Sunday 31 July 2022

Nite nite orl

Been awake and on alert for the last 14 hours, so I think it's about time for me to head off to beddy-byes, don't you?

I'll be back again in the morning, but I'm gonna head off to the land of nod after I've shut down.

Nite nite orl.

Today's (31st July 2022) tea photo

I spent the day with my in-laws today so couldn't take a photo of my lunch so I've just finished off the day with 5 portions of ice cream 'cos I needed to significantly increase my calories lol

T'was a tub of gorgeous ROAR salted caramel and macadamia ice cream which had waaay too much sugar in it, but that's OK for a treat when I've been a good girl all day, right?

I haven't got any more plant-based ice cream left in the freezer, so I'll have to rely on the dairy free spread on the days I need to increase my calorie count from now on.

Here's today's tea photo:

Just had my tea...

...which was the leftover "chicken" fillet from lunch and I'm gonna go and get myself the ice cream now, even though I'm not hungry... it'll send my calorie count for today through the roof though, which'll hopefully help me to have put on weight tomorrow.

I was still well within the healthy weight range for my height on Monday, but a little bit lower than I wanna be, so I've been aiming to turn the FitBit graph as red as possible this week.  I was significantly in the red at the start of the week, but not so much from Thursday onwards so I've got no idea what my weight'll be like tomorrow.  I'm totally up for restarting my laps if I've gone over or eating another red week next week if I've somehow lost more weight.

Apparently I'm cooking 3 of the meals next week (4 if you include the instant soup on Thursday) so that my carer gets a bit of a break from cooking on those days and we stand a chance of having home-cooked food as opposed to take-aways each day too.

Back now and...

...I had one glass of pop with my lunch and a glass of water when I got home.  T'was a full on Sunday roast but only added 491 calories to my total, so I'm still 775 short 'cos I had some sultanas for breakfast and a glass of Diet Coke with my lunch, so we're gonna finish off the leftovers for tea and I'm gonna indulge in a tub of ice cream too.

Steve's got...

...his breakfast now and he's messing around with something on his Surface.  All I've had today is enough squash to take my pills.  I'm predicting that he'll want at least one hot drink before we go and see his family today, but I'll be surviving on water again.  I'm not gonna eat much at lunchtime in case I get travel sick on the way home.  I'll be drinking very little today too 'cos it'll go straight through me 'cos I haven't eaten anything yet today and there will be very little in my belly to soak up the liquid at lunchtime too.  Good job I've gone into the red with the calories I've consumed each day this week really, innit.

That's the...

...rubbish and recycling out for another week and my carer getting washed in the kitchen sink again.

I think I can safely add up my carer's caring for this week now... 2 hours and 29 minutes - which is less than I've cared for him this morning alone.  As of last night, my total was 69 hours and 12 minutes for the week, plus my support so far today of 2 hours and 39 minutes, takes my weekly caring total up to 71 hours and 51 minutes, so that's more than double the minimum care needed to be classed as a carer but apparently I do nothing for him and he does everything for me <shrug>  There's no way that he can fit more than 32 hours of care into the 12 hours that I'll be awake, but I started working overtime before 8.30am on Thursday <shrug>

The virus scan has finished and was still clear, reassuringly.

Time to publish this now so that I can put some BO basher on ready for going to see Steve's family again for the third time in 12 days.


Just been to... the watering and the soil is already wet enough, so the Green Man has saved me a job again, so it's time to crack on with the rubbish and recycling now while my carer is having his poo with the bathroom door wide open... he's got no-one but himself to blame if someone sees him <shrug>

Mornin' all

How are you all doing this morning?

I woke up needing a wee before 4.30am and I've been caring for my carer ever since.  I've already taken my morning pills and refilled my reminder box ready for next week... only missed yesterday's and today's lunchtime pills this week, which is pretty good going I reckon.

I'm gonna go and water the plants (NOT seedlings <grin>) for the first time today, then put the rubbish and recycling out, then see if my carer wants any breakfast today.  I won't be eating this morning and very little at lunchtime 'cos I get travel sick too, but that doesn't seem to matter to anyone except me <shrug>

I've just started the virus scan, so that will hopefully have finished by the time I get back in after doing the watering.

Saturday 30 July 2022

Nite nite orl

I'm absolutely shattered so I'm gonna head to bed and try not to throw up while I'm laying down.

Nite nite orl.

Let's try this again shall we?

I've just tried publishing a post but it's showing as a draft so I dunno if it's been published or not.

Basically, I've just taken my last two pills of the day and I'm hoping that they don't kick in soon otherwise I'll be too ill to sleep and be a right bitch tomorrow 'cos I'm so tired.

Pills taken, but I hope...

...they don't kick in any time soon or I'll be too ill to sleep tonight!

Today's (30th July 2022) tea photo

I've eaten 3 times today and should only have eaten once 'cos my body really isn't used to eating so much, so many times!

I've just had a bag of chips and a bit of sweet and sour sauce from a Chinese and they went down so well... I've still got calories in the bank though.  Every day this week has been a red day, calorie wise, so I'm gonna have to restart my laps again next week to take my weight back into the healthy range for my height.  Not gonna be able to eat too much tomorrow now though.

Here's my tea photo:

Feeling incredibly proud of myself right now!

I've just been out to give the plants and seedlings their lunchtime watering and I appear to have grown, since this morning, another 38 Degrees flower... and a kinda poppy flower... as well as a butterfly flower too!

The seedlings obviously aren't seedlings, just very small plants, but I now have at least one flower in each of the three pots so I'm feeling well chuffed with myself!

Just when I'd given up hope of the Amazon seeds ever flowering, the Green Man worked His magic in about 8 hours and gave me my confidence back... I didn't kill any of them, I just needed to be a lot more patient!

Feeling gooood now!

Today's (30th July 2022) lunch photo

A simple but very filling lunch today - 2 Linda McCartney vegetarian sausages, 15 Morrisons potato croquettes and some brown sauce to give it a bit of a pop.

I doubt there will be any photos tomorrow 'cos I won't be having breakfast and we're spending the day with my in-laws so I doubt there will be a lunchtime photo and I doubt I'll eat in the evening, so make the most of this last photo of the week.

Here's today's photo:

We're having our...

...third home-cooked meal of the week!  Steve's just put it all into the oven and we're having sausages (veggie ones for me, pork for Steve) and a bag full of potato croquettes as a change from chips!

Can't wait!


Need to use the opportunity of lunch cooking to take my lunchtime pill so that I don't forget.  I'll be missing tomorrow's lunchtime pill 'cos we won't be here, but that'll be the only one I've missed all week!  Need to remember to re-fill the box after I've taken my morning pills tomorrow so that they aren't done in a rush just before I head to bed tomorrow.

Steve's just given me a 10 minute warning, so I'll take it after I've taken our plates through to the kitchen after we've eaten.


Woops!  Forgot to publish this before I went to get our plates to bring in!

We've had our lunch and I'm just nicely full, so gonna put the photo up then water the pots, then carry on watching MasterChef.


Today's (30th July 2022) breakfast photo

I decided to have breakfast this morning after I'd made Steve's for him, just in case we don't have lunch again... he's only made 2 meals for both of us so far this week, and I've made each of the other meals for him - so much for making all my meals for me, eh?

Today's breakfast was just my usual tropical fruits granola and soya milk.  I won't be having anything tomorrow 'cos of spending the day with Steve's family and getting travel sick, so there won't be any photos tomorrow.

Here's today's breakfast photo:

Mornin' all

How are you all doing this morning.

I can already tell that today is gonna be a very much hayfevery day today 'cos Steve's had the window wide open and the fan blowing the pollen around all night.

When he wakes up I'll go and do the watering, then have a shower and make his breakfast for him.  If he falls asleep again then he'll have to look after himself for a change.

