Tuesday, 16 July 2019

Tuesday 16th July 2019

Knew it was too good to be true.

After promising to come out with me and the pup every day this week "because neither of us have anything at all on" Steve went back on it, as predicted "because my knees are a bit ouchy".  Mine aren't I suppose??  You need to push yourself even though you are in pain, Steven.  I push myself out of the door every morning or the pup wouldn't get walked at all!

Bet he won't come out with us tomorrow either.  Or Thursday.  Or Friday, let alone the weekend!

The puppy had a slow start this morning, so I'm wondering if she's feeling her age now?  After we got going she was fine and forced me to do an extra 150%, but the first 3 or 4 lengths were very slow and she really didn't want to walk.  After that she was fine, but those initial lengths she was finding it hard to put one paw in front of the other.
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That's me supplements taken.  They all went down reasonably easily this morning, thankfully  👍.
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My lil nephew's last book has been reviewed on my writing site and writing blog so all 6 books are ready to go to their new home now.
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Mitzi is being picked up for her sleep-over and skin scraping this afternoon then she'll be home tomorrow at some point... the thought of spending the night in the house without her is breaking my heart!!
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The puppy's just gone and the house feels too big and empty now!  She's the smallest member of the household, but has a huuuuuuge personality that totally fills the house while she's here and the next 24ish hours are going to be so hard for both of us humans 😢.
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Goin' to bed for an early night... think I deserve it!  lol  It feels so weird not being able to say goodnight to the pup though!
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Food review: Sainsbury's Indian Lentil Quarter Pounder 454g

Just tried these for the first time for me lunch and they were lovely!  A bit dry but very filling and tasted yummy.  I was slightly dreading them being spicy after how the hubby described them, but they weren't spicy at all thankfully.  They are good both in a bun with a slice of "plastic" cheese (that's what the hubby calls cheese slices for some reason) and a squirt of tomato sauce as well as on their own with a big helping of veggies.

If they weren't as dry as they are then I'd have given them 5 stars, but they are very dry so could do with making them a bit more succulent/juicy on the outside to make them perfect.  Maybe that's just me, but I prefer my burgers to have a bit of moisture so that they aren't so saliva-drying as these were.

We'll get them again, for sure, but I'd prefer them to have a bit more moisture in them... just a smidgen of vegetable oil stirred into the pre-formed mixture is all it needs, IMHO.

Monday, 15 July 2019

Monday 15th July 2019

Mornin' all.

That's me supplements taken already and I've been paid, so I can relax now.  Today's bills have come out of my account so I can relax about that too... just got mobile top-up, my lil nephews account, Dogs Trust donation, electricity and Equifax to come out now, as well as the Friday tenner and the groceries every Monday.  Tight for the rest of the month but just about doable I reckon.  Spent pennies over £300 on non-essentials in June and £198 already this month, but most of that was SCBWI membership (£63) and Patric's insurance (£89)
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I was wrong yesterday when I doubted Steve would come out with us.  He did.  He did 300% with the puppy and I did our normal Monday marathon with her.  She made a new friend on her walk with Steve... someone was walking up the road and Mitzi's little tail started wagging, then as she got closer to the puppy, she rose up on her back legs and started dancing for her!  She didn't get petted but that's OK, 'cos not everyone feels comfortable around dogs.  Our across the street neighbour came out and got into his car so Mitzi greeted him then just as we were finishing our walk, our next door neighbour came home and said hello to me.  Very social walkies this morning.

The vet phoned while I was feeding her.  Apparently the steroids she's been on for the last few days was just a stop-gap to see her through until these ones came in.  Hopefully Marie or Steve's dad will pick them up and bring them over soon so that the puppy can start taking the proper ones.
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The puppy has just been out the back for a poo, so I cleared it up and binned it totally alone because my paid carer was more interested in watching the telly.
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My MIL's home-made zoop for lunch today.  Takes yummy, is healthy and filling so a winner all round!
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Mitz is going for another sleep-over tomorrow then going in to the vet for skin scrapings on Wednesday and pick up her proper meds at the same time, then back here, so this week is gonna be expensive, but the poor puppy is worth it... we just want her to be happy is all.
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That's the rubbish just been and gone... only 7 hours later than normal lol  Nowt else to do now, until the shopping comes this evening.
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Apparently the shopping escorted Marie down the street tonight lol

We're having a take-away for tea, so I'm gonna shut down now and doubt I'll log back on after having such a late night last night... think I deserve an early one!

Nite nite orl!  💤
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Sunday, 14 July 2019

Sunday 14th July 2019

That's the puppy walked and fed.  We did 650% today which takes week's total extra's to a huge 4950%!  My OCD is complaining that we didn't do the extra 50% to make it 5000% but I'm trying to work through the anxiety it's causing me.

Gonna take me supplements then put the spreadsheets up on my site.  BRB.
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That's the four supplements swallowed.  Reasonably easily this morning, thankfully.

Time for the spreadsheets now.
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That was nice and easy... no arguments or stress or anything at all!  Even went for a wee mid-way through too lol  Only one box of recycling, one bag of food waste with my two burgers in the waste food caddy and the bag of rubbish was full but not overflowing and it's got the pup's week of poo in it again.  We're getting good at this weekly rubbish taking out thing!  Tomorrow we'll bring it all back in then that's it done and dusted for a week. Our inherited rose bush is taking over one end of the yard and the butterfly bush the other though lol
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Just taken my mouthwash off the shopping so that Steve could add his mustard to take the total below £50.  That means that I've got 11 (including 9 bottles of pop) things just for me on the order and Steve's got 16 things on there, 6 of which are packets of meat slices that cost over £8 alone, yet I'm not allowed mouthwash that costs £3.50... strange how he's allowed 2 meals a day but only one for me!
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Just done a bit of moving around of the huuuge walking page - gonna do one page per quarter now so that you don't have to scroll down quite so far.  Don't worry, if you'd bookmarked the walking page it's still there, but it's linking to each quarter's page now so you don't need to update your bookmarks or anything like that... don't you dare say that I don't make things easy for my visitors  😉
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Chippies for lunch today... another quick and simple meal, but it's cooked at home instead of a take-away and that's the only requirement, so I'll go and get Steve's Jaffa Cakes as his reward now, BRB.
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He decided to have a bar of Turkish Delight instead of 2 Jaffa Cakes for a change.  Fine by me... his reward, so his choice 👌.

He didn't have his Friday reward because I totally forgot and he didn't remind me, so that's two unrewarded times, but how am I supposed to remember everything with me brain damage being so bad that I can't even remember taking the rubbish, recycling and waste food caddy out this morning, even though it was less than 6 hours ago and the only reason I know that we took them out is that they aren't in the kitchen any more.  Yep, it really is that bad.

When he's finished his current rewards, I'll be getting him a 2kg box of fudge next but don't know if it melts like chocolate or if it can be stored at room temperature is all.  Either way is totally groovy, I just wanna know which is better so that it doesn't accidentally melt by keeping it in here is all.  Lemme know in the comments?  Please?
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The puppy has just been out the back for her poo and I'm soooo glad she did it out the back instead of on our walk this morning 'cos I could smell it by the time I got half way through the kitchen so it would have really turned my stomach if she'd done it this morning and I would have had to bend over even closer to it to pick it up... soooo gross!
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4 of the six books have just been dispatched via Amazon Logistics, so they'll be here tomorrow, just two more to go then that's all I'm spending for a while at least, other than the groceries each week.  I've already spent over £200 on things this month that I don't usually buy (SCBWI annual membership, Patrick's insurance, Mitzi's vet visit and the books for my lil nephew so I need to be very strict with what I buy for the rest of the month now.  I'll be at least £150 better off next month though 'cos the membership and insurance is only once a year, so as long as I can be a scrooge for the rest of the month with the things I want but don't need then I can breathe again in August.
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We've just filled up the second recycling box too, with the pop bottles Steve's been hoarding over the last week.  Tsk.
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Just finished a course and passed first time, so time to do the admin on my site now.
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That's the certificate up on my site, so time for my prescription now.
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ENGLAND HAVE WON THE CRICKET WORLD CUP FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER!!!!!!

I watch the cricket, but definitely do NOT describe myself as a fan, but to win it for the first time ever has made me a touch emotional lol
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Prescription taken so I'll head to bed as soon as it starts kicking in.
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Heading to bed now.  Nite nite orl!  💤  Sea ewe in the morning!
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Saturday, 13 July 2019

Saturday 13th July 2019

Steve's just promised that next week, because there's nothing going on and as long as it isn't raining, "I'll come out with you and the pup every day as long as you don't go out stupid early like you usually do"

I asked him roughly what time was the earliest he'd come out with us and he said 8 o'clock was the absolute earliest.

