I've had a tough day, physically, today, after attacking (and winning against) the trolley, so I think I deserve an early night.
I've popped my pills and I'm heading up to beddy-byes now.
I'll see you all in the morning.
Nite nite orl.
I've had a tough day, physically, today, after attacking (and winning against) the trolley, so I think I deserve an early night.
I've popped my pills and I'm heading up to beddy-byes now.
I'll see you all in the morning.
Nite nite orl.
I've just walked down the stairs instead of coming down on my bum for the first time in donkey's yonks and while it petrified me, I am, yet again, rightly proud of myself!
My FitBit thing is green at last and I've had waaay too many (as in 9) treat-sized chocolates so I've gotta meet my addiction head-on again but it was soo worth it!
I'm 3 hours late with this photo but I don't give a flip 'cos I'm bursting with pride in myself at what I've achieved since I scoffed the 87g bar of chocolate all by myself for my lunch and I've had a celebratory drinking chocolate too and I plan on stuffing my face with chocolate this afternoon too... waaaay too much chocolate in 10 hours and it'll set my addiction off again but I don't give a flip about that either - I've earnt it today!
Here's today's lunch photo:
...immensely proud of myself right now.
For the first time in my entire life I've bought a wheeled trolley and put it together then tested it totally alone! I even used my hammer to wallop the wheels in properly 'cos I'm so weak and feeble and I managed it without breaking it!
I celebrated by bringing in a me-friendly drinking chocolate with me-friendly squirty cream right up to the brim which I never would have risked before lunch!
I can do this young widow living alone lark - I've just proved to myself that I can.
Time to put today's lunch photo up before I forget again lol
...aiming to turn my FitBit calories green every day which should be easier than last week 'cos I haven't got any high calorie foods (like the honeycomb and choccie biccies) left to have now, so it might be blue days this week instead of red, but it's just a case of experimenting until I find what works for me.
I've got a fruit loaf in the freezer if I'm struggling too much to get enough calories into me and I've got Ryvitas and Hummus on tomorrow's grocery order (assuming they're in stock of course), so they will be my lunches this week and it's just a case of finding what works for me and sticking to it.
Today's breakfast was the same as the majority of last week - a bowl of Berry granola with soya milk and a 250ml bottle of orange juice. I've had a sneaky drinking chocolate too, but there's no photo of that.
I've woken up in a good mood today so I'm really hoping that means that I'll have a good health day otherwise my mood will rapidly plummet.
My 5 morning pills have been popped with the last of the squash and part of my morning glass of water and the bottle has been refilled with squash, and the daily virus scan has just finished which was reassuringly clear, so I'm good to go this morning.
My FitBit is still working so do I risk leaving it for another day?
This first blog post of the day is getting a bit long and I'd like to get my to-do list up before my first carer of the week arrives, so I'm gonna shut up now.
BBIAB
Gotta remember 3 things to add to my to-do list tomorrow but I bet I'll forget lol First is to refill the bottle with squash after I've taken my morning pills. Second is to charge up my FitBit and third is to attempt to put the trolley together... I hope it's quick and easy to do! lol
My best friend is hopefully coming over on Thursday which will be the first time I've seen anyone other than family since the start of the pandemic! I'm nervously excited... but what if I've forgotten how to treat friends socially? I can do it via email, that's fine, but what if the shy me puts in an appearance and I've gotta start all over again?!?
I've popped my last two pills of the day now, so I'm gonna head straight on up to beddy-byes.
I'll see you all in the morning.
Nite nite orl.
...proud of myself right now 'cos I've just put Mitzi's painting in a frame that actually fits without making her lopsided any more, for the first time since 2019!
I bought some wallets too 'cos the current ones are pretty much at full capacity, so I put those away, no great shakes there.
Task for tomorrow is to at least attempt to put the 3rd part of the delivery together, which'll be the biggest, most stressful part of the three things.
Why?
Because it's a wheeled trolley to hopefully make it easier to bring drinks in without spilling them everywhere. I can manage my breakfasts, but it'll potentially be good for that too, but my main aim with getting it was the drinks.
It'll be the most complicated thing I've ever attempted to put together alone and my rare neurological disability has made me as weak as a goldfish out of water but for my own... what's the word... I wanna do it just to prove to myself that I really can cope with living alone without having to rely on others all the time.
If I manage it next week then I'll invest in a Cafe Nero mocha to celebrate.
I'm more capable than I've been told for the last 45 years and I need to do things like this so that I can prove to myself that I am better than I've been led to believe my entire life.
...57% charge on my FitBit so I'm gonna risk not charging it up today after all but I definitely will tomorrow, between carer visits, 'cos I'm reluctant to take it down past the high 40%s just in case it decides to stop working, then I'll be screwed.
...relax.
The Freegle stuff has just gone, the delivery turned up just as I'd started scoffing my lunch, my pills are taken and dosette box refilled, so all that's left to do with my weekend now is to try and get my non-food Instagram account associated with my newest product testing app, then I can go and hug the toilet bowl until bedtime.
Today's lunch is 350g of chocolate Oaties and I've only just realised that they've got an allergen in them so I'll be really ill now, but never mind eh?
Here's today's allergenic lunch photo:
...saved myself £6 by checking the cupboard and I'm now below budget again, thankfully!
...that now would be a good time to stop wearing my cardies when I've washed and dried them.
I've still got 3 hoodies that I can wear if I get too cold, but now that I've got working central heating at last, I don't realistically need to wear them unless there's a sudden snow storm or something.
Washing my wools takes 2 loads of a 5 hour wash and dry each, so it'll save me a good chunk of money as well as saving space in the hall.
This is me getting ready for Summer lol
My last breakfast of the week was another bowl of Berry Granola with soya milk and an orange juice again and I've got a decaff instant coffee on the go now too.
Lunch today will be a 350g bag of chocolate biscuits and I'll treat myself to a final hot chocolate at some point today too, which will take my calories into the green on the graph.
Here's today's breakfast photo:
...I won't have the fruit loaf after all, I'll just have the biccies today and save the fruit loaf for another day when I need to bump my calories up slightly, so I can have it for 3 meals instead of 1.
Soooo today's lunch is just 350g of biccies and still enough calories for a couple of drinking chocolates.
Well, my FitBit recorded my sleep, thankfully, so I'm gonna risk not charging it again today after all to see if I can get even lower with it recording my sleep.
I've taken my morning pills with my morning glass of water and remembered that it's my monthly scan today so set that going and didn't open up my email programmes but I can't remember what else I was supposed to remember/do this morning. I know I've got someone from Freegle coming at some point and my delivery is coming today too and I've gotta refill my dosette box when I've popped my lunchtime pill, but I'm sure there was something else too.
This blog post is getting a bit long so I'm gonna publish it and hopefully put today's to-do list together before my last carer of the week arrives.
BBS
I've worked out most of my calorie intake for tomorrow, but there are 6 slices of the fruit loaf instead of the 4 that I thought, so it'll definitely be at least 45 minutes of laps both times tomorrow. I'd like to be able to achieve an hour, but I think that's waaaay beyond me right now, so I'm gonna aim for the 45 minutes unless I'm feeling particularly stable on my feet tomorrow.
I'd like to be able to read and review a book on my TBR pile tomorrow, but I think that would be pushing it 'cos I've got a Freegler coming as well as the delivery and getting things sorted for my breakfast and lunch, as well as the monthly virus scan, and I've gotta charge my FitBit up too, so I might leave it for another day methinks.
My last two pills of the day have been popped so I'm gonna head on up to beddy-byes now.
I'll see you all in the morning.
Nite nite orl.
Just like yesterday I'm getting my lunch ready before my lunchtime carer so that she can spend the whole time charging up her phone while using it again.
As a reward for getting back on track with my calories after Wednesday's blow-out lunch of vegan honeycomb, I had a mug of drinking chocolate as a reward after my physio this morning and I'm having a 5 servings bar of chocolate for my lunch and still have plenty of calories left for another couple of drinking chocolates this afternoon too.
Here's today's lunch photo a bit early:
Today's breakfast was the same as the last couple of days - a bowl of Berry Granola with just about the right amount of soya milk (for a change) and a 250ml bottle of orange juice and I also sneaked in a cheeky drinking chocolate to start the day off with now that I don't need to catch up on missing calories!
Here's today's breakfast photo:
I've been a busy bunny since I woke up an hour ago and my stress levels are now through the roof!
Managed to swallow my morning pills with my morning glass of water and fix an advanced issue in the daily virus scan though, so that's a relief.
My carer could turn up at any point now, so I'm gonna shut up and publish this now and hopefully manage to get my day's to-do list up before my carer arrives.
BBIAB with any luck.
I asked on Facebook for other Thiamin rich foods other than eggs and liver and someone suggested Ryvita so I've officially taken soups off the menu now and I'm having Ryvita and Hummus for my lunches (assuming they're in stock of course lol) instead. They are healthy, full of Thiamin and protein and me-friendly so it'll make a good change as long as I can keep them in my stomach.
I've popped my last two pills of the day, so I'm gonna head straight on up to beddy-byes now.
Nite nite orl.
I said either in my lunchtime post or my drinking choccie post that I still had enough calories left for a decaff coffee this afternoon and still have 1 calorie to play with.
It seems that I was wrong 'cos I've just put my coffee into FitBit and I'm now 33 calories behind so my maths still isn't my friend, obviously lol
I'm not too worried though 'cos it's pretty much on target so I will go back to attempting to turn my FitBit graph green as of tomorrow, but I'm not as happy with my calorie intake today as I'd hoped.
I'm glad that I've been able to make up for the 2,889 calorie day I had on Wednesday and the significant reduction in calories yesterday and today have hopefully got me back on track, so I'm not going to beat myself up or get obsessed with it, I'm just gonna chalk it up to experience and move on.
I was wrong and I'm sorry for my mistake.
...I'm allowed a me-friendly creamy drinking chocolate and I'm still 3 calories safe, so I'm happy with that! I can have a decaff coffee this afternoon and still be 1 calorie away from getting everything back to where it should be after Wednesday, so I'm happy with that and it'll be back to normal as far as calories go as of midnight... no more maths needed, thankfully, so I'm gonna celebrate with a bar of chocolate instead of peanuts for my lunch tomorrow I reckon.
My second and last meal of the day was also the same as yesterdays - an 80g bag of dry roasted peanuts. I've had an extra today though, 'cos I had a 250ml carton of chocolate soya milk for elevenses and I've got a decaff instant coffee on the go now too. I'll be 100 calories below target today, even after taking off the remaining 593 calories from Wednesdays lunch, so I'll be able to have a couple of me-friendly creamy hot chocolates from tomorrow and be back on track to turn my FitBit graph green each day, rather than blue like I've done today and yesterday or red like I did on Wednesday.
My carer has had another easy visit today and is spending the entire 18 minutes sat on the floor, charging her phone up and playing a game (Call of Duty) on it, but she's going to post a letter for me when she leaves, so that's worth it, right? 😔
Here's today's lunch photo:
Today's breakfast was the same as yesterdays - a bowl of Berry granola, soya milk and a 250ml bottle of orange juice.
Here's today's breakfast photo:
Well, here's the start of a new day, but I'm lost for things to do now that I've finished planning out my next book lol
I've popped my morning pills with my morning glass of water and tried a rescue remedy gummy too, so we'll see what that does!
The daily virus scan is going through and has been for the last 20 minutes so it'll prolly finish while my carer is here, knowing my luck lol
Time to put today's to-do list together now methinks.
BBS
I've popped my pills and I'm absolutely knackered, but I've finished planning out my NaNo/JanNo book now, so that's all ready to be fleshed out and written in November, but for now I'm shutting down for the night.
I'll see you all in the morning.
Nite nite orl.
My lunch today is an 80g packet of dry roasted peanuts while my lunchtime carer drinks her mug of decaff tea that I made for her.
Here's today's lunch photo:
My breakfast today was the same as yesterday - a bowl of Berry granola with soya milk and a 250ml bottle of orange juice.
Lunch today and probably tomorrow will just be a packet of dry roasted peanuts so that I can try and make up for going 1,342 calories over budget yesterday with the honeycomb lunch blowout.
Here's today's breakfast photo:
I managed almost 9½ hours of sleep overnight, so why am I still knackered??
I've popped my morning pills with my morning glass of water and the daily virus scan is chugging away, so I'm just waiting for my morning carer now, then I can have my breakfast and do my laps.
Plan for today is to try and get the last of the book planned out and I've gotta remember that a Freegler is coming this afternoon too, so I've gotta remember to let them know when my carer has disappeared and I've done my laps.
Time to put today's to-do list together now I reckon.
BBS (I hope)
I've suddenly come over totally poopy-dooped so I've taken my last two pills of the day and I'm gonna head straight on up to beddy-byes now.
I'll see you all in the morning.
Nite nite orl.
...what I've managed to achieve since my second set of laps this afternoon.
I've got the bare bones planned out until 2022 now, so I've only got 2023 and 2024 to plan out now, then it's all sorted. The 2023 notes will be the most intense 'cos it'll have all kindsa stuff from my physio etc in it, so that will be the most medically intense year of the entire book I reckon.
I've stopped for the day now though 'cos it's almost pill-popping time then beddy-byes for me.
Today's lunch was a 150g packet of golden honeycomb that is suitable for vegans because of the four ingredients, none of them were honey lol
I'm waaaay over my calorie budget now, but that's OK 'cos I'll just not have crisps the rest of the week to save me about 800 calories a day lol
Here's today's lunch photo:
...virus scan and backups sorted for another week, so I'm gonna put today's lunch (toffee honeycomb) into FitBit then start going through my medical records so that I can plan a bit more of my NaNo/JanNo book out.
A bit delayed today 'cos of the weekly virus scan and backups then my morning laps and making myself a coffee, but here it is - back to being a bowl of berry granola with soya milk and an orange juice. I also had a me-friendly creamy hot chocolate too, but there's no photo of that 'cos I'd already put my laptop back on the table before I made it. I've got a decaff coffee on the go now so it should be pretty easy to get my medically approved 3 litres into me today.
Today's lunch will be a packet of toffee honeycomb after I've made my carer a drink and she's sat down for the 18 minute minimum that she has to be here for so that she can get paid.
Here's today's breakfast photo: