Nite nite orl

It's been a long, emotional, exhausting day today so I've taken my last two pills of the day with the last of the new bottle of water and squash that I made a few days ago and which I've gotta remember to refill tomorrow, but for tonight, I'm closing the curtains and going to bed.

I'll see you all in the morning, for hopefully a less emotional day.

Nite nite orl

Fourth and final update to today's to-do list

• Use blood pressure machine
• Put details onto spreadsheet
• Put BP machine away
• Drink glass of water
• Take morning pills
• Run weekly virus scan
• Come up with a tag line for my memoir - I've potentially come up with one at last
• Study at least one course
• Listen to podcasts
• Listen to playlists
• Turn on air purifier
• Read and review a book
• Add more books to my TBR pile
• Ask Alexa to play Baroque music
• Check forum
• Announce birthdays if necessary
• Get washed and dressed
• Make breakfast of toast and juice/water
• Take photo of breakfast
• Put photo of breakfast on here and Instagram
• Wash up
• Do weekly backups
• Crack open a new jar of decaff coffee
• Contact the council about the recycling boxes return - they've gotta be dropped off at a depot so I've asked my SIL to do it for me - she was going to do it yesterday, but someone had put rubbish in them so she wasn't willing to take them until that had been sorted which it was 5 minutes after she left, so I've just gotta keep my eyes peeled for any more rubbish that gets put in there now
• Tidy living room (Thursday)
• Tidy bedrooms (Friday)
• Sort out more of spare room (Friday)
• Take photos of unwanted things in the spare room (Friday)
• Advertise spare room things on Freegle (Friday)
• Vacuum floors while water is heating up (Saturday)
• Mop floors while water is heating up (Saturday)
• Have bath (Saturday)
• Flop in an exhausted heap (Sunday)
• Do morning laps
• Do morning sit-ups - 75 this week
• Do morning crunches - 35 this week
• Give clothes to Anglo Doorstep Collection today between 11am and 1pm
• Sob my heart out
• Have creamy drinking chocolates
• And chocolate from the fridge
• Sob my heart out for a while
• Console myself with a creamy drinking chocolate
• Send reviewers my book if they agree
• Keep my fingers crossed they enjoy and positively review my memoir
• Keep an eye on Freegle to see if anyone wants the radiator or seat cushion
• Make lunch of sweet potato fries, frozen veggies and mayo
• Take photo of lunch
• Put photo of lunch on here and Instagram
• Do washing up
• Take lunchtime pill
• Do afternoon laps
• Do sit-ups in hall 
• Do crunches in hall
• Clean the bathroom
• Put new rim block in toilet
• Mop the bathroom floor
• Clean the kitchen
• Mop the kitchen floor
• Get ASHP and central heating serviced - it's been rescheduled to 10th April now
• Go through apps on my spam phone
• Make tea of soup
• Take photo of tea
• Bring tea through to the living room
• Log tea into FitBit app
• Put photo of tea on here and Instagram
• Do washing up
• There's chocolate multipacks in the fridge
• As well as choccie raisins too
• And treat-sized choccie on the side
• And loads of soft drinks
• And dried fruit and nuts in the tubs
• And toasted giant corn in the drawers
• Study my courses (starting at the bottom of the page)
• Post about something I'm grateful for today
• Download, resize and save BP machine photos
• Put 6 days' worth of BP photos onto my health site
• Put blood pressure spreadsheet onto health site on the last day of each month
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Today (1st April 2026) I'm grateful for...

...not bursting into tears as soon as I handed the last of Steve's clothes over.  I'm grateful and proud that I managed to hold back the sobs until I closed the door and sank to the floor, sobbing my heart out for the best part of 10 minutes.

Third update to today's to-do list

• Use blood pressure machine
• Put details onto spreadsheet
• Put BP machine away
• Drink glass of water
• Take morning pills
• Run weekly virus scan
• Come up with a tag line for my memoir - I've potentially come up with one at last
• Study at least one course
• Listen to podcasts
• Listen to playlists
• Turn on air purifier
• Read and review a book
• Add more books to my TBR pile
• Ask Alexa to play Baroque music
• Check forum
• Announce birthdays if necessary
• Get washed and dressed
• Make breakfast of toast and juice/water
• Take photo of breakfast
• Put photo of breakfast on here and Instagram
• Wash up
• Do weekly backups
• Crack open a new jar of decaff coffee
• Contact the council about the recycling boxes return - they've gotta be dropped off at a depot so I've asked my SIL to do it for me - she was going to do it yesterday, but someone had put rubbish in them so she wasn't willing to take them until that had been sorted which it was 5 minutes after she left, so I've just gotta keep my eyes peeled for any more rubbish that gets put in there now
• Tidy living room (Thursday)
• Tidy bedrooms (Friday)
• Sort out more of spare room (Friday)
• Take photos of unwanted things in the spare room (Friday)
• Advertise spare room things on Freegle (Friday)
• Vacuum floors while water is heating up (Saturday)
• Mop floors while water is heating up (Saturday)
• Have bath (Saturday)
• Flop in an exhausted heap (Sunday)
• Do morning laps
• Do morning sit-ups - 75 this week
• Do morning crunches - 35 this week
• Give clothes to Anglo Doorstep Collection today between 11am and 1pm
• Sob my heart out
• Have creamy drinking chocolates
• And chocolate from the fridge
• Sob my heart out for a while
• Console myself with a creamy drinking chocolate
• Send reviewers my book if they agree
• Keep my fingers crossed they enjoy and positively review my memoir
• Keep an eye on Freegle to see if anyone wants the radiator or seat cushion
• Make lunch of sweet potato fries, frozen veggies and mayo
• Take photo of lunch
• Put photo of lunch on here and Instagram
• Do washing up
• Take lunchtime pill
• Do afternoon laps
• Do sit-ups in hall 
• Do crunches in hall
• Clean the bathroom
• Put new rim block in toilet
• Mop the bathroom floor
• Clean the kitchen
• Mop the kitchen floor
• Get ASHP and central heating serviced - it's been rescheduled to 10th April now
• Go through apps on my spam phone
• Make tea of soup
• Take photo of tea
• Bring tea through to the living room
• Log tea into FitBit app
• Put photo of tea on here and Instagram
• Do washing up
• There's chocolate multipacks in the fridge
• As well as choccie raisins too
• And treat-sized choccie on the side
• And loads of soft drinks
• And dried fruit and nuts in the tubs
• And toasted giant corn in the drawers
• Study my courses (starting at the bottom of the page)
• Post about something I'm grateful for today
• Download, resize and save BP machine photos
• Put 6 days' worth of BP photos onto my health site
• Put blood pressure spreadsheet onto health site on the last day of each month
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Second update to today's to-do list

• Use blood pressure machine
• Put details onto spreadsheet
• Put BP machine away
• Drink glass of water
• Take morning pills
• Run weekly virus scan
• Come up with a tag line for my memoir - I've potentially come up with one at last
• Study at least one course
• Listen to podcasts
• Listen to playlists
• Turn on air purifier
• Read and review a book
• Add more books to my TBR pile
• Ask Alexa to play Baroque music
• Check forum
• Announce birthdays if necessary
• Get washed and dressed
• Make breakfast of toast and juice/water
• Take photo of breakfast
• Put photo of breakfast on here and Instagram
• Wash up
• Do weekly backups
• Crack open a new jar of decaff coffee
• Contact the council about the recycling boxes return - they've gotta be dropped off at a depot so I've asked my SIL to do it for me - she was going to do it yesterday, but someone had put rubbish in them so she wasn't willing to take them until that had been sorted which it was 5 minutes after she left, so I've just gotta keep my eyes peeled for any more rubbish that gets put in there now
• Sort out more of spare room
• Do morning laps
• Do morning sit-ups - 75 this week
• Do morning crunches - 35 this week
• Give clothes to Anglo Doorstep Collection today between 11am and 1pm
• Sob my heart out
• Have creamy drinking chocolates
• And chocolate from the fridge
• Sob my heart out for a while
• Console myself with a creamy drinking chocolate
• Send reviewers my book if they agree
• Keep my fingers crossed they enjoy and positively review my memoir
• Keep an eye on Freegle to see if anyone wants the radiator or seat cushion
• Make lunch of sweet potato fries, frozen veggies and mayo
• Take photo of lunch
• Put photo of lunch on here and Instagram
• Do washing up
• Take lunchtime pill
• Do afternoon laps
• Do sit-ups in hall 
• Do crunches in hall
• Clean the bathroom
• Put new rim block in toilet
• Mop the bathroom floor
• Clean the kitchen
• Mop the kitchen floor
• Tidy living room tomorrow (Thursday)
• Get ASHP and central heating serviced - it's been rescheduled to 10th April now
• Go through apps on my spam phone
• Make tea of soup
• Take photo of tea
• Bring tea through to the living room
• Log tea into FitBit app
• Put photo of tea on here and Instagram
• Do washing up
• There's chocolate multipacks in the fridge
• As well as choccie raisins too
• And treat-sized choccie on the side
• And loads of soft drinks
• And dried fruit and nuts in the tubs
• And toasted giant corn in the drawers
• Study my courses (starting at the bottom of the page)
• Post about something I'm grateful for today
• Download, resize and save BP machine photos
• Put 6 days' worth of BP photos onto my health site
• Put blood pressure spreadsheet onto health site on the last day of each month
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Today's (1st April 2026) lunch photo

I've had waaaay too much chocolate to be good for me in the last couple of hours, but I needed the comfort that only chocolate could provide lol

Today's lunch was 142g of frozen mixed veg, 80g of sweet potato fries cooked in approx 1ml of air fryer oil and washed down with a 330ml can of Sparkling Lychee pop.

Here's today's lunch photo:

First update to today's to-do list

• Use blood pressure machine
• Put details onto spreadsheet
• Put BP machine away
• Drink glass of water
• Take morning pills
• Run weekly virus scan
• Come up with a tag line for my memoir - I've potentially come up with one at last
• Study at least one course
• Listen to podcasts
• Listen to playlists
• Turn on air purifier
• Read and review a book
• Add more books to my TBR pile
• Ask Alexa to play Baroque music
• Check forum
• Announce birthdays if necessary
• Get washed and dressed
• Make breakfast of toast and juice/water
• Take photo of breakfast
• Put photo of breakfast on here and Instagram
• Wash up
• Do weekly backups
• Crack open a new jar of decaff coffee
• Contact the council about the recycling boxes return - they've gotta be dropped off at a depot so I've asked my SIL to do it for me - she was going to do it yesterday, but someone had put rubbish in them so she wasn't willing to take them until that had been sorted which it was 5 minutes after she left, so I've just gotta keep my eyes peeled for any more rubbish that gets put in there now
• Sort out more of spare room
• Do morning laps
• Do morning sit-ups - 75 this week
• Do morning crunches - 35 this week
• Give clothes to Anglo Doorstep Collection today between 11am and 1pm
• Sob my heart out
• Have creamy drinking chocolates
• And chocolate from the fridge
• Sob my heart out for a while
• Console myself with a creamy drinking chocolate
• Send reviewers my book if they agree
• Keep my fingers crossed they enjoy and positively review my memoir
• Keep an eye on Freegle to see if anyone wants the radiator or seat cushion
• Make lunch of sweet potato fries, frozen veggies and mayo
• Take photo of lunch
• Put photo of lunch on here and Instagram
• Do washing up
• Take lunchtime pill
• Do afternoon laps
• Do sit-ups in hall 
• Do crunches in hall
• Clean the bathroom
• Put new rim block in toilet
• Mop the bathroom floor
• Tidy living room
• Get ASHP and central heating serviced - it's been rescheduled to 10th April now
• Go through apps on my spam phone
• Make tea of soup
• Take photo of tea
• Bring tea through to the living room
• Log tea into FitBit app
• Put photo of tea on here and Instagram
• Do washing up
• There's chocolate multipacks in the fridge
• As well as choccie raisins too
• And treat-sized choccie on the side
• And loads of soft drinks
• And dried fruit and nuts in the tubs
• And toasted giant corn in the drawers
• Study my courses (starting at the bottom of the page)
• Post about something I'm grateful for today
• Download, resize and save BP machine photos
• Put 6 days' worth of BP photos onto my health site
• Put blood pressure spreadsheet onto health site on the last day of each month
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Let the chocfest commence!!

The last of Steve's clothes have just gone and I've got my first very hot, very creamy, drinking chocolate on the go and they will be non-stop for the rest of today now.

I've also got a pack of 8 chocolate biscuit bars on the go too, which will make me very ill but I don't care, I deserve the comfort that only chocolate can provide.

I'm really proud of myself for stopping crying 2 minutes before the clothes were picked up and I managed to hold them back until I'd closed the door, but they've been pouring out of my eyes ever since.

Today's (1st April 2026) to-do list

• Use blood pressure machine
• Put details onto spreadsheet
• Put BP machine away
• Drink glass of water
• Take morning pills
• Run weekly virus scan
• Come up with a tag line for my memoir - I've potentially come up with one at last
• Study at least one course
• Listen to podcasts
• Listen to playlists
• Turn on air purifier
• Read and review a book
• Add more books to my TBR pile
• Ask Alexa to play Baroque music
• Check forum
• Announce birthdays if necessary
• Get washed and dressed
• Make breakfast of toast and juice/water
• Take photo of breakfast
• Put photo of breakfast on here and Instagram
• Wash up
• Do weekly backups
• Crack open a new jar of decaff coffee
• Contact the council about the recycling boxes return - they've gotta be dropped off at a depot so I've asked my SIL to do it for me - she was going to do it yesterday, but someone had put rubbish in them so she wasn't willing to take them until that had been sorted which it was 5 minutes after she left, so I've just gotta keep my eyes peeled for any more rubbish that gets put in there now
• Sort out more of spare room
• Do morning laps
• Do morning sit-ups - 75 this week
• Do morning crunches - 35 this week
• Give clothes to Anglo Doorstep Collection today between 11am and 1pm
• Sob my heart out
• Have creamy drinking chocolates
• And chocolate from the fridge
• Sob my heart out for a while
• Console myself with a creamy drinking chocolate
• Send reviewers my book if they agree
• Keep my fingers crossed they enjoy and positively review my memoir
• Keep an eye on Freegle to see if anyone wants the radiator or seat cushion
• Make lunch of sweet potato fries, frozen veggies and mayo
• Take photo of lunch
• Put photo of lunch on here and Instagram
• Do washing up
• Take lunchtime pill
• Do afternoon laps
• Do sit-ups in hall 
• Do crunches in hall
• Clean the bathroom
• Put new rim block in toilet
• Mop the bathroom floor
• Tidy living room
• Get ASHP and central heating serviced - it's been rescheduled to 10th April now
• Go through apps on my spam phone
• Make tea of soup
• Take photo of tea
• Bring tea through to the living room
• Log tea into FitBit app
• Put photo of tea on here and Instagram
• Do washing up
• There's chocolate multipacks in the fridge
• As well as choccie raisins too
• And treat-sized choccie on the side
• And loads of soft drinks
• And dried fruit and nuts in the tubs
• And toasted giant corn in the drawers
• Study my courses (starting at the bottom of the page)
• Post about something I'm grateful for today
• Download, resize and save BP machine photos
• Put 6 days' worth of BP photos onto my health site
• Put blood pressure spreadsheet onto health site on the last day of each month
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Today's (1st April 2026) breakfast photo

My first meal of my fresh-start month was my usual 2 slices of wholemeal 'Toastie' toast with approximately 20g of 'Buttery' spread and a freshly decanted 250ml bottle of Tropical juice.

Here's today's breakfast photo: