Nite nite orl

I've taken my last two pills of the day, so I'm gonna say goodnight to you all now and I'll see you back here hopefully bright but not too early (ha!  I wish!) in the morning.

Nite nite orl.

Fourth and final update to today's to-do list

• Take morning pills
• Run weekly virus scan
• Do backups
• Refill bottle with squash
• Order more B12 spray
• Order more chocolate
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news - had another day off today, but tomorrow starts a new month, so hopefully there will be more than 2 days of news then lol
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Keep an eye on Olio to see if anyone wants the food
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Can someone remind me, tomorrow...

...to try juzzing up the vegan protein powder with 250ml of water in my smoothie machine please?

I've tried shaking it with both 250ml as well as 500ml of water and it still hasn't all melted so I'm thinking that I haven't got the strength left to shake it as vigorously as it needs, so I'm gonna try the mechanical way to see what happens.

Can someone also remind me to attempt to cut up a lemon so that I can have a hot honey and lemon drink after my breakfast to see if it tackles hayfever like it does with colds pretty please?

I need...

...a real life hug.

Third update to today's to-do list

• Take morning pills
• Run weekly virus scan
• Do backups
• Refill bottle with squash
• Order more B12 spray
• Order more chocolate
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news - had another day off today, but tomorrow starts a new month, so hopefully there will be more than 2 days of news then lol
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Keep an eye on Olio to see if anyone wants the food
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Today's (31st May 2023) lunch photo

Just had another simple lunch of a tin (ie 2 servings/portions) of baked beans and a glass of water again.  It's spaghetti loops for a change tomorrow then thankfully the last tin of beans and vegan sausages on Friday... I really don't enjoy the taste of meat any more, even though they are me-friendly - it's the same with dairy too.  My taste-buds have got used to not tasting dead animals so even the meat substitutes taste gross to me now.

I accidentally had a dairy ice cream (that said on the website is was dairy-free) at the end of last week and I knew as soon as I pulled the lid off that it wasn't me-friendly so that was a very expensive waste that I can't afford to have any more.

Here's today's lunch photo:

Second update to today's to-do list

• Take morning pills
• Run weekly virus scan
• Do backups
• Refill bottle with squash
• Order more B12 spray
• Order more chocolate
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Keep an eye on Olio to see if anyone wants the food
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

First update to today's to-do list

• Take morning pills
• Run weekly virus scan
• Do backups
• Refill bottle with squash
• Order more B12 spray
• Order more chocolate
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Keep an eye on Olio to see if anyone wants the food
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Today's (31st May 2023) breakfast photo

You'll never guess what I had for my breakfast this morning lol

Yep, my usual two slices of wholemeal toast, dairy-free spread and a bottle of orange juice again.

Here's today's breakfast photo:

 

Today's (31st May 2023) to-do list

• Take morning pills
• Run weekly virus scan
• Do backups
• Refill bottle with squash
• Order more B12 spray
• Order more chocolate
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Keep an eye on Olio to see if anyone wants the food
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

 

Mornin' all

How are you all doing this morning?

Me?

I'm OK I guess, very snotty so it's gonna be a bad hayfever day for me today, I can already tell.

I've taken my morning pills and remembered not to open my email programmes so far, so that cool and groovy.  I've refilled my bottle of squash that had been empty for a couple of days and it's too late to risk making myself an early breakfast 'cos I can guarantee that I'd take a bite and the bell would go lol

I haven't got anything in my calendar for today so I'm gonna totally veg out and hopefully start to recover from the first two days off this week, especially yesterday.

I think I'm gonna have my second caffeinated drink of the week after I've had my breakfast this morning, to try and wake me up a bit.  I've given myself a couple of squirts of B12 too, to try and give me an energy boost.  I need to order some more of it though 'cos I'm rapidly running out.  It's lasted me for 3 months though, so that's OK.

This post is already waaaay too long, so I'm gonna publish it and wait for my carer then put up my to-do list and order the chocolate when she's gone.

TTFN

Nite nite orl

Aaaaand relax lol

I got through today without too much pain or exhaustion, but I'm definitely gonna have an early night now after the bedlum throughout today.

I'll be back, like always, in the morning and I haven't got anything booked in for the whole day (other than the weekly virus scan), so I don't intend to move far from the sofa tomorrow otherwise I'll go base over apex on Sunday and won't be able to get up, which would be at best embarrassing at worst, dangerous.  I'm not gonna take any more risks between tomorrow and Saturday so I'm gonna head straight off to bed for a well-deserved early night now I reckon.