I've taken my morning pills and I'm currently updating the apps on my phone and checking my emails, then I've just gotta wait for my carer to wake up for an hour so that I can do the watering and have a shower.

Wanna keep watching MasterChef Australia then MasterChef Canada now that they've available to watch online, I've got courses to study too so I've got things to keep me busy while my carer is asleep.

My daily virus scan was reassuringly clear again this morning, so that's a relief.

Friday 29 July 2022

Nite nite orl

I'm closing down all my programmes and heading to bed for an early night, hopefully.  I'll have cared for my carer for 12 hours today by the time I shut down and head to bed... he's achieved less than 2 hours for the week combined - apparently he does everything to support me though <shrug>

Pills taken, plants and seedlings...

...watered, carer cared for, for over 11 hours and I've gotta drink as little as possible tomorrow so that I don't need a wee while we're with Steve's family again on Sunday for lunch.  We will have seen his family 3 times in 12 days, which is the same as I've seen my mum since July 2010... I saw her at my dad's funeral, again a couple of weeks later, then again in August 2010 with Mitzi and I haven't seen her since.  I wish they were all typos and that I meant 2020 but nope, I haven't seen her for 12 years.  So much for regular visits eh?

Today's (29th July 2022) lunch photo

A gorgeous vegetarian spaghetti bolognaise was provided by my hubby/carer/chef today and it hit the spot for both of us!  It was just Linda McCartney vegemince, frozen red onions, Morrisons tomato and vegetable pasta sauce with, of course, spaghetti.

T'was only 524 calories too and I've got 12 left to eat this afternoon, which I reckon will be taken up with mugs of decaff coffee's 'cos there's no way I can eat anything else now lol

Here's today's photo:

For the second time this week...

...we're having a proper, home-cooked lunch❗❗

Can't wait for it and I'm drooling already 🤤 🤣

That's my...

...lunchtime pill taken and I'm gonna wait for the lunchtime watering until Steve's had his glasses repaired, hopefully while he's cooking our lunch.  It's supposed to be vegetarian spaghetti bolognaise today, but I'm not holding my breath until I get the vegetarian mince and veggies out of the little freezer.

Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh!

I've just been out to give the plants and seedlings their first drink of the day and... drum roll please...


I've got a few small flowers and a cluster of flowers on my Amazon bee plants now too!!!

I could have sworn that they were just gonna be grass instead of flowers, but when I went out to give them their last watering session of the day yesterday, there was one tiny flower just starting to come through which got me really excited and when I opened the back door to give them their first drink of the day just now, I spotted a second flower bud, which got me really excited, I took the water jug out and counted 5 flowers as well as a cluster/head of what I can only describe as more of a rounded cluster of tiny butterfly bush flowers!!!

That's two pots of flowers that I didn't kill this year which is making me tearful with pride as I've never grown flowers from seeds in my life before!!!

Today is gonna be a good day... the new flowers are proof of that!

Morning all

Hrinow are you all doing this morning?

I've already charged up my FitBit and my mobile phone is charging up too.

It looks like Steve bought 12 cookies yesterday afternoon which I'm not happy about at all 'cos I'm predicting at 6.29am that he'll want to have them for his breakfast and/or lunch which means I'll be going hungry yet again.  He tells everyone that he makes all my meals and drinks for me but he's only made one meal so far this week and he hasn't made me a drink (other than bottles of squash) since I started drinking tea and coffee back in 2019 and he's made maybe 4 or 5 since then instead of every drink for me!

I've been working overtime since about 8.30am yesterday and my carer hasn't even made it to 1½ hours all week yet again, so he's still got 33½ hours to make up in 3 days, which is over 11 hours a day to hit the minimum which he's never done before in his life and it'd mean having to do nothing but care for me from 8am to 7.30pm without a break from now until Sunday, which reallistically just won't happen 'cos he's yet to reach that in a month let alone a day and I've got the spreadsheets to prove it since 1st January this year.


Steve's supposed to be getting his glasses fixed again this morning and I'm predicting, at 6.43am, that he'll be fast asleep when they arrive, wake up in a world of confusion (thinking that whatever he was dreaming about is reality), will take several seconds to return to real life then won't be able to find his glasses even though it was him that agreed to the time yesterday.

I've taken my morning pills and set the virus scan running so time to check my email and the forum and stuff now, then get on with the news.

Thursday 28 July 2022

Nite nite orl

I'm determined to have an early night tonight, so after very nearly 44 hours of care this week, I'm gonna shut down and head to bed now.

Nite nite orl.

Today's (28th July 2022) late lunch photo

When Steve (my hubby/carer) said about having a take-away for tea, I wrongly assumed he meant Chinese or a pizza or curry or something equally unhealthy.  When he said about getting a Subway for his tea, my interest was instantly drawn.  After only having the packet of crisps and vegan ice cream yesterday my belly was crying out for something healthy today, so I got Subways crinkle cut wedges with garlic aoli and a Veggie Delite™ salad, along with a couple of vegan cookies.

I've had the wedges and salad which has seriously stuffed me, so I'm gonna leave the cookies to have tomorrow so that I don't make myself ill.  I should have put my "eating trousers" on instead of my new ones that are the next size down - they fit me fine and dandy, except seemingly when I pig out lol

Here are today's photos of my healthy-ish pig out session:

Afternoon all

Sorry I didn't do my normal morning post first thing but my browsers and programmes decided to play games this morning while my monthly virus scan was underway and I was extremely limited in what I could do for those few hours.  I'm back now though for the rest of the day and I've already cared for my carer for almost 5½ hours today.

My carer has had his two meals so far today and all I've had is a Graze punnet and a portion of peanuts.  He's decided that "because it'll be after 6pm when I get home tonight, I'm gonna get a[nother] take-away for my tea tonight" so I'll be getting through today on the 767 calories that I had this morning 'cos there isn't anything else that I can have in the house that doesn't require cooking.  Far from healthy, but it's what I'm forced to put up with.

I've taken my morning pills and watered the plants and seedlings twice today, so I've just gotta spend the rest of the day caring for my carer and using up as few calories as possible so that I don't lose more weight than I lost last week.


We're going over to see Steve's mum and sister for Sunday lunch again this week, which'll mean that we've seen his family the same number of times in 10 days as I've seen my mum since June 2010.


Time to go and fill my glass with pop to try and get another 10 calories inside me... I need all the calories I can get now. 

Wednesday 27 July 2022

Nite nite orl

My carer has just got his tea, so I'm using the opportunity of him being awake to head off to bed for the night.

I took my pills half an hour ago and my body is crying out for an early night, so that's exactly what I'm gonna give it.  I've already cared for my carer for over 33 hours this week, so I'm gonna be working overtime well before 9am tomorrow.

Nite nite orl.

Carer has been...

...asleep since I had my late lunch (ice cream) and I've watered the plants and seedlings, as well as clearing both caches in preparation for tomorrow's monthly scan, so I've just gotta keep on caring for my carer until I head off to beddy-byes.

Lunch is sorted for tomorrow - I've got a pot of peanuts that I can have and Steve's got two appointments tomorrow - he's getting his glasses fixed at some point between 9am and 12pm then he'll want his lunch, then he's got a medical appointment at the end of the afternoon, so I reckon it'll be a low caring day tomorrow, hours-wise, and he'll prolly spend a good chunk of the afternoon asleep again, between getting his glasses mended, having his lunch and his medical appointment.  I'll be working overtime before lunchtime though, but that's cos it's been a pretty low caring week so far this week... it'll be around 33 hours by the time I head to bed and he's put in a 1 hour 17 minute week so far - no care logged today and very unlikely to be any tomorrow either, so he's gotta put in over 11 hours each day from Friday to Sunday to even approach the minimum that he tells everyone he does.

Can you tell it's still a very sore point for me?  lol

Today's (27th July 2022) late lunch photo

I was cold before I had this, but I needed to rapidly increase so I decided to indulge in this as a late lunch.  T'was a gorgeous vegan (ie me-friendly) tub of hazlenut and chocolate cookie ice cream - pure indulgence while my carer was (and still is) asleep.   I've got a mug of decaff coffee to try and warm me back up now lol

Plants and seedlings...

...have got a drink and I'm pondering on not watering them tonight 'cos it's looking like there may be a small shower at some point - not a huge downpour or anything, but potentially enough to see them through the night until their regular morning drink - I'll see what it's like in a few hours before I decide for sure though.

Afternoon pill taken

Just taken my afternoon pill and realised that I've taken each pill at the appropriate time so far this week (and saying that has prolly jinxed things now lol) so my body has got all the goodies it needs to fuction today even though I won't be eating until Friday morning at the earliest now.  It's my monthly virus scan tomorrow so won't be having breakfast again then Steve gets travel sick so will just be having instant soup for his lunch tomorrow, so I won't be eating at all tomorrow and will be forced to have another Graze punnet at best, but will prolly be getting my calories from drinking chocolates alone again.  Far from healthy, but it's better than being totally calorie-free for two days on the trot, right?

That's my carer...

...fed for the second time today and all I've had since yesterday's lunch is a packet of crisps and a Graze punnet.

Backups have been...

...sorted for another week and my carer is wanting his lunch when he's finished in the bathroom, so I've gotta keep my ear on the door while he's in there, then make his lunch for him when he comes out.

I've cared for my carer more this morning alone than he's cared for both of us in the last 2½ weeks so far - I've cared for him for 5 hours and 8 minutes this morning alone compared to 4 hours 47 minutes since 11th July for my carer.

He's back in here now, so I'd best go and make his lunch for him now.


Virus scan showed that...

I'm still free of viruses and malware, so I've started the weekly backups and I've gotta remember not to save anything until it's finished.

My legs are killing me and I'm very unstable, so I won't be able to have any lunch today after I've made my carer's - it'd just be too dangerous to even attempt it.  I've had 6 portions of crisps though, so I won't be going totally hungry today, thankfully.

I'm hoping that I'll be able to get the external hard drive put away before I go and make Steve's lunch for him, so that I don't trip over the wires and have to start the backups from scratch again.  Steve's got a delivery coming this morning which I can guarantee that I'll be answering the door to and bringing in for him 'cos he never wears a t-shirt and freaks out if he has to put a t-shirt on if someone comes to the door while I'm in the bathroom!


I've renewed 5 domains this morning, so that's sorted for the next 12 months now.  Had to take some money out of my savings to cover it, but it's worth it and only happens once a year for each domain name, which is reassuring.

Gonna finish off my glass of water then make a drink for Steve... perish the thought that he goes thirsty!

Mornin' all

So far this morning, I've:

  • started the weekly virus scan
  • taken my first pills of the day
  • did the washing up
  • made breakfast for my carer
  • watered the plants and seedlings (I haven't totally killed the 38 Degrees plant 'cos there are a couple of flowers on the second stem lol)
  • and generally cared for my carer for 1 hour and 36 minutes so far this morning

 My carer has finished his breakfast now and the bowl is sitting on the arm of his chair so I'd better go and take it through to the kitchen before he knocks it off and go and make him his first drink of the day.




Tuesday 26 July 2022

Nite nite orl

I'm absolutely shattered so I'm gonna shut down and have an early night tonight I reckon.

Nite nite orl.

Today's (26th July 2022) lunch photo

After my first breakfast for four days this morning, I had a big lunch too and my stomach was kinda going "what the... ooh!" when I started shovelling the home-made pasta bake into my gob lol.  T'was a huuge 1,354 calories and my hubby/carer/chef is completely zonked out now after being sat in the kitchen for an hour today.  He reckons he's going to have a couple of toasted cheese panini's for his tea, but he's gotta stay awake for long enough to make it first lol

The meals for the next two days are significantly lower calorie and I've got the menu's sorted for the next 3 weeks, so we've just gotta stick to 'em now! lol

Here's today's lunch photo a touch later than usual:

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Today's (26th July 2022) breakfast photo

I haven't had breakfast since 22nd July and we've got pasta bake for lunch, so my calorie count is gonna go through the roof again today, but tomorrow and Thursday are gonna be very low calorie days 'cos we're only having instant soup tomorrow and a MugShot on Thursday so I wanna keep my calorie count as high as possible in preparation.

T'was just tropical fruit granola (more granola than fruit 'cos it was right at the bottom of the bag lol) and soya milk today, but I had a mug of drinking chocolate and I've got a decaff tea on the go now, which has taken my calorie count to 460 so far this morning.

Here's today's breakfast photo:

Mornin' all

How are you all doing on this cool morning?

So far today I've:

  • run this daily virus scan which was reassuringly still clear
  • taken my morning pills
  • put in the grocery order for 4 weeks' time
  • made the wrong hot drink for my carer - woops!
  • done the watering
  • cared for my carer for over an hour

Our groceries are due this morning and I've just had the substitution email come into my inbox, so lets see what is out of stock this morning, shall we?


Everything is in stock except the mince pies lol  We only put them on as a test to see what would happen though - they were available in our favourites list so we bought 'em lol  The total of our groceries today is £45.91 which is better than the £51 they took from my bank account overnight lol

Steve's still up for doing the pasta bake for lunch and because the grated cheese is being delivered today, he's got no excuse really, right?  Gotta remember to adjust the FitBit meal slightly to use a different sauce and grated cheese 'cos it's the cheesy sauce and Sainsbury's grated cheese so hopefully that'll be quick and easy to do.

Gonna go and make my carer's breakfast for him now that he's awake for longer than a couple of minutes.


Monday 25 July 2022

Nite nite orl

I've closed down all my programmes and cared for my carer for 12 hours and 11 minutes today, so I think I've earned a night of sleep now.

Nite nite orl.

Pills taken, gardening done...

...carer supported for over 12 hours today, so now it's time for me to start closing all my programmes and shutting down for the night.

Already managed...

...11 hours and 36 minutes of care for my carer today, so it should be a pretty easy 12 hour day, minimum.

Today's (25th July 2022) lunch photos

I've had waaay to many calories today 'cos of the 2 drinking chocolates for breakfast and the Graze punnet for an early lunch, then a gorgeous Caffe Nero delivery of 2 vegan vegetable sausage rolls, 2 raspberry croissants and, of course, a mocha grande with salted caramel syrup this time.  I'm seriously over budget with my calories now and my stomach is pleading for just water this afternoon lol

Garden watered and...

...I think it's gonna start raining soon - not a heavy shower, but a bit of light rain.

He's starting the week off...

...not wanting to cook already, so it's a good job that my Graze box came through the post today really innit?

"I'm not having 3 pasta dishes in 3 days, so it's Caffe Nero today and definitely pasta bake tomorrow" according to my carer just now, so it's a good job that the pasta bake is high calorie innit!

Lunch today will be my Graze box and multiple mugs of drinking chocolate to stop my belly rumbling with hunger again.

Looks like, yet again...

...Steve wants a take-away for lunch instead of cooking "because we had pasta yesterday" so my calories, yet again, will be coming from drinks so I'll be missing at least 3 meals again this week (today, Wednesday and Thursday).  I'm predicting, at 9.25am, that we won't be having Pasta Bake tomorrow either so that'll be 4 missed lunches, so I'll potentially only eat three meals this week too.  Steve will be having 16 meals and all his drinks made by me again though <shrug>

Achieved quite a lot already this morning!

So far this morning (and in no particular order), I've:

  • taken my morning pills
  • watered the plants and seedlings
  • made breakfast and a hot drink for my carer
  • run the virus scan (still clear)
  • weighed myself (I've lost 550g in 7 days)
  • downloaded, coded and uploaded the FitBit spreadsheet
  • schmoozed with the recycling collector
  • put the recycling containers away

I've already cared for my carer for 2 hours and 48 minutes, so I'm already half way to doing the minimum care for the day and it's only 8.45am... I reckon today is gonna be another day of lots of caring for my carer.

Gonna go and make myself another drinking choccie while I wait for the rubbish to be collected so that I can schmooze with them too then make a start on the news.

Mornin' all

How are you all doing this morning?

I've already been for 2 poo's, taken my morning pills, started off the virus scan, and cared for my carer for almost an hour.  He wants a hot drink first, then his breakfast, so I'm already predicting, at 6.55am, that he won't be cooking lunch so I'll have to get my calories from drinking chocolates yet again.

Steve's typing something out on his Surface so I'm gonna go and water the plants and seedlings while he's doing that, then fill the kettle ready for when he decides that he wants his first hot drink of the day.



I've just been out to do the watering (I forgot to publish this before I started) and the one and only set of flowers have pretty much totally come off the stalk!  It'll just take a small gust of wind and it'll be totally detached!  😢 😭

I'm still proud that I managed to grow it from seed at all, but I haven't seen any bees using it so I'm also slightly disappointed too.

Time to go and make my carer's hot drink then his breakfast now I guess.

Sunday 24 July 2022

Nite nite orl

I can cross the final couple of things off my to-do list and head off to beddy-byes now.  


Nite nite orl.

Pills taken, so almost...

...completed today's to-do list - all that's left to cross off is the Olio collection and going to bed lol

Another thing crossed of the to-do list

Just done the washing up, so now my to-do list looks like this:

  • finish charging up my FitBit
  • do the washing up
  • make Steve's tea for him 

Now I can recover for half an hour, then I need to:

  • wait for someone from Olio to turn up for a tin of veg hoops 
  • prepare next weeks caring spreadsheets 
  • take my pills
  • fall into bed

4-1 to Steve

I've just make Steve's tea for him which is his fourth meal of the day so now I've just gotta wait for him to finish eating so that I can do the washing up.  I've managed to cross three things off this evenings to-do list though, so that's OK.

So now I've gotta: 

  • finish charging up my FitBit
  • do the washing up
  • make his tea for him 

then I can spend about an hour recovering while I:

  • wait for someone from Olio to turn up for a tin of veg hoops 
  • prepare next weeks caring spreadsheets 
  • take my pills
  • fall into bed

He wants his tea at...

..."about 5 o'clock and can it be ham, cheese and mustard?"

So I've gotta: 

  • finish charging up my FitBit
  • do the washing up
  • make his tea for him 

then I can spend about an hour recovering while I:

  • wait for someone from Olio to turn up for a tin of veg hoops 
  • prepare next weeks caring spreadsheets 
  • take my pills
  • fall into bed

My carer has cared for me for 2 hours and 7 minutes this week, so only 33 hours short again this week.  I've already cared for my carer for almost 9 hours today alone and over 80 hours this week, but apparently I'm not the carer and do nothing to support him <shrug>

My FitBit is fully charged now so I'd best reattach it to my ankle and go and make my carer's tea for him so that I can do the washing up when he's finished eating, I guess <sigh>

3-1 to Steve

I had my first meal of the day at lunchtime and Steve had his third and he'll be wanting his fourth meal of the day within the next hour or so which he'll want me to make for him, so by the time I go to bed it'll be 4-1 to Steve in about 10 hours today.  Tomorrow will be pretty similar except that he won't be making my meal - just supervising and instructing me and he'll have at least one meal before lunch.  He's had about 25 meals this week and I've had 2, yet apparently he makes all of my meals and drinks for me and he's the carer do provides well over 35 hours of care a week <shrug>

Today's (24th July 2022) lunch photo

We had vegetarian spaghetti bolognaise for lunch today and it was really yummy!  We finished off the vegemince and the spaghetti, used a good amount of frozen sliced red onions and a jar of tomato and garlic pasta sauce, with a decent sprinkling of Italian seasoning which gave it more of a pop and we're both sat here burping now lol

Here's today's lunch photo:

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2-0 to Steve

Steve's tucking into the bag of peanuts and he's already had his breakfast, so he's eaten double the amount of times I've eaten so far today.  I bet he'll fill up on the peanuts then be too full to even cook let alone a proper meal at lunchtime.  He's just given me the bag back so I'm gonna chow down on them too, so that I get at least *something* solid in my belly today if my carer decides against cooking again.

Potentially missing...

...three meals next week.  My carer will be eating at least twice (usually three times) every day, but I will potentially be going hungry on Wednesday, Thursday and Sunday 'cos they are on the menu as meals that I can make and it won't be safe for me to stay on my feet to make anything for myself after I've made my carer's second meal each day.  I'm potentially making tomorrow's lunch too, so I'll hopefully be eating tomorrow if I put enough pasta into the pan for both of us, but if Steve's especially hungry (like this morning with his breakfast) then he'll have half of my meal too.  I'll just have to try and motivate him to make Tuesday's (Pasta Bake), Friday's (sausages, chips and veg) and Saturday's (spaghetti bolognaise) lunches, but I'm predicting right now at 9.47am that he'll come up with an excuse not to make them for us, so I'll have to make him a sandwich and go hungry those days too.

If my prediction turns out to be true, Steve'll be eating 21 times (or more if he has snacks and take aways) and I'll potentially only be eating 4 times but it's more likey I'll be eating once, if that, so I'll need to resort to bread 'n' spread so that I don't get underweight again.  Gotta save the bread for Steve's tea though, so potentially not even that... could just be several drinking chocolates a day to increase my calories, which I ain't happy about.

So much for "I make all her meals and drinks for her" eh?

Radio on, carer fed... I've just gotta keep an eye on him so that he doesn't fall asleep mid-mouthful, drop his dish and choke.

It's about 50/50 about lunch atm 'cos my carer is still saying he's gonna do it, but wants me to monitor the spaghetti and frying pan when he's got it going (potentially so that he can go for another poo), so it's still possibly gonna happen, bu is in no way a certainty.

I've got chilled cream soda on the go this morning and it's sooo yummy!  Like a liquid Mr Whippy ice cream from the van at my grandparents house back when I was a small child lol

Gardening done and dusted...

...drinking chocolate in my hands and amazingly my carer turned the fan off, so I stand a small chance of warming up without having to resort to my coat now!  When my carer wakes up I'll go and make his breakfast for him.  I'm bordering on predicting that he won't cook today so I'll have to get my calories from drinking chocolates again, but I'll wait until he's had his breakfast before I officially make that prediction.

Mornin' all

How are you all doing this morning?

I'm freezy cold and riddled with hayfever 'cos the window is wide open and the fan is blowing the pollen from the window, straight at me so today is gonna be another sneezing, sniffing, eyes itchy and watering, throat scratchy day today but as long as Steve's alright Jack, that's all that matters eh?

I'm gonna go and water the plants and make myself a drinking choccie soon so that I can start bringing my body temperature up above freezing again.  I'm pondering on putting my coat on to prove my point too, but we shall see.

I've taken my morning pills and cared for my carer for almost an hour already this morning, which is just under ⅔ of what he's done for me all week combined so far.  Like I think I said last night, there's no way for him to achieve the minimum required now 'cos I'm only gonna be down here for 13-14 hours and he needs to cram more than 30 hours of care into that time before he even approaches the minimum.  I easily sailed through the minimum on Wednesday and have been working overtime ever since.  Even if I let Steve borrow my overtime to make his minimum, I'd still be working overtime... apparently I'm not the carer though <shrug>

I've cared for my carer for an hour now this morning, so I'm gonna go and do the watering then make his breakfast for him.


Can someone remind me to put the rubbish and recycling out after lunch today please?  It won't go out and get collected early tomorrow morning if I don't which'll be my fault!! 

Almost forgot to set the virus scan running lol


Saturday 23 July 2022

Nite nite orl

...I'm about to head to bed so I'll see you all in the morning.

Nite nite orl.

Just taken my pills and...

...I'm gonna start shutting down and have a well-deserved early night tonight I think.  I'm just over the 10 hours today now, so I can go to bed in the knowledge that I've now worked over 71 hours this week.  It's not gonna be an 85 hour week this week, but an 80 hour week should still be achievable 'cos it's less than 9 hours away, so maybe an 82-ish hour week by the time I head to bed tomorrow??

I don't reckon my carer will manage much more than 2 hours for this week 'cos he's only managed 93 minutes of care this week so there's no way he can cram 33½ hours into a 24 hour day, and I'll be asleep for at least 8 of 'em with any luck, which takes it down to 16 hours which is less than half of what he's got left to do to meet the minimum so it's another week of him claiming credit for things he doesn't even approach doing in a quarter of the year, let alone a week!!

I'm sure you're all bored of that rant by now though, so I'm gonna sort out the spreadsheet and then head off to beddy-byes I reckon.

Just been out to...

...give the plants and seedlings their final drink for the day and made another hot drink for Steve.  I've just got 750 steps left to do before midnight and I'll have just about beaten Tuesday's steps.


I'm absolutely shattered today, but that's prolly 'cos I only had 7 hours and 32 minutes of sleep overnight and the stresses and strains of the last couple of weeks hasn't helped either.


I'm on track for hitting the 10 hours at around the time I take my evening pills, which'll mean that I've smashed 70 hours this week and I've just gotta put in another 10 hour day tomorrow to have hit 80 hours this week.  I'm listening to my body though and won't force it to do things it's not safe to do this week.


My carer has only managed 93 minutes of care this week, so there's no way that he can hit the minimum yet again.  On a good caring week I get 3 hours out of him, which is less than 10% of what he tells everyone he does, but I usually hit the minimum by Wednesday lunchtime and more than double it by the time I head to bed on a Sunday.  I'm not the carer and do nothing to support him though, apparently <shrug> 

I've messed around with out grocery orders for the next 4 weeks so that we can start stocking the freezer with easy meals like lasagnes and hash browns an things that can just be shoved into the oven for half an hour while my carer goes for a poo.

It's vegetarian spag bol tomorrow and pasta bake at some point next week 'cos we got the sauce this week and the grated cheese is on Tuesday's order... assuming that it doesn't get substituted with oven cleaner or whatever 😏

My hayfever hasn't been too bad today and I think we've had the best of Summer now 'cos it's considerably cooler outside now, than it has been for a good few weeks.

This blog post is waaay too long, so I'm gonna publish it now and leave you all in peace for a little while now.


Today's (23rd July 2022) lunch photo

Steve fancied trying something different and spotted the cheese, leek and onion plaits by Linda McCartney and I stupidly didn't think to check the ingredients before they arrived.  I took the boxes out of the freezer for lunch and read the ingredients - they've got my allergen in them 3 times, so Steve cooked all four plaits and had two for his lunch and he's gonna have the other two for his tea.  I just had a plateful of chips for my lunch and I'm 359 calories under budget, so I'm gonna have to have another serving of peanuts and another mug of drinking chocolate this afternoon so that I don't go significantly under my calorie budget for the 4th time this week.

Here's today's lunch photo:

Yet again...

...Steve didn't check the ingredients of something new that he put on this week's shop.  He fancied trying the Linda McCartney plaits so he put 2 boxes on the order and because they are Linda McCartney, he assumed that they would be me friendly without even glancing at the ingredients.

It's got my allergen in it 3 times, so he's having 4 portions of plaits and the majority of the chips while I'm left with just chips again.

Looks like I'll be relying on drinking chocolates and peanuts to increase my calorie count yet-a-fucking-gain.

Steve's had 16 full meals so far this week (lunch is his 17th) and I've had one - nope, not a typo, I really do mean one single meal (or 2 if you include last nights take-away) all week.  He'd never let me hear the end of it if I didn't make each meal for him, yet seems to get away with making a maximum of 3 a week for me.

He's just given me a 10 minute warning for lunch, so I'd best publish this and put it on the floor.


I'll just leave this quote here...

"In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends."
~ Martin Luther King, Jr


Someone was supposed to come over to pick up 2 litres of Steve's milk yesterday, but they forgot and we rearranged it for this morning.  Fair enough.  With literally 5 minutes to go of the time slot they promised, they sent me a message to say that they wouldn't be over after all, so I've just had to tip 2 litres of milk down the sink and waste £4.40.


Not a happy bunny at all.

I'm predicting, at 10.04am that Steve won't fancy cooking lunch again today either, so I'll be left to go hungry for the 4th day this week, yet he's eaten 3 meals a day, every day so far this week.  So much for making all my meals and drinks for me eh?

Today's (23rd July 2022) breakfast photo

Today is obviously gonna be a chocolatey day for me 'cos I had 2 of Subways vegan chocolate cookies and a 500ml bottle of Pepsi Max cherry for my breakfast that were left over from last nights take-away tea and Steve (my hubby/carer) has just said that I should start the day off with a drinking chocolate too lol  Basically, 3 servings of chocolate before 8am lol  I'm not complaining though - I can't wait!

Here's today's breakfast photo:

Mornin' all

I'm actually really surprised (in a positive way) with how well I feel this morning!  Considering 2 and 3 days ago I couldn't even keep water in my belly, I've now discovered that I can eat a light meal in the evenings and keep it down, which means I'm all up for trying toasted sandwiches for occasional teas when I need to increase my calories like I did yesterday!  They won't be huge meals, just bread 'n' spread or toasted sandwiches or something else that's light and easy to digest as well as being high in calories (thanks to the spread), but I won't be rejecting meals after 5pm any more!


I think, between us last night, me an' 'im worked out that whatever changes in cheese when it is heated/melted is what I'm allergic to, 'cos I can have pizzas and pasta bake and spag bol with melted cheese and it barely affects me, but just the merest nibble of unmelted or 'plastic' cheese messes me up for days afterwards!  I know that it's not the lactose in it, 'cos I can't have lactose free milk without an allergic reaction (I tried just the merest hint on the tip of my tongue when I accidentally spilt some onto my thumb and it sent me rushing to the bathroom within seconds) but whatever it is, I'll keep on avoiding it at every opportunity.  After my reaction on Wednesday, I know to keep on avoiding butter too, 'cos the sandwiches affected me too and I couldn't eat until Thursday afternoon, so I'll keep on avoiding that too.  Thankfully the allergic reaction is letting me eat small amounts now, so I'm just gonna take it steady with what I eat today and tomorrow, then hopefully be back to normal again on Monday.

I've already taken my morning pills, run the virus scan (which was, thankfully, still clear), done the gardening for the first time today, had my breakfast (2 of Subways vegan chocolate chip cookies and a bottle of Pepsi Max cherry) and I've updated my VPN, so I'm all set for the day now.

I've taken a photo of my oh so healthy (not!) breakfast so I'll put that up now then take Steve's empty bowl through to the kitchen.


Friday 22 July 2022

Nite nite orl

My eyelids are rapidly drooping, so I think it's time to head off to beddy-byes for the night.  I'll be back in the morning and hoping that the person coming to pick up Steve's milk actually turns up tomorrow lol

Nite nite orl.

Just taken my pills and...

...I'm gonna start shutting down all my programmes now lol  Hoping I'll be asleep before 9pm tonight, but we shall see!

Today's (22nd July 2022) tea photo

So much for not eating in the evenings eh? lol  I've just been persuaded to have a take-away tea in celebration of some good news that my hubby had yesterday, which means I've had 3 meals and 2 snacks today and I'm 896 calories over budget, which is reassuring after barely eating for most of the week!

I had a Subway regular crinkle cut wedges with garlic aoli and a bottle of Pepsi Max cherry and I've already got tomorrow's breakfast sorted in 2 vegan chocolate chip cookies.  I was tempted to have the cookies tonight too, but I really would feel sick when I went to bed tonight then!

It'll be interesting to see how full I still feel when I wake up and come downstairs tomorrow after 3 meals and 2 snacks today!  Assuming I don't feel too bad when I eventually lay down and fall asleep tonight, I'm wondering if I should now make tea a regular feature on the days when I need to increase my calories?  It won't be heavy meals and I'll have late nights when I have them, but it'll hopefully put less stress on me to consume as many calories as I need to without having to resort to drinking chocolates to get my calorie count up.

I'd love to hear your opinions on this!

Here's today's tea photo:

Thank you Green Man!

Just been to grab my stick and the jug to water the plants and seedlings and was wondering why I needed to turn on the hall and kitchen lights to reliably see at 5.30pm... turns out it's been raining a touch.  Far from a downpour, but enough to water the plants and seedlings on my behalf... thank you Green Man!  Maybe He had got together with Gaia (my Goddess) and decided it'd be better for me not to bend over too much this evening so that I didn't get to re-visit my lunch 🤮 lol

I've closed the back door now and just letting my body digest as much of the food I've given it today as possible.  I didn't have a drinking choccie after all but that's OK... I've had my chocolate fix for today and I'm overbudget with my calories so I'll leave off now and have it tomorrow instead now that I've scoffed the other half a packet of biscuits for brunch lol


I've had a Nectar card for over 15 years and I'd been building up a few quid here and there to save for buying things on eBay.

I knew I had pennies over £56 in my account, so was gonna treat myself to a few size 10 clothes on eBay this afternoon.

I logged into my account and discovered that £50 of it had been spent at a petrol station in a place I'd never even heard of, so I got straight onto the live chat and 10 minutes later it was completely resolved, my account closed, new account opened, card ordered and points transferred and hopefully refunded within the next 15 days!

If Nectar can do that in 10 minutes, why does it take other places days (looking at you, Tesco) or even weeks (looking at you, Boots) to just send out a replacement card??

They are definitely gonna be getting more of my custom now!

Plants and seedlings watered...

...but because of the huuuuge lunch I've just had, I've decided against taking my lunchtime pill so that it doesn't make a reappearance rapidly afterwards.  It's the first pill I've missed all week though, so that's OK.

This mornings cluster of pink butterfly flowers are still holding in there and I think I've worked out what happens with the heads falling off the 38 Degrees bee flowers... maybe they get too hot or dehydrated (or naturally fall off) because of the temperatures out there for the last week or so?  They reappear from a totally new bud in exactly the same place 2 days later, so maybe that particular plant naturally moults it's flowers after a few days?  Do flowers naturally do that or am I making things up?  lol

Today's (22nd July 2022) lunch photo

Cor lummy I'm stuffed now!

I've eaten more calories today for my breakfast, morning snacks and now my lunch than I have all week combined... and my belly is currently telling me that I've seriously overdone it food-wise today lol

Lunch today was 2 Linda McCartney vegetarian sausages, chips, mixed veg and a squirt of brown sauce.

Apparently I've already got my "eating trousers" on because it's an elasticated (as opposed to button) waistband, but I'm thinking I should have worn one of my older pairs of trousers that are the next size up instead of these!

I'm gonna be burping all afternoon now lol

2 x YES!

First "YES!" is because we're having a home-cooked meal for the first time this week and thanks to my biscuit binge and breakfast this morning, the second "YES!" is that I'll be 427 calories over budget when I've scoffed my lunch so it won't be so vital that I have the drinking chocolate this afternoon, but if the chocaholic in me is too hard to resist then I won't deny myself either.

I can stop worrying now lol

Increasing my calorie count again

I'm chomping my way through another few Bourbon creams as a pre-lunch snack to try and get my calorie count even higher after the last 3 days of barely eating.  I wanna turn my FitBit app as red as possible today to try and make up for it - far from healthy, but this has been a stressful couple of weeks for Steve and his family so I've been focussed more on supporting them than eating properly.  I'm hoping that we can start getting back into cooking and eating properly now though... I'm not gonna force the issue, just saying no to take-aways so often again.


Just finished my 12th biscuit of the morning and emptied the packet, so there are obviously 20 biscuits in each packet 'cos I risked trying 8 yesterday along with my hot chocolate while Steve was at his medical appointment.  I've consumed 1,255 calories this morning and FitBit is telling me that I've got 90 left to go to turn the graph green, so it'll hopefully be pretty easy to turn it red after lunch, then a couple of drinking chocolates this afternoon will hopefully send it through the roof.


Book Review: "This Is Your Own Time You’re Wasting" by Lee Parkinson and Adam Parkinson

⭐⭐⭐⭐ out of 5

If you've read any of my other recent book reviews, you'll already know that I start them all in the same way:  each book starts off with the full 5 stars and I'm always hopeful that they are all still firmly in place by the time I close the cover.

Let's get going, shall we?

I'm loving the first part of the book - except for the font bit... it's all the same font for me!

Noooo!  They've done it again!  My sense of fair play to other books I've read and reviewed is saying that the star needs to come off 'cos of all the uses of brand names but my enjoyment level is already through the roof, just like with their first book, but fair play is an unfortunate necessity so the star is coming off for using big brand names potentially without permission... I'm seriously hoping that it'll be the only star to come off though!

That chapter was perfect - memories of my childhood primary school (as well as the ones I've worked in) have been put together that I couldn't help grinning and nodding a few times lol

Another fantastic chapter and my mood is already considerably lighter!  I wish I'd started reading it this morning!

This book is already a must-read for everyone who has a soft-spot for primary school aged children and the teachers who are with them - I'm still chuckling and nodding lol

Oh dear, I've got a very childish sense of humour with the end of that chapter lol

I've stopped reading for the night now, but I can't wait to keep reading tomorrow!

Back now and that chapter was just what I needed to lift my spirits... I've had a couple of those experiences in my own time working with children, so can totally relate lol

Oh dear - that part has made me glad I've been vegetarian for the last 30-odd years!  lol  You *have* to get and read this book!

Blimey Charlie... this definitely ain't a book for those who are easily embarrassed by the anatomy of a horse lol  I'm loving this book though!

Oh dear!  I'm glad I've never been given anything as embarrassing as that!  lol

Oh yeah, I've had the first two of those scenarios in my time working with children lol  Disgusting and stomach churning, but that's what makes them, them!

That chapter was particularly gross, but I learnt the hard way about plastic chairs in my youth too... I'm sure a lot of adults cringe about their own childhood woopsies lol

I'm relieved I haven't had any injuries like those during my time working... the professionalism was incredible by so many of those teachers and they managed to swallow their pain so that they didn't scare the children they were working with!

I've stopped reading for the night again 'cos my Kindle is desperately short of juice, but I'll start reading and continuing this review in the morning.

Mornin' again all.  Time to crack on with reading and continuing to review this incredible book!

I'm not gonna comment on most chapters today 'cos this review is already getting too long so it has the potential to almost double in length 'cos of where I am in the book, so I'll just comment on particularly noteworthy today  ;-)

Oooh they were a good few chapters and I'm glad I'm not qualified to work with some of the older students lol

According to that list, my hubby and I should be in great demand with our next jobs lol

Just finished reading and my back is killing me (my own fault for slouching all morning lol) and it's another incredible book... if it hadn't been for my sense of fair-play kicking in early on, this would definitely have been a 5 star book.  A definite must-read for anyone who loves children and doesn't always appreciate the dedication of their teachers.  This is a definite must-read book!

Today's (22nd July 2022) breakfast photo

I had a huuuge breakfast this morning after barely eating this week and there didn't seem any point in leaving just a small amount in the container, so I had a big breakfast so that I could start to make up for the significant calories I've missed out on Tuesday to Thursday.


Gardening done, so now...'s time to make my carer's breakfast for him!

I've now got a small bunch of flowers on the Amazon butterfly plant, so hopefully the butterflies will start visiting that too... I'm not holding out much hope, but it's there for them if they want it now.

Mornin' all

How are you all doing this morning?

It's gonna be a high pollen count today 'cos I've already started sniffing and sneezing, my eyes are itching and watery and my body aches all over so if I'm being affected so badly before 7am, imagine what it'll be like later on when all the flowers have woken up!!

I've already taken my morning pills and cared for my carer for over 90 minutes, so when he's finished getting washed at the kitchen sink, I'll go and make his breakfast for him.  It seems like he's still up for cooking our lunch for us today, which'll be the first time this week.

I've got someone coming over from Olio to pick up Steve's milk today and I've gotta water the plants and seedlings when I can get to the kitchen sink which'll send my hayfever through the roof, then I've gotta carry on reading and reviewing a book that I'm really enjoying.


The virus scan was reassuringly clear and yesterday mornings backups were all there so I didn't need to restart the backups again this morning, thankfully

Enough whining about my hayfever for now though lol

Thursday 21 July 2022

Nite nite orl

I'm absolutely shattered, so I'm gonna head to bed to try and get a little bit extra sleep tonight that I missed last night.

I'll be back in the morning.

Nite nite orl.

Gardening finished for the day, pills...

...popped, so now I just need to start shutting down and hopefully have an early night tonight to make up for last night.  I'm hoping I'll remember to say goodnight to you all tonight, but just in case I forget, I'll say nite nite two ewe orl now.

Steve's just got back from...

...his medical appointment with some incredible news and I'm so so proud of him for achieving it!

I won't break his trust in me but my heart is absolutely bursting with pride... especially the last few weeks that he's had!

WTG Steve!!!  💗💗💗

The healing power of...


I've had 8 Bourbon Creams and I'm gradually slurping my way down a drinking chocolate... I still don't feel well, but I am considerably better than I was an hour ago!  I reckon that part of the nausea was extreme hunger because I've eaten so little this week.  I'm not gonna take any risks for the rest of the day, but know that I can (hopefully) keep chocolate biscuits and drinking chocolate in my stomach now.

My total calorie count for the week... far remains at 2,149 calories for the last 4 days combined, which is about 600 calories more than I should have eaten in a single day as opposed to 4 days.  Steve's eaten that just for his lunch each day but I've been calorie free on two days (Tuesday and today), not even reaching 500 calories yesterday and it's looking likely that I won't be eating for the rest of the week either, thanks to Steve having leftovers from yesterday and me having nothing.  Again.

Apparently he makes all my meals and drinks for me though <shrug>

I was wrong, I'm sorry

Steve's just gone out to do the washing up then he'll get washed, so I've got about 10 or 15 minutes to recover from being on my feet all day yesterday, the nausea from the allergic reaction and the pain that I'm currently feeling throughout my body.

Gardening done, pills popped...

...backups almost finished, so I'd best go and do the washing up so that I can make Steve's breakfast for him now, 'cos he won't do it, then will make me feel guilty for not making it for him and how hungry he is before I make his lunch for him, then he'll go on about how thirsty he is so I'll have to make him drinks all afternoon until he goes for his appointment when I'll have to do the washing up before he gets home, ready to make his tea for him.

Basically, today, like every day, is gonna be about what Steve wants rather than what is best for my health.

Backups have finished now, so time to go and do the washing up then Steve's breakfast.

Mornin' all

Jeez I feel rough.

Not from a hangover (I haven't even looked at alcohol for over 2 decades and I've never been drunk in my life - never seen the appeal), but it's still the allergic reaction from yesterday.

So far this week, all I've eaten is a vegan sausage, bean and cheese melt, a vegan sausage roll (both on Monday) and half a sandwich yesterday and going by previous allergic reactions, I very much doubt I'll be eating any more than crystalised ginger and drinking anything other than ginger beer and water at least until the weekend, then it'll be bread and vegan spread for a few days before I gingerly start eating again.

In the last 8 hours (ie, for his tea after I'd gone to bed), Steve's had 8 sandwiches, 2 mini pork pies and 4 cupcakes on top of what he had at his mum's yesterday and his breakfast in the morning.

I'll have to go and make him his breakfast now that he's woken up too while I miss my 4th breakfast of the week.

That's a point... I won't even be able to have bread 'n' spread when the allergic reaction starts to ease 'cos I've gotta save it for all of Steve's sandwiches. He uses up at least 4 slices per meal and because it's unlikely that I'll be eating before the weekend, it's gonna be at least 8 slices a day and there are only 10 slices per loaf, so I won't even be able to have that until Tuesday when we get more bread.

I've gotta limit my ginger consumption too 'cos there are only 7 cans of ginger beer and 1⅓ tiny tubs of crystalised ginger that have gotta last me until Steve's mum goes shopping again on Saturday.  Basically I'm gonna be left feeling as rough as chuff and going hungry when I eventually start to recover.  As long as Steve's alright though, that's all that matters, right?

I'm currently doing the back-ups that I didn't do yesterday and I've gotta go out and do the watering before Steve gets washed in the kitchen sink too, so I'd best go and do that now before I forget and I'll just have to hope that the bending over isn't too much for my stomach to cope with.

I've got a book to keep reading and reviewing too, so I'll get started on that when the backups have finished so I'll hopefully have enough to keep my mind off the grottiness.

I'm gonna take as few pills as possible today 'cos I don't wanna make my body work any harder than necessary to process anything that goes into my stomach.

Time to go and do the watering before Steve decides that he wants to get washed in the middle of the session.


Wednesday 20 July 2022

Nite nite orl

My Fitbit is pestering me to head to bed, so that's where I'm orf to now.

I'll be back at some point tomorrow.

Nite nite orl.

Back now and...

...all I've eaten for the last 2 days is half a sandwich at lunch today which I'm having an allergic reaction to, so my entire calorie count for the rest of the week will come from crystalised ginger and ginger beer while my body recovers.  


I'm assuming I'll have lost at least a kilo of weight by the time I weigh myself on Monday 'cos of eating so little for the last 2 days and potentially spending the rest of the week hogging the toilet bowl.  Even the smell of Steve cooking for himself for the rest of the week will send me spewing so he won't cook for himself and end up laying a mammoth guilt trip on me about not wanting to cook/eat if I don't, but it's too late to worry about that now.

Aksherly, I'm gonna weigh myself now, just out of interest, to see how much I've already lost!


I've already lost 2kg since Monday and I'm now underweight from eating so few calories, so it's gonna have to be bread and allergen free spread when I've recovered to try and increase my weight back up to the minimum it should be, but after I've made Steve's breakfast every morning, I honestly dunno if I'll be able to stay upright for long enough to make anything for myself... as long as Steve gets to eat though, that's all that matters, right?

Gardening done, pill popped... I can, in theory at least, shut down now and just wait for the phone call to say that Steve's sister is on her way - which has literally just happened lol.  Apparently they are leaving at 2.15pm so will be here at about 2.30pm then it's all systems go for support for them all.  I'm gonna stay online until about 2.20pm then go for a wee and head on out.

Dunno if I'll make another blog post before then, so I'm gonna say TTFN to you all now and I'll be back as soon as I can.

Time to...

...go and give the plants and seedlings their second watering of the day while Steve's having a wee - gotta make the most of these times 'cos I reckon he'll be asleep again within minutes of coming back in here lol

Virus scan finished now and found...

...that my laptop is still free of nasties, which is reassuring.  I won't start the backups until we get home otherwise I can see us needing to leave before it's finished which will frustrate me and put me in a bad (as opposed to supportive) mood all afternoon lol

I can check my emails for the first time today now though, thankfully.


...considerably cooler outside this morning, than it has been for the last couple of days, thankfully.  I went out to water the plants and seedlings and the water didn't instantly disappear, thankfully, like it has for the last couple of days... it still disappeared quickly, but nowhere near as rapidly as yesterday and the day before.

I'm hoping we won't be picked up until after lunch today, so that I can give them their lunch-time watering too, then that'll be it until this evening then.

Mornin' all

How are you all doing this morning?

So far today I've taken my morning pills, started off the virus scan and cared for my carer for almost an hour.  When he wakes up I'll go and make his breakfast for him.  I'm gonna go and water the plants and seedlings when I've published this too.

I'm hoping to read a few more chapters of yesterday's book too, but it's gonna be a weeeeird day today and I'm gonna be out of the house and on my feet for most of the day while I support my hubby and his family.

My carer has just woken up and decided he's "going for a poo - I may be some time, then I'll have me wash [in the kitchen sink]" so now seems like a good opportunity to publish this then go and do the watering.


Tuesday 19 July 2022

Nite nite orl

I'm orf to beddy-byes now and won't be around for long tomorrow, so I'll see you when I see you!

Nite nite orl.

Plants and seedlings are now...

...watered for the third and final time today, so I can carry on reading until I need to take my last pills of the day, hopefully read another chapter or two then head to bed for the night.

This is a fantastic book that I wish I'd started reading earlier on in the day!

Plants and seedlings are now...

...hydrated until about 6pm tonight.

I saw my first bee on the 38 Degrees flowers!!  S/he was just a little tiny thing, no bigger than a bluebottle, but hopefull s/he will tell his/her friends that there is some juicy nectar available now!


Some kind of bird has been visiting the bowl of water too, 'cos there's a huuuge poo down the inside of the bowl... ewww!  lol

Lunchtime pill is now...

...down the hatch and my carer has eaten his lunch while I've missed my third meal in 24 hours 'cos I haven't eaten since lunchtime yesterday.  It's too hot for a hot drink and there are too many empty calories in pop, so I'll be drinking water and surviving on the 24 calories (nope, not a typo, I really do mean twenty-four calories) from this mornings bottle of pop.  Far from healthy, but I don't have a choice 'cos my carer has refused to cook lunch since the spag bol on Saturday.  Apparently my carer "makes all her meals and drinks for her" though, which is absolute bollocks, and I've got proof of his lies now too.

Yesterday's prediction at...

...12.51pm was absolutely spot on.  Apparently "it's too hot to cook again" so he's having ham sandwiches made by me and my entire day's calories will come from drinks.  Again.

I'm predicting, at 8.58am that it'll be the same tomorrow too... my MIL and SIL are getting vegetarian sandwiches for me which is great, but if there's any butter on them I won't be able to have any more than a mouthful before it messes me up for days afterwards, so tomorrow is a potentially calorie-free day too 'cos I won't be able to eat anything until I've recovered from the potential allergic reaction, which could take up to the weekend, then it'll just be bread and spread for a few days before I can eat properly again.  Basically, I could potentially not be eating anything at all until the weekend because of what Steve and his family want, without giving two hoots about my allergic reaction and vegetarian-ness.

Review: SYROKAN Women's High Impact Sports Bra

⭐ out of 5

This is a dangerous product to be advertised as a post surgery support workout bra - unless the surgery is for an ingrown toenail of course!

I got out of the shower and tried for a good 10-15 minutes to put it on without any luck.  In the end I resorted to a very old bra and asked my hubby to do it up.  He spent an extra 15 minutes trying to do it up and putting it in all directions.  By the time I'd got dressed (and sweaty and in a bad mood) he'd managed to zip it up, but even he said that it was "impossible to do up if you were already in it!"

It's getting a single star review from me and I'm putting it on Freegle as opposed to sending it back and getting a refund 'cos my disability makes that impossible too.

Basically, save your money and get a bra that doesn't make dangerous claims.

Mornin' all

How are you doing this morning?

I've already had my shower in preparation for tomorrow and I'm about to leave a single star review for my newest bra.  The trousers will only be getting a 3 star review 'cos they need to be dry-cleaned which I didn't know before I bought them, so I basically wasted £40 on things that I can't even wear once and a pair of trousers that are only wearable for one day.  I'm officially back to being size 10 now though!!!


I've watered the plants and seedlings, had a shower, taken my morning pills and made Steve's breakfast for him - he is the only one eating breakfast though 'cos there was only one clean bowl and spoon left... I just hope he cooks for lunch, otherwise this is a potentially calorie free day 'cos I won't be able to drink much after lunchtime 'cos of one of my diagnoses in preparation for tomorrow.  It'll be the same again tomorrow for the same reason too, so I'm potentially going without food and liquid (other than to take my pills) for the next 30 hours, but as long as Steve's fed and watered, that's OK right?

Our groceries are due this morning and I'm hoping someone will be coming from Olio at some point so that I can get rid of ⅓ of Steve's milk supply (he's got 6 litres in the fridge atm and I'm gonna be getting rid of 2 of them by the end of the day).

I've just started the virus scan so hopefully that'll be clear again.

Time to get on with reviewing the bra now, before I forget!

Monday 18 July 2022

Nite nite orl

I titled my previous blog post wrong lol

I'm heading off to beddy-byes now, hopefully in a cooler bedroom 'cos I put the fan on while I was sorting out my clothes for tomorrow... only several hours late lol  I'm gonna disappear and enjoy it now though.

Nite nite orl.

Pills taken, starting to close things down... that I can head to bed for the night before it gets too late tonight.

Given the...

...plants and seedlings their last drink of the day and got myself a glass of water while my carer finishes off his lunch (that was sent as a substitution for one of my things) then I'll take my last two pills of the day and hopefully have an early night.

Tomorrow's grocery totals

We get our groceries delivered each Tuesday morning and I try and remember to do breakdowns of how much of the order is my stuff, how much is Steve's stuff and how much is joint stuff, so let's get on with tomorrow's total breakdowns while I remember:

My stuff:  £0.00
Steve's stuff:  £26.75
Joint stuff:  £17.49

So Steve's stuff is getting on for £10 more than the joint stuff and I haven't got anything on there at all yet again.

I'm predicting right now, at 5.17pm that Steve'll ask why I took my pop off and the answer is that I couldn't afford for it to be on there along with all of his stuff.

That's the...

...plants, seedlings and weeds watered for another day, so time to wait for my carer to wake up then I'll go and make him his milkshake.  I've got another bottle of pop that I can have while he's asleep this afternoon then I'll go and get myself glasses of water while he's awake for a minute between snoozes.

Today's (18th July 2022) lunch photos

For the 9th time in 8 days we had yet another take-away for our lunch 'cos "it's too hot to cook" and I've gotta eat *something* so that I don't get ill again, so I had a vegan sausage roll, a vegan sausage, cheeZe and beans bake and 2 yum yums.  Steve (my hubby and carer) is having a baguette, bap, chicken goujons, 8 sausage rolls and a bottle of pop for his lunch (nope, not joking), but that's beside the point lol  I had a couple of bottles of pop too, which evens things out a bit lol

Here are today's lunch photo's:

Forgot to...

...update this blog when I brought the rubbish sack in, finished editing the manuscript and took my lunchtime pill - woops!  It's done now though lol

Predictably we're not eating at home again today 'cos "it's just too hot, but I'll definitely cook for us tomorrow" which I'm predicting right now, at 12.50pm won't happen either.  We're not at home on Wednesday, my carer has got a medical appointment on Thursday, so yet again, there's very little chance of us having anything to eat that has been cooked here before Friday and I'm predicting at 12.51pm, that he won't cook Friday to Sunday again either.

So much for cooking all my meals and making all my drinks, eh?

1 down, 1 to go

The recycling has just been taken so I'm just waiting for the rubbish to go then I can get on with the editing... don't want to start it and have to stop mid-thought otherwise I'll forget what I was thinking when I bring the sack in!