she had her nose to the ground the whole time!"
Bless her cute little paws!
Friday, 9 February 2018
Other than a couple of minor things it looks good to me! Just gotta convince the judge that I need this much help now! lol
Keep yer fingers and toes crossed for me!
The man said that if the judge agreed, we could do the hearing over the phone instead of in person which sounds good to me!
I asked Steve to write a list of bullet points he wanted to cover as my carer and he said he would so I sent him some examples of things he might want to say in his own time to talk to the tribunal bods about the care he provides for me.
I just reminded him and I got the "stop nagging me and I'll do it" speech. That's it now - no more reminders or anything about it... if it's not done by the time I head to bed I'll make it public on Facebook that my carer doesn't care and I'll repeat it every time it happens. I'm fed up of him getting credit and support for things he doesn't do!
He's got time to watch a 3 hour film but can't find 10 minutes to write out the list and potentially stop me getting the PIP!
I was happy with 100%, same as always, but the pup kept walking and walking and walking!
Our next door neighbours came out of their house and got into their car. Mitzi's little tail was wagging like mad and she wanted to go and say hello to them all and one of the kids started off by pointing out Mitzi was, undeniably, a doggy. Mitzi's little tail was wagging but I think they must have been running late or something because the mum just bundled them all into the car and strapped them in.
Mitzi was a good girl and we stayed out of their way... maybe next time they can say hello to each other?
Thursday, 8 February 2018
Apparently he's applied for 2 today so we'll see what happens tomorrow!
Apparently we've been black-listed by a taxi company because of Steve's size... it's up to them if they want to lose £20 a week from him - we've found another place now that have to come out to assess if Patrick will fit in their wheelchair accessible buses so we've called HMCTS to rearrange the hearing 'cos there weren't any available on Thursday, so we've got to fill in the registration form, they will assess Patrick's size and hopefully agree to take us whenever we need to go anywhere!
Wednesday, 7 February 2018
Tuesday, 6 February 2018
Everything has been fine and dandy all day, except for the last hour or so.
I asked HMCTS if I needed to take my medical records with me and if the court was wheelchair accessible.
Someone wrote back saying that the court was wheelchair accessible and that I'd just need to take a copy of everything I'd sent for the appeal.
Thankfully I kept a copy of it all so tried to print it off.
The printer decided to go offline and not print anything so my blood pressure went through the roof and poor Steve and Mitzi bore the brunt of my anger.
I rebooted the laptop and tried to print it all off again.
The printer ran out of paper.
I reloaded the paper tray and my anger was starting to bubble over when the printer decided the paper tray wasn't in properly.
My anger hit boiling point.
When I eventually got everything printed off and tried to put it in the envelope, Steve said to count to 10.
I hit the roof at him.
Mitzi's little ears disappeared in sadness or fear or shock or something.
Steve asked if it was the wooziness from suddenly stopping the Citalopram that my GP warned me might happen.
Just as quickly as I got angry, I calmed down too!
Just hope it doesn't happen again while I'm at the court!
I just wanna kill meself and be done with it right now 😔
I was happy to come home after our usual 100% but the pup kept on walking, so I was thinking she wanted to double the distance this morning but nope, she kept walking and walking and walking until she'd walked 400%!
There's no way I can do anything else for the rest of the day now though 'cos there's no way my legs will hold me up any more!
Steve came out with us even though he said yesterday that he wanted to rest his legs today so yesterday's promises lasted less than 24 hours, as predicted. He's got control of the remote again and yours truly had to deal with the landline phone again last night and this morning, so technically it was only 12 hours, despite him saying in reply to my Facebook memory yesterday morning that all I had to do was ask.
I asked him about phoning to arrange the taxi yesterday afternoon and he huffed angrilly and blamed me but eventually emailed them. By the time the shopping had been and gone, it was back to his normal "I'll do it when you stop nagging me about it!" again.
Steve's just too predictable, so every time I ask him to do something I'll record it on my blog along with his response and see how long it takes to get done.
He said I only had to ask 22 hours ago and I've just asked him to email me his CV so that I can look over it and give him some feedback about it. He's got a medical appointment at lunchtime today so I'll give it until he comes back then I'll ask him again and I bet he won't! I'm trying to help him FFS, so why doesn't he keep his promises to me that he made 22 hours ago?
Monday, 5 February 2018
I've cancelled all my non essential direct debits to give Steve an extra £50 for the electricity a month on top of the council tax and shopping. I said that he had to apply for more than 1 job a week or I'd stop the direct debit.
He applied for one job this morning and then fell asleep.
He's still asleep now!
I that's on top of the £50 a week I pay for the shopping... about £7.50 of that is drinks for me and the rest of it is cake and food and drink for Steve. Hardly fair, is it?
I left literally everything behind for Steve in 1998 on the condition that we go back and see my mum regularly. We haven't been over since 2010 for my dad's funeral, we saw her once soon after we rehomed Mitzi but nothing since.
OTOH, Steve sees his sister every Monday, his dad twice a week his brother whenever there is sport on the telly that they want to see and his mum every 6 weeks when we have our hair cut. He sees his family more in a week than I've seen my family since 2010!
A year ago today, I spent the whole day sorting out and tidying up the kitchen. Less than 24 hours later and it was a mess again. I posted the memory that came up for me to Facebook and Steve had a go at me about it so yet again I'm at fault again.
Well not any more.
As of this morning we're swapping places. I'm doing what Steve does around the house and he can do what I do. He won't even last for 24 hours but I don't care any more... I don't see why I should have to keep the house tidy when Steve spends 20 hours a day asleep and the other 4 hours eating.
I've just had it now.
Steve and I are going to swap places just for one week and Steve can get the blame for a change. Bet he doesn't though! Bet it'll be my fault again. Everything always is.
I've got my appeal hearing next week and Steve said when I got the letter 2 weeks ago that he'd arrange for the taxi to pick me up in my wheelchair to take me there. He's called 2 taxi's to see if they've got wheelchair accessible taxi's. They haven't but they suggested the company Steve refuses to use because of his size.
So, yet again, it's left up to me. He's supposed to be my carer FFS! He said he'll get the wheelchair taxi for me and get another company to take him to the court instead.
I can just see how that's gonna look to the court... my carer doesn't care!
I'm seriously considering moving out and getting a wheelchair accessible house and carer for myself for a few months. He's decided that if I get PIP he'll get Carers Allowance because he cares for me for over 30 hours a week when in reality he does bugger all to help me. He spends 4 hours a day awake and watching the telly instead of doing anything that would entitle him to the title of carer!
I've had enough.
I'm gonna see what the outcome is with my PIP appeal then look for my own little place closer to my mum, apply for more benefits to help with the rent and employ a live-in carer to actually care for me, like it says in his/her job description!
I'm not gonna put up with Steve's crap any more. He either becomes my carer and earns the money he's determined to get from the Benefits Agency or I bugger off on my own.
It always becomes my fault when something goes wrong, but not any more. I've had as much as I can take now!
Sunday, 4 February 2018
Saturday, 3 February 2018
Friday, 2 February 2018
Taken me supplements as well... the iron was a bit of a PITA to swallow this morning, but it's only once a day so that's it until tomorrow morning now!
Thursday, 1 February 2018
Wednesday, 31 January 2018
Tuesday, 30 January 2018
I was wondering if she'd want to do 300% but she didn't want to so I didn't force her.
Monday, 29 January 2018
Soooo, I've made my first payment of the year and set up a standing order for the money to come out on the 28th of every month starting in February.
Means that it's one less thing to worry about now and I know that the money is going out for sure now.
Also know my account number now too lol
Sunday, 28 January 2018
He's feeding her too, I might be getting him trained! lol
Apparently they went just past the postbox this morning and the pup poo'd so Steve was responsible by picking up after her then came home and was tempted to leave it in our neighbours bin like they leave dirty nappies in ours!
Saturday, 27 January 2018
Friday, 26 January 2018
I suggested that he makes his nurse appointments as early in the day as possible then take the pup out after he gets back if his nurse is worried about his legs.
Can't remember now what he said, but if he does do it like that then he really doesn't need to worry about me nagging him any more and I can hopefully spend time recovering from my cold for a while too!
Thank you Steve!
So, as normal, either I go out, in the wet, with a cold and a hacking cough to walk the pup or she doesn't get walked.
"Besides" he continues, "the nurse wants me to try not walking Mitzi on the day I see her to see if it affects my legs being treated".
Strange that he's had problems with his legs for longer than we've had the pup but the nurse has, conveniently, only mentioned it on Monday.
"I'll definitely walk her tomorrow though" he says.
Yeah. Right. Of course.
Thursday, 25 January 2018
She's just been outside for a wee and Steve gave her 2 treats as a reward. He also gave her a couple of quarters of his slices of ham that he had for his tea. He also lets her lick the crumbs off his plate whenever he eats anything.
"It's our little routine!" according to Steve. "Besides, we went on a hike this morning so she'll walk it off in no time!"
That's not the point of a diet though!
She gets very occasional treats when she poo's in the back yard from me and she very occasionally licks pasta sauce or rice off my plate, but that's it.
Every time Steve eats (twice a day) she licks his plate. Everytime she asks to go outside she gets a treat. If she poo's in the yard she gets 2 treats as well as getting human biscuits off him.
He only takes her out for walks when it's dry out there and then expects to be knighted every time. If it's raining or snowing or hailing or even looking like it's going to rain, it's down to me to take her or she won't be walked at all then he wonders why I catch so many colds and he doesn't!
He gets the credit if she loses weight or she walks a little bit further, yet it's all my fault that her poo isn't cleared up or that she's put on weight or that we haven't arranged this or that.
I've been asking Steve for weeks to help me to get the pup into the bath to make her white again instead of her current grey. "Yeah, maybe later or tomorrow or something" says Steve.
Well I've had it now. Starting tomorrow I'll do exactly what Steve does for a week with the pup so that he can get the blame for the first time since we've had her if something goes wrong!
Bet he'll turn it around and make it my fault for not looking after her properly though!