Nite nite orl

It's been a long, emotional day today 'cos I finished editing and reading through my second memoir for hopefully the last time, but it's done now and I've emailed my best friend to see if he wants one last read-through of it before I set to work with publishing it.

I've got a busy Tuesday next week with potentially only being able to eat breakfast 'cos I've got a medical appointment as soon as they open after lunch and I don't wanna be throwing up in the car on the way there (I get travel sick)!

I've gotta remember to bring in my recycling when it's been picked up tomorrow, but my OddBox has already been delivered and put away, so I'll get up when my bladder says to in the morning.

I've popped my last two pills of the day and I'm heading off to beddy-byes now.

I'll see you all in the morning.

Nite nite orl

Goooooood mornin' all!

I've woken up in a fairly decent mood today, my 'Morning Stability' score was another 3, my blood pressure was 105, I've swallowed my 14 morning pills, had my breakfast and made myself my last caffeinated drink of the week.

Gotta remember to have a proper lunch today with the last of the broccoli, refill my dosette box after lunch (I've only missed one pill this week, so that's another positive) and I've gotta do hopefully the last edit of my memoir and have my reward of a J2O.  I've also gotta box up and take out the recycling and put my OddBox container out too... lots to remember to do today!

The virus scan was reassuringly clear again, so I'm gonna get today's two breakfast photos up, then my day's to-do list, then make a start on the editing, while I charge up my Visible methinks.

BBS

Nite nite orl

My body is really struggling tonight, so I'm gonna head to bed.

Tomorrow is the day for my second memoir to go through its hopefully final edit and read-through, then I can start on getting things ready to publish it with any luck, depending on whether my best friend, C, is willing to give it one final read through before I hit the 'publish' button.

I'll see you all in the morning.

Nite nite orl

I'm...

...absolutely knackered after waiting up for yesterday's delivery and only just getting 6 hours of sleep, so I'm gonna take my pills then head straight on up to beddy-byes for an early night tonight and I'm really hoping that I'll be asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow tonight!

I've finished the editing now and I've made a start on Steve's bank statements so I'm gonna try and do a bit every day with that so that it's not so overwhelmingly frustrating for me.

I'm gonna have a peach instant tea tomorrow after breakfast and me-friendly creamy hot chocolates for the rest of the day 'cos I need and deserve both of them!

Can someone remind me to put the vegan mayo onto Olio tomorrow please?  I'm gonna keep eating the fruit for my lunches so don't need it any more and don't want it to go to waste.

I'm also expecting my Omegas to turn up tomorrow and they are due around lunchtime, so it'll be early exercises (assuming my 'Morning Stability' score is high enough) and a late lunch of 2 apricots, 10 cherries, a banana and a large pear tomorrow.

Mornin' all

Well, after my delivery arrived so late last night, I dragged myself on up to beddy-byes.

I managed 6 hours of sleep according to my HLTH band.

I'm feeling really rotten today after such a late night and not taking my APs so barely sleeping.  My 'Morning Stability' score is 3 so, even though I technically can do my laps and exercises, I know I'd end up on the floor unable to get up, so I'm not gonna risk it today.

I've taken my blood pressure and it was 109 so at the high end of my normal range.  My morning pills have been popped and my breakfast eaten and the washing up done.  The daily virus scan was clear, so I'm gonna get my breakfast photo up, then today's to-do list, then hopefully finish the read-through and any last minute editing of my memoir today.

I wanna go through Steve's bank statements and come up with a spreadsheet of his incomings and outgoings so that I can see what he really spent his money on when I paid him for the vast majority of household bills - I know it was £70-£100 a day on porn and that he paid for private shows at least once a week at about £1000 each too, because it was his last transaction before going into hospital then passing away, so I wanna see the exact numbers.  It'll break my heart but I need to see just what his payments were for so that I can put that part of my grief away.  I'm dreading it, but I feel like I have to find out the truth once and for all.

Time to get the breakfast photos resized and put up on this blog and Instagram now, as a slow start to my day I reckon.

BBS

Nite nite orl

I'm just about up to the psychosis diagnosis in hopefully the last edit of my second memoir and it seems like a wise place to stop so that I don't get crushed by a psychotic episode tonight.  It feels like I've achieved a pretty decent amount today and I'm only 124 pages away from going through my memoir almost twice today and it feels like I'm on the home stretch with it now.

It's too late after waiting up for my delivery to take my evening pills, so I'm just gonna head on up to bed to see how long it takes me to fall asleep tonight.

My HLTH band is doing really well 'cos it's been around my ankle for 31 days so far and the battery is still at 44% and is still working which is awesome!  I'm gonna keep a closer eye on the battery and when/if it starts to struggle, it'll be straight on to charge up again, but a month per charge is awesome!

I'll see you all in the morning (or later tonight if my insomnia strikes again).

Nite nite orl

 

Goood morning all!

I've woken up in a semi-positive mood this morning and my 'Morning Stability' score was 4.  I had to do a FunCap reading this morning 'cos it's the first day of the month and I've improved by 0.3 over the last month.

I'm not hungry this morning (prolly 'cos of my body still processing all the cream from yesterday lol) so I've just had my 500ml glass of water to take my 8 morning pills with today, rather than anything solid.

I've gotta keep my ear on the door for my batteries this morning, so won't be exercising until they've arrived and been put away.

Time to get today's to-do list together, then start editing now I reckon, while the weekly virus scan is running, then the backups.

BBS

Today (29th June 2026) I'm grateful for...

...getting through the day without breaking down in tears because of it being my 3rd wedding anniversary as a young Yule widow.  I've kept myself busy and not let myself get too glum and I've almost made it now, thankfully.

I'm also grateful to my best friend for getting potentially the last set of edits to me for my second memoir that I'm gonna start working on tomorrow... they seem to be pretty easy fixes with just taking the American spellings out and replacing them with British spellings, then I'm hoping I'll be able to send him the last document before getting his seal of approval to hit the 'publish' button.

I'm grateful that I've come so far in the last few years and that I'm ready to rock and roll with writing my third and potentially last medical memoir while I'm recovering from my next set of jabs in Autumn.

Aaaaand...

...edit number 5 is finished and sent off to my wonderful best friend.  I hope he can help me to get it bang on this time so that I can get a headache with trying to deal with Amazon again soonish then finally hit the "publish" button again.

I'm rewarding myself with the last in the tub of drinking chocolate and the Olio-er has said that they will be here at 6.30pm so this is their final chance otherwise I'll block them and report them as a no-show.

Up to page...

...306 now and I'm gonna leave it there in case I start sobbing... I'll hopefully start again after lunch though  :-)

Nite nite orl

After a very late night last night with so little sleep, I'm taking myself off to beddy-byes now that my last delivery has arrived and I'm not planning on getting up as soon as I wake up tomorrow morning.

I think I've decided to go back to taking my pills at 6pm again from tomorrow onwards and waking up at around 3.30-4am as that seems to be what my body likes and can cope with best.

If you've got any questions about my rare mental illness that you are dying to ask but don't want to offend me, now's your chance 'cos they will be going into my second memoir along with my answer, so just let me know in the comments what your question is and how you wanna be credited and I'll try and put it into the memoir 😃

Gotta remember to charge up my Charge 6 and potentially my Inspire too tomorrow... I hope I don't forget!

The side effects of my last two pills of the day are kicking in rapidly, so I'm heading off to bed now.

I'll see you all at some point in the morning.

Nite nite orl

Gooooood morning all!

I didn't want to get out of bed again this morning, so the 5-HTP was one of the 11 pills I popped this morning and it's already working!

My blood pressure was pretty normal for me at 104 and I've discovered that I need to put my toast in for a second toasting using the minimum setting after using the maximum setting.  I'm wearing my new glasses to write this and everything has sharp edges so it was work the extra money for this second set.

The daily virus scan was still reassuringly clear, so today's task is gonna be to start the editing of my second memoir after my best friend sent me the latest feedback last night.

I'm definitely into my hayfever season now 'cos my eyes are itchy, my nose is streaming and I can't stop coughing.

Time to get today's to-do list together, then my breakfast photo, then hopefully my OCD will be happy with me doing my first set of laps of the day.

BBIAB

Aaaand... relax.

I've cleared my browser caches ready for tomorrow's virus scan and backups.

My delivery has arrived and been put away.

I've finished planning the 66 chapters of my next/final memoir which'll be around 66,000 words.

I've popped my last two pills of the day.

And I'm going to bed.

Medical records

Quick question:  where are childhood medical records kept if the child has grown up and moved to a different county please?

I've got my third and final memoir bubbling away but need my childhood medical records up to the age of 17 and I dunno where they are or even who to contact!  Did they move with me and I need to contact my local hospital again or did they stay where I spent my childhood please?

I've already got my non-NaNo26 novel planned out, so the memoir will be for non-NaNo27 but I wanna get it all planned out as soon as I can so that it's got time to fester and rot before I write it and my focus, right now, is on my non-Nano25 memoir, but it doesn't hurt to get things sorted early, right?

Nite nite orl

I've had a busy day today with my groceries this morning and finishing editing my memoir after lunch and the two sets of exercises which my body is making me pay for now.

It's Wednesday tomorrow, so I've gotta remember that it's the weekly virus scan and backups when I come downstairs.

I've taken my last two pills of the day and the side effects are already kicking in, so I'll see you all in the morning.

Nite nite orl

Mornin' all

My Visible is being stroppy again after working for a week but it's refusing to pair to my phone this time, so I'm not a happy bunny.

I've popped my 10 morning pills with my 500ml glass of water and I'm not gonna have any breakfast this morning 'cos I'm still full from yesterday's leftovers.

The daily virus scan found an advanced issue again, which I've just resolved, so I'm good to go now.

Time to get today's to-do list together then hopefully finish editing my manuscript and with any luck remembering to put the questions and answers bit at the end this time.

BBS

Nite nite orl

It's been a long ole day today with bringing the rubbish and recycling in, adjusting tomorrow's grocery order and then spending the day nit-picking on my second memoir manuscript.  I'm over ⅔ of the way there now and less than 100 pages left to sort out and then the question and answer bits et voila, it should be finished.

I've popped my last two pills of the day and I'm wondering if my arm-ache has got anything to do with my Visible maybe?

My Visible is misbehaving again and won't re-pair itself tonight, so I'm giving it until I shut down before I give up and try again in the morning.

It's grocery delivery day tomorrow so I've gotta put the bags in front of the door and put my next order in at sparrow's fart o'clock, then bag up and put away my groceries when they arrive then I can spend the rest of the day finishing off the edits on the manuscript.

A busy and potentially stressful day tomorrow, but for tonight I'm going to bed.

I'll see you all in the morning.

Nite nite orl

Not bad at all!

I've started the read-through and tweaking of my second memoir since soon after I had my breakfast and I've stopped at an appropriate point at an appropriate time to have my lunch, so that's what I'm gonna do.  Go and make my lunch of leftovers from yesterday, eat, drink, wash up, pop my lunchtime pill, do the second set of laps of the day then carry on editing until bed-time.

There have been a few tweaks to make, but not too bad so far.  I'm up to page 85 of 327, so I'm hoping I'll be around half way through it by the time I head to bed then I'll finish the rest of it off tomorrow around my exercising and grocery delivery.  Gotta remember to put in my next grocery order tomorrow morning and I'll have to put last week's FitBit image together, then code and upload it to my homepage tomorrow too... you watch me forget though lol

Mornin' all

I've woken up in a really positive mood this morning, so I hope it lasts!

So far this morning I've taken my Visible reading (with a score of 4 out of 5), my blood pressure was almost normal (109 instead of 105), my pills all went down fine, I've got washed and changed and weighed myself... only another 500g to lose before I'm back down to being in the "ideal" weight range instead of slightly overweight.

The daily virus scan found an advanced issue which is now resolved but I'm pretty cold, so I'm gonna go and get myself a hot drink to try and warm up a bit before I do my laps, sit-ups and crunches for the first time this month.

OK, I've just made myself a hot honey water, so time for today's to-do list then I'll put today's breakfast photo up.  I've decided that other than when I do the mushrooms or have leftovers, I'm gonna have two things for each lunch to see how my stomach copes with it, so Wednesday is potentially the first day of trying that.

I've gotta remember to bring in the rubbish and recycling containers when they've been emptied and give my memoir a read through to check that it still makes sense and that everything is sensibly written so that it's understandable.

This first blog post of the day is getting a bit long, so time to get today's to-do list together now I reckon.

BBS

Nite nite orl

I'm stiff, sore, swollen, sneezy and I'm going to bed.

I'll see you all in the morning when I'll be reading through my second memoir to make sure that it still makes sense after this morning's pre-edit-fest.

If you've got any questions about my mental illness, just pop them into an email or comment in the next few days along with how you want me to credit you.

Nite nite orl