Saturday 30 January 2021
...I'll be listening to a writerly conference so won't be able to do that as well as the news things - hopefully back to normal again on Monday though, assuming there's any news to put up of course 😉
...the deep virus scan has, at last, finished.
Still free of all nasties 'cos it checked literally every part of my laptop and it all came up clean so that was reassuring.
Time to get on with the news while my email is downloading now.
Friday 29 January 2021
The monthly deep virus scan sped through the first 26% yesterday morning, to the extent that I was wondering if I'd set the right one going. It hit the appdata folder about 24 hours ago and it's been stuck at 26% ever since... if it hadn't been for me being able to see the files it was scanning, to know that it was definitely still running, I would have sworn that it had frozen or something! It's literally just (about a minute ago) ticked over to 27% so hopefully it'll keep ticking over until this afternoon then I can check my email for the first time since Wednesday evening and then shut down, to give the poor laptop battery a break for a while.
I've taken my morning pills, done 2 sets of news and had my breakfast (4 bits of bread and dairy free spread) which has thankfully sent my calorie count through the roof, so I'm hoping I'll have put on some weight on Monday lol Gotta remember to do my exercises this morning too.
29th January 2021
How Important is Friendship at 3-4 Years Old?
11 Children’s Books That Celebrate Friendship
Are Intimate Friendships and Romantic Relationships Different at All?
An Instant Connection: Forging Friendships Online
Thursday 28 January 2021
Since posting the news, I've had help with writing the back of the book I wrote for NaNo, which is gonna take more editing than normal 'cos we lost the puppy when I was almost half way through writing it and I used the writing to avoid my grief, then I put this person in touch with Steve so that he can help her sort out her site so that it's better for viewing on mobiles, then I had my lunch, done my exercises and I've spent the rest of the afternoon and evening so far, deleting tens of thousands of emails. Hoping to get to the end of 2012 before I head to bed tonight.
Eaten 3 meals today, for the first time in a veeeery long time.
The deep virus scan is busy checking each individual email for viruses atm and has been at 26% since about 11am.
I've just taken my last two pills of the day and I'm gonna head to bed soon I reckon.
28th January 2021
Social media damages teenagers' mental health, report says
LSD breakthrough could enable treatment for autism and social anxiety, research finds
The neurons that hold our hidden thoughts
The city of the future: Smart and social - Amanda's comment: As long as it benefits all beings (both human and animals) and it produces increased permanent jobs and better security then I am, in theory at least, all for this!
Covid-19: NI health and social care workers to get £500 payment - Amanda's comment: Assuming this actually happens, then I hope other countries, both in the UK and around the world, take their lead from Northern Ireland!
Covid: Social workers 'braced for tsunami of needs' after lockdown
The Pandemic Has Erased Entire Categories of Friendship
Why We Need Friends — Especially Now
When You Say the Wrong Thing: How to Repair Friendships After a Racial Microaggression
Spurning friendship offer costs 16-year-old his life
ON EDGE: Friendship as a Mental-Health Safety Net
Just taken all of my daily pills and set the deep virus scan running, so it's zoop for lunch again today and I'll be leaving my computer on overnight too, like I do once a month.
Potentially got lotsa news for each of my sites today, so gonna make a start on that now so that it's hopefully done and dusted by about lunchtime 👌😊 Gotta remember to do my exercises at some point today, so that I can get back into the routine again. I'm hoping I'll have time to study today, 'cos I wanna get back into that too, but we shall see.
Wednesday 27 January 2021
...call up about the appointment at last! It's on the afternoon of 10th so hopefully my memory problems will get sorted out or at least diagnosed this year, so please keep yer fingers crossed 🤞 for me that I remember why the doc is calling in a couple of weeks!
...*loads* of news on my navigation page and it took at least twice as long to put it all up lol
I'm currently doing the back-ups and I've had me lunch already (zoop and 5 bits of bread and spread so I'm already significantly over my calorie count) and got 3 apple pies to have for pud too.
When the backups have finished, I'll consider doing another short course this afternoon and a longer one tomorrow, 'cos that's my monthly deep virus scan, so won't be able to check my emails until Friday morning at the earliest.
Gonna take my Calcium now though, before I forget again, then I've gotta remember to phone my surgery about the memory test... I usually remember while I'm sat on the toilet and have forgotten by the time I get back in here lol
It's 27th January today and it's a Wednesday, so I've remembered not to open my email programmes 'cos of the weekly virus scan, I've taken my first 5 pills of the day, so I'm all ready to rock and roll now. Might take one of my other pills to start the day off well so that I don't get too stressed out.
It's zoop day today 'cos of the virus scan and I bet Steve won't want to make breakfast this morning, so I'm gonna go and make myself some bread and butter then make the (instant) zoop with more bread and butter when Steve gets back home.
Gotta remember to do the weekly back-ups and restore point when the scan has finished too.
I'm gonna go and do my squats now, while I remember... hold on! Need to remember to do the three sets of news when the exercises are done and dusted. BBS.
Tuesday 26 January 2021
I've had a few late nights and late mornings recently, so I'm gonna shut down, take my pills and have a really early night tonight, to let my body recover a bit.
It's gonna be the weekly virus scan tomorrow and the monthly deep scan on Thursday, so don't worry if you don't hear from me much, especially emails, until Friday this week. I'm not ignoring you, I just don't open either of my email programmes on Wednesdays and especially during the deep scans each month, so that the virus scan finishes a bit quicker 'cos it doesn't have to scan tens of thousands of emails individually 😉
My screen has just dimmed so it must be 7pm and time for my night-time pills. See you all at some point tomorrow... nite nite orl.
26th January 2021
Monday 25 January 2021
...started off with no motivation to get out of bed so decided to check my bank balance to check I'd been paid, I had and the grocery money had already been taken so I thought that the day stood a chance of going OK. Then when I eventually got downstairs I had computer problems, which put me in a bad mood, then the moodiness and lack of motivation meant that I couldn't be arsed to do any of the news. Then I almost forgot my pills, then I had to bring the recycling box and cardboard bag in. Alone. Again. The same with the rubbish sack. Then I had a late breakfast and couldn't access the internet so had to reboot. Then when I got my internet connection back I couldn't log in to the grocery site.
Steve's prescription was delivered in 4 huge bags that I had to struggle in with while Steve was asleep. He put them in front of the sink and he couldn't be bothered to cook at lunchtime, so I had to survive on 6 biscuits, despite how hungry I was. I offered to make us a drink and Steve said yes but then conveniently forgot about the bags he had put in front of the sink. It's a struggle to reach the kettle at the best of times, but Steve made it impossible for me today.
Then it was time for our groceries... except that they didn't turn up and it took Steve half an hour to call them. Apparently they were short of vans but Steve was promised that the van would definitely with us before 5pm.
5pm came and went so Steve called them again at 5.45pm and was told that the driver had got stuck somewhere, but it'd definitely be with us within the next couple of hours, which makes it 8pm and 5 hours later than our slot.
I've taken my pills and they have got until 8pm on the dot then I'm going to bed and I want compensation. It's not the first time they've done it either. I'm about ready to give up, I really am.
Sunday 24 January 2021
24th January 2021
‘I worry about their social skills’: parents on children's screen time in lockdown
Leisure centre's new senior social group keeps older people connected and active
Friendship is magic. But is it legally protected? In the postpandemic world, we need a clearer answer
'My friendship with Sutton Hoo's Basil Brown'
Been up since 7am but I've completely forgotten to update this blog - oops!
It's just been the standard morning stuff - I've taken all my daily pills, had two meals (thanks to Steve doing us both porridge this morning and lunch this afternoon), done 1 set of news and about to do the other two now, done the virus scan and exercises, put the exercise spreadsheet onto my homepage and I'm currently charging up my Fitbit.
I'm glad I had already decided to leave off the studying today, 'cos there's no way I would have had the time to do it, considering I haven't even got half way through the news bits and bobs yet! Gonna finish that off now then head to bed for an early night I reckon... I think my brain and body needs it.
Saturday 23 January 2021
...I'm gonna give myself a day off tomorrow.
The course was advertised as taking 1.5-3 hours, so a short course in comparison to most of them and was thinking I could leisurely work my way through it today and manage to have an early night.
Didn't work out like that though.
I skipped at least half of the course and it still took the best part of 9 hours, so would have been more accurate to list the course length at 15-20 hours. I managed to pass the assessment first time though (I got 83% and the pass mark was 80%), so feeling pretty chuffed with that, and I'm gonna make a determined effort to catch my negative thoughts and immediately turn them into positive ones so that my depression will hopefully eff off and leave me alone. In the first module, it explained that thoughts lead to feelings which lead to actions, so by thinking negative thoughts I've been accidentally making myself feel negative which has made me act negatively too, so hopefully if I remember to think positive thoughts, that'll increase my mood and hopefully therefore my actions too, which will lead to more positive thoughts, feelings and actions... I've got myself into a negative mindset over the last two decades, so I'm not expecting it to work quickly, but hopefully the more I do it, the easier it'll be to cope.
I've updated the appropriate pages on my navigation site, so I'm all ready to start the new week of learning again on Monday.
Steve's promised that we'll have porridge for breakfast tomorrow morning... hope so, then we've gotta get the rubbish and recycling put out ready for it to be collected bright and early on Monday, then our groceries are being delivered just after lunch on Monday as well as bringing the rubbish sack and recycling box back in when they've been emptied.
I've taken my last two pills of the day, so I'm off to beddy-byes now. Nite nite orl and I'll see you tomorrow at some point.
23rd January 2021
Michelle Obama & George Bush Reunite AtInauguration & Prove Friendship Is GoingStrong
How Deal with a One-Sided Friendship
Happy Dog and His Grumpy-Looking Cat Buddy Have a Fluffy Friendship that Is Driving Instagram Wild
Dear Society, Stop Sexualising Female Friendships As Lesbianism
Today was the first day since Tuesday that I'd done them and oh boy are my legs feeling it now! Time to sort the news out now though, while I recover.
B's birthday gifts are arriving today and I bet Steve'll fall asleep with his laptop still playing a video or podcast or something, so I won't be able to study until the gifts have arrived because it's a video course and I won't be able to hear the door with my headphones on.
Talking of Steve - he's supposed to be my carer yeah? Well I've been keeping a spreadsheet of what we've done to care for each other since Monday and Steve's only done one thing for me this week that lasted less than 5 minutes (he answered the door when I got home from seeing the nurse) and spent about 1½ hours caring for me so far this week, so I'll only pay him a couple of quid, if that, as soon as I've found out the minimum hourly wage and I've got an accurate record of how little he really does as my carer, ready for my PIP application.
So far today I've had my breakfast (fruit), taken my day-time pills, run the virus scan (which was clear again), so I'm all set for the news and studying for the rest of the day now... gotta remember to do my exercises today though, 'cos I haven't done them for a few days - woops❗
Friday 22 January 2021
...96% which ain't too bad at all.
I'm tempted to study another course, but because this is a 10-15 hour long one, I'll be asleep and doing news and forums and emails and stuff half way through it so I'm gonna forget what I learn tonight if I start it now. I wanna do it, 'cos it'll hopefully help me with my writing, but I don't wanna leave it too much longer otherwise I'll just keep putting it off, like I have been with this one since the middle of November 2020.
You know what❓
I'm gonna do it.
There's no time limit to answering the questions and I can take it as many times as I need to until I get the passing score of 80%, so I'm gonna push myself to start it tonight then finish it off tomorrow.
In my previous blog post, I said that Steve hadn't made lunch for us since Tuesday and I was wrong about that, I'm sorry.
I was right about it only being 2 days (3 if you include today) this week, but it was Monday and yesterday (Thursday) that he cooked for us, not "since Tuesday" like I ranted about.
Sorry about my mistake and I'll be back after I've had me lunch and finished the last lot of news.
I've already taken my morning pills, set the virus scan going (thankfully it came back clear again), bought our nephew, B, his first birthday gifts (that I bet Steve'll take credit for) which will hopefully be here tomorrow, had my breakfast (bread and butter again), checked my emails and forum, updated the spreadsheet and done ⅔ of the news and it's not even lunchtime yet!
Gonna do the last third of the news, then make myself lunch (more bread and butter) if Steve hasn't woken up by then. He's supposed to be my carer for 35 hours a week, but I'm lucky to get that in 6 months, let alone a week! I started keeping a spreadsheet with all the hours he actually cares for me, starting on Monday morning and we're now at lunchtime on Friday, but he's only cared for me for an hour and 27 minutes so far this week, and all bar literally 3 minutes, it was care for both of us! I OTOH have cared for him alone for an hour and 22 minutes so far and I'm fed up to the back teeth of Steve getting credit for being my carer but doing buggar all to deserve the title.
Steve's woken up now, so hopefully that means we'll be getting a cooked meal (as opposed to bread and butter) for the first time since Tuesday.
Gonna try and study all afternoon to catch up on missing doing it for the last few days.
22nd January 2021
The Evolutionary Origins of Friendship
How To Set Healthy Boundaries With Friends To Preserve Your Mental and Emotional Well-Being - Amanda's comment: I'm learning so much from this article, but my friends don't seem to understand that I'm struggling too until I rant on Facebook then they go off in a strop until they need me again when they seem to forget everything I've ranted publically about! My friendships seem to be very one-sided with me constantly giving and them taking, without even a second thought about how I might be feeling and if I need support too
5 ways to improve this key component of emotional intelligence
Are social media apps losing their identities?
Rees-Mogg: Imagine me laid down flat when trying to judge social distancing
Thursday 21 January 2021
...sorting out the news and catching up on Facebook. Plan for tomorrow is to do the news bits and bobs as soon as I wake up and come downstairs, then spend the rest of the day studying a childcare course about SEN. Gonna take my pills and head to bed for an early night now though - my body is complaining about the extra walking I did today that hasn't happened since the start of November 2020 when the puppy dog died.
I've taken my pills now, so I'm all set and ready to go now. Got a medical appointment first thing, so not even gonna attempt the news or studying until I get back from that. Gotta try and remember to ask the medical bod to write it all down for me so that I don't forget what they say 🙄 🤣
Wish me luck!
The daily virus scan has finished and I'm still free of nasties, thankfully.
Can someone remind me to do my exercises when I get home please? I haven't done them for a few days and need to get back into the habit of doing them every day again.
Wednesday 20 January 2021
Just finished today's course that was supposed to take 3-4 hours, but actually took double that.
It's finished now though, and I've got a medical appointment tomorrow morning so I'm just gonna take things as they come and try not to get too het up about things.
I've taken my last pills of the day, so I'm gonna publish this then check my emails and head to bed for the night.
20th January 2021
Michael Jordan: Pat Perez explains how he formed a 'surreal' friendship with NBA legend
Feel-good films about friendship
JIM CRUMLEY: Letters reveal the lost world of author JM Barrie and his literary friendship
We're Obsessing Over Paul Bettany and Elizabeth Olsen's Marvelous Friendship
Inside Isla Fisher and Elsa Pataky's friendship
Paula Abdul & Randy Jackson Talk About Their 40-Year Friendship
How are you all doing this morning?
For some bizarre reason, I'm in a truly awesome mood this morning and motivated to get going which is soo unlike me!
I've already set the weekly, deeper, longer virus scan going ☑, refilled our portioned box things and then the bigger tub with more sultanas ☑ then had a shower and washed my hair ☑, taken my morning pills ☑ (it's Wednesday so it's a FA day which means I can't take my Calcium until lunchtime) and I'm all ready and raring to go for doing the news now... I could get used to feeling this motivated❗ Might even, assuming the news is nice and quick to do this morning, study a course this afternoon.
Steve seems to be feeling motivated with the programme I asked him to come up with for me too... just gotta find the document with the additional bit in now, so that it can remind us both what the extra part of it is that isn't random. Keep yer fingers crossed that he'll feel motivated enough to keep working on it for the rest of the day now.
Gotta remember to charge my mobile phone 📱 up in a couple of hours too, so that it doesn't run out of juice 🔋 just as I'm about to head to bed.
Today is gonna be a good day I reckon 👍
Tuesday 19 January 2021
...at my GP surgery for Thursday morning. I've just put the emersion heater on and I hope beyond hope that Steve doesn't turn the hot tap on before I've had my bath, or it'll be tepid again. Although, if Steve admits he has overnight, then I'll have a shower and wash my hair instead. Maybe I should do that anyway though? My hair is greasy and I won't need to shave tomorrow, so maybe I should have a shower instead of a bath anyway?
Monday 18 January 2021
...there just hasn't been much going on and I've only just finished with the news. I've remembered to take all my pills and was going to study a couple of single module courses, but I think I deserve an early night so that I can recover and prepare for a busy day tomorrow. Hopefully all the news will be sorted well before 7pm then 🙄 👍 🤣
Sunday 17 January 2021
...the 'English for Career Development' one I reckon.
Steve's just put the eggs into the pan so there's, to quote Steve "about 5 minutes, I reckon" until lunch is ready, so I'm gonna publish this then put my laptop on the floor in preparation.
...the rest of the day is all mine to do what I want with. I'm thinking that I'll start studying after we've eaten and I'll go from the top (oldest) down to the bottom (newest) courses... or maybe an Alison course so that I can get the silver medal this week❓
...so just gotta see if there's any news for my navigation site now. The virus scan has finished and I'm still free of nasties, thankfully.
The rubbish and recycling are out for this week so the rest of the day is mine when I've got the last set of news of the day coded and uploaded. Might try and study again... dunno for sure yet though.
Had sugarry porride for brekkie and Steve reckons it'll be fried eggs and hash browns for lunch 👍
Saturday 16 January 2021
...I was "a right mardy arse" on the phone because I was told that the boxes that Morrisons left here on Wednesday and the driver promised he would pick up later that day, but never returned so Steve phoned their Head Office yesterday and was promised that they would be picked up yesterday, but again they weren't, so I've just called them and was told it'd be Monday now, so I've taken the boxes outside and if they are stolen then it's not my fault.
Time to get the news sorted on my sites now and Steve's just said that our lunch'll be "not sausage rolls" again, instead of the lasagne, chips and veg he promised me yesterday. When that's done, I'll start studying again... as long as it's not too late in the day.
Friday 15 January 2021
...we're not having lasagne's for lunch today after all, but we will be tomorrow along with chips and frozen veg (if we can find the bag in the freezer). I'm gonna finish my drink that Steve's made then go and make myself a zoop and a few slices of bread and butter to go with it.
...thank Steve for not using up all the hot water this time. We've agreed that when the hot water is on, I'll have my bath first then there will still be plenty of hot water left for Steve to wash with, instead of Steve washing and only leaving enough hot water in the emersion heater for a tepid bath for me.
It sounds like Steve's put the kettle on for a hot drink for us and I'm hoping we'll have the lasagne's for lunch 🤤 Gonna make a start on the news before then though 😉
...just gotta do the news on each of the three sites, then I'll have a hopefully hot bath for the first time since the end of last year. Keep yer fingers crossed 🤞 that the hot water is still hot and hasn't been used by Steve again overnight this time❗
Thursday 14 January 2021
Despite not coming downstairs before 8am 🕗 I still managed to take all my pills, have my breakfast, do my exercises, sort out the news for two of the three sites (there wasn't any for the third site), had my lunch then spent the afternoon and evening studying Managed to score 86% on the end of course test, with Steve's help.
I've updated my navigation page with the certificate, pondering on an OpenLearn course tomorrow now that they've added so many new courses that I wanna take - haven't decided which one to start on yet though... which one do you reckon I should take tomorrow❓ Leave me a comment in reply to this blog post to let me know❓ Please❓
I've taken my last two pills, so I'm off to beddy-byes now... nite nite orl.
Wednesday 13 January 2021
...couldn't have been less helpful if he'd tried.
Neither could Steve.
It's all sorted for another week now though and I've decided that as of now, Steve gets credit for everything and I get the blame without complaint or ranting or anything... Steve will be the golden boy who doesn't put a foot wrong and I'm always to blame for everything that goes wrong.
I've taken all my day-time pills and I've now just gotta stop shaking for long enough to go for a wee without my legs giving way underneath me. Again.
Tuesday 12 January 2021
⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ out of 5
I'm really enjoying this book so far... was worried that it'd be a bit nerdy after the first page, but I was sooo wrong. Gonna keep reading with interest and hope it doesn't get nerdier, but it seems good so far!
Chapter 2 was almost entirely nerdy, so maybe I wasn't wrong after all?
Chapter 3 saved me knocking off a star... I loved reading this chapter, but it's time for my pills and chapter 4 now - BBS.
Yep, chapter 4 guarantees the fifth star... for the moment at least! I'm gonna read one more chapter then head to bed for the night, then re-start reading it when I come back down here at 5am while I'm waiting for the hubby to wake up lol
Had a late start this morning, but I'm back now and getting confused betweeen all of the characters... at least I know why the main character avoids fish now though!
Oooooh! Now we're getting somewhere! It's like the author has finally found their muse and they're enjoying writing the novel now.
I didn't see the end of chapter 16 coming at all!
So proud of you, Nora! I'm wondering what'll happen in the last ten pages though lol
What a great way to end the book... not sure why the 'Discussion' part is there right at the end though - is it used as some kind of educational thing or something? That would certainly explain the heavy use of fish throughout the book and especially in the early chapters! All in all (other than that early chapter) a very very good read that richly deserves all five stars!
Monday 11 January 2021
I've run the daily virus scan, taken all my day-time pills, re-started my morning squats in the hall (gotta remember to re-start my sit-ups and leg raises again tonight), had me breakfast and lunch, done the three lots of news and now I'm gonna catch up on my emails and Facebook then spend the rest of the afternoon studying again.
Gonna sort out our grocery order first though 'cos there's just not enough room in the freezer atm❗ 🙄🤣
Just a single but totally worth the read news article today:
11th January 2021What it's like to grow up on one of Birmingham's poorest council estates - Amanda's comment: What an amazing, feel-good story! If only more council estates were like this was, then there could be so much more achieved and so much less stigma surrounding it!
Sunday 10 January 2021
10th January 2021
Dan Mullin, a philanthropist generous with the gift of his friendship, dies at 78
Alone together: friendship in a pandemic
RODDY PIPER’S DAUGHTER TEAL OPENS UP ABOUT HIS FRIENDSHIP WITH CHYNA
Working hard to keep the Ki-Low-Na Friendship Society open during the pandemic
‘Listen as well as talk – and try not to interrupt’: how to be a better friend
To have a good friend, you must first be a good friend
24 Pictures Of Celebrity Best Friends From Back In The Day Vs. What They Look Like Now
What We’ve Lost by Over-sexualizing Male Friendship
New UK law set to fine social media firms up to £18mn for illegal content