Nite nite orl.

Sixth and final update to today's to-do list

• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Download, code and upload the FitBit image
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news - too much is happening today so I'm gonna give myself the day off
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Bring groceries in
• Put groceries away
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Bring in 2 deliveries
• Keep an eye on Olio to see if anyone wants the food
• Attend interview
• Clear cache's ready for tomorrow's virus scan
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Fifth update to today's to-do list

• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Download, code and upload the FitBit image
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news - too much is happening today so I'm gonna give myself the day off
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Bring groceries in
• Put groceries away
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Bring in 2 deliveries
• Keep an eye on Olio to see if anyone wants the food
• Attend interview
• Clear cache's ready for tomorrow's virus scan
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

My first thoughts on...

...this afternoon's deliveries is that they are both awesome.

The key holder that goes around my neck was wonderful.  A touch shorter than the one it's replacing, but that's no bad thing 'cos it will hopefully mean that it's less likely to get caught up in car seatbelts.  The major test will be its first official outing on Sunday, but right now it's getting the full 5 stars.

The toolkit/box thing is a lot shorter and lighter than I was thinking, but again that's a positive rather than a negative 'cos it means that I don't need to invest in a set of drawers to keep it in.  It's sturdy, well made and the heaviest thing in it is the hammer... I'll have to be careful when I use it so that I don't put holes in walls lol

I've also heard from the emersion repairers that I emailed at the weekend about it not providing hot water on Saturday and they have arranged for an electrician to come out on Monday afternoon to have a look at it and either fix it there and then or provide me with a quote for fixing it.  There's a £70+VAT call-out charge, but it means I'll be having another cold bath on Saturday, but that's in hand too now.

I've cleared my browser cache's ready for tomorrow's weekly virus scan and I've indulged in a tub of dairy-free ice cream so I've got an ice cream headache now and I'm gonna take my lunchtime pill almost 5 hours late, but I'm incredibly proud of how I've handled today!

I'm handling this independent living thing considerably better than I thought I would 6 months ago!

Nah, sod it, I'll have a shower instead of bath on Saturday so that I can try out the shower rails 'cos they are the only untested things now.  I desperately need to wash my hair too, so Saturday seems like as good an opportunity as any to do that too.

I've handled two household things (the emersion heater and smart meter) totally alone and got on top of getting a problem with one of them fixed as well as getting Steve's stuff taken away and I'm eating twice a day now instead of 5-6 times a week like I did when Steve was alive.  I'm gradually building up confidence in myself and I'm finally starting to believe in myself now too.

I can do this, I really can.

Time to give my FitBit a bit of juice before I go to bed now that I've taken my lunchtime pill I reckon.  I'll hopefully be able to spend the rest of the week recovering from yesterday and especially today lol

Fourth update to today's to-do list

• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Download, code and upload the FitBit image
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news - too much is happening today so I'm gonna give myself the day off
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Bring groceries in
• Put groceries away
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Bring in 2 deliveries
• Keep an eye on Olio to see if anyone wants the food
• Attend interview
• Clear cache's ready for tomorrow's virus scan
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Today's (30th May 2023) lunch photo

Today's lunch was a simple meal of a tin of baked beans and vegan sausages, along with a glass of water 'cos baked beans always make my mouth dry lol

Here's today's lunch photo:

Third update to today's to-do list

• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Download, code and upload the FitBit image
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news - too much is happening today so I'm gonna give myself the day off
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Bring groceries in
• Put groceries away
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Bring in 2 deliveries
• Keep an eye on Olio to see if anyone wants the food
• Attend interview
• Clear cache's ready for tomorrow's virus scan
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Second update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Download, code and upload the FitBit image
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news - too much is happening today so I'm gonna give myself the day off
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Bring in 2 deliveries
• Bring groceries in
• Put groceries away
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Keep an eye on Olio to see if anyone wants the food
• Attend interview
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

First update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Download, code and upload the FitBit image
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Bring in 2 deliveries
• Bring groceries in
• Put groceries away
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Keep an eye on Olio to see if anyone wants the food
• Attend interview
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Today's (30th May 2023) breakfast photo

Just my normal breakfast of 2 slices of wholemeal toast with dairy-free spread and a bottle of orange juice again this morning.

So it looks like...

...I'm getting both of my deliveries today instead of tomorrow and Thursday that I'd booked so I really *will* be run off my feet today!

Today's (30th May 2023) to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Download, code and upload the FitBit image
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Bring in delivery
• Bring groceries in
• Put groceries away
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Keep an eye on Olio to see if anyone wants the food
• Attend interview
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Mornin' all

I've woken up a bit earlier than normal so that I can make sure I do actually have time to sit down and relax today lol

Taken all my morning pills and been for a poo, so I'm all set for the day now.  I'm gonna put my to-do list up and keep my fingers crossed that my carer will be nice and early this morning.

TTFN

Nite nite orl

I've taken my last two pills of the day and I reckon I'm gonna keep crossing off the "Go to bed" thing on my to-do list at the same time, 'cos it's one less thing for me to remember then.

There prolly won't be too many posts tomorrow 'cos I'll be absolutely run off my feet... it's not usually like that though, and I'd rather have the delivery early rather than late and I'm hoping that they'll just shove it through the door but knowing my luck my morning carer will turn up just as my groceries come to the door, then the delivery will arrive just as I start the interview lol

I'm gonna head off to beddy-byes now 'cos the side effects are rapidly taking hold now.

Nite nite orl.

Sixth and final update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Weigh myself
• Log weight into FitBit
• Download, code and upload the spreadsheet
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news
• Bring in the rubbish sack
• Bring in the recycling container
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Ask carer to change bedding
• Wash bedding
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Take photos of very old food
• Advertise very old food on Olio
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to this week because of techie issues on my end last week
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

It's gonna be...

...a very busy day for me tomorrow 'cos not only have I got my regular two carers, I've also got the groceries in the morning, the rescheduled thing in the afternoon and now one of my deliveries, that was supposed to be arriving on Wednesday, is actually being delivered tomorrow instead!  It looks like my bum won't be on the sofa for more than 10 minutes at a time lol  I'm glad I had the caffeine today instead of tomorrow now lol

Fifth update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Weigh myself
• Log weight into FitBit
• Download, code and upload the spreadsheet
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news
• Bring in the rubbish sack
• Bring in the recycling container
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Ask carer to change bedding
• Wash bedding
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Take photos of very old food
• Advertise very old food on Olio
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to this week because of techie issues on my end last week
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

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Fourth update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Weigh myself
• Log weight into FitBit
• Download, code and upload the spreadsheet
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news - 2 out of the 3 done and I'm hoping to get the third one polished off in the next couple of hours or so
• Bring in the rubbish sack
• Bring in the recycling container
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Ask carer to change bedding
• Wash bedding
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Take photos of very old food
• Advertise very old food on Olio
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to this week because of techie issues on my end last week
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Today's (29th May 2023) lunch photos

I was a right oinker for my lunch today!  

I started with a mug of instant tomato soup and should have stopped there but nooo, the piggie in me had 3 portions of a vegetarian meat substitute, 4 halves of roast potatoes and a portion of broccoli too.  I couldn't finish it all, so I've got ¾ of a serving of the meat substitute and a bit of broccoli to force down this afternoon.

Here are today's two lunch photos:

Third update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Weigh myself
• Log weight into FitBit
• Download, code and upload the spreadsheet
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news
• Bring in the rubbish sack
• Bring in the recycling container
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Ask carer to change bedding
• Wash bedding
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Take photos of very old food
• Advertise very old food on Olio
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to this week because of techie issues on my end last week
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Second update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Weigh myself
• Log weight into FitBit
• Download, code and upload the spreadsheet
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news
• Bring in the rubbish sack
• Bring in the recycling container
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Ask carer to change bedding
• Wash bedding
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Take photos of very old food
• Advertise very old food on Olio
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to this week because of techie issues on my end last week
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Today's (29th May 2023) breakfast photo

For my first meal of the week, I had my usual breakfast of 2 slices of wholemeal toast with dairy-free spread and a bottle of orange juice, like I do most mornings.

I've also worked out (after weighing myself this morning) that I do indeed need 2,000 calories a day to maintain my weight, rather than lose it, so my usual breakfast and either a tin of baked beans or a tin of spaghetti for lunch pretty much takes me there and it's what my body is used to now, so that's OK.

I'm also gonna have a protein shake between Tuesday and Saturday each week so that I can get my protein intake just about into double figures each day, like it is on a Sunday and Monday when I have the Quorn family roast.

I've also decided that when I've eventually finished off the jar of caffeinated coffee, I'm just gonna get a 100g jar to keep in the cupboard in case I have visitors who want it.  I've only used about a quarter of the 200g jar in just over 6 months and I prefer the flavour of decaff coffee 'cos it's not so bitter.  I'm only allowed 2-3 servings of caffeine a week according to my GP, so I won't miss it and it'll mean that I can put the open tin of drinking chocolate in it's place instead.

Here's today's breakfast photo:

 

First update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Weigh myself
• Log weight into FitBit
• Download, code and upload the spreadsheet
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news
• Bring in the rubbish sack
• Bring in the recycling container
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Ask carer to change bedding
• Wash bedding
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Take photos of very old food
• Advertise very old food on Olio
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to this week because of techie issues on my end last week
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Today's (29th May 2023) to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Weigh myself
• Log weight into FitBit
• Download, code and upload the spreadsheet
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news
• Bring in the rubbish sack
• Bring in the recycling container
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Ask carer to change bedding
• Wash bedding
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Take photos of very old food
• Advertise very old food on Olio
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to next week because of techie issues on my end the other day
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Goooood morning all!

I've woken up in a fantastic mood for some reason!  Not that I'm complaining of course lol

I've run the first virus scan of the week, taken my morning pills and put the rubbish and recycling out (I brought it back in because the rubbish bag was so light and I didn't want it to blow away) and I'm feeling incredibly proud of myself for how little electricity I've used this month - I'm a few pennies over £55 and with the daily standing charge that's about £70 which is less than half of my monthly budget of £150!

As soon as my first carer of the week has gone, I'll make myself some breakfast, then weigh myself, log it into the FitBit app, then download, code and upload last week's spreadsheet.  Time to get today's to-do list sorted first though I reckon.

TTFN

Nite nite orl

Like I've done a few times this week, I've taken my pills but I'm not going to bed quite yet, I just wanna be sure that I've said goodnight to you all for the final time before I head up to bed.

See you for the start of a new week tomorrow morning.

Nite nite orl.

Fourth and final update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run monthly virus scan
• Charge up my FitBit
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news - didn't have time this morning
• Take out the rubbish
• Take out the recycling
• Take letters to be posted
• Take Steve's Fire TV thing to be reformatted
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram - I don't on a Sunday
• Take lunchtime pill
• Refill dosette box
• Wash knitwear
• Wash cottons
• Wash towel
• Put wardrobe together - my fantastic SIL did it for me!
• Hang up clothes
• Take photos of very old food
• Advertise very old food on Olio
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to next week because of techie issues on my end the other day
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Third update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run monthly virus scan
• Charge up my FitBit
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news - didn't have time this morning
• Take out the rubbish
• Take out the recycling
• Take letters to be posted
• Take Steve's Fire TV thing to be reformatted
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram - I don't on a Sunday
• Take lunchtime pill
• Refill dosette box
• Wash knitwear
• Wash cottons
• Wash towel
• Put wardrobe together - my fantastic SIL did it for me!
• Hang up clothes
• Take photos of very old food
• Advertise very old food on Olio
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to next week because of techie issues on my end the other day
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

I'm now feeling...

...slightly less suicidal than I have been for the last few months.  I had an honest chat to my SIL and laid my cards totally out on the table, told her where I felt able to compromise and what was staying.  She's going to talk to my BIL about it and see what he says.  If he's willing to compromise too then all three of us will be happy.

I'm still very suicidal, but not every breath is agony any more and I'm no longer at immediate risk of putting my plan into action.

Second update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run monthly virus scan
• Charge up my FitBit
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news - didn't have time this morning
• Take out the rubbish
• Take out the recycling
• Take letters to be posted
• Take Steve's Fire TV thing to be reformatted
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram - I don't on a Sunday
• Take lunchtime pill
• Refill dosette box
• Wash knitwear
• Wash cottons
• Wash towel
• Put wardrobe together - my fantastic SIL did it for me!
• Hang up clothes
• Take photos of very old food
• Advertise very old food on Olio
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to next week because of techie issues on my end the other day
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

First update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run monthly virus scan
• Charge up my FitBit
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my will legal
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Refill dosette box
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to next week because of techie issues on my end the other day
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Today's (28th May 2023) breakfast photo

For my final breakfast of the week, I'm having the first two slices of wholemeal toast out of a fresh loaf of bread, I've slathered it in dairy-free spread and I have, of course, got my usual bottle of orange juice to go with it.

Here's my last meal photo of the week:

Today's (28th May 2023) to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run monthly virus scan
• Charge up my FitBit
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my Will legal
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to next week because of techie issues on my end the other day
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Mornin' all

Stressful morning for me so far today.  First my laptop wouldn't boot up so I had to power it off at the switch, then I accidentally opened up my emails (because I forgot about the monthly virus scan) so had to restart, then my anti-virus programme refused to start so I shut down and this is my fourth attempt to get my technology working.

I've remembered to give my FitBit some juice and the virus scan is at 11% so I'm gonna leave it running until I get home today, then open up my emails for the first time today.

My FitBit is now fully juiced up and my monthly virus scan is at 18% but I've lost my internet connection, so I'm not sure when I'll get to post this.

My connection is back up now and my virus scan is at 20% so hopefully there won't be any more issues now.

Time to put up my to-do list while I'm waiting for the last carer of the week I reckon.

Nite nite orl

Like I've done a few times recently, I'm gonna say goodnight to you all now, but prolly won't be heading to bed quite yet... I just wanna make sure I post it so that I can close my browser down without being woken up with guilt at 2am lol

Until tomorrow morning's monthly virus scan post, it's nitey nite nite and I'll see you all briefly in the morning.

Nite nite orl.

Fourth and final update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news - there wasn't anything today
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my Will legal
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Put the emersion heater on
• Pull the switch in the bathroom
• Have bath
• Turn the emersion heater off
• Clear caches ready for tomorrow's monthly virus scan
• Contact emersion heater repairers
• Admit that I was wrong to my SW
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to next week because of techie issues on my end the other day
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Third update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news - there wasn't anything today
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my Will legal
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Put the emersion heater on
• Pull the switch in the bathroom
• Have bath
• Turn the emersion heater off
• Clear caches ready for tomorrow's monthly virus scan
• Contact emersion heater repairers
• Admit that I was wrong to my SW
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to next week because of techie issues on my end today
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

When I get out of the bath...

...can someone remind me to find the email address of the company who came out to fix my emersion heater a few weeks ago please?

Second update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news - there wasn't anything today
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my Will legal
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Put the emersion heater on
• Pull the switch in the bathroom
• Have bath
• Turn the emersion heater off
• Clear caches ready for tomorrow's monthly virus scan
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to next week because of techie issues on my end today
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Today's (27th May2023) lunch photo

I remembered that there was a bag of various instant meals in the bottom of the cupboard that hadn't even been looked at since the end of last year.  I found 2 me-friendly MugShot packets in the bag that were still in date, so I did a touch of fiddling around with the menu for the next 10 days and added those and the tins of beans & vegan sausages to the menu instead.  My bum had only been planted on the sofa for less than a minute before my carer came to the door lol

Here's today's lunch photo:

First update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news
• Update my will
• Contact CAB about making my Will legal
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Put the emersion heater on
• Pull the switch in the bathroom
• Have bath
• Turn the emersion heater off
• Clear caches ready for tomorrow's monthly virus scan
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to next week because of techie issues on my end today
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Today's (27th May 2023) breakfast photo

This morning's breakfast is a huuuuge break from the norm 'cos the bread had gone mouldy so I've taken another loaf out of the freezer and I had 3 Kit Kat Chunky Caramel bars and an orange juice instead lol

Here's today's breakfast photo:

Yes!

There's no anti-dote to my method of choice, so as long as I take enough, that really will be the end of my pain!

Today's (27th May 2023) to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to next week because of techie issues on my end today
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Mornin' all

How are you all doing this morning?

I'm already snotty so it's gonna be a highly hayfevery day today I reckon.

I've taken my morning pills and I'm sooo cold, so I'm gonna go and make my first hot drink of the day while I'm waiting for my morning carer.

I came to a decision at 3am while I was tossing and turning and trying to work things out in my head that to keep the peace, I'll be granting PoA to my siblings-in-law even though everyone has advised against it and online research heavily advises against it if they have had money issues in the past.  One of my siblings-in-law isn't even allowed to control their own money but they have come right out and demanded that I grant them both PoA so that's what's gonna happen.

I've got a pretty much guaranteed way to end my pain now, so I've just gotta be patient, get my will sorted, PoA granted et voila.  I've just gotta do a touch more research to find out how long it will take to work, time it just right then I can do it whenever I want.

Time to put up my to-do list now I reckon, 'cos this blog post is already waaaaay too long lol

Nite nite orl

I didn't get anywhere close to achieving either of the bigger things today, so I think I'm gonna aim for at least reading where I've got up to tomorrow 'cos I haven't got anyone other than my carers coming to the door tomorrow, so I'll be able to get back into the writing headspace again and hopefully be able to knock out a few more words.

I've taken my pills for tonight though, so I'm gonna head off to beddy-byes now.

Nite nite orl.

Fourth and final update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news
• Bring delivery in
• Put delivery to good use
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to next week because of techie issues on my end today
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Third update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news
• Bring delivery in
• Put delivery to good use
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to next week because of techie issues on my end today
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Hmmm, maybe not then

After doing more research into my method of ending my pain, I've decided against it and I've already got the information I need about Plan B - I just need to be more patient is all and it won't look so suspicious 'cos I've already been getting it for a few years now, so there won't be anything out of the ordinary there either.  I just hope that it's quicker than my Plan A was lol

Second update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news
• Bring delivery in
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to next week because of techie issues on my end today
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Today's (26th May 2023) lunch photo

For my second cooked meal of the week I had a tin of baked beans and my body really isn't used to having 4 meals in 2 days any more lol

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First update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news
• Bring delivery in
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to next week because of techie issues on my end today
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Today's (26th May 2023) breakfast photo

It was a slight change from the norm this morning because it was bread and dairy-free spread as opposed to toast.  It was for the same reason as yesterday but the crust came almost entirely off the bottom instead of the top today, so didn't fancy risking it coming off inside the toaster lol

Here's today's breakfast photo:

 

Today's (26th May 2023) to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Do the news
• Bring delivery in
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to next week because of techie issues on my end today
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Mornin' all

How are you all doing this morning?

Me?

I was doing OK until I read a couple of emails this morning, including a demand, so my mood is through the floor now.  I got a carer this morning though, so I'm washed and dressed for the second time this week and there's even time for me to have breakfast too, so that's OK.

I've taken my morning pills and run the daily virus scan, so I'm good to go until my delivery arrives now

I've been trying to work out my finances and as long as I can scrape about £10-£15 together I'll be OK.

Time to put up my to-do list then have breakfast now I think.

BFN

Nite nite orl

I've taken my pills but they're not kicking in yet, but, like I think I did yesterday, I wanna say goodnight to you all before I forget.

I've also got a decision for the big thing that I wanna achieve tomorrow that I need your opinions on please:

Option 1:  Write some more of my novel

or

Option 2:  Read and review one of the last two remaining books I've got on my Kindle.

I've definitely got two carers coming tomorrow, so it's gotta be something I can instantly stop and then come back to, up to an hour later and I've got a delivery due too, so I've gotta be able to stop mid-word to answer the door to that too.

Sooooo, whaddya all reckon I should do please?

I'd love to hear your thoughts in the comments!

For now though, it's nite nite orl.

Fifth and final update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer - I'm clean and dressed in fresh clothes for the first time since Sunday morning now!
• Give stuff to Freegler 
• Do the news
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to next week because of techie issues on my end today
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Fourth update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer - I'm clean and dressed in fresh clothes for the first time since Sunday morning now!
• Give stuff to Freegler 
• Do the news
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to next week because of techie issues on my end today
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Today's (25th May 2023) lunch photo

Cor lummy!  My body had got out of the habit of getting washed and dressed every morning and to have my first cooked lunch for 4 days has totally knocked me for six!  My mouth wasn't used to the heat of spaghetti loops either so I've got a burnt tongue and throat now lol

Here's today's lunch photo:

Third update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer - I'm clean and dressed in fresh clothes for the first time since Sunday morning now!
• Give stuff to Freegler 
• Do the news
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to next week because of techie issues on my end today
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

Second update to today's to-do list

• Wake up
• Take morning pills
• Run daily virus scan
• Have breakfast
• Put breakfast photo onto this blog and Instagram
• Get washed and dressed with my carer
• Give stuff to Freegler 
• Do the news
• Have lunch
• Put lunchtime photo up on here and Instagram
• Take lunchtime pill
• Attend interview - it's been rescheduled to next week because of techie issues on my end today
• Offer Steve's footrest on Freegle
• Write some more of the sequel
• Read and review 2 Kindle Unlimited books
• Study more of my courses 
• Take evening pills
• Go to bed

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