Nite nite orl

It's been a long ole day and I'm knackered, so keeping this short and heading on up to beddy-byes now.

I'll see you all in the morning.

Nite nite orl

Nite nite orl

I'm absolutely freakin' knackered, so I've taken my pills and I'm heading on up to beddy-byes now.

Gotta remember to have a shower in the morning.

Nite nite orl

Nite nite orl

It's been a very long, stressful day today, but I've taken my pills and I'm heading off to beddy-byes now.  I've got nothing happening tomorrow, not even my weekly bubble bath 'cos of not seeing my SIL on Sunday, so I've got no reason to get up at sparrow's fart in the morning... but prolly will anyway 'cos my bladder always wakes me up no matter how little sleep I've had lol

I'll see you all in the morning.

Nite nite orl

I'm...

...absolutely knackered after waiting up for yesterday's delivery and only just getting 6 hours of sleep, so I'm gonna take my pills then head straight on up to beddy-byes for an early night tonight and I'm really hoping that I'll be asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow tonight!

I've finished the editing now and I've made a start on Steve's bank statements so I'm gonna try and do a bit every day with that so that it's not so overwhelmingly frustrating for me.

I'm gonna have a peach instant tea tomorrow after breakfast and me-friendly creamy hot chocolates for the rest of the day 'cos I need and deserve both of them!

Can someone remind me to put the vegan mayo onto Olio tomorrow please?  I'm gonna keep eating the fruit for my lunches so don't need it any more and don't want it to go to waste.

I'm also expecting my Omegas to turn up tomorrow and they are due around lunchtime, so it'll be early exercises (assuming my 'Morning Stability' score is high enough) and a late lunch of 2 apricots, 10 cherries, a banana and a large pear tomorrow.

Mornin' all

Well, I slept really well last night and woke up at 4am but turned over and went back to sleep until 5am.  I took my morning Visible reading and got a huuuge 4 out of 5 for my 'Morning Stability' score, so I'm gonna weigh myself just to check that it's safe for me to do it weight-wise then I'll get started on my exercises.

My blood pressure machine was a nightmare this morning and kept throwing up the same error message until I changed the batteries, then bingo!

I tried to take my pro and pre-biotics this morning, but they were all stuck in a huge lump so I've binned them and I'm gonna get more Omegas instead from Holland & Barrett 'cos I know that they don't all clump up.  I'm also gonna get some more batteries too.

Yesterday's delivery has been delayed (no shit Sherlock!) and the new estimated delivery date is "on or before 2 July" which is Thursday and 2 weeks since I ordered it for supposedly next day delivery!

I've also gotta remember to put the bags down by the door ready for my groceries and put in my next order too.

The daily virus scan found an advanced issue, so I'll publish this, put my breakfast photos up, then today's to-do list while it's resolving.

BBS

Nite nite orl

It's been a long ole day today and I'm totally knackered so I've taken my pills and I'm going to bed.

I'll see you all in the morning when I've gotta pull the water heating switch in the bathroom and clamber into the bath to hopefully ease my neck, shoulder and arm.

Nite nite orl

Mornin' all

I've had a pretty productive morning so far!  I woke up at 3am and went for an emergency wee then went back to bed until 4.30am and got up properly.  I came downstairs, went for another emergency wee then put my glasses, shoes and socks on and got today's clothes sorted then came back down for the day.  I went for another wee, took my blood pressure (which was a bit high for me but still low in the official range), went for another emergency wee, took my morning pills (but I forgot to take a photo of the glass of water), went for another emergency wee, got washed and changed, had my breakfast, washed up, ran a scan on my personal phone while the scan was running on my laptop and here we are!

I'm feeling pretty anxious this morning just in case something gets fucked up with the bathroom sink plug - I just want the dratted thing to work! lol

Not gonna do my laps or exercises this morning, but I will this afternoon so that I can keep my heart healthy.

This first blog post of the day is getting to be a bit too long, so I'll shut up now and deal with my breakfast photo and then today's to-do list.

BBS

Nite nite orl

I'm absolutely friggin' knackered so I've popped my pills and I'm off to beddy-byes now.

I'll see you all in the morning.

Nite nite orl

Today (7th April 2026) I'm grateful for...

...getting through the day in one piece.

I haven't got anything to prove my accomplishments today, but I feel like I've achieved a decent amount and I've officially started grocery shopping for warmer weather meals as of the first May order which I think is 5th May.  I'm predicting that I'll be cold and hungry for a while as my body adjusts, but that's OK.

I'm also grateful that I decided to stay up an hour later this evening as an experiment to try and sleep for 8 hours instead of 9 to try and hopefully feel more awake tomorrow.

I'm grateful that I know when my landline is going to switch over to digital and that I've ordered a hopefully appropriate digital landline phone to go with it, that has already been dispatched and is coming via Royal Mail tomorrow.  I've also ordered some more caffeine free pop and Pringles to keep me going too, which should be here tomorrow as well.  When the phone arrives I'm gonna phone and book an appointment for someone to come out and set the digital phone line up for me so that I don't fuck it up.

I'm grateful that I forgot to bring my clothes downstairs this morning but I really need to remember to bring them down with me tomorrow 'cos I stink!

I'm grateful that I remembered to phone the pharmacy this morning and I hope that my owed pills get here sooner rather than later now that I've reminded them about the missing prescription.

I'm grateful that I've remembered to clear my browser caches ready for tomorrow's virus scan and backups and I'm hoping that it'll be smooth sailing tomorrow.

I've basically had a lot to be grateful for today.

Nite nite orl

It's been a very long, very knackering day today, but I got through it without caffeine, so that's a positive.

It's already too light outside for me to be able to have early nights again, and I doubt I'll be able to sleep when I get upstairs too, so it could be the first of many sleepless nights tonight.

I've got a bag of 1kg of fresh carrots on tomorrow's groceries and they were only 4p so I'll be trying to use my new peeler for the first time on Wednesday <gulp>  I wanna try snacking on those instead of chocolate for a while to see what happens.

I've popped my last two pills of the day and I'm heading to bed now.

I'll see you all at stupid o'clock in the morning.

Nite nite orl

What have I done...

...in the last few weeks that has totally fucked me up?  It would have been something that lasted several hours and was very physically demanding for me but it was a necessary thing that only happens a couple of times a year, if that.  It wouldn't have been housework or sorting out the wardrobe or hauling the heartbreaking bag downstairs or anything like that, but it's totally zapped my energy for the last few weeks and I'm still screwed up even now.

There's a very small chance that it was my sight test, but it feels more physical than just moving a couple of things around the kitchen.

I've given a couple of clothes rails away recently, but it was before that I think, possibly at the start of the year.

I just can't work out what it was, but it's well and truly fucked me up and I don't think even sleeping for a week would help!

Nite nite orl

It's been a long day today and I'm absolutely knackered again, so I've popped my last two pills of the day and I'm heading on up to beddy-byes now.

I'll have to try and remember to phone the pharmacy again tomorrow to chase up my prescriptions.

See you all in the morning.

Nite nite orl

I definitely...

...deserve all the chocolate in the house and a J2O to celebrate.

I've just beaten a fear and changed the lightbulb in the living room, totally alone for the first time since living here!!!

I know that may be miniscule to many/most of you but it's a huuuuuge deal to me!!

Please don't piss on my parade... if you can't say anything positive to me for the rest of the day then keep it to yourself for a while!

I'm can now, officially...

...fart safely without rushing to the bathroom in case of following through.

There's very little left in my digestive system after pooing so much for the last 4 days, but I can now fart without worrying about anything else coming out at the same time.

It's officially day 1 of my two days of constipation but I'm hoping that I'll be back to normal by the time I wake up on Tuesday morning.

I managed to get washed and dressed safely this morning, for the first time since Tuesday, so I've just gotta rebuild my strength up again now.

I've taken my lunchtime pill and refilled my dosette box ready for next week, so I can sit back and relax and catch up on my podcasts now.

I decided against taking out the rubbish and recycling this week - there just didn't seem much point for such a small amount.

Nite nite orl

I'm absolutely knackered so I'm heading off to beddy-byes now.

See you all in the morning.

Nite nite orl

How should I...

...encourage/reward myself for the first round of edits?  I've got 8 bottles of J2O and there will be at least two rounds of edits, so I've got 4 bottles to bribe myself with and 63.5k words currently written but there will be a huge amount more based on my best friend's feedback of the vomit draft but writing is usually the only time I drink J2O's, so I wanna split the bribes/rewards pretty evenly throughout each set of edits, I just don't know how to!

It's too late to start now, but as soon as I've taken my blood pressure and had my breakfast as well as doing my laps and sit-ups/crunches if appropriate, I'll be getting my head down and getting the editing started at sparrow's fart on Monday morning... I just don't know when to reward myself this time is all.

Any ideas?  Please?

Another decision made...

...I can fart semi-safely now, so I think I've completely emptied my bowel until my lunch has been processed, so as long as I can safely make it up and downstairs with the clean bedding, I'm gonna do my laps and sit-ups after all.  I'm gonna take it very gently and the moment my body starts telling me that it's had enough, that'll be it for the day then.

It's my body that's deciding on today's activities and I'm not gonna even think about pushing it today otherwise I'll end up regretting it.

I've decided...

...that I'm not gonna do my laps today just in case my bottom misbehaves, but I'll do two sets tomorrow to make up for it, then back to once a day starting on Wednesday... I just don't wanna risk having to get on my hands and knees to clear up shyte because I couldn't get to the bathroom in time lol

Today (9th August 2025) I'm grateful for...

...this morning's bath at sparrow's fart o'clock which really set me up for the day.

I'm grateful for only having the fruit juice for breakfast and the soup for lunch so that I could save room for waaay too much chocolate throughout the day.

I'm grateful that both of my deliveries turned up at the same time so that I didn't have to wait around twice.

As well as being struck by inspiration to find pickled eggs and pickled onions to snack on... just gotta find out if I can just eat them straight out of the jars so that they can be meals as a change from soups and protein powders.

I'm grateful that I asked what we were having for lunch tomorrow and know now that I've gotta remember to take something out of the freezer in time for it to be defrosted.

I'm grateful that I've drunk over 3 litres of mainly water today (the soup and pill-taking squash don't count).

As well as finding the eggs and onions to add to Tuesday's grocery order so that I can keep them as a back-up if the soups aren't in stock or the soups don't fill me up and they are a healthier way to snack instead of crisps and chocolate.

I'm also grateful for charging up both FitBit's and both phones as well as my Visible today so that they don't run out of juice overnight or tomorrow.

And lastly, I'm grateful that I'm listening to some mellow music to help me to wind down ready for bedtime after finally catching up with my backlog of podcasts.

I've just...

...finished reading my memoir and I'd forgotten so much of what I'd been through that I'm surprised, all over again, that I'm still alive today.

I've been through a lot of shit stuff with my health since 1999 but it's all there in black and white now and it'll hopefully make a few eyes spring open.

My disability is finally out of my head and into a book in black and white that nobody can deny any more.

This is me.  No more lies about how well I'm doing from now on.