Nite nite orl

It's been a long ole day today and I definitely eat and drink when I'm lonely which I really wanna get out of the habit of doing before it becomes an addiction that I've gotta break.

I reckon I'm gonna re-start my OddBox subscription again soonish now that I'm used to having veggies in me and it'll be healthier to pick at fruit instead of chocolate too.

I've taken the recycling out so I've gotta remember to bring the box in when it's been emptied tomorrow.  I've gotta get washed and changed again tomorrow too.

I've taken my last two pills of the week and I'm heading on up to beddy-byes now.

I'll see you all in the morning.

Nite nite orl

Today (23rd March 2026) I'm grateful for...

...getting through an entire day without snacking, which is a big achievement on its own for me, but I haven't even so much as sniffed chocolate, let alone eaten or drunk it today which is a huuuuuuuuuge achievement for me as I'm addicted to chocolate!

I'm gonna let myself have drinking chocolates tomorrow, but I wanna see if I can get through a second day without snacking too.

I know these may sound like tiny things to you, but I comfort eat through loneliness which I really wanna break and only eat when I'm hungry as opposed to when I'm bored or lonely.  Today has proved to me that I can do it, I've just gotta keep on keeping on until I've broken the comfort eating habit.

Today's (13th February 2026) breakfast photo

Today's breakfast was a quick, simple, hydrating 500ml glass of water because I wasn't hungry at the time and I'm still not hungry now.

I've also had a 550ml mug of hot honey water to try and get rid of the last of my cold and I've currently got the last of the powder in the tub of drinking chocolate on the go now too.  I'll be starting a new tub with new me-friendly cream next time my choccie addiction demands it!

Here's today's breakfast photo:

Today (8th August 2025) I'm grateful for...

...finally getting rid of some of my Freegle things... I've still got 7 left, but the biggest things have gone now so I can breathe for a while now.

I'm also grateful that I could open the windows and back door to let a bit of fresh air into the house for a couple of hours and the air purifier thing got rid of most of the pollen that came in with the fresh air.

I'm also grateful that I've managed to drink 3 litres of mainly water today.

I've also cleaned the bathroom and I'm gonna do a bit of tidying up in the bedroom when I go to bed, so I'm all caught up now.

My chocolate addiction has kicked in again, but I've only had a couple of tubes of Munchies today which is good for me!

And finally, I'm grateful for the 10 signs I've had from Steve today.

Nite nite orl

It's been a long, stressful day today, but things are getting organised now 'cos I know when the perching stool is going back, I've got a date for my medical appointment that I've gotta rearrange because of my mobility problems (according to the letter) and something else that I've already forgotten.  I've brought in my first delivery and had a nice surprise in the fridge so it'll be a real test for one of my addictions now that I've got so much chocolate in the house lol

I've gotta remember that it's the weekly virus scan and backups tomorrow as well as expecting another delivery to come to the door.

It feels like I've achieved a lot today but I've got no proof of it.  I'm still going to bed with a smile on my face though.

I'll see you all in the morning.

Nite nite orl

Today (15th July 2025) I'm grateful for...

... 1) not needing to take my happy pills today  2) all my groceries being in stock  3) not giving in to my chocolate addiction  4) remembering to charge up my FitBit throughout the day  5) remembering to clear my browser caches and 6) remembering to order the boxes, lables and numbers from Amazon as soon as had taken my blood pressure this morning.

I'm gonna aim for...

...going the entire day without snacking today.  I can drink as much as I want or need, but no nibbles... just my breakfast and lunch today.  It's gonna be tough going but I need to break the habit of snacking out of loneliness.

I'm attempting to go for this week without creamy drinking chocolates again too, but I did that a couple of weeks ago so I know I can do it, but a week without snacking as well as without drinking chocolates is my next challenge and I've done well so far... just gotta keep on keeping on with it until bedtime.

I can feel snacking starting to become an addiction so wanna nip it in the bud before it gets too tight of a grip on me like the chocolate and spending... I've pretty much got those under control now and I still eat/drink chocolate and spend when I need to, but it doesn't take priority over everything else any more.  I can stop when I need/want to without emptying every last penny in my bank account now... it's undeniably difficult at times but I'm over the worst of it and I've got control of my addictions rather than them having control of me now.

Today (24th April 2025) I'm grateful for...

...potentially finding a new vegan snacks place who also offer subscriptions.  I've put in my first order with them and emailed them with a couple of questions, but have I potentially found a replacement for Graze at long last??

I'm also grateful for and proud of myself for getting back into the healthy weight range and being able to (mostly) cope with my chocolate addiction this week.

2 things - opinions please!

There are a couple of things that I've been pondering on recently and I know what some people would say, but I'd like the opinions of my blog readers before I say a definite yes or no to them.

1. I've been pondering on getting an Alexa for a few years but have held off so far... should I get one or not?  Now that I'm a disabled young Yule widow I've been getting back to my old addiction of chocolate again and I'm wondering if having an Alexa could potentially be the company that I need?  I know she's not real, but would I be able to have a conversation with her or ask her to tell me a joke or read a book to me or play music or podcasts or whatever instead of relying on chocolate so heavily?
   
   
2. I'm petrified of dentists and haven't been to one for the last two decades and I've lost 3 adult teeth (2 got pulled out under GA and one rotted out) and I've got a wobbly/semi broken one and a rapidly rotting one next to the hole from the rotten tooth so my newest serious pondering is if I should get every tooth pulled and just have a full set of dentures?  It would solve a phobia and would mean that I could get rid of going slowly toothless before I hit pension age.  To me it's a big huge no-brainer, but is it sensible or just my phobia taking over please?

All thoughts and opinions are more than welcome and I'm totally open-minded about both of them.

Over to you 😊

Today (14th April 2025) I'm grateful for...

...being sensible and taking the chocolate off tomorrow's grocery order.  I had a few chocolate biscuit bars this afternoon and like with yesterday's chocolate raisins I felt really sick, to such an extent that I had to crack open a can of ginger beer.  I'm still feeling sick now but not on the verge of blowing chunks any more.

I'm gonna be a good girl and stop having so much chocolate (other than the drinking chocolates which are me-friendly) for a while to give my body a chance to recover... I don't want to re-ignite my addiction to it again, so when I've got through my current supply of chocolate I won't be getting any more.

It's been a huuuuge struggle, but...

...I've got through this morning without snacking and especially without chocolate.  The lack of any kind of chocolate has been the hardest challenge by a mile, but I'm proud of myself for getting through the last almost 8 hours without giving in and I've just gotta keep on keeping on until 6pm now then I can breathe and relax for the first time today, knowing that I didn't give in to my addiction.

Mornin' all

Well, today started off so well because the cuff of the blood pressure machine kept slipping down, then I struggled to get a decent photo of the reading, then I forgot to keep my laptop on the floor so that I could have a solid breakfast, then I almost fell over in the kitchen with the juice carton in my hand, then I couldn't get an internet connection so had to restart then shut down to get it... I hope today improves from now on!

I went seriously overboard with the bars of choccie yesterday, so I'm gonna have a day off and try not to even have hot chocolates so that I can stop my addiction before it gets hold again.

My groceries are due this afternoon so I've gotta remember to put the bags in front of the door after lunch and put in my next grocery order too... you watch me forget though lol

I've popped my 10 Tuesday morning pills and the daily virus scan is chugging away, so it's time to get today's to-do list together now I reckon.

BBS

I think I've decided to...

...just take my blood pressure readings first thing every morning as well as when I'm feeling something strongly to start with, instead of going straight from 21 readings a week to just a single one - that might be a bit too much of a shock to the system, so that's what I'll do for a while and take it from there.

I'll try and remember to take my blood pressure as soon as I've finished JanNo 'cos I'll hopefully feel proud/relieved/tearful and I want to record it so that I can see how different it is to my normal readings.

Slowly reduce my consumption rather than suddenly cut it out completely kinda thing.

I lasted precisely...

...2 days, 7 hours and 1 minute without having a drinking choccie of any description, which is good going for me lol

I've cracked open a new tub of drinking chocolate and a new canister of me-friendly cream so I'm not gonna deny myself any more drinking choccies 'cos it'll help to send my calories up and it'll mean that I don't have to consciously decide that I need a drink 'cos I'll be looking forward to my sweet fix of sugariness to please my incredibly sweet tooth.

Can someone remind me that it's two apple packs for breakfast and endless creamy drinking chocolates so that I don't forget tomorrow please?

Shutting up again now lol

 

That's an interesting discovery from...

...the spreadsheet I started yesterday!

I can get 4 very creamy hot choccies out of a single canister of cream 'cos I've just squirted out the last of the cream that I started pretty much 24 hours ago and the spreadsheet is telling me that this is my fourth hot choccie with the cream from the same canister!

No wonder I needed so much cream on the grocery shopping each week lol

I think I'll give myself a bit of a break from the cream now 'cos I can feel it starting to become an addiction rather than a treat so I wanna cut it off before it gets out of control and just add up the drinking chocolates for a while.

Morning all

I didn't wake up until 5.30am and had to physically drag myself out of bed this morning so today is gonna be a bad day physically methinks.

I've popped my morning pills with my morning glass of water and I've taken the morning video and started off the daily virus scan, so I think I've achieved a pretty decent amount in the half an hour I've been awake this morning!

It's my Saturday bath day today, so I've gotta remember to do that after I've had my lunch.  I wanna read some more of yesterday's book too 'cos it helped me to realise that my addictions aren't addictions, they are actually trigger responses from my childhood so I won't feel ashamed or guilty about eating and drinking so much chocolate or spending money on things for me instead of other people each time.

This first blog post of the day is waaaay too long, so I'm gonna publish it and attempt to put up today's to-do list before my first carer of the day arrives.  The virus scan has just finished so that's another thing I can tick off the list already too.

BFN

I think I deserve...

...a me-friendly creamy drinking chocolate after paying that invoice for another month.  That's it sorted for another month now though, and I've just gotta get to and through the date that most of my other bills are paid then I can breathe a sigh of relief.

Gonna go and indulge my chocolate addiction then carry on reading this amazing-so-far book I reckon.

Mornin' all/woops!

I've been downstairs and using the computer for an hour and a half and have literally just realised that I haven't made this good morning post or put up