Monday 31 January 2022

A full bag of... waste, just from Steve and just since the rubbish and recycling were collected this morning.  Me?  I've had precisely zero calories today and the only thing in my stomach is almost 3 litres of water (it'll be 3 by the time I take my evening pills).

Not a happy bunny at all.

3-0 now

Just made my carer's tea for him and it's officially too late for me to eat now so a totally calorie free day for me and tomorrow is likely to be the same 'cos there is still a third of a loaf of bread to use up so I've asked him to put some more sarnie spread on tomorrow's order and he said he will "in a minute" so if he doesn't, then he's got no-one to blame but himself if he has just bread and butter for his lunch tomorrow.

Aksherley, I'd best do it myself so that I can authorise the payment in the app before I head to bed.  BBS.

OK so the final totals for tomorrow's groceries now look like this:

My stuff:  £0.00
Steve's stuff:  £35.71
Joint stuff:  £6.25

So Steve's stuff is more than 5 times more than the joint stuff and I'm predicting that the majority of it will go to waste, same as every week.

2-0 to me so far

Just made my carer's second meal of the day for him and he's not made any for me and I won't be eating tonight 'cos that tends to make me feel sick when I go to bed and I'm predicting that I'll be making his tea before I head to bed too.

So much for him saying that he "makes all her meals for her" eh?

First day this week without food

Just asked Steve what we are going to have for lunch and he's said "not that hungry to be honest" so he won't be cooking today and I'll have to make sandwiches for his lunch at about 2pm because he'll be hungry then.  Because it'll be after lunchtime he won't be able to motivate himself to cook lunch and I don't eat in the evenings but he'll want toast or sandwiches again so I'll be making all three of his meals today and I'll be going hungry.

The groceries are due tomorrow, so he won't want to cook then either so that's two days without anything other than water in my belly.  My virus scan starts on Wednesday and he's got a medical appointment too, so he won't be cooking then either.  Thursday rolls around and I'm predicting that he won't be cooking then either which brings us to Friday and he won't be able to motivate himself to cook then either because "it's almost the weekend".  I'll make another prediction - he'll promise that he'll "definitely cook tomorrow" at least twice this week.  


I don't reckon I'll be getting any meals this week at all, but I'll be making every one of Steve's.

At least it'll mean that I lose even more weight when I weigh myself again next week.

Steve's just updating tomorrow's groceries yet again...

..."so that I can have some ham for my sandwiches" has gone from pennies over £40 to almost £47 now and I've still got nothing for myself on it.  Let's do the sums:


My stuff:  £0.00
Steve's stuff:  £33.01


He's taking the toilet rolls off and adding yet more stuff for himself, so when he's checked out I'll be able to give you a better idea of the hopefully final totals.

OK, here they are:

My stuff:  £0.00
Steve's stuff:  £36.71
Joint stuff:  £6.25

So Steve's stuff is over £30 more expensive than the entire rest of the order!  He had the opportunity to add things for me but no, he decieded to add things for himself yet-a-fucking-gain.

He'll take credit for paying for the order and waste the majority of it too.

Not a happy camper now.

Mornin' all

Woke up quite late this morning and I've already cared for my carer for almost an hour and he's already said "I'll be asleep before 8am 'cos I didn't even start to feel sleepy until getting on for 3am so I'm exhausted now".

I managed 86 hours of care for my carer last week and he managed 1 hour 31 minutes of care for me.  I've gotta get my eyes tested on Friday so it won't be an 85 hour week this week, but there's a good chance of it being 80 hours.  If I'm lucky, I'll get 3 hours of care out of my carer this week 'cos he'll have to get my wheelchair out of the house and put together before I leave then collapse it up and bring it back in when I get home so I won't have as much to whine about on Sunday 😉

I've taken my morning pills and put the landline phone up to charge for a while 'cos it only had 2 blobs of battery life left and I completely forgot to put it in to charge last night.

Taken Steve recycling out for the third time this morning and turned the lights off to try and save a bit of money that Steve gets credit for paying but I'm the one who moves £116 over to the joint account every month!  Same with the groceries - Steve gets credit for it and has the vast majority of food on each week's shops but it comes out of my own bank account.

It looks like it'll be yet another week of no breakfasts 'cos we've got 2 multipacks of 4 juices left in the fridge, which will last Steve for 4 days and he's just said to take all bar two of the multipacks off tomorrow's order so that he has enough to last him for the week, which means that there will only be 2 left for me for the entire week.  I'm gonna carry on with only eating when my carer cooks too, so I'll eat maybe two or three times this week again 'cos my next Graze box isn't due until next week.

I've just taken the juices off the shopping, and tomorrow's grocery totals now look like this:

My stuff:  £0.00
Steve's stuff:  £26.48
Joint stuff:  £13.85

So yet again Steve's stuff is ⅔ of the entire order and I'm left with nothing, but apparently that's OK.


The recycling box and bag have been brought in, so just waiting for the rubbish to be collected now.  Gonna make a start on my exercises when I've published this, so I'll see you all later on.


Sunday 30 January 2022

Just taken my last two pills of the week...

...and done the totals for care for each of us before I head to bed, which look like this:

My care of my carer:  85 hours 12 minutes (so far)
My carer's care of me:  1 hour 31 minutes

I'm gonna start shutting down all the programmes on my computer and then head off to beddy-byes for an early night, so I'll say nite nite two ewe orl now and I'll see you in the morning, for the start of a busy week - I just hope my body copes OK with it or I'll be in trouble when I get my eyes tested!

I was wrong, I'm sorry

I said that today was gonna be a rest day for me and it was until 4pm when I decided to do just one set of laps today so that I could try and get my steps count a bit higher and get a few active minutes into the FitBit app before I headed to bed.  I also didn't want my legs to sieze up on me and refuse to work tomorrow, so I've just finished half of the days laps instead of both sets.  I'm absolutely shattered now, so hopefully I'll sleep well tonight lol

I guzzled my way through a litre of water while I was lapping, so I'm over the minimum for that too.

Gonna be a busy bunny next week!

Monday and Tuesday are free right now

Wednesday - shower time ready for Friday

Thursday - someone is coming over from Freegle

Friday - sight test

Saturday and Sunday - recovering lol

I've already put the emersion heater on so I'll wash my hair in the shower on Wednesday then hopefully there will be enough water left for a bath on Thursday after the Freegle person has been and gone, but if Steve lets the hot water run, unused, then there will barely be enough for the shower let alone the bath!

Today's (30th January) lunch photos

I've eaten 3 meals this week and gone over budget on my calories twice - woops!  lol

T'was two huge bowlfuls of veggies today because Steve didn't want any as the carrots were still too crunchy for him so I had his bowlful too lol


I'm gonna be burping and parping veggie smells for hours and days now lol


Feeling pretty proud of myself right now!

I've just taken my last lunch-time pill of the week and realised that I've taken every single supplement I've needed to this week and I haven't touched the 5-HTP at all either!  No wonder I've felt so much better this week - I've given myself everything I've needed to at the right time so that I can function properly!

Apparently "the carrots are still a bit firm for my liking so it'll be a bit longer yet" according to my carer, which is fine by me, even though I eat raw carrots with no problem at all.  He likes soft carrots though, so we'll be having a late lunch after all.

I've also already hit 6 hours of caring for my carer today, but he won't even reach 1½ hours for the entire week, so I've just gotta put in another 5 hours of care to have achieved an 85 hour week and my carer is significantly in debt again even though, apparently, he "cooks all her meals for her" and "does everything for her" which the spreadsheets have proved that's total bollox!

Rubbish and recycling have...

...been taken out and Tuesday's groceries have been adjusted to take off literally half of my stuff to make room for Steve's milk, so the totals are now:

My stuff:  £1.85
Steve's stuff:  £24.69
Joint stuff:  £13.85

So yet again, Steve's stuff is significantly more than half of the entire grocery shop and the only reason that the joint stuff is over a tenner is 'cos of the toilet rolls costing £7.40 'cos our usual ones weren't available for some reason, yet they are the next two weeks and we need that many 'cos Steve get's through literally ⅔ of a roll per poo, but that same roll would last me almost a month so we go through 10 rolls a week if Steve poo's overnight too, which he does at least 2-3 times a week.

I've just had to add moisturiser to the shop for Steve too, so that takes his total up to £25.69 which is almost ⅔ of the entire order just for one person and the majority of it will go to waste.

I'm gonna go and get myself my first glass of water of the day now considering only one of us has had breakfast every day since the end of last year.


Mornin' all

Been awake and down here for 3 hours, but didn't have an internet connection, so I've only just been able to start my blog posts!


So far this morning I've:

  • taken my morning pills
  • run the daily virus scan (still clear)
  • made a tiny dent in the stuff in the spare room
  • advertised 8 things on Freegle
  • helped to get things ready for lunch (we're definitely having stew!!!)
  • checked my email and
  • cared for my carer for approaching 3 hours


I'm not gonna do my laps today... I've pushed myself every day for the last 9 days, so I'm gonna let my body recover today then start again tomorrow.

We need to take our rubbish and recycling out at some point today, and Steve's added £8 worth of stuff to the groceries that is just for him, which I'm not at all happy about, but it's too late now, so I'm gonna have to go in and take my own stuff off so that pretty much the entire total is Steve's stuff yet again.

Tuesday's grocery order breaks down like this:

My stuff:  £3.70
Steve's stuff:  £23.49
Joint stuff:  £13.85

So Steve's stuff is just under £20 more expensive than mine and just under £10 more expesive than the joint stuff so he's got well over half of the grocery shop just for him.  Again.  Perish the thought that any of his things come off to make room for my own or joint stuff though!

Saturday 29 January 2022

12 hours and 9 minutes away from...

...another 85 hour week.  I'm on the clock until 8pm then I'm shutting down and heading off to bed, so I'll say nite nite to you all now and I'll see you all again at some point tomorrow.

That's me...

...last two pills of the day taken, which means I've been properly dosed up every day so far - not even a single pill missed, so that's totally awesome and I hope I haven't jinxed tomorrow now lol

6pm on Saturday, but...

...I've already cared for my carer for over 70 hours and 15 minutes this week so I'm well on track for hitting 80 hours if not 85 hours this week.  Not bad going for someone who isn't recognised or paid as a carer.

OTOH, my paid and recognised carer has only cared for me for 56 minutes despite being paid to care for me for at least 35 hours a week so there's no way he can meet the minimum now.

I frequently more than double the minimum and my carer has never even aproached ⅒ of the minimum yet he's recognised as, gets support and payment for caring for me.

I've asked him to come up with a record of what he does to support me next week, but I bet he'll conveniently forget.

Grocery totals for the next 3 weeks

I figured that I'd better do a breakdown of the next 3 weeks worth of grocery orders which now look like this:

1st February:

My stuff:  £3.70
Steve's stuff:  £20.14
Joint stuff:  £16.78


8th February:

My stuff:  £9.22
Steve's stuff:  £23.98
Joint stuff:  £6.99


15th February:

My stuff:  £10.72
Steve's stuff:  £26.38
Joint stuff:  £2.99


So, as always, Steve's stuff is well over half of the entire amount on each of the three weeks but I'm approaching a tenner on the second week and I've even managed over it once, which is a very rare occurance!


There are toilet rolls on each of the orders, so that's a saving of £2.99 on the second and third weeks, if we get the bulk order delivered on Tuesday lol


I've somehow...

...put on 1.7kg since Monday, despite eating very little this week!

It's been...

...nearly 22 hours since I last ate anything (a large fries from Mc Donalds last night) and in that time, my carer has had 3 meals (or 6 if you include each individual meal that he had - 3 large meals without the drinks last night, a bowl of cereal this morning and a double MugShot for lunch today) and all I've had is a large portion of Mc Donalds fries last night.  Good job that I've got weight to lose innit?

Almost 8.5 hours later and...

...I still haven't eaten anything and the only liquid I've had is 3 litres of water and a bottle of orange juice for breakfast.

My carer has promised that we'll "definitely have the stew tomorrow and the soup on Monday" but that's what he's been saying since Wednesday, so you'll have to forgive me for not believing a word of it.

He's just said he wants a mug of coffee, but I'm predicting that he's left the majority of the peach tea I made for him this morning... it also means two trips from the kitchen to back in here 'cos my body is crying out for a cold drink, but that doesn't matter, right Steve?

I've just done my second set of laps of the day and according to my FitBit, there has only been one hour so far today that I haven't done at least 250 steps but I'm not planning to move far from the sofa for the rest of the day, unless my carer decides he wants another drink or more to eat.

Gotta remember to take my afternoon pill first though lol

Looks like today will be...

...another day with no food, 'cos my carer has just said that he's "not gonna cook the stew after all today and I'll have soup or a double MugShot instead" and he's expecting me to make it so I won't be able to make anything for myself after I've made his food, I haven't had anything solid for breakfast and it's rare that I eat in the evenings, so todays calories will just be from the orange juice I had for breakfast so I will be living on literally 42 calories all day.  I doubt he'll cook tomorrow 'cos he's already cooked twice this week, so tomorrow is potentially another 42 calorie day.

I'm fed up of him getting credit for things he hasn't done.  I should have had 11 meals by now, going by what he tells everyone, but I've only actually had 2 and it'll be the same next week too.

Mornin' all

This is a much more sensible time to start the day lol

I've already taken my morning pills, run the virus scan (there was "1 advanced issue" today, but that's been sorted out now), made a drink for my carer and generally cared for him for 80 minutes so far today.

He hasn't done the washing up, so I'll have to do that after I've make his breakfast for him then I might actually be able to do my laps and charge up Patrick's batteries, ready for my eye test on Friday.

I'm gonna go and make his breakfast for him now, so that I don't have to do it twice when he's eventually finished eating.  My breakfast will be just orange juice again this morning.  I last had cereal for breakfast on 26th December last year but my carer has had something every day, thanks to me, but apparently he "makes all her meals for her" and it's been about a year if not 18 months since he last made a hot drink for me despite telling everyone that he "makes all her drinks because she isn't safe using the kettle".  How long do you reckon it'll be before he falls asleep with his bowl of cereal in his hand?  I give him 30 seconds in all seriousness.


Friday 28 January 2022

Just taken my evening pills... I'm hoping to go to bed a bit later than normal, after being asleep for half the day lol


Just in case I forget to post again before I head off to bed, I'll say nite nite to you all now and I'll see you again either before I head to bed tonight or in the morning.



Today's (28th January 2022) lunch photo

We had the hot dogs at last!!!

A simple vegan double hot dog with buns and mayo... the hot dogs tasted and looked *exactly* how I remembered meaty hot dogs tasted and looked over 30 years ago!


We're finally having the hot dogs for our lunch 'cos I've just got them out of the freezer (mine) and cupboard (Steve's) and Steve's put them (stroppily) on to cook so I'll be eating today after all!

The monthly virus scan has finished and my machine is still free of nasties, thankfully, so I'm checking my email for the first time since last night now.

Gotta put my hot dogs and the rolls into the FitBit app too, so I'll do that now before I forget.


Mornin' all

I must have been wiped out last night 'cos I had over 10½ hours of sleep overnight and I've only cared for my carer for just over 2 hours so far today.

Apparently we're definitely having the hot dogs along with raw onions for lunch today, but that's what my carer has been saying since the weekend so I won't believe it 'til I see it.

I started the monthly scan when I first logged on and it's already 48% of the way through, so hopefully it'll be finished before lunchtime otherwise I'll have to risk putting my laptop on the floor while it's still running and hoping that I don't knock the lead out accidentally.

I managed 76 active minutes on my laps this morning and drank a litre of water in that time.  I've also been significantly under my allowed calories every day so far, except on Monday when I was right on target.


I've taken my morning pills and most of them went down OK, so I'm hoping that means today will be a good day.

My carer has finished his breakfast now, so I'd better go and take his bowl and bottles through to the kitchen.


Thursday 27 January 2022

Off to beddy-byes now

All of my technology is fully charged and I've managed to edit an entire folder this afternoon and evening, so I've just got four more folders left to do then I can spend a while reading and then hopefully edit again.

I'm off to bed now though, so I'll see you all again at some point in the morning.

Nite nite orl.

Tomorrow after lunch...

...can someone remind me to squirt the B12 into my mouth as well as glugging the water before I start on my second set of laps pretty please?  I only needed the water this morning and I was fine afterwards, but I was seriously struggling with the last 15 minutes of laps this afternoon and the water didn't help that much.  The B12 sprays after I'd finished them worked within seconds and I'm fine again now, so hopefully I just need the water in the mornings and a couple of sprays, along with the water for my second set in the afternoon.

That's me exercised out for another day, so I'm just gonna keep my bum planted on the sofa until bed-time now.

Just had my optician on the phone...

...they've had to rearrange my appointment slightly so that it's 20 minutes earlier and with someone different, but that's totally OK with me, just means that I'll have to leave the house earlier is all.  Might head off at 8.30am just to make sure that I can get there through all the rush-hour traffic.  It will give me just under an hour to get there which will hopefully be plenty of time and it's well overdue 'cos I last had me peepers checked in 2019 and I'm supposed to get 'em done every year, I just haven't been able to afford it for the last two years is all.

My carer's medical appointment has been cancelled today, so I'm gonna go and do my laps while he's awake, so that he can answer the door to my delivery lol

I've only got until 1pm before my lunchtime pill is due, so I'll wait until I've taken that before I start the laps.

That was considerably...

...quicker and easier than I was thinking!

The water was still very full and so was the seed and the bowl was still sparkling clean, so I didn't even need to clean that out.  As the weather heats up and we start seeing more sunlight, I'll check it all more often again, but for right now it's all clean and fresh so hopefully the birds will be happy for a little while now.

Mornin' all

Been awake for 5 hours and kept forgetting to start blogging!

So far today I've:

  • Run the daily virus scan
  • Checked my email
  • Taken my morning pills
  • Done the admin on a forum
  • Got breakfast for my carer
  • Done my morning laps

I've just finished over an hour of exercise and just by having sips of water as I was doing them, I feel considerably better than I have over the last 10 days, so I reckon today's water bottle delivery will be invaluable!  I thought it would maybe last me for 2 days worth of laps before it needed to be filled, but just based on this morning I reckon I'll get through a full one each time I do the laps lol  Taking my cardigan off before I started significantly helped with the overheating/sweating too, so I just need to take my cardi off and have a full bottle of water this afternoon so that I'm hopefully more able to function lol

My carer has got 2 medical appointments later on today, so I'm planning on using the time to relax and recover from this morning.  Might do the other set of laps before he goes, but I'll see how I feel and listen to what my body tells me.

Need to go and check the water and seed levels for the wild birds to, so I might go and do that now so that I know that it's done and dusted for a little while.


Wednesday 26 January 2022

Nite nite orl

My pills are seriously kicking in now, so I'm gonna do a few more laps on my way up to bed to completely wear me out so that I can fall asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow, but I'm shutting down now and I'll see you again in the morning.

Can someone remind me to keep checking on the order of the water bottle tomorrow pretty please?

Nite nite orl.

What a day!

My carer has now got his new glasses and the Quorn was eventually collected, and I've done my final exercise of the day so I'm all set for an early night tonight, but, like most nights, I doubt it'll happen in reality.  It's only early evening on a Wednesday, but I'm already working overtime for the rest of this week whereas my carer hasn't even reached half an hour of care for me so far this week.

I've got a bottle with a neck strap due to turn up tomorrow 'cos I get sooo thirsty while I'm doing my laps, so I'm hoping for something I can just have around my neck during the laps so that I don't feel so thirsty for that hour!  It's not a squeezy bottle, but it's got a straw and claims to be spill-proof, but I won't believe that until I see it lol  It also claims to keep cold drinks cold for 48 hours so I'm hoping that I'll be able to take it out of the fridge and not have to put it back in for 2 days, but I won't believe that until I see it either lol

My body is telling me that it's had enough for today, so I'm gonna take my pills early and head to bed - I'm predicting that my carer will want me to get his tea before that happens though, same as most nights.

Yep, he wants his "potato slice for my tea and that'll do me for now I reckon" so I'd best go and get it for him now, while I can keep my eyes open for long enough.

Virus scan finished, back-ups underway...

...carer cared for and now awake, getting washed at the kitchen sink.

It'll be instant soup (made by me) for my carer today and I'll polish of the remainder of my Graze box and packet of biscuits, then I'll only eat when my carer cooks for the rest of the week.  I doubt I'll eat anything tomorrow 'cos he's got a medical appointment in the morning so won't be able to motivate himself to cook when he gets back, Friday he will still "feel too knackered after yesterday, sorry" and I bet he'll find an excuse not to cook at the weekend either.  I'm predicting that today will be the last day I eat anything and that my carer won't cook at all this week, so I doubt I'll get an hour of care out of him for the entire week.

I've done my exercises now and my OCD is nagging at me for not doing a single minute more so that I could get to a nice, round number lol

Mornin' all

I've been awake for less than an hour and every minute has been spent caring for my carer so far.  I'm at 27 hours and 2 minutes so far this week and my carer is at 22 minutes, so I've only got 7 hours and 58 minutes left to care for my carer before I start working overtime and my carer has got 34 hours and 38 minutes left to care for me this week which is just under 7 hours a day which he's never done since I first got ill back in 1999 so I can't see it happening this week either.


The weekly virus scan is underway and it's already done over 40% in less than an hour too!

I've just had the reminder come up for my morning pills, so I'd best take them now, brb.

OK, that's my morning pills down the hatch and my mobile charging up, so I'm gonna have something from my Graze box for breakfast now then carry on with my day.

My carer has just gone back to sleep, so I'd better take his bowl out to the kitchen first, before he knocks it off and it smashes.  He's got someone coming out to fit his new glasses this afternoon too, so hopefully he won't need me to read anything else for him after that.

Tuesday 25 January 2022

Just taken my...

...last pills of the day and they're already kicking in, so I'm gonna finish doing the admin on the spreadsheet then shut down.

Nite nite orl.

Had a busy day today...

...after our shopping arrived and had been put away (solely by me I hasten to add), I spent 5 hours caring for my carer and reading then reviewing a children's book.

I'm all read and reviewed out for the day now though, so I'll go and fill my bottle with squash then relax for the rest of the afternoon.  I was pondering on doing more laps this afternoon, but I think I've decided against that now... I'm giving my poor legs a rest.

Someone was supposed to pick up the Quorn today, but there's been a family illness today so she's gonna pick it up tomorrow instead.  Steve's getting his glasses fitted between 12pm and 5pm tomorrow as well so I bet they will both come together lol

Gotta remember not to open my emails tomorrow 'cos of the weekly virus scan then the backups... it's a busy start to the week this week lol

Mornin' all

How are you all doing this morning?

After what I was hoping would be an early night, it turned out to be a late one after all, same as always.  I ended up caring for my carer for just over 13 hours yesterday, plus the 2 hours worth of exercising meant that I was wiped out by the time I crawled into bed last night.

I advertised 3 packets of Quorn mince on Olio last night and they are being picked up this afternoon with any luck - talk about rapid!  They mess up Steve's stomach for some reason, so we're gonna stick to Linda Mc Cartney for a while 'cos that's soya instead of mycoprotein and we tried it for the first time with our lunch yesterday and we were both fine with it, so we'll stick with that for a while at least.

I've taken my morning pills and set the daily virus scan running (still clear, thankfully) so I'm gonna go and do my first set of laps at 7.30am, hopefully for an hour again, but I'm gonna be listening to my body throughout and I'll stop when it tells me to.  I'm certainly not gonna do more than an hour twice a day though, that really will be my limit.

I've still got 6 cookies left to eat from two days ago 'cos they sent 9 instead of 3 for some reason lol

Our groceries are due this morning too, so I wanna get the laps over and done with well before then, so I'm gonna go for a wee then make a start on them.


Monday 24 January 2022

About to head to bed now... body needs all the rest it can get after last week's 13 exercise sessions!

I've taken my last two pills of the day and I'm yawning already, so I'm gonna shut down and head to bed for another early night now I reckon.

See you all in the morning.

Nite nite orl.

Today's (24th January) lunch photo

T'was a particularly nice bowlful of vegan chilli (without rice) to start the week off with and was only 337 calories too, so I've still got over 500 calories left to consume, but don't think I will 'cos I'm nicely full and anything else would make me bloated.

Steve (my hubby/carer/chef) said he "enjoyed making our lunch today 'cos I didn't have to stand over the hob for half an hour".  At some point in future we might have a stew but we reckon we'll put our slow cooker to a lot more use now, assuming we can come up with other vegan recipe ideas that take as little preparation as possible... I'd love to hear your ideas for other things that we can try!  Please?

Here's today's photo:

That's my prescription...

...mostly delivered (I'm owed 1 box) and my FitBit at 85% charge, lunch is smelling gorgeous and I can't wait to get my chops around it.  I've paid an invoice for one of my domains, so that's sorted for the next year and I've taken my lunchtime pill, so I'm all dosed up until tonight now.

I've dressed the back of Steve's leg and I've got a product test to complete that came through the door this morning, along with my Graze box (you get your 1st, 5th and 10th boxes free if you use this link).

Already working overtime today 'cos I'm at 73 minutes overtime and we haven't even had lunch yet.  


I've managed to go over 7,500 steps already today, so as long as I keep on keeping on, there's a chance that I might hit 14,000 or even 15,000 steps by the time I head to bed tonight.  I wanna push myself today, but if my body says to stop then I will.  Last week came as a bit of a shock to the system, but I've started now so I'll just keep on keeping on for as long as I can.

Brought the rubbish sack in and...

...we're definitely having a home-cooked meal today 'cos it's already bubbling away in the slow cooker.  Apparently it'll be a late lunch 'cos my carer didn't put it on to cook until after 10am and apparently "it takes at least 4 hours to cook" so it'll be at least 2.30pm before it's dished up, but that's totally OK with me, I'm just glad we're eating a home-cooked meal to start the week off with is all.

After a week without any caffeine last week, this morning's "dose" is going through me at rate of knotts lol.

My carer has just said to go out and give our lunch a stir again and we'll just be having it in bowls with no rice, which is fine by me!

Need to remember to charge my FitBit up after lunch, so that it still keeps recording my sleep and steps... you watch me forget though lol

Mornin' all

How are you all doing this morning?

I've just weighed myself, the same as I do every morning and I've somehow put on 1kg instead of losing it, so I definitely won't be eating unless my carer cooks this week!

I've taken my morning pills, run the daily virus scan, got breakfast for my carer and brought in the recycling so far this morning.  I slept for just over 10 hours overnight, so my body obviously needed it.  I'm gonna just do half an hour twice today 'cos my legs are already complaining, so I'm not gonna take any risks today.

Gonna publish this blog post then make a start on my laps.


Sunday 23 January 2022

Decided to... a little tiny bit more exercise so that I could hit the magic number of steps today, but my body is really making me pay for it now, so I'm gonna have a really early night tonight I reckon... I'll take my pills, do the final bit of admin on the caring spreadsheet then hopefully be asleep before 7.30pm, so I'll say nite nite two ewe orl now, just in case I can't before I head off to bed tonight.

Today's (23rd January) tea photo

I've got 3 vegan cookies as well as this, but I'll have them tomorrow either for my breakfast or lunch (or both lol)

Subway Crinkle Wedges and garlic aioli that was especially garlicky tonight!

That's me done in now

Just done my laps and my entire body is telling me not to move off the sofa now.

My carer has just ordered his late lunch/early tea from Subway and I'm having a regular portion of crinkly wedges to get my energy back and vegan cookies to save for tomorrow.

I've managed 93 'Active Minutes' today and I've just gotta take another 1,015 steps before I fall asleep tonight to get my last vibration of the day from my FitBit.  I was literally 10 steps away yesterday but I had an extra 6 'Active Minutes' so I'm not expecting to hit the target today either, but that's OK 'cos it's the first week I've done laps every day for a looong time, so I'm not pushing myself too hard and as soon as my body tells me it's had enough, that's me stopping so that my legs don't give way underneath me again.

Just taken... afternoon pill and I'm burping like a good'un now and it's particularly green pepper flavoured lol

Gonna go for a wee then make a start on this afternoon's exercises.


Today's (23rd January) lunch photo

Just had my lunch and as my carer didn't fancy cooking again today, I've had 11 servings/portions of fresh fruit and vegetables today.

Next week I've got 1kg of "wonky carrots" and a Graze box to get through but other than that, I'm only going to eat when my carer cooks, so out of a potential 14 meals I will probably only eat twice, or possibly three times if I'm really lucky, next week.  Far from healthy, but he tells everyone that he cooks all my meals for me, so I'm gonna hold him to that next week.

Here's today's photo of my only meal:

Without any kind of help from my carer...

...I've just sorted and taken out the rubbish and recycling.  The totals of care so far today are: 

me caring for my carer - 4 hours 20 minutes
my carer caring for me - 3 minutes

Weekly totals so far are:

me caring for my carer - 74 hours 24 minutes
my carer caring for me - 1 hour 35 minutes

Because my carer doesn't fancy cooking our lunch again today, his totals will stay the same but it's looking likely that I'll hit 80 hours of caring for my carer again this week, which is more than double the 35 required hours and my carer (who is being paid to do it) hasn't even achieved 5% of it, despite telling anyone who will listen that he "does everything for her" and he "cooks all her meals for her" which my spreadsheets prove is total bollox.


That's my...

...morning exercises done and dusted, so now it's time for taking the rubbish and recycling outside, then I'll make my carer's milkshake and keep caring for him until lunchtime.  Apparently "it's gonna be Subway for lunch" so I'll definitely be having my mini cucumbers, peppers and wonky carrots for lunch.

Gonna get myself another glass of water to keep me going while I reboot first though.

Mornin' all

How are you all doing this morning?

I'm doing OK but my legs are killing me after yesterday lol

So far this morning I've:

  • done the washing up 
  • taken my morning pills
  • made a drink for my carer
  • applied for two savings accounts for my nephews 
  • made my carer's breakfast for him
  • Set the virus scan running
  • Edited the groceries.

My carer has decided that he wants a milkshake (made by me) in a couple of hours as well as hot drinks throughout the day and I'm predicting right now, at 9.07am, that he won't want to make lunch for us today.  He's cooked twice this week, so I shouldn't complain really


I knew it!  At 9.34am my carer has just said that he doesn't fancy cooking today, so I'll be having my mini cucumbers and wonky carrots for lunch today then!

Time for me to go and do my laps now... only gonna be half an hour each time today 'cos any longer just doesn't feel safe.

Saturday 22 January 2022

Off to beddy-byes now

I'm absolutely wiped out physically, but my head is as fresh as a daisy, so I'm gonna log off and read a magasine for a bit before I fall asleep tonight.


There's a good chance that I'll hit 80 hours of care by the time I head to bed tomorrow and, assuming my carer cooks tomorrow, he'll have achieved under 2½ hours of care for the entire week.

Feeling really proud of myself today.

Nite nite orl.

Today's (22nd January) lunch photo

I had crispy Tofu bites with plenty of veg.  They weren't very crispy, but that's OK with me otherwise I'd be paranoid about cracking a tooth again lol


The chef (my hubby/carer, Steve) said about using them in curries and bolognaise and stuff like that, so hopefully he's enjoying cooking again!


I'm having... second home-cooked meal on the trot!

It's another reasonably healthy lunch too... tofu crispy bites and plenty of veggies - I'm drooling as I type lol

I've just been given the 10 minute warning, so I'm gonna publish this and put my laptop on the floor.

BBL with a photo for you all.

That's the... shop brought in and put away and I'm gonna have a raspberry smoothie for my breakfast 'cos the raspberries go out of date tomorrow, so I'm having a healthy breakfast which could be my only meal today.


I wanna do two lots of exercise today, in between caring for my carer and I've got several books to read and review too as well as wanting to study... I'll be lucky to get the reading as well as studying today though lol



...we're definitely having the Tofoo/chicken steaks with plenty of veg today but I won't believe it until it's in front of me and I've taken a photo of it for you all.

I've done the washing up and made my carer's breakfast for him and he's now snoring away like a good'un.


I wanna get some reading and possibly studying done today so not sure how many blog posts there will be.

Marie is due at any time now, so I'd best publish this and keep caring for my carer while I wait for the door to go.

Mornin' all

I don't know why I thought last night would be any different to normal, but after I'd shut down, my carer fell asleep then decided he wanted me to get his tea for him before I was eventually able to crawl into bed last night, so the final final total of me caring for my carer yesterday was a 12 hours 20 minutes just yesterday which brings the weekly total up to 59 hours and 4 minutes.  He put the washing up on to soak again and made a bottle of squash for me at 5am, so my carer's weekly total is 1 hour and 2 minutes.

The virus scan has finished and I'm still clear of nasties, thankfully.  I've had the reminder come up for my morning pills, so I'd best take them now, while I remember.

OK, pills are down the hatch, so I'd better go and do the washing up so that I can have a drink.  I'm predicting that I'll have to bring in and put the top-up shop away too, so I'd best get a move on 'cos Marie will be at the door in under an hour.


Friday 21 January 2022

Going to bed on a high note

I've spent the last hour and a bit studying a course and I passed it second attempt, so I'm gonna head to bed on a high note 'cos my evening pills are starting to kick in and it's always better to end the day feeling positive otherwise I end up tossing and turning and get about 3 hours sleep instead of the 8-9 that my body needs to recover from the day - especially after the 50 minutes of exercise I put it through pretty much straight after my huge lunch!


Just before I head off, lets finish the day with the care totals:

Care provided by Amanda:  11 hours 38 minutes
Care provided by carer:  0 hours 41 minutes

And lets finish off this blog post with the week's current totals too:

Care provided by Amanda:  58 hours 21 minutes
Care provided by carer:  0 hours 52 minutes

So who is caring for whom here I wonder?

I'm gonna head off to bed now, but I'll be back again tomorrow.

Nite nite orl.

Today's (21st January 20220) lunch photo

My first (and only?? Hope not!) home-cooked meal of the week!

2 vegan sausage rolls, 6 hash browns and enough veg to create my own allotment (sp?) with!  I'm a bit too full, but not bloated and it tasted sooo good.  Won't be moving far from the sofa for a while now though lol


Gonna restrict what I eat (calorie-wise - so no more honey in my smoothies until I'm back on track) at the weekend so that I don't put on weight when I've just got the last 1.5kg to lose now!  I'm thinking it'll mainly be banana smoothies, which is totally OK with me!

I was wrong, I'm sorry...

...for doubting my carer would actually cook today.  He's just gone out to put our lunch (and my veggies) on to cook so I really will be eating today after all!

I've just been out to put my soya milk away and there are less than 15 minutes to go now, so I'm gonna publish this and put my laptop on the floor in preparation... I'm drooling too!  lol


...we're still having a cooked lunch today but I'm not letting myself get too hopeful yet.

Gonna decide on which course to study after lunch so that I'm good to go straight after I've taken our plates through to the kitchen.

Feeling really...

...proud of myself this morning, 'cos I've already crossed three things off today's to-do list so I've only got 2 things left to do and might even be able to sneak in a touch of studying today too!

My current to-do list for the rest of the day now looks like this:

  • Monitor my carer's reaction to his new milk
  • Re-start my laps again
  • Potentially make lunch for my carer
  • Support friends
  • Charge up my FitBit
  • Study


My carer didn't have any negative reaction to his new milk, so that's that sorted then and means that he should avoid lactose, but apparently he's fine with his yoghurts, so I'll just keep getting the lactose free milk with our shopping from now on... expensive, but if it helps him to feel better about having his breakfast without feeling ill then so be it!


I've done my laps which lasted for 44 minutes and I managed to clock up about 4,000 steps in that time, so I'm feeling pretty chuffed with that and have just gotta do the same again this afternoon to hit my "seriously impressed" target of 10k steps.


I'm guzzling my way through a pint of cream soda as a reward and might take a shot of B12 later to try and help my body to recover a bit quicker.

Mornin' all

So far this morning, I've:

  • Taken my pills
  • Made my carer's breakfast
  • Washed up
  • Started the virus scan (still clear - yay!)
  • Had breakfast (orange juice) for the first time in several weeks
  • Cared for my carer for over an hour and a half

My to-do list today looks like this:

  • Monitor my carer's reaction to his new milk
  • Re-start my laps again
  • Potentially make lunch for my carer
  • Support friends
  • Charge up my FitBit


I also spent an hour caring for my carer after I'd shut down my computer so yesterday's caring total ended up being 13 hours and 3 minutes of care by me, so the weekly total went up to 46 hours and 44 minutes, which means I've already worked over 11 hours overtime as of last night and 13 hours overtime if you include this morning's care too so it's looking like it'll be a pretty easy 80 hour week this week 'cos I've only gotta do another 33 and a bit hours in 3 days, which is a smidgen over 11 hours a day which I've easily worked through every day this week, so I'll be working the equivalent of 2 full-time jobs without any kind of pay or recognition.  I doubt my carer will hit much over an hour this week, yet he's being paid and recognised to care for me for a minimum of 35 hours a week which he doesn't even do when I have hospital or GP appointments!

Sorry, that turned into a bit of a mini rant, didn't it lol

The money for my Graze box was taken overnight, so I'll be able to get a few calories from that next week when my carer decides not to cook again.  I'm gonna make more of an effort to keep to my 'only eating whan my carer cooks' decision next week, which'll mean the majority of the week with me drinking just water again.


I've already guzzled my way through last nights two cans of pop, some squash to take my pills with and a bottle of orange juice, so I've already drunk over a litre this morning and it's not even 8.30am yet!

My carer has just finished his cereal, so I'd better go and wash his bowl up for him so that it's not sitting around for a week again.


Thursday 20 January 2022

Off to beddy-byes now

My carer has just woken up, so I'm using the opportunity to head off to bed.


The caring totals for today are:

Me caring for my carer:  12 hours 3 minutes
My carer caring for me:  6 minutes


The weekly caring totals so far look like this:

Me caring for my carer:  46 hours 44 minutes
My carer caring for me:  11 minutes

So I've worked 11 hours and 44 minutes overtime already this week and my carer hasn't even achieved 15 minutes so far.

I'll leave it there, 'cos I'm sure you're all fed up of my rants about this particular topic.


Nite nite orl.

Today's (20th January 2022) tea photo

Yet another take-away, but a pretty healthy take-away for me, just a container of boiled beansprouts.  My hubby has promised lunch tomorrow to catch up with the cooking from the last two days lunches, so it'll be vegan sausage rolls, hash browns and plenty of veg tomorrow apparently... won't believe it until it's in front of me again though.

It's official...

...we're not having any lunch today "but tomorrow will be a combination of all the days we've missed this week, so it'll be vegan sausage rolls, hash browns and oodles of veg" so I'll be having one home-cooked meal this week instead of the 14 my carer tells everyone that he makes for me.

He wants a double curry MugShot (made by me) for his lunch today and I won't be safe enough on my feet to make anything for myself, so I'll be going hungry today or might dig into the seeds that I re-found yesterday if I get too hungry.

I'm gonna give myself a break from the exercises today, considering how few calories I'll be having today and it prolly wouldn't be safe after yesterday's 80 minutes either, so today is gonna be my recovery day this week.

Mornin' all

And so, another day begins.

Woke up later than I usually do this morning and I was so zonked out last night that I fell asleep pretty much as soon as my head hit the pillow - no reading or even listening to the radio!

I've run the daily virus scan, taken my morning pills, got the admin on a review ready and the menu says that it's 'hash browns and veg' for lunch today but my carer sighed and said "we'll see" when I told him about it, so I'm predicting, at 8am, that I'll be making his lunch for him again and I'll be going without again today... I'd love to be wrong, but don't think I will be.  I'm also predicting, at 8.05am, that he won't be cooking for the rest of the week either, which will mean that he has cooked precisely no meals this week even though apparently he makes all my meals for me.


The current weekly caring totals look like this:

Me caring for my carer:  36 hours and 46 minutes
My carer caring for me:  5 minutes

Time to crack on with the review now, I reckon.

Wednesday 19 January 2022

That's me done in for the day now

Just done my second set of laps for the day and I'm a tired, sweaty betty so I'll hopefully sleep well tonight!

My left hamstring has been stiff all day... my carer reckons that massaging it should help, but I keep forgetting to look on You Tube for other natural relaxers.  If it's the same tomorrow I'll hopefully be able to remember to look while my carer is at his medical appointment in the morning.  I'm certainly not going to push myself any more than I have today in case it snaps or whatever it does, and we haven't got any sticky tape for me to put it back together with 😉

Today's (19th January 2022) tea photos

I've been a real piggy today, but it's all been reasonably healthy so that's OK with me and I've still got 382 calories left to eat today too.  I know I've been trying to avoid take-aways but after barely eating since Sunday, I couldn't really turn it down, now could I?!

Today's (19th January 2022) lunch photo

Quick and simple meal today, but only 104 calories, so I've still got plenty left for biscuits, if necessary, later on.


As per usual, I've censored the naughty word, so it's suitable for small eyes again.

Virus scan and backups have now...

...finished for another week.  I've just finished charging up my FitBit and done my laps too, so that's everything sorted and I can check my email for the first time today now.


My carer doesn't want his lunch, so I'm gonna go and make myself a proper(ish) meal of instant soup so that I can get a few calories into me.  I had a couple of bananas and a drinking chocolate for my breakfast today, so I want a proper lunch today for the first time this week.


Mornin' all

How are you all doing this morning?

I've already set my weekly virus scan off so hopefully that'll be over and done with by about lunchtime, then I'll go and make lunch for both of us because it'll just be two mugs, then hopefully I'll be able to crack on with my editing.  Breakfast and morning pills first though lol

Tuesday 18 January 2022

Both of this morning's predictions were... on.  There was a substitution with the groceries and Steve didn't fancy cooking, so I lived on a serving of dry roasted peanuts and biscuits for lunch, didn't have any breakfast and rarely eat in the evenings.  Tomorrow is gonna be instant soup, prolly made by me, in between Steve's medical appointment and his sight test, so it'll either be an early or late lunch, depending on when they get here.  They're supposed to phone with the accurate time so I'll have more of an idea about what time to make our instant soup for us tomorrow.

Quick and easy smoothie ideas please?

I've got 10 bananas and the remains of a bottle of squeezy honey that I'm gonna use to make smoothies with this week but what other no-prep fruits go with soya milk and bananas please?

I've had raspberry and blueberry smoothies but bananas seem to give me an energy boost but don't have a very strong flavour, when mixed with the soya milk, so I'm looking for other things that I can get that requires zero preparation and gives the banana flavour a compatible boost.

I'd love to hear your ideas in the comments pretty please?!

Today's (18 January 2022) lunch photo

Lunch today is dry roased peanuts and biscuits:

Far from healthy, but better than nothing!

Second day on the trot without food

I've just asked my carer if it's too early for lunch and he said "I haven't even had my breakfast yet!" so today is gonna be the second day on the trot without food.  I'll be able to have a few calories tomorrow 'cos that's instant soup (likely to be made by me) but that will potentially be my only food this week.

Not a happy bunny right now.

Just had...

...the email about our groceries and there was only one substitution, thankfully.

The totals for today's shop look like this:

My stuff:  £6.93
Steve's stuff:  £34.05
Joint stuff:  £7.08

I've put the peach tea onto the joint list because I can, in theory at least, have that, but whether I do or not is a different matter 'cos I've had 3 mugs of it out of last weeks canister and Steve's had the rest.

Mornin' all

I didn't manage an early night after all last night, 'cos I spent the hour between shutting down and heading to bed, caring for my carer again so clocked up 12 hours and 11 minutes after all yesterday.

I've taken my morning pills, started the daily virus scan and checked my emails this morning.  Our groceries are due in a few hours and we're supposed to be having vegan sausage rolls and veg for lunch, but I'm making two predictions right now, at 6.51am, that there will be substitutions on some of our groceries that Steve won't want, but will accept and it'll go to waste again and the second prediction is that Steve won't want to cook lunch again either and I refuse to resort to eating biscuits for every meal again, so I'll be going hungry if he doesn't cook today.

The virus scan was clear again, so I'm safe for the rest of the day now.

Time for me to have a read of my emails now I reckon.

Monday 17 January 2022

I think I deserve... early night tonight, so I'm gonna head to bed now and hopefully fall asleep easily.  My poor legs are going "WTAF?!" after somehow managing to achieve just over 8,000 steps today and they are telling me that they need to have a rest to recover, so that's what I'm gonna give them.

Nite nite orl.

Before I publish this, I just wanna record that I've spent 11 hours and 11 minutes caring for my carer today and he hasn't done anything to support me at all.  He's promised that we'll have the vegan sausage rolls for lunch tomorrow, but I won't believe it until it's in front of me again. 

I really am going to bed now lol

That's me...

...not moving far from the sofa until bedtime now.  My legs are killing me, I can barely keep my eyes open and I'm in too much pain to move right now, but at least I've done two sets of laps today for an hour and 7 minutes... think I pushed myself too far, too fast though.  I've done it once, so hopefully my body will quickly get used to it again.  I've already passed 7,500 steps today, so I'm cautiously hopeful that I'll hit 8,000 steps before I head to bed tonight.

Not even lunchtime yet, but I've already...

...cared for my carer for over 5 hours this morning, so I'm now working overtime and I reckon it'll be a 12 hour day today.

Looks like...

...I won't be eating today 'cos my carer has just said "I won't be cooking for lunch today 'cos I just can't be arsed so I'll pick at nuts and biscuits instead" so that's 100% wrong so far, considering he tells everyone that he "makes all her meals for her" so I'll be going hungry for the first day this week.

I'm making a prediction now, at 11.38am, that he won't want to cook tomorrow either, Wednesday is soup anyway ('cos of the weekly virus scan) which I can pretty much guarantee I'll be making, he'll come up with an excuse not to cook on Thursday 'cos that's hash browns and veg (although if he's gonna cook at all this'll be the most likely day), Friday is the Tofuu/chicken steaks and veg which he won't wanna cook 'cos it involves cooking two different things, Saturday is chilli which I doubt he'll cook and Sunday is hot dogs which I reckon he won't want to cook because it involves two different things again.

This week'll be good for me losing the extra weight then, especially as I'll be exercising too.

No, y'know what?

I'm fed up to the back teeth of going without so that Steve can have stuff just for him, so I've added bananas and chocolate soya milk to the order so now, the totals look like this:


My stuff:  £6.93
Steve's stuff:  £37.05
Joint stuff:  £3.88

Which is still far from ideal, but better than it was an hour ago.

Tomorrow's (hopefully final) groceries...

...break down like this:

My stuff:  £3.53
Steve's stuff:  £37.05
Joint stuff:  £2.10

So Steve's stuff is very nearly £35 more than the joint stuff and £33.52 more expensive than mine, which makes it 10 times more expensive than both my stuff and the joint stuff and I'm making a prediction right now, at 10.07am, that the majority of Steve's stuff will go to waste yet again.  I might as well pour £120 a month down the drain!

Cor lummy!

Just finished doing my first set of laps today and oh boy are my legs and knees feeling it now! lol

Managed to do almost 3,500 steps, so I'm feeling pretty proud of that.  I'm thinking that when I'm back down to the normal weight for my height, I'll still keep exercising, but only do it once a day instead of twice so that I can keep my body moving and burning any extra calories that come along.

Mornin' all

Can I just start off by saying that I need to add another hour to yesterday's and therefore the week's total again.  My carer fell asleep just as I was shutting down for the night, so I had to stay down until he woke up again.  Last week's total finally finished at 86 hours and 24 minutes and I've already cared for my carer for ¾ of an hour this morning and he's just demanded his breakfast, so I'd best go and get it for him when he wakes up.


Forgot to publish this again lol  


I've now given my carer his breakfast, taken my morning pills, weighed myself and put the FitBit spreadsheet on my site.  I've put on weight somehow this week, so other than my Graze box, I'll only be eating when my carer cooks and drinking water instead of pop or hot drinks this week, so I can see myself only eating a couple of times in 7 days instead of 14 times like my carer claims he does.

Our rubbish and recycling is due to be collected today, so I'll bring the bags and box in when that's done and dusted.


I've just started the daily virus scan and woken my carer up so that he didn't knock his bottles of juice off the arm of his chair... bet he'll be asleep before he finishes drinking them though!  Yep, he's already fallen asleep with an open bottle of juice in his hand, so I reckon today is gonna be one of those days.

Time to go and refill my glass with water to keep me going today.  Because I won't be eating very much I reckon it'll be another high hydration week again.

The virus scan's just finished and, reassuringly, my machine is still free of nasties.

I think I'll restart doing my laps this week... 15 minutes in the morning and another 15 minutes after lunch to try and lose the weight I need to lose to get into the ideal weight range for my height.

Our groceries are due tomorrow, so considering that I'll just be drinking water this week, I can take all of my pop off to remove the temptation.

Sunday 16 January 2022

Off to beddy-byes now

Just done the final bit of admin for the week and I've hit the 85 hour mark and gone over it by 24 minutes.  My carer is paid to care for me for a minimum of 35 hours a week, but this week he only cared for me for 1 hour and 3 minutes.

Assuming he cooks every day next week, he might hit 4 hours, but I somehow doubt that it'll happen in reality.

I've taken my last two pills of the day and they are starting to kick in, so I'm gonna publish this and shut down I reckon.

Nite nite orl.

Today's (16th January 2022) lunch photo

Just had my first home-cooked meal of the year... a yummy Quorn family roast with canned new potatoes and a whole heap of veg so a really healthy lunch today!


It's official...

...we're definitely having a roast lunch today 'cos my carer has just gone out to make a start on it.  We're only having a Quorn family roast, mixed veg and a can of new potatoes, but it's more than I've had for the rest of the year combined so far, so I'm not complaining!

Morning again all

My body was desperately in need of sleep last night 'cos I was asleep for 9 hours and 41 minutes overnight, according to my FitBit.

I've taken my morning pills and had 6 Bourbon Creams for breakfast in between making Steve a peach tea and bringing his breakfast in.  He's also been asleep for almost 2 hours already this morning so it's gonna be another sleepy day for him I reckon today.

Apparently we're still definitely having the roast for lunch, which will be my first home-cooked meal of the year, but I won't believe it until it's in front of me and I've taken a photo of it for you all.

We need to put our rubbish and recycling out today, but I'm gonna wait until after we've had our lunch today 'cos there is bound to be rubbish and recycling coming from that, so it makes sense to do it all at the same time, right?

I'm in the process of buying some more courses from the New Skills Academy too.

The daily virus scan was clear so that's reassuring.  I wanna get my head down and edit today too... I just need to motivate myself first.

Saturday 15 January 2022

Busy, busy, busy!

I've spend the last 3 hours elbows deep in editing, so have got 4 less to do tomorrow now.  It takes about half an hour for each Early Reader to be edited, so I'm hoping I'll be a good chunk of the way through the entire folder by this time tomorrow, then I can make a start on another folder and keep on keeping on until I've got through every single manuscript I've written.

I've taken my pills and the side effects are already starting to kick in and I can't open either of my email programmes for some reason, so I'm thinking that might be the universes way of telling me to head to bed soon, so I'm gonna close down all my various apps and head off to bed for an early night now.

See you all at some point in the morning.

Nite nite orl.

That's my carer...

...sorted for his lunch now - a double curry MugShot and his second meal of the day (17th of the week), made by me and none made by him for me.

All dosed up until...

...tonight now.  The crumbs went all over the place in my mouth when I crunched it up this time lol

Yet again... carer doesn't want to cook or eat so, for the sixth day running, I'll be having biscuits for my lunch and my carer hasn't made a single meal for me, yet has expected me to make his last 16 meals for him.

Not a happy bunny right now.

Mornin' all

How are you all doing this morning?

I'm doing OK, hoping that it'll be a stress-free day today.  We're definitely having lasagne's and I'm hoping that my carer will help me to cook 'em 'cos his lasagne has lost it's cardboard sleeve at some point, so I haven't got a clue how long it goes into the oven for!  It's an easy enough meal, just bung it in the oven for 25 minutes and it's done apparently, so it sounds easy enough to do.  It's our home-made vegan lunch tomorrow so my carer will have to do that 'cos it involves more than one thing cooking at the same time and I'm not that confident with my skills yet 😄  


Next week will be a challenge 'cos there is more than one thing on the go with a few of the meals, so I'll be taking the next step on Monday 'cos it's vegan pasta bolognaise which I've never made before, but I'm determined to do it so that I can start working my way through all the jars in the cupboard.

Before I get too into talking about food, I've also taken my morning pills, run the virus scan (still clear) and the maintenance programme which found a couple of things, but they are both sorted now so I'm all set for the day.

When my carer wakes up, I'll go and make his breakfast for him but hopefully not quite as much as I gave him yesterday 😆

I'm having to charge up my FitBit, fitness watch and mobile phone at the same time 'cos they were all barely clinging on so I figured I'd best charge them all up before they died on me when I needed them the most lol

My FitBit is fully charged and my watch is at 99% so I'll put them both back on then wait for my carer to wake up.

OK, both are fully charged and re-attached to me, so I'm just waiting for my carer to wake up now, so that I can go and make his breakfast for him.

Friday 14 January 2022

I've hit...

...12 hours of care today, so the total for the week so far is over 64 hours so far and I'm on track for hitting 85 hours by bed-time on Sunday, but I've just started yawning, so it's time to hit the sack now.

Nite nite orl... sea ewe in the morning at some point.

Currently at...

...exactly 10½ hours of care for my carer today, which means that the current running total for the amount of care I've provided for him, is at 62¼ hours so far this week, so this might even break through 80 hours of care this week!  My carer is still at 13 minutes of care for me though and unless he does nothing but care for me every moment I'm awake from now until bedtime on Sunday, there's no way he can reach the minimum required care yet again.

Very nearly...

...6½ hours of care for my carer, but I've caught up with everything now, so I'm gonna spend this afternoon doing surveys.

Over 5 hours already

I've already cared for my carer for more than 5 hours today so the rest of the afternoon and evening is even more overtime to add to the 10 hours I did yesterday.  So far this week, I've already worked very nearly 27 hours of overtime and it's only Friday lunchtime.  My carer has provided 13 minutes of care for both of us this week so he still needs to provide 34 hours and 47 minutes of care before my bed-time on Sunday to hit the minimum but I don't reckon I'll be getting a minute more of care out of him unless he makes our roast on Sunday.

Over 27 hours of overtime now and still climbing, but apparently I'm not his carer and he does "everything" for me 🤷

Lunch eaten...

...t'was just a Graze sea salt crunch, 19 raspberries and 25 blueberries, but my body is feeling sooo glad that I've put so much fruit into it today.

Steve doesn't want his hot dogs for lunch 'cos he's "still bloated from breakfast" so it's very much make-do day for me today and we're having the hot dogs next Sunday instead of the cous cous.  We're having the lasagnes tomorrow and a full Sunday roast with plenty of veggies on Sunday then another 4 meals with vegetables next week, so that we can use them up.

It'll be a mango and blueberry smoothie for tomorrow's breakfast 'cos they both go out of date on the same day, so it'll be another day with loadsa fruit, which is fine by me!  I've always preferred natural sweetness of fruit and veg to the sugar that's added to a lot of other sweet treats and usually even to chocolate... fruit chocolate is the best of both worlds for me though, and now that I've found Pure Heavenly I can eat as much chocolate as I want without getting an allergic reaction, which is even better!

Steve's just woken up and finished his second bottle of juice, so I'll go and take them out to the recycling box and try and remember to fill up my bottle with squash before I come in, like I've forgotten 3 times so far lol

I've just got... Graze box (if you use this link ⮘⮘ you will get your first, fifth and tenth boxes for free) through the post at last!  Means I can have something solid for my lunch after all today, thankfully.

I was wrong this morning, I'm sorry

I posted earlier and said that my entire daily calories would come from fruit smoothies but I was wrong about that and I'm sorry for my mistake.

I'm currently scoffing my way through a box of mint matchmakers, so the calories from that will hopefully increase my calorie count a bit more... far from healthy, but I don't have a choice.

That's breakfast sorted

That's my carer's breakfast made and my 1½ blueberry and raspberry smoothies juzzed up and drunk.  Based on the smoothies I've had for breakfast, I'll be living on less than 250 calories today combined, which is better than nothing, granted, but far from ideal.

Mornin' all

Looks like today will be a calorie free day 'cos my carer wants cereal and 2 bottles of juice for his breakfast so I won't be able to bring my own in and his hot dogs have to be boiled to cook them instead of going into the oven like mine and it won't be safe for me to bed over with the hob on 'cos I use the hob to steady myself when I haul the oven door open, so I'll be making both of my carer's meals, and prolly his tea too and I'll be going hungry all day.  Again.


When I woke up and checked my FitBit, it wasn't showing any steps so I must have barely moved after midnight.  I came down and loaded up the app which told me that I was only restless 4 times during the 8 hours and 39 minutes I was asleep.


I've taken my morning pills and they all went down OK, so hopefully that means today will be a good day for me.

I remembered that I've already finished planning out my NaNo novel, so I didn't open up the planning software.

My carer is asleep atm, so I'll go and make his breakfast for him when he wakes up then start catching up on my emails and Facebook posts that I'm so behind on since spending all day planning for the last couple of days.

I've just been reminded, via my Windows calendar, that I need to make myself smoothies today, so that the fruit doesn't go off, so I'll have those for my breakfast and lunch today - healthy and good for me and I'll get a few hundred calories inside me after all by the looks of things!  Just gotta wait for a more sensible time before I start whizzing the smoothie machine 'cos it's so loud lol

The virus scan was still clear, thankfully, so I can safely use my machine without accidentally infecting anyone.

My carer has just woken up, so it's time to go and make his first meal of the day for him.


Thursday 13 January 2022

Nite nite orl

My carer has just woken up, so I've done the admin on the spreadsheet and I'm already over 51 hours of care this week, still with 3 days to go, so I'm predicting maybe scraping through the 85 hour mark this week?  I'm hoping I'll still be asleep at the time I woke up and came down this morning though lol

Signing off and shutting down now, before my carer falls asleep again.

Nite nite orl.

Just taken my last pills of the day and...

...I'm wide awake so I'm right on track for caring for my carer for a huuuuge 15 hours today after all 'cos I'm currently 2 minutes away from 14 hours and I don't shut down before I start yawning, which feels like a looong way off atm, so the potential of a 15 hour day is looking pretty likely right now.  I've already cared for my carer for over 50 hours this week, so I reckon double the necessary 35 hours before bedtime on Sunday should be pretty easy.

Money, money, money

I've just moved the electricity money over, at my hubby's request, ready for its payment on the 17th instead of 15th this month.  I bet the money will disappear before then though and I'll have to move the vast majority of my savings over to cover it for the second time and he'll deny it.  He's not getting double the amount out of me any more though 'cos I only use the account for the electricity money, so that I have a record of the date that I move it over every month.

He doesn't like me keeping a record of his debts and care because he knows he can't deny it then!

Today's (13th January 2022) lunch photo

My first proper meal of the week - a tomato and herb MugShot.  As usual I've censored the naughty word in case there are any young eyes seeing the photo

That's the wildlife sorted and... belly is rumbling from hunger, so now it's time to carry on planning my NaNo novel.

Today is starting with...

...loads of motivation, thankfully, so I'm gonna make the most of it and go to sort out the water for the birds now, then carry on planning my NaNo novel.  I've just got my carer's breakfast (2 yoghurts and 2 juices) for him, so after I've sorted out the birds, I'll be able to start planning the novel until lunchtime.  Gotta remember to give my carer his meat slices for his tea tonight, along with the pasta pots and Pepperami's that are his usual tea.

Mornin' all

T'was a very early start this morning 'cos I started caring for my carer at just before 4.30am, so I've already cared for him for over an hour and a half this morning.

I've made myself a Tetley's multivitamin tea to try and wake me up like it did last night and I'm about to take my morning pills... gotta remember to take the FA this morning.  The virus scan found one "advanced issue" this morning, but that's sorted out now, so I'm good to go.

My carer has just woken up and said "I think I'm gonna complete my week of not going anywhere and cancel today too 'cos I only just made it to the loo again overnight so don't wanna be sat in the waiting room and not be able to get to the toilet in time" so I reckon today might just about scrape through as a rare 15 hour day after all, considering I got up and started caring for him so early.

I've taken my morning pills and put in my repeat prescription request, so I'm all sorted until my carer wakes up enough to have his breakfast now, so I'll go and make that for him, then our lunch (MugShots today, so I'll be eating more than biscuits and dry bread for the first time this week) and likely his tea too.


Gotta try and remember to go out and check/refill the wild birds' water at some point today too, 'cos I haven't done that for aaaages and I want the birds to stay hydrated!

I'm gonna crack on with the planning now I reckon.


Wednesday 12 January 2022

Off to beddy-byes now

Just got my carer's 3rd meal of the day for him and all I've had all day is 5 biccies and 3 slices of dry bread.  I've taken my last two pills of the day and the side effects are rapidly kicking in, so I'm gonna head to bed now.

Nite nite orl!

Achieved a pretty decent amount today!

After a sssllllooooowwww start to the day, I've managed to achieve a pretty decent amount and I'm feeling pretty proud of myself for it.

Since my last post, I've:

  • cooked lunch for my carer
  • completed the weekly backups
  • taken my lunchtime pill
  • eaten my lunch (3 slices of dry bread)
  • made my carer a couple of hot drinks
  • tried the peach tea made with cold water for both of us
  • planned out the first 20 chapters of my NaNo novel

I've just had my first slurp of the 3rd new drink of the week and it starts off really woody then changes to a berry aftertaste... not unpleasant and I reckon that'll be a regular purchase too!

I'll be eating tomorrow 'cos it's MugShots on the menu, so I'll only be standing up for as long as it takes to boil the kettle and stir it all around in the mugs then I can bring them in at the same time.

I'm definitely going to have an early night tonight... gotta bring the top-up shop in, get my carer's tea for him, take my pills then I can head straight off to beddy-byes.

Not even 11am yet...

...and I've already drunk over the minimum liquid intake, so today is definitely gonna be another high hydration day.

Mornin' all

So far this morning I've:

  • Come up with some codes for my food photos
  • Started off the weekly virus scan
  • Taken my morning pills
  • Cared for my carer for over an hour
  • Listened to my carer as he considered "jipping out of today's appointment with the nurse"
  • Asked him to ask his mum to get him some more milk

 And I'm about to go and get his breakfast for him.  I won't be moving far from the sofa this morning so that I can make his lunch for him too.  Will today be another low/no calorie day for me?  It's certainly looking like it right now!


I've already drunk 1¼ litres this morning so I reckon it's gonna be a high hydration/low nutrition day today.


Tuesday 11 January 2022

Well, that's the menu's sorted for...

...the rest of January, just using what we've already got in the freezers and cupboard so, in theory at least, all we need to buy each week is pop and fruit.  Bet it won't happen like that though.

My carer is having sausages and chips tomorrow and I'm having instant soup, assuming I can stay upright for long enough to do it, unlike today of course.  MugShots on Wednesday which'll prolly be made by me again then hot dogs on Friday, assuming my carer has requested the rolls for our top-up shop of course.  The weekend is lasagnes on Saturday and then Sunday brings a roast dinner that has been promised since the middle of November.  There's no way I'll be stable enough to do the roast, so that might be the only meal my carer cooks this week.

I've just taken my pills, so I'm gonna start closing all my programmes while I wait for the knackeredness to kick in.

Nite nite orl.

Thank you Esmarelda!

Just put my safety at risk several times so that I could make my carer's lunch for him, so he's having 16 sausages and chips for his lunch tomorrow so that poor Esmarelda can finally be at peace instead of stuck in our freezer.  Right now, I don't care if my carer doesn't want all 16 sausages, that's what he's getting, along with the chips, whether he likes it or not.  They've been stuck in there for the last 7 days and I'm at the point now where he'll eat what he's fucking given so that we've got space to fill up with things that I can have too.

My lunch today is gonna be more dry bread and the same tomorrow until the loaf is used up.  Far from healthy, but I don't seem to have a choice apparently.

When my legs have recovered and I've stopped shaking like a leaf, I'm gonna do another inventory of all our food then come up with a menu until it's all been used up and if my carer doesn't make the food for that day, then it'll be down to me again.  I'm predicting that he'll make maybe two or, at best, three meals and the rest of it will be down to me again.  


He seems to want credit for being my carer but doing pretty much bugger all to deserve that title.  I've been keeping a weekly spreadsheet of the care he provides me with for a few months now and I've yet to reach 35 hours in total over those entire months, yet I frequently double or even approach triple that every week (except during NaNo and JanNo of course).  I'm already approaching 20 hours this week and it's only Tuesday afternoon, so I'm predicting that it'll be a pretty easy double week this week, despite my carer's two medical appointments this week.

Time to go and refil my glass with water so that I can hopefully eek out the last of my infusion before I forget again.

What a morning!

Afternoon all.

I still haven't been able to plan out any more of my NaNo novel but the groceries have been and gone and, as I think I predicted this morning, it was all down to me again.

My carer approves of my tea that I got for myself, so I'm making another prediction that he will be drinking the entire canister and I won't get more than one single mug out of it.

I've also just finished screen-shotting and putting the email FitBit report from last week, so I'll code and upload it then risk my health to cook his lunch for him considering it's taken him a week since it was delivered to make it, so I'm gonna put my health and safety at risk yet again so that it doesn't go to waste.  I'm gonna have another few slices of dry bread for my lunch, so that that doesn't go to waste again either.  He's got a medical appointment tomorrow and Wednesday so I'm predicting that I'll be making his lunch for him then too.


He last made food for me on 29th December 2021 despite telling everyone that he "makes all her food for her" and the last time he made me a drink was the end of last Summer/beginning of Autumn last year yet I make him several drinks and at least one meal every day.


OK, that's the website stuff done, so it's time to put myself in danger for my carer yet again.

Mornin' all

How are you all doing this morning?

I woke up about an hour later than normal this morning and, as normal, started caring for my carer as soon as I got downstairs, so I'm already over an hour of care this morning.


I've taken my morning pills, including the FA and need to remember to request my three of my four prescriptions at the weekend so that there is 2 weeks for the pharmacy to stall on delivering them.

I've also just had the substitution email for our groceries that are being delivered later and Steve doesn't want two of the replacements, so he said he's going to reject those, but I'm predicting right now that he'll accept them and they won't be eaten, so £3.40 will go down the drain again.  The breakdown looks lke this:

My stuff:  £8.65
Steve's stuff:  £20.38
Joint stuff:  £9.57

So Steve's stuff is more than half of the entire order, even without the substitution that he says he's going to reject.


The virus scan was clear again, thankfully, so I'm protected for another day.


I'm gonna grab myself another glass of water and hopefully get on with planning out my NaNo novel now, while I'm charging up my FitBit.