...I no longer trust anyone.
Every single person I've trusted has known that I had huge trust issues.
Every single person I've trusted has broken that trust and I will no longer trust anyone ever again.
Everything stays inside me and the only way anyone will get a glimmer of insight into how I'm feeling is through this blog. I refuse to be hurt again, so I'll just go along with whatever anyone else wants to do or say and keep my own thoughts, opinions, wants, needs and feelings to myself. I will get blamed for everything again, just like has always happened.
I will be dieing next year so that Steve can get my full life insurance and nobody will have to put up with me ever again.