Why don't I believe him?

Oh yeah, cos he said the same thing two weeks ago and went back on it.  Again!

I'd love to be wrong about it, but very much doubt I will be!
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All three of us are dosed up and ready for whatever the day throws at us now, so I'm gonna start by taking the puppy out for our morning stroll.

BBS!
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750% today and the puppy poo'd so I, of course, picked it up.  Soft and very smelly today, but I'm a law-abiding citizen so always pick it up when she poo's on our morning strolls!
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Chips, cheese and beans for lunch today.  Simple and quick to prepare but yummy.
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Got 3 books currently in my basket for my lil nephew to prepare him for his first day at school in September.  Gonna give it until tomorrow afternoon to see if anyone else on SCBWI-BI has any others to recommend then order them to hopefully arrive on Tuesday.

I've potentially got a book in mind for his Christmas gift too.  I can almost guarantee that I'll forget about it before August starts, let alone December though lol
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That's my prescriptions taken.  Got a mug of tea to drink before I head to bed tonight first though!  😄
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Goin' to bed now 💤.  Nite nite orl!
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Friday, 12 July 2019

Friday 12th July 2019

That's the puppy, Steve and me all dosed up for the next 12 hours, then the puppy has to take her steroids and I need to take my prescription.

My maths has never been great, but I think I've worked out that between her food and walks every morning, she's lost 62½g of weight every week which is awesome.

This is my working outs - have I got it right please?

March to July is 4 months.
1kg divided by 4 months is 250g a month, right so far?
Each month has 4 weeks for the sake of easy calculation.
250g divided by 4 weeks is 62½g a week yeah?

Is my maths right please?  Assuming it is and she's been on steroids that we were told might make her put on weight, losing over 60g of weight a week is awesome for the puppy dog.  Keep going Mitzi, you're very nearly there now!
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Just brushed me teeth for the first time in a couple of weeks and I'm gonna have to put the mouthwash onto the shopping again 'cos there's only one dose left, but I can almost bet that Steve won't take any of his stuff off, only mine.  Again.  Same as always.
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We replaced the bread rolls we had this week with some different ones, took the fruit off, but that's all.  As predicted, Steve didn't take anything of his off the order.
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Take-away for tea, so I'm shutting down now... nite nite orl!
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Book Review: Saudade by Timothy V. Harris


⭐⭐⭐⭐ out of 5

This book is a bit of a cross-over book... too old for children but too young for adults.

It started off well and kept my interest throughout.

So why am I knocking a star off then?

Purely because some of the grammar (especially using a backwards apostrophe that isn't even in the character map instead of ') and having occasional extra/wrong words and because it will have a very limited audience - more of a New Adult or cross-over book.

It's also apparently set in the future on a space station but that's barely mentioned and definitely wasn't what I considered to be set in the future either. TBH it's more of a modern day sci-fi book which is OK if you like that kinda thing, it just wasn't what I was expecting is all.

It's a good way to pass the day, just wasn't what I was expecting was all. Sorry.

Thursday, 11 July 2019

Thursday 11th July 2019

Still virus free, thankfully, so time to start on the backups then I'll walk the puppy I reckon.
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Backups under way.  One of them is gonna take 2½ hours to finish apparently, so I'll take me supplements before taking the puppy out.
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Just asked Steve if he wants to join me and the puppy on our walk and he said no again "because it rained overnight"... knew this would happen!  It was him that suggested it but he's only come on four walks in ten days!  He started off so well then changed his mind and has only come on the walk once since last Thursday.  Well I'm not rearranging the appointment again.  If he doesn't come with me I'll go alone!  He's my carer and is paid to care for me for 35 hours a week but I'm lucky to get that in a month!   Most of it is the cooking for us both too!
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That's me supplements taken.  All went down nicely this morning so hopefully that's a sign that I'll have a good day today.
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Back-ups finished first time this week, so it's time for the senior puppy's walk now... wish us luck.  Gonna attempt another 750% I reckon but as soon as we've done 650% I'll take my lead from the puppy.
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The puppy wanted to come home after 500% today, so I gently encouraged her to keep going until we did 650% then we both came home and she's flaked out on the floor, under Steve's leg now, bless her.
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Curry for lunch today.  🍴
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That was yummy scrummy in my tummy!  Steve's already asleep lol
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Got Patrick's renewal reminder through the post.  Only gone up by £4 since last year, which is ace!  Gonna do that now while I remember... brb.
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That was remarkably painless and at only £89 a year as opposed to month it's amazing value for money.  This is my 5th renewal with Blue Badge Mobility and the policy cost has only increased by around £15 in that entire time which is even better.  When I went on the initial search for an insurer for Patrick, I was thinking it'd be like £50 a month instead of less than £90 a year including recovery and puncture repair included as extras in the price!  If you live in the UK and rely on a mobility scooter or wheelchair (either manual or electric - they cover both) then I definitely recommend Blue Badge Mobility... you won't regret it and it's sooo quick and easy to renew - it took me longer to read the letter and policy documents than to renew the cover and it's all so easy to do online.  Just 2 pages (one to check the details are still right and the other for the payment) and the terms were really straight-forward and easy to understand too.

Same with Mitzi's insurance.  PetPlan were her initial insurers when we first got her from the Dogs Trust back in 2010 but it went from £25 a month to over £145 a month within about 3 or 4 years and we hadn't made a claim on it.  She's with Paws and Claws now which is under £20 a month and hasn't increased AT ALL from the first year (or if it has, only by a couple of quid a month even though she's a senior puppy dog now).  On top of that I think she's covered up to the maximum on everything for that and there's no upper age limit either, so as long as I keep paying the £20 a month, she's covered until she takes her final breath!

Insurance can be expensive, but the peace of mind is worth it to me.
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That's Mitzi back from her vet visit.  £142 and more steroids again.  The vet took blood which on its own cost £80!!  Moved the money over to the joint account so that he can pay Marie back for it.

Let's see how long it takes him shall we?
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I'm goin' to bed now.  Nite nite orl!  Sea ewe in the mornin'.
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Wednesday, 10 July 2019

Wednesday 10th July 2019

Virus scan started without any kind of technical problem or anything this morning.  Firefox had an update so I was thinking it would require a reboot but it didn't, thankfully.
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That's me supplements taken so time to walk the puppy now.  Steve said he'll come with us this morning.  He's dressed and got his shoes on so it's looking likely he will this morning but I won't believe it until it actually happens.
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I was wrong twice over this morning.

First the puppy doesn't always poo at 8.30am 'cos while there were a few times I thought she might on our walk this morning, she didn't poo at all.

Second, I was wrong about Steve too.  He did come out with us and took the puppy for 200% of her walk.  We walked 650% today, added to Steve's 200%, means she walked 850% between us, which is great going by her.

The puppy wanted to keep walking but it just wasn't safe for me so we came home.  Maybe she wants to increase her walk to 750% like she did with me yesterday?  It was only a few weeks ago that we increased it from 500% to 650% and she seems to want to increase it again now, so I'll try and see how much it's safe for me to do with her tomorrow then take it from there.  If it's not safe then I won't even contemplate it, like I didn't this morning.  It's all very well her wanting to go for longer walks, but my body has got to get used to it too!
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The post has just come.  BarclayCard are refunding me over £500 for not supporting me enough when I was struggling to make the repayments on it a few years back.  Gotta fill in a form and enclose a statement of my account but that makes a nice change and I'll be able to add it to my savings for Steve's car.  Nice, unexpected surprise this morning!  Thank you Barclaycard!
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Prescriptions taken... gotta remember not to shut down tonight 'cos of the virus scan.  As soon as the pills start kicking in I'll head to bed again.
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Heading to bed now.  Nite nite orl!  😴
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Tuesday, 9 July 2019

Tuesday 9th July 2019

Mornin' all!

Time to walk the puppy then take me supplements.  What do you reckon chances are that Steve won't come with us again?
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"My shorts are in the wash" said Steve when I asked him about coming with us.  They weren't 10 minutes ago and it was him that suggested coming with us last week after re-arranging the ultrasound appointment!  He's being paid to be my carer for 35 hours a week but he does buggar all to earn it!
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The puppy poo'd on her walk and I picked it up like I'm legally obliged to.  Soft, smelly, warm and big.  Made me feel sick when I picked it up and tied a knot in the bag!
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The cheek of it!  I read and review books and I've read and reviewed this one book back in May that was riddled with errors so I gave it a single star review.  The author said that he'd had problems with the editor leaving the company so I said I was sorry about that but maybe he shouldn't have published and advertised the book and asking for reviews if he wasn't ready for them.

He sent me the edited book this morning.  Not a single word in the email, just the attachment and seemed to expect me to read it again and change my review.

Not gonna happen.

I said that I wasn't going to review Christian books so why he sent it to me to begin with I haven't got a clue but he didn't say a word in his email, it was literally just our conversation from May and the attachment!

Then I read a message from D about adding a page to her site.  No probs.  Did that for her, then read her PM on Facebook - she didn't want them on a new page, but in an existing page, so I'd just wasted the last half an hour of my life then!  Because she's a friend, I did it, then Steve said something about it being 50 years since Apollo 11 or something and I just lost the plot!

People expect me to do things for free and don't like it when I'm honest in the review and refuse to change it.  Then D changing her mind, then Steve talking about something was just too much for the day and I've had enough already.  It's only 10.21am too!

Not a happy bunny.

Gonna take me supplements now and hopefully calm down a bit.
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That's the supplements swallowed.  They all went down with gulp each, except the Multi but that only took two gulps so I'm hoping this is the start of the day becoming more positive now.
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The council are coming to clear up the cat poo "within 1 day" so hopefully it'll be cleared up by the time I take the puppy out on Friday morning.

The supplements are awesome 'cos they're already bringing my blood pressure down and that's the only thing that's changed in the last 5 minutes.  Dunno if it really is the supplements or if it just happens to be reducing after I've taken them, but I'm noticably less angry already!
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Them new bread rolls are incredibly filling!  Only managed half my lunch today!
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That's the browser caches cleared ready for tomorrow's virus scan and the pup is showing a great deal of Westitude atm lol
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Prescriptions taken, so I'm going to bed as soon as they start kicking in.
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Starting to yawn, so it's time to shut down for the day now.

Nite nite orl!
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Monday, 8 July 2019

Monday 8th July 2019

The puppy forced me to walk even further than our usual Monday marathon today so I'm not going to be able to safely move off the sofa for the rest of the day... even typing this is painful for my hands and arms despite them only holding on to the pup's lead and my quad cane!
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Taken me supplements so hopefully they will kick in soon.  Don't wanna risk walking any further than I really have to today though in case my legs give way and won't hold me upright any more.
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Gonna spend the day studying again methinks.  It'll keep me sat down instead of needlessly and riskily moving around 'cos that just won't be safe.

Got loads of short (under 4 hours) courses to do so I'll make a start on those methinks.
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The rubbish was collected while I was studying, so I've brought the bag in and Steve's put it on top of the cabinet.  We're getting used to this working as a team thing on a Sunday (taking it out) and Monday (bringing it back in) which is totally ace!  👍👍
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That's a first!

I came out of hospital just over 16 years ago (I came out in March 2003) and since then, my bladder has given me literally a five minute warning before I wee, but not just now!

It told me that I needed to go, just not within 5 minutes like it has up to now!  Hopefully that means that it's willing to start giving me slightly more warning that it's full now... it would be good if it could 'cos up to now I've either wee'd in the back yard or wet myself if Steve was in the bathroom... hopefully not any more though!
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That's the recycling and food waste just been collected so I brought the boxes in and Steve took them through to the kitchen for me.  There is absolutely no reason for me to move off the sofa unless I need a wee for the rest of the day now, other than to go and get me lunch.  👌
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Vegan pazza bol for lunch 🍴.  Yummy scrummy in my tummy.  Time to get back to studying now though!
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Passed the course on the second attempt and have added the certificate to my navigation page now.
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The shopping has been and gone nice and early again.  Means I can have an early night (as soon as my prescription kicks in of course).

Apparently the pears were in the same bag as Steve's water so they were bashed about and were totally smashed to smithereens... not even a single whole one so they are going to be refunded and whoever packed the bags shoulda thought that 16 litres of water + a bag of soft fruit = a mess 😞.  Not to worry though, we've still got 6 plumbs and 6 apricots to keep us going for the next 7 days and they are light so hopefully we'll have more of them than the heavier things like apples.
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That's me prescription swallowed.  Amazingly easy to swallow tonight, thankfully.  As soon as it starts kicking in I'll shut down and head to bed.
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Shutting down now... nite nite orl.  💤
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Sunday, 7 July 2019

Sunday 7th July 2019

Just walked the puppy.  She only wanted to do 600% this morning, but that's OK 'cos she's done just over 5000% extra this week thanks to Steve taking her on 700% over 3 days so we're all kinda sore and aching and tired now.
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The weekly admin has been done on the walking page, so it's time for me supplements now.
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They all went down really easily this morning, thankfully, so time to do the recycling, food waste and rubbish now.
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A very full recycling box again this week, only a tiny amount of waste food and most of the rubbish was from Steve clearing up the rubbish outside our house that a cat/the wind had spread over the pavement overnight yesterday so we cleared it up and apparently that's what most of the rubbish in the bag was this week!  We're doing so well with not only our meals but increasing the recycling and vastly reducing our rubbish too.  No arguments or even raised voices or blood pressure or anything at all today... definitely one of our best weeks for it and even clearing up the puppy's poo to go into the rubbish bag was easy this week... she produced an absolutely brimming scoop full this week and only poo'd on her walk once.  Steve cleared that up and I just added the poo from the yard into the bag of cleared up poo from her walk.  We're definitely getting this teamwork thing sorted now!
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Marie is coming with the puppy's food between 11 and 12 today - thank you so much, Marie!  Someone is coming for the boxes this afternoon too, thanks to Freegle then that's it for the day.  Just need someone to take the steamer then that's the kitchen sorted out a bit more with the things we no longer want or need.
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Just binned the rubbish in my bin and taken two pie boxes out to be recycled so now we have half a bag of rubbish and 1¼ boxes of recycling so we're making good use of having 2 recycling boxes and it really is encouraging that they come and pick the recycling boxes and waste food caddy each week otherwise it'd all be binned because we don't have any transport or motivation to take it to the recycling centre!
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Marie has just dropped the food off for the puppy, so just waiting for the boxes to be picked up at "around 2pm" now, then that's everything done and dusted for the day.

Absolutely wiped out after this week though... think I'm gonna have another early night tonight again.  Bet I'll still be tossing and turning for hours though, tsk.
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In a tidying up kinda mood today so I've just cleared up and binned all the empty puppy food bags that were in the gap and under Steve's rollator so there is less to clear up next week.
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The box of bags fell down while I was getting our lunch out of the freezer so I've just tidied that up and my legs are going "no more now" so I hope I'm OK to go and get my lunch and hand over the boxes when they come in about half an hour.  It's just not safe for me to do much else today though, unfortunately.  😒
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That's the boxes gone and Steve's making our lunch, so there isn't any reason to be on my feet for the rest of the day, so my legs can slowly recover and hopefully keep me upright until I go to bed now.  😌
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Ten minutes to lunch 👍 so I'm gonna put me laptop on the floor now.

BBS!
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The pie was absolutely gross unfortunately.  I've just put a review on the food review page of my homepage.  Steve enjoyed his, but we won't be getting them again.
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Having an early night tonight.

See you all in the morning!
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Saturday, 6 July 2019

Saturday 6th July 2019

Was still awake at 11pm last night and awake at just gone 7am this morning so I only got 8 hours sleep instead of the usual 10 that my body needs to function properly.
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Took the puppy out for her stroll and we did 700% along with Steve's 100% so that was pretty good.  Maybe our senior puppy wants longer walks every day 'cos she's walked 700% with me twice this week, on top of the longer walks she's had with Steve and our standard Monday marathon so we've done well this week!
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Added more bin bags and washing up liquid to the shopping and it's only just over £45 this week so Steve can, in theory, add another fivers worth of groceries to the shopping if he wants or needs to this week.
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Steve's just helped me to properly use the spreadsheet and added autosum results as well as manual results to the spreadsheet, so I don't need to do any more maths each week I put the spreadsheet up now.  Added Steve's percents with the puppy too so it's gonna be a bigger, hopefully more interesting spreadsheet each Sunday from now on.

Need to take me supplements and maybe a couple of squirts of B12 to give my body what it's crying out for now.
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That's the supplements and B12 spray taken and I know this is gonna sound soooo weird but as I swallowed each one, I could feel my body relaxing and thanking me.  I know doctors say it takes a few days for your body to use up all the goodness from the supplements before you get low again, but I also know how my body reacts to just one missed dose and I don't like it one bit.  A few hours later than usual (10am instead of 8am kinda thing) and it starts telling me it really needs a boost.  Just wish it would communicate that to my memory lol  I've got a reminder on my mobile and email programme so I usually remember to take them when the reminders pop up, but there are occasional days (like the Thursday just gone) that I forget until late afternoon and it's pointless taking them then!

If you live in the UK and you wanna get a 10% discount on your first order, I swear by Simply Supplements.  To get the discount, just follow the link, put my name (Amanda George) and email address (amanda.k.george@googlemail.com)
into the boxes at the checkout et voila!  I've been using them for getting on for 20 years and wouldn't go anywhere else now 'cos my body approves and I like the prices for so many pills per bottle.  I'd love it if they did a B12 spray like Amazon do, but for my daily dose of vitamins and minerals I wouldn't go anywhere else now!
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Pazza Bake for lunch today and my belly has been rumbling since 10am so I'm gonna devour the plate full of it as soon as Steve takes it out of the oven!  🤤
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Just added 2 packets of grated cheese to the shopping and it's up to £47.62 now, which is much more like what I was expecting!

The pasta bake is in the oven now and I can't wait for the next hour to go past!  👌🍴
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That was yummy scrummy in my tummy.  I mentioned to Steve about maybe adding in some herbs next time, just to take it to the next level and I've broken another quarter off me tooth now somehow but it was sooo worth it!
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Added a jar of Italian seasoning to the order now.  T'was only £1 for 14g so it's not a huge amount if we don't like it.  4.3 stars out of 5 and the single star review was 'cos it wasn't a chopped up bell pepper?  It's herbs not a vegetable FFS!  That's like leaving a review on a fresh vegetable and complaining that it's not a herb!  Jeeeez!
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That's my prescription taken and our baby girl's food decided on when she comes off her diet, hopefully by the end of the year - https://www.zooplus.co.uk/shop/dogs/dry_dog_food/royal_canin_size/mini/13428 as long as her vet agrees of course.

You watch me forget now though lol
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Goin' to beddy-byes 🛏 now. 

Nite nite orl.  😴💤
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Friday, 5 July 2019

Friday 5th July 2019

Just walked the puppy and remembered to take my supplements too, thankfully.  My body is now going "yeeessss! 😆  I needed and missed those four pills yesterday!  👍👍👍"  It's working hard to make the most of the goodness it was desperate for yesterday and the B12 is already making good use of its extra dose.  Hopefully it means that I'll have an easy day with my body today too, now that it's got the support it needs to function properly.
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Just seen this ad for something on Facebook... ewwww!

Disgusting but sooo true!
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Blimey!  Someone wants the cardboard boxes!!  I love Freegle 'cos this person wants and can use things that would otherwise have been recycled!  Just gotta get rid of the steamer now lol
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Just seen this on my Facebook wall and I don't know about you, but I could and should be doing more of it!


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The personal attack alarm from Victim Support has just arrived so that's attached to my neck thing now so I feel a lot safer taking the puppy out for her walks now.  Gone from a three to a five on the personal safety scale now.  Thank you Victim Support!
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There are now 4 video's of the puppy on my homepage.  Was more stressful than it need to be again, but the puppy, my visitors and my site is worth it.
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Taken my prescriptions now so time to read my emails before I head to bed.
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My credit score has changed.  😟  I'm seriously hoping it's an improvement but what if it isn't??  😕
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That's a relief then.  Something was deleted from my credit score was all.  My rating is still poor and I'm still a high risk for credit but it's moving in the right direction now, thankfully.
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It's only taken all day, but I've finally tweeted the book cover... it needed to be .jpg instead of .gif was all lol  😩

I'm off to bed in celebration now.  Nite nite orl!  💤
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Thursday, 4 July 2019

Thursday 4th July 2019

Welp, it seems that 5am is my natural wakey uppy time, no matter what time I hit the hay 'cos I was still awake at 11pm last night and was wide awake by 5.15am this morning, so what I'm gonna try tonight (assuming I remember) is to take my prescription at 5pm and see what happens tomorrow. Would be better if I woke up an hour or even 2 hours later than I am doing atm though!

The virus scan showed that my likkle laptop is still free from viruses so I'm doing the back-ups now then I'll take the puppy for her walk, hopefully with Steve again, so that we can both slowly work our way up to walking to the ultrasound department at the end of July.
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The back-ups have just finished and Steve's joining us on the puppy's walk again this morning - yaaaaaay!

I'm gonna work on his shop when we get home... need to find some free images to use in it first though!
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A cat has poo'd in the road again so I've taken a photo and reported it to the council.  Gonna report our neighbour to the police and put it on the form then spend the rest of the day sitting down.
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Got an incident number and put it on the Victim Support form so I'm not intending to move off the sofa other than to go to the bathroom for the rest of the day now!
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Closed Steve's store after all... it wouldn't let me/Steve request 10% of the basket price up front or crop his logo to the right size without paying.  I'm still happy with them for my writing shop though, 'cos I only need the basics so I'm happy with them for the moment and I can go through my webhost if/when the sales pick up.
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Only just (3.45pm) remembered that I haven't taken me supplements, so I'm gonna leave it for today and definitely take them tomorrow.... was wondering why I wasn't feeling my usual self... I rarely feel anything but bad, however now I know that I definitely need my supplements every day so that I can make the best of a bad situation!
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That's me prescriptions taken and a decade old food steamer put on Freegle so I can relax until the pills kick in now.
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I've started yawning so I'm shutting down and having an early night.  💤

Nite nite orl.  😴
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Wednesday, 3 July 2019

Wednesday 3rd July 2019

Awake at 5am again today, so it seems like I wake up 11 hours after I've taken my pills.  I'm gonna take them at 7pm tonight to see if I wake up at 6am tomorrow.

The virus scan is under-way without any issues at all today, thankfully, so it'll be finished in the early hours of tomorrow morning and I can do the back-up as soon as I come downstairs, before I take the pup for her walk.

Gonna take the puppy out for her walk now... taking bets on Steve not joining us, like he himself suggested at lunchtime yesterday.  Gonna ask him to get dressed and come out with us now.

Result is that he threw a strop and said he was too tired, I replied that it was his suggestion yesterday and he said "it was, wasn't it... lemme wake up first".  I replied with "what time will that be?" he said he didn't know, so I suggested 8am, he agreed then promptly fell back to sleep again.  It's always the same with him.  98% of the time he suggests something one day then finds excuses not to do it when he's promised.

He's just taken his prescription, so I'll take me supplements and start on my emails.
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That's my supplements taken and Steve's asleep again.  So much for waking up, eh?  Knew this would happen.  Does every bloody time with Steve.
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I was wrong. 

Steve went into the kitchen while I was in the bathroom then said he'd come out with us after he'd been for a wee!  He did as well - thank you Steve!  We did 800% with the pup between us... the pup wanted to keep walking, but it just wasn't safe for either of us to keep walking any further so we came home and I can't see Steve being awake before lunch, but that's totally OK after coming out with me and the pup today... he and the pup did an extra 300%ish in total today and I'm so proud of him for that.  If we do that each morning and increase Steve's bit by one length a week, he will hopefully be OK with walking to the ultrasound department on the 23rd and I/we'll take the puppy for a short walk when we get back so that we don't risk doing too much before we've even left the street.

If Steve comes with us every morning, I'm hoping that he'll enjoy it and be motivated to join us every morning after that too, which would help him to lose the weight in addition to our better diet (he's clinically obese) and it'd be a family exercise session instead of just my responsibility.  He did it for a few weeks a while ago and admitted that he soon started enjoying it and even looking forward to it, so if we can encourage him until he feels that way again, it'll help all three of us to lose some of our weight, will make us healthier and Steve can bond with the puppy on their part of the walk too, just like I have done with the puppy.

We can so do this as a family, we just need to get into a new routine is all, just like with the cooking at home instead of daily take-aways.

Soooo proud of you Steve!!!

I'll be happy with sarnies or zoop for lunch today, so that Steve can recover.  I'm hoping for a proper cooked meal, but if Steve doesn't want to then I won't force him.
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It is zoop today 'cos it's Wednesday today and we always 'av zoop on a Wednesday 'cos of my weekly virus scan.  We've got bread rolls to have with it today too though, instead of slices of bread like we usually have.

Steve's still awake too, which is a huge surprise considering how sleepy he was before the puppy's walk!

We'll get there eventually, slowly but surely pushing ourselves occasionally.
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We've already had two portions of fruit each this morning and it's not even lunchtime yet!  That's all the banana's 🍌 finished off (one was mostly a big bruise so that was put in the waste food caddy and the second one was "past it's best" after 36 hours since delivery  so that went in the waste food caddy too) so we've just got the apples left to eat now... it's a good job we're getting 3 lots of fruit with next weeks shopping after getting through 8 banana's in under 3 days!  TBH, I'm not missing the crisps at all and I'm through the other side of my chocoholism too, so while I still enjoy it I'm not desperate to have it several times every day any more which can only be a good thing.
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Just had an apple each too, so that's 3 portions of fruit we've had today, as well as a family walk with the pup... I like!  Just need to keep doing it now!
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Sorted out my ad settings on Facebook again.  Apparently you still see the same amount of ads but you get to decide the things you want to see, so for example I'm seeing education ads but not alcohol ones or overseas holiday ads.  It's not an immediate thing, but still pretty quick and so worth going through every now and again!
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Taken me prescriptions an hour later than normal, so hopefully I'll be awake at 6am tomorrow rather than 5am!  lol
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Off to beddy-byes now.

Nite nite orl!
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Tuesday, 2 July 2019

Tuesday 2nd July 2019

Walked and fed the puppy and reported my anti-social neighbour to the police again.  Taken me supplements and now I'm going to carry on with my day.
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Just put me cardigan on 'cos I is coooold!  😞
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I'm the only one in this house who's awake atm!!  The hubby and the puppy are both snoring away like good 'uns!
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Steve's having burgers for lunch and I'm having spicy bean burgers without the buns 'cos they are so small lol
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Just had me lunch.  The burgers need a lot more moisture in them 'cos my mouth feels like it's in a desert now, even with plastic cheese and red sauce (ie tomato ketchup) on each one!

Steve says he doesn't feel confident about walking from the hospital entrance to the ultrasound department and back, so he's going to try re-scheduling Thursday's appointment and coming out on the pup's walk with me every morning ("as long as it's not raining") so that he can get more used to the distance (he doesn't want to collapse and not be able to get back up) ready for hopefully the rescheduled appointment when it's been re-arranged.

Knew this would happen.

It's always the same with Steve.

Every.  Bloody.  Time.

He's being paid to be my carer for 30 hours a week which is 5 hours a day, but I'm lucky to get the 5 hours a month and that includes the cooking he does for us!
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He's just re-arranged the ultrasound for 23rd July so hopefully he'll come out with me and the pup every morning if he thinks miracles will happen in 21 days!

I reckon he'll find reason after reason not to come out with us and he'll re-schedule it yet again.  I totally understand that he doesn't want to collapse and not be able to get up, but why leave it until literally 2 days before the appointment to tell me?  Why not have come out with us every morning since getting the effing letter almost a month ago?
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That's the caches cleared on both browsers, ready for tomorrow's virus scan and I've got an incident number from the police to add to the form now too.  I'm not going to back down this time.
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Absolutely cream crackered so I'm off to bed.

Nite nite orl 💤
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Monday, 1 July 2019

Monday 1st July 2019

Mornin all.

Pinch an' a punch for the first of the month and all that jazz.

The puppy has been walked and fed.  She was happy to keep walking again so we did a long walk, like we do every Monday and we'll do normal length ones the rest of the week.

Steve says he's got absolutely nothing in his account, so I'm gonna move £100 over for him but I bet he still won't finish the webpages that he promised back in May (or was it March??), won't do the software or update the spreadsheet for me, all of which I've already paid for and was promised 3 weeks instead of getting on for 6 months.
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Just moved £100 over to the joint account and asked Steve to "definitely work on at least the pages today", he sighed, nodded his head and promised yet again that he definitely would... strange how I don't believe him eh?  That's all the electricity and all of the house insurance paid by me now.
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So true of most people, unfortunately.  The people I thought I could trust have all let me down both in the past and recently too!  M, S, C and D - looking at all four of  you unfortunately.
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That's the recycling and waste food caddy been taken so I've taken it through to the kitchen and put them away again, just waiting for our rubbish bag (barely half full this week!) to be collected then I'll take the bag back through to the kitchen too.  We're getting good at the recycling/rubbish now that we're usually cooking at home rather than getting take-aways every day too which is how it should be I reckon!
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That's the rubbish been and gone too, so I'm gonna go and bring the bag in then take me supplements.
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Me an' 'im have just dosed ourselves up with our morning pills so that's all three of us sorted until it's time to take my prescription after the shopping has been tonight.

Steve's mum has just been on the phone to remind him about making a vet appointment for the senior puppy but I can't afford it until I get me PIP on Friday after giving Steve the hundred quid first thing!  Hope they can wait to be paid until then 'cos I really can't afford it on top of the shopping coming tonight.  So much for the money going into my savings, eh?
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The shopping has been and gone already!!  Need to take my prescription then hopefully an early night.  Think I deserve it after waking up, needing a wee, at 5am for the last week!  😒
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The 8 bread rolls we ordered are teeny tiny things!  lol  I've added 2 packs of 4 baps as well as 3 different types of fruits to the order and I'm feeling really proud of us - 6 months ago, we were having one home-cooked meal a week and at least one take-away a day but they are just occasional treats for us now and we usually have a cooked meal every day so that Steve can get his twice weekly rewards.  We are still a long way off getting 5 portions of fruit and veg a day, but I ain't complaining at all - our diets are slowly getting healthier (brown bread instead of white last week for example) and we've got a "fruit bowl" in the living room that we are digging into instead of crisps and chocolate.  When we have a roast, we have a mountain of veggies with it so we're getting there very slowly... we've just gotta keep experimenting until we find something that works for us!

Feeling really proud of Steve for cooking regularly for us too 👍👍.  It's taken a while to get into the habit, and outright bribery twice a week, but we're getting there slowly but surely now.
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Pills are kicking in, so I'm off to beddy-byes 🛏.

Nite nite orl!  💤
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Sunday, 30 June 2019

Sunday 30th June 2019

Happy 10th birthday, puppy!!!

Our baby girl is 10 years old today and it's also 9 years ago that my father died of cancer.

Time for a celebratory walk with the old girl now.
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A cat has poo'd in the road again, so Steve took a photo and I've just reported it to the council.  Bet the neighbour will decide that it's the pup's poo and I need to clear it up though.  No chance Sunshine, when it's not even on the pavement and I can't get off the pavement with her, as well as it having been done overnight when we were all asleep too!  I'm a law abiding citizen and do pick up the pup's poo when it's hers!  Unlike some people!
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Steve's making us both a "posh coffee" and I'm gonna take me supplements after that, then work on getting the spreadsheets sorted.
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Just asked Steve about adding another column to the spreadsheet and then the totals of both columns so that I don't have to get my calculator out every week lol

Time for me supplements now, so that I don't forget.
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That's the supplements swallowed.  Pretty easily again... not the easiest ever, but far from the worst too!
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We're having an early lunch today - yesterday's promised curry 🍛, except that I couln't find the Quorn square things, so Steve's gonna go hunting for them then making it for us  💜😋💙
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The puppy is going for her weekly wash and brush at lunchtime today so I'm thinking she'll be doing a lot of sleeping instead of running around today, after the walkathon we've had this week!
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She's gone and I'm missing her already!  I know she'll be fine while she's getting washed and brushed 'cos she has been up to now, but her little tiny being houses a huuuuge personality and fills every room of the house with love while she's here - it's gonna be a loooooong few hours!  😟😧
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Just finished me curry and it was just about the right amount to fill me up without making me bloated.  Steve is such a good cook with meals that don't take much preparation like the curry and pasta bake and chips and vegan spag bol etc and it's a million times better than it was even at the end of last year... take-aways are treats instead of every meal things now and it's made all the difference to our health and helping us both to loose weight too which can only be a good thing, right?
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Worked out that I'll be able to put about £200 into my savings by the end of July which will be awesom...

The puppy doggy is home!!!

It's only been 4½ hours, but the house has felt so empty without her!

She's flaked out between Steve's legs now, bless 'er! lol

Where was I?

Oh yeah, my ESA is being paid three times in July instead of the usual two so I'll be able to put most of that into my savings so that I'll have £230 in there so I'll get like 2p (or is it 2% therefore 4p??) interest a month which I know doesn't sound like much, but it's more than I'm getting atm!  That'll be used for Yule gifts so that I don't have to go overdrawn to buy gifts for both families again.

I'm seriously hoping that I'll be awarded PIP without going to a tribunal about it this time.  If my Higher Powers are smiling on me and I get the mobility part this time, I'm hoping to get a wheelchair accessible, automatic car on Motability so that I can go over and see my mum again.  If not, I'll save up to get a second hand automatic car for Steve instead.
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Having an early night for a change. 🌛

Be back in the morning.  😴

Nite nite orl!  💤
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Saturday, 29 June 2019

Saturday 29th June 2019

Happy anniversary Steve!

Glad you liked your gift... it kinda jumped out of the screen at me and said "buy me for Steve!" so I did lol
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Puppy has been walked and fed.  At least a couple of hours later than yesterday, but I obviously needed the sleep!  Mitzi was a good girl waiting for her breakfast, but she showed me a huge amount of Westitude with her refusing to sit again, so that's gonna be the next bit of training I reckon, just to remind her to be polite.
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That's the supplements swallowed.  Almost threw up the Multi 'cos my throat suddenly became incredibly dry, but I didn't and managed to swallow them all, so that's OK and I'm dosed up for the day now.
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The puppy wanted a fresh drink of water and two poo's!!  She seems to maybe be constipated 'cos she was straining to get the second poo out, bless 'er.
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Chips for lunch today instead of curry 'cos I couldn't find the Quorn squares in the freezer, so we'll have curry tomorrow instead.  I don't mind either way as long as we get through what's already in the freezer so that it isn't wasted money!
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Just taken me prescription, so I'll be logging off soon.

Nite nite orl!
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Friday, 28 June 2019

Friday 28th June 2019

6.30am seems to be my new normal time to wake up, no matter what time I take my prescription.  Took it at getting on for 8pm last night instead of my usual 6pm so was thinking I'd be asleep until 8am but I wasn't!  I was down here and in the bathroom by 6.30am again!

It's supposed to be a heatwave today so I'm gonna take the pup out for her walk now.  BBS.
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Lovely and cool out there right now and I don't reckon the puppy will be on her diet for much longer 'cos she's got a more healthy shape to her now.  It'll still be a few months yet I'd have thought but we're very nearly there and I'm hoping that we'll be researching more healthy food for her by the end of the year I reckon!  I'm hoping that her vet will be saying "soonish" by Autumn and agreeing to try her on a new food by the start of Winter.  It's taken several years, but the end is in sight now!
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The puppy's been fed now (her water was almost full so didn't need re-filling) and I made her "wait" for her food this morning (I don't usually, but I wanted to see how well she understood it) and to give her credit, she did wait until I released her... her eyes were so sad and confused though, they burnt into my soul though.  Need to work on her sit command though, 'cos she point blank refused to do that.
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Absolutely exhausted after the extra extra's that the puppy has walked me this week.  It'll be 450% extra extra's by Sunday and I think that's just a bit too much too soon for my poor body.  Should have introduced the extra extra's slowly for both of us instead of expecting us to walk the best part of an exta day's walk so suddenly.  The puppy has barely stayed awake this week and I've been falling asleep pretty much as soon as my head hits the pillow every night too.  My knees are kinda going "too much, too quickly missus" but I can't change the past so I'll keep doing the extra extra's until my body adjusts to it.  By the end of the year, I'm hoping our long walk on a Monday will be up to 1500% (250% more than it was this week) and 700% (50% more than this week) every day for the other 6 days.  Not gonna push myself too hard though, if my body says 'enough' then that's OK with me.  I wanna push myself and my body, but if it really can't handle it then that's OK too.  If my body says "seriously, go home before you fall down" then we'll come home straight away.  I'm hoping we'll get to Sunday before it says that this week 'cos I think I've pushed it too hard this week, but we shall see.
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Supplements swallowed and Steve's just said that the pages I paid him to make for me 3 months ago and was promised that would be done and dusted in 3 weeks won't be done by tomorrow and he can't afford to refund me either.

He's also paid Carer's Allowance to care for me for 5 hours a day but I'm lucky to get that in a month (unless you count cooking for us both which still means it's five hours a week instead of a day) and he spends the other 30 hours he's being paid to care for me asleep.  Just like he is now.  I can count the number of hours he's awake for on one hand and still have fingers left over.  He's got a medical appointment at 4pm that he'll be asleep until he goes to it then he'll be back to sleep within half an hour of him coming home too.  Same as every day.

Well I've had enough now.  I'm still going to get him to make programmes and pages for me but I'll pay on delivery from now on.  I'm gonna write a letter for him to give to his nurse today too.  Ask her to test his vitamin levels and letting her know that he sleeps so much too.  Can't be healthy to be asleep for 20 hours a day after all!
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So glad I took the senior puppy for her walk very first thing 'cos we are in deep shade and I've just stuck my head out of the front door 'cos I thought someone had knocked on it, but it's swelteringly hot out there even in deep shade, so I'm gonna walk the puppy very first thing again in the morning and every morning until it cools down a bit out there!  Better for her paws and healthier/cooler for both of us.
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I is exhaustapaytid so I'm off to bed.

Nighty night everyone.  See you all tomorrow.
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Thursday, 27 June 2019

Thursday 27th June 2019

That's the virus scan finished so time to do my weekly backups now.
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For some reason, Explorer can't see the external hard drive and I don't know why.  Gonna shut down to walk the pup then try again when we get home.
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That's the puppy walked and fed, so time to go head-on with the backups again now... wish me luck?
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Supplements have now been swallowed and asked Steve to make me another couple of bottles of squash... let's see how long it is before he actually does it though.  I'm thinking at least a couple of days and when the current level of squash is right at the bottom of the bottle.  Same as always.  Dunno why I expect anything different.
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That's the CAB lady just gone and in just 2 questions (1 in the care and the other in mobility) I'm, in theory, entitled to the basic rate of both!  I've signed the form and she's taken it away with her along with Steve's supporting document, to work on then send to the Benefits Agency 'cos it's due in next week.  I'm hoping that I'll get higher mobility and hopefully higher care because it's not safe for me to be left alone and my mobility is so bad that I can't walk past our neighbours on either side.

She asked if I was in pain and we said no, but I've just remembered that my knees ache just sitting on the sofa and my arms ache after eating me lunch so I'm gonna email her about that too and hopefully get even more points from that.

Wish me luck!
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That's me prescription taken.  Had a take-away for tea and hopefully fishless fillets and chips for lunch tomorrow 'cos it's Friday and tradition dictates fish and chips on a Friday but our will be cooked at home instead of bought in from a chippy and it'll be a new flavour for us... vegan fishless fillets, we'll know by the time we finish if it's gonna be a regular buy for us or not.
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The pills are starting to kick in, so I'm gonna publish this then head to bed, but read a magasine before I lay down so that I don't throw me tea up.

Nite nite orl.
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Wednesday, 26 June 2019

Wednesday 26th June 2019

Me teeth are brushed and supplements taken but AVG is getting in a bit of a flap, so it's time for the third reboot of the day now so that I can start the weekly virus scan safely.
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Well that didn't go as planned!  Two hours later and the virus scan still hasn't started 'cos the programme is out of date and doesn't seem to want to play ball with updating itself.

3½ hours after getting up and I'm still no further forward.  Means I won't have time to study today and the CAB bod is coming over tomorrow to help with my PIP form tomorrow, so won't be able to study then either!

The virus scan needs to reboot my machine, so I'll do that now, then hopefully I'll be able to set the weekly virus scan going at last!
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Back now.  It's been updated so hopefully I'll get the virus scan going pretty much 4 hours late!
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OK, the weekly full scan has started again for the second or third time this morning... hopefully it'll be able to keep going this time!  😣
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As I'm not studying today, I'm gonna read an ARC of a book that's coming out at the start of August so that I can make the most of my study-free days instead of forgetting about reviewing the book and having to rush through it after being reminded by the author or his publisher.

I won't put the review up until the book is published... you watch me forget about doing that too!  lol
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Just finished reading the book.  It really got going about ⅔ of the way through the first chapter and I was glued to it from then on!

Gonna take me prescription now then catch up on my emails.
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They're down the hatch now.  Been taking the lower dose for 2 weeks and 1 day now and haven't lost the plot even slightly, thankfully!  Maybe it's just me, but I'm feeling better on 7.5mg than I did on 10mg!  Really don't want to risk taking it any lower... assuming I'm still sane then I'm thinking 7.5mg is gonna be my maintainance dose, potentially for the rest of my life.  I'd obviously prefer not to be taking meds for the rest of my life, but if it keeps me sane then that's just a small price to pay.
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I've decided that, assuming I'm re-awarded PIP again, I'm gonna organise life insurance for both me an' 'im and if I get the mobility part this time too, I'll use it to buy a wheelchair accessible automatic car on the Motability scheme too.  Now that I'm no longer in debt I can just about afford very basic life insurance on top of my bills every month and groceries every week, but having that extra money coming in would make things less of a stretch each month.  If I don't get re-awarded the PIP then I'll use my savings to hire a car for a day so that we can go and see my mum every few months as well as paying for my PPC every year, my website stuff, bills and groceries.  It'll be tight each month, but if I'm very strict with myself then it is do-able.  I did it before and I can do it again.
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Gonna head to bed for an early night now but I'll be back tomorrow morning.

Nite nite orl! 💤
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Tuesday, 25 June 2019

Tuesday 25th June 2019

I realised that of the 3 people I thought and was promised I could trust after explaining why I have trust issues, I now trust a grand total of nobody.

Again.

I trusted all three of them with something different each and swore them to secrecy.  Each of them promised that they wouldn't let me down and that I could trust them.

Again.

All three of them let me down so I refuse to trust anyone ever again 'cos 100% of the time that I've trusted someone, they've broken my trust so the only person I can trust from now on is myself.  I will still trust people with tiny things that don't really matter if my trust is broken, same as always, but I'll never trust anyone with bigger things ever again.  It took me 20 years to build up trust in those three people so I'll be in my early 60's before I trust anyone else.

I hope I die before then.
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It's raining hard and heavy out there atm, so I'll wait until it either eases off or it gets to about 9am before I take the pup out for her stroll.  She's still wiped out after yesterday, bless 'er lol
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Supplements swallowed.  All four of 'em went down nice and easily this morning, thankfully.
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That's the puppy walked and fed.  We both look like we've just had a shower fully clothed now though.  I agreed to walk the puppy in all weathers though and it's certainly all weather's out there right now lol
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Spent the last 8 hours studying a course that I was thinking would take me 2 days because there were 17 modules but it's taken less than 12 hours and I've stopped half way through for me lunch too, but I still passed first time!  Yaaaaay!!!  25 out of 30 which is a percentage score of 83.33%!!!  Yaaay! 

Time for the admin bits on my site, then clear me browser caches ready for tomorrow, then take me prescription and head to bed for a well-deserved early night, I reckon!
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Site sorted, cache's cleared and I'm about to take me prescription, finish me mug of tea, then I'm off to beddy-byes for a very early night I reckon.
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That's me prescription taken.  Just waiting for the second pill to disolve under me tongue then I'm off to bed I reckon.

OK it's disolved, so I'll just read the newsletter then shut down for the night.
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Steve's GP surgery is newly opened (in 2014) but it gets a one star review lol  I'm so relieved I left that surgery when I did and moved to the one I'm at now... so much better!  The only two slight niggles that are slightly negative about my surgery is that it took 2 or 3 months to get that first CPN appointment with Brad, but Steve reckons that's pretty normal so that's not even a negative point at all then.  The only other negative is that the inside door handle is too high for wheelchair users to use so they have to get someone's attention to hold it open for them and there's some kind of booking in device blocking the wheelchair appropriate counter so neither the receptionist or the wheelchair user knows that the other is there now.

Other than that though, they are fantastic!  Five stars from me!

I'm goin' to bed now though.

Nite nite orl!
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Monday, 24 June 2019

Monday 24th June 2019

Happy birthday Mum!

Hope you enjoy your gift... I'll try and remember to phone you later to wish you a happy birthday in person too!
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That's the puppy walked, fed and watered.  Remembered to do the slightly longer than our weekly long walk this morning and I'm adding another 50% on to the rest of this week's walkies too, just to see how we both cope with it.
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Time for me supplements now... got the dose of vitamin D on the pup's walk, but my body is screaming out for B12 now too, so I'd best give it to my body and recover for the rest of the day.
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That's the supplements down the hatch and I can feel my body thanking me.  Gonna squirt the B12 spray into me mouth in a bit, just to top up the B12 that I've just taken.  If you use that link up there ^^ you can save 38% on it right now... not sure how long it'll last for though, so hurry up and get it at the lower price while you still can!
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Just squirted the full dose and it's kicking in already.  Walked the puppy about half an hour ago and the only things I've done since coming back is taking my supplements and squirting the B12 spray but I already feel noticably more human.  I'm thinking my body will need this much help until it gets used to the slightly longer walks, it just needs to recover more than usual for the next little while.

Just like the puppy who's asleep on the sofa next to me atm lol
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Pazza Bake for lunch today, apparently 😍
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The recycling and cardboard is about to go, so it's all been done nice and early this morning.  We had two completely full recycling boxes this week, so we're doing our bit for the environment which will hopefully stand us in good stead with the Green Man when we go to Summerland!
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Taken both recycling boxes and the cardboard, so I can recover while we wait for the puppy to be picked up for her bath and brush-up then I can recover until she comes back.  We're both totally wiped out after this morning's walk!  It's helping us both to get fitter and loose some of our extra weight though, which can only be a good thing!
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The puppy isn't going for her wash and brush today after all.  Steve's cousin (whose family does it) has got her own pet issues so it's cancelled now until the weekend.  That's OK though, it gives me and the pup time to recover from our marathon extra's this week!  Come Sunday we'll have done 450% extra extras which will hopefully take our weekly total up to a huge 4450% extra, added to the 100% standard length takes it up to a huge 5150% total which will be the longest we've done since we rescued her!  We'll both sleep well by the time Sunday rolls around lol
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Steve's doing the washing up then preparing and cooking the Pasta Bake 🤤... my stomach is already rumbling and it's got over an hour to wait before it's fed today!!  🍴
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Just had me lunch... it was yummy scrummy in my tummy 🤤  Thank you Steve! 🍴  The pre-wash cycle enjoyed it too lol

Need to try and stay awake until the shopping has been and gone now though... gonna be tough, but as soon as it's been and gone I'm off to bed.  I'm hoping/assuming that I'll fall deeply asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow tonight 🛏

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Just called me mum to wish her happy birthday.  She's got a 🐭 in her house that seems to know how to get the 🧀 without triggering the trap!  It sounds like it's a humane trap, thankfully, but her mouse has obviously learnt from previous houses and traps and has cleverly worked out a way to get to the food without being caught.  Clever little thing!  I hope she catches it and releases it back into the wild at some point soon!
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That's the shopping been and gone already.  Came to the door at bang on 6pm and had gone again by five past!  Means I can take my prescription now and have a nice early night for a change... totally appreciate evenings like this!
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That's me prescription sorted too, so I'm heading to bed as soon as Marie's gone and they start kicking in.  Hoping to be asleep before 7pm tonight, which'll be such a relief after this morning's marathon!
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Just ranting about the time Steve's had with his family that I haven't had with my mum.  In the 5 months and 3 weeks we've had so far in 2019, Steve's spent over 80 hours with his family.  That's more than I've spent with my mum since 2009.  Basically he spends more time with his family in 6 months than I have with mine in 10 years.  Not exactly what you'd call fair, right?

I've had as much as I can take now though.  If I'm awarded the mobility part of PIP then I'll use it to get a wheelchair accessible automatic car so that we can go over and see my mum again before it's too late.  If I don't get awarded it then I'll hire a car just for one day to go over and see her.  An expensive (about £100 a day apparently) way of doing things but I'm fed up of being a second thought now.
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Goin' to bed now for a lovely early night... think I deserve it after this morning!  lol
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Sunday, 23 June 2019

Sunday 23rd June 2019

That's the puppy walked, fed and watered.  Just waiting for the spreadsheets to be emailed to me from my phone then I can do the admin stuff for my homepage and sort out my phone ready for next week's percentages and side-steps.

OK, the spreadsheets have come through, so onto the admin stuff before I forget.

BBS!
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That's the weekly admin stuff up on my site now.  Want to try and increase next week's walks to 650% a day and maybe 1200% once a week just to see how we both get on.  I won't force either of us, but at the same time I want to challenge us both to see how we get on.  Technically we only need to do 100% a day, but I want to challenge us both a bit occassionally.  We've been doing 600% a day for a few months now, so I want to just see how we get on with the slightly longer walks next week.  We'll both be wiped out for a while, but that's OK 'cos it'll give me confidence to walk ever so slightly longer on flat bits and it'll help the pup to loose more weight too.
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Just added a new page to my homepage 'cos the disability page was getting waaay too long.  The puppy's strolls will be on the walking page instead of the disability page from now on... you watch me forget though.
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That's me supplements swallowed and I can feel the B12 kicking in already, so I must have been low in it again this morning for some reason!
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And another new page!  I've updated the index page too.  Which page shall I do next?
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The other 2 memorials are online now... one to my father and the other to my three grandparents.

Achieving so much this morning!

Apparently we're having mugs of zoop for lunch, which means I can create more pages without having to put my laptop on the floor... total aceness.
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That's the Paganism page sorted.  Gonna work on my Higher Powers page now then stop for lunch assuming Steve wakes up any time soon.
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Just finished the Higher Powers page and Steve's awake so hopefully I'll be having my zoop soon.

5 pages written and uploaded in only about 4 or 5 hours... not bad for a morning's work!
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Just emptied Steve's Jaffa cakes into an air-tight tub and we tried one of the lemon and lime ones each first.

Very disappointing.

Just put the review up on my site and here on the blog, but they are definitely not worth 50p for each cake!
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Steve's just ordered our tea, so I'm shutting down, prolly for the night now.

Might come back online after I've eaten, put I'm gonna publish this now just in case I don't.

💤  Nite nite orl!  😴
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Food review: Lemon and lime Jaffa cakes

⭐⭐ out of 5

There was barely any flavour at all. My husband likes them, but they are a bit bland for my liking.

If I'd tried to name the flavour without knowing what it was from the box, I honestly wouldn't have been able to tell you. If you're after a very subtle flavour then you might find them OK, just like my hubby, but if you are expecting a citrus zing like I was just going by the smell, you will be sorely disappointed. Sorry.

Saturday, 22 June 2019

Saturday 22nd June 2019

Was awake by 5.15am 'cos I could have sworn someone was hammering on the door, probably the printer cartridges and Steve would have been asleep so I hurried to get up and put just my glasses on to answer the door.

Opened the door.

Nobody there.

Steve said he would have answered the door if anyone had knocked on it.

Yeah.  Right.  Of course you would.  That's why you never do when I'm down here despite you being paid to be my carer!

Soo, gonna take my supplements then take the pup out for a waddle up and down the street then study while I'm waiting for the printer cartridge.
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Forgot to say that I brushed my teeth this morning... first time in more than a week, but yesterday's course reminded me.  Depression Awareness today, wish me luck!
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That's the supplements swallowed, so time to walk the puppy now.
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The puppy has been walked and fed now.  She produced a solid, but slightly softer than normal poo that was incredibly smelly.  I, of course, picked it up and we carried on with our stroll.

I've rediscovered some huge Amazon boxes in the kitchen that are waaay too big for the blue bag, so after we've taken the rubbish and recycling out tomorrow, I'll take a photo of them and put them on Freegle.  I've got rid of so much stuff to people who genuinely want and need it that way and it keeps it out of the landfill too, which, in turn, helps the environment, which I'm hoping pleases the Green Man.  It may not seem like much but if everyone recycled and used Freegle then it would hopefully reduce the amount of waste on Planet Earth.
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There's only 3 boxes so Steve's grumpily taken a couple of photo's of them for me to put on Freegle hopefully today... just waiting for the photo's to download now then I'll put them on the Freegle site.
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That's the boxes advertised, just waiting for the post and photo's to be checked and approved now.

Time to start studying!
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100% on the depression course, so I've just earned myself another two diplomas!  😁
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Just sorted the printer.  Totally painless when you buy the right cartridge! lol  Need to remember to buy the 302 cartridges next time so that I can avoid all this stress.
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Just scraped through the pass on the colour therapy certificate... the passing score was 70% and I got 70% so I only just passed, but I'm not complaining.  Just need to do the admin things on my site now.
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Having a relatively early night now... think I deserve it for getting through two courses today.

Nite nite orl!  😴💤
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Friday, 21 June 2019

Friday 21st June 2019

Walked and fed the puppy.  The neighbour revved his engine at me so I put it on the victim support form and reported it to the police.  I gave him the benefit of the doubt last time but he's pissed on his chips one too many times now.
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Think I've worked out why the printer cartridge wasn't recognised... I ordered the 301 cartridge and I think it needs the 302 lol  It's on Prime so it'll be here tomorrow then I can see for sure if that's why it's showing up as empty.

Gonna take me supplements now.
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That's the supplements down the hatch then and Steve's dad is on his way to pick him up.

Just waiting for the Freegle bod and 2 deliveries now, then that's today sorted.
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Freegle bod has been and gone, so it's just the two deliveries now.
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Got an incident number from the police now, so just added it to the log sheet.
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Had beansprouts for lunch and we're having a take-away for tea... lasagne, yumsk!  😋
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Doing well with me fruits and veggies portions today.  Already had 3 portions (beansprouts, banana and apple) in the last 2 hours and the veggie lasagne will be even more!

Still waiting for Steve's Jaffa Cakes and Turkish Delight though... hope they don't turn up in the middle of us having our tea!
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100% on the Dental Care Certificate... yay!  Time to do the admin bits to put the certificate on my site now.
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Just taken me prescription... still waiting for the Amazon deliveries though!  😐
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That's today's three Amazon deliveries just arrived so I can shut down and wait for me tea to be delivered now.  Not sure if I'll come back after I've had my veggie lasagne, so I'll say nite nite orl now just in case.

Gonna be a late night after me tea has 'gone down' so that I don't risk throwing it up as soon as I go to bed, but that's OK, just waiting for the printer cartridge tomorrow and I'll prolly be awake and the puppy walked waaaay before that arrives!

😴💤😴💤😴💤😴
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Thursday, 20 June 2019

Thursday 20th June 2019

Mornin' all.

Not gonna study today or tomorrow after all 'cos of the CCTV thing today and a Freegle person is coming to pick something up at lunchtime tomorrow too which I'd totally forgotten about.  Might persuade myself to do one of the single module ones each day, but I'm not going to study a longer one until Friday afternoon so that it'll be done by bed-time on Saturday then the depression awareness one on Sunday and Monday.

Gonna have a relaxing couple of days though... think I deserve it 😀
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 That's me supplements swallowed.  The Calcium was pretty average but the B12 disintegrated on me tongue before I'd even opened the squash bottle!  They are all sorted for the day now though.
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The back-up is 98% complete, so as soon as that's sorted I'll put the external hard drive away and walk the pup.  The battery is barely warm, so I won't shut down, I'll just keep it running until I head to bed, including when we have our lunch (vegan spag bol), so it's a good job I'm not studying a longer course today lol  I doubt I'll be able to keep my eyes open this afternoon lol
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That's the back-up finished, so I'm gonna unplug it, put it away then walk the puppy.  I didn't feed her yesterday after her diarrhoea so I'm expecting her to hoover up her food as soon as it hits the bowl today.
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Puppy has been walked, fed and watered.  She's totally ignored her food so far though!
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Steve opened the bag of banana's and helped himself to one.  They are really nice apparently, so I'm gonna have one too when Steve's successfully opened my bottle of pop!

Got sticky hands from all the pop that spilled out now, but I've got my pop so gonna have a slurp then try a banana.  We've done really well with our fruit and veggies this week... we had lettuce in our burgers on Tuesday and 2 apples each yesterday and a banana each already today.  Not ideal but sooo much better than it used to be.
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Oooh!  Those banana's *are* nice.  Just sweet enough without being sickly sweet.

This time last year it was 2 take-aways a day, every day, but now it's cooked at home food and even fresh fruit and veggies which were sooo far from our thoughts a year ago.  I'd only just started drinking tea and coffee back then too but look at me now!  Coffee and/or tea to drink every day and I can count the number of take-aways we've had in the last 6 months one one hand and still have fingers left over.  We're still not getting the recommended 5 portions of fruit and veggies a day but I'm so proud of us for totally turning our diet on it's head and we're both slowly losing our bellies and becoming so much healthier.  Soooo proud of us!  We've had one take-away this week, but that was in addition to the home-cooked lunch so it doesn't count, so assuming Steve cooks for us tomorrow he'll have earned another two mini Toblerone's.  Need to look in to getting him the replacements for them soon 'cos there are only another couple of week's worth left.  Lemme ask him if he wants the Turkish Delight or Fudge while I remember... hold on!

Turkish Delight is his decision, so I'll go and order it now.

Kay, just ordered it and it'll be here tomorrow 'cos it's on Prime, so that's hopefully 6 week's worth of cooking available now.  Just the 2kg of fudge left to inspire him to cook then I'll have to find another reward lol
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Just bought him 46 Jaffa Cakes (10 lemon and lime cakes as well as 36 orange ones) that are on Prime, so they'll be here tomorrow too so that's another 11 weeks added to the 5 weeks of Turkish Delight and the week's worth of Toblerone's that are already in the fridge is 17 weeks (4 months) worth of home cooking that'll be here by tomorrow evening which gives me plenty of time to find something else to reward him with twice a week!
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Just had our lunch of spag bol but Steve made enough for 3 instead of 2 so one of us is going to have left-overs for tea tonight lol

Just waiting for the engineer to turn up now, then I can do the self-harm awareness course when he's gone.
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The Turkish Delight has been dispatched via Amazon Logistics so it'll prolly leave me waiting until the last possible delivery lol  Not to worry though, as long as it gets here then that's all I want!
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That's the CCTV camera sorted now... took under 5 minutes to get it fixed in place and the batteries only need to be replaced every year or so.  We've got a window sticker to put up so hopefully the neighbour will leave me alone now!
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Studying Introduction to REBT: Rational Emotive Behaviour Therapy Certificate this afternoon.  Wish me luck!
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100% on module 1
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90% on module 2
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80% on module 3.  One more module to study and prolly an end of course assessment which will decide if I've passed or need to re-take it.
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Another 100%!  Yay!  I'm slightly more hopeful that I'll pass the end of course assessment now lol
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Oh!  There wasn't an end of course assessment after all!  That's 2 courses and five modules I've studied this afternoon so I'm feeling pretty chuffed with that!
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That's me prescription down the hatch and I want an early night tonight so as soon as I start feeling even remotely tired I'm shutting down and heading to bed.
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Just started yawning, so I'm shutting down and heading to bed now.

Nite nite orl!
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