I'm currently seriously struggling with my spending addiction.
It would be sooo easy to put in the order right now but I'd really let myself down and I've only gotta go until tomorrow morning then I'll be able to put the order in as a reward. I honestly don't know if I can manage it right now and I'm relying heavily on my chocolate addiction, but I'm letting myself down with that too.
There's an almost-full tub of Hero's in the fridge and my addiction is telling me that "a couple won't hurt", but I know that if I start, I won't be able to stop that either.
I've gotta cope with it somehow but it's such an awful feeling. If Steve was still alive I could give him my purse and chocolate supply without saying a word and he'd hide them from me and tell me to put Take That on or read a book or something like that, but now that I'm a disabled young widow, I've gotta learn to cope with it alone.
This is so unbelievably hard and I don't know how much longer I can resist for!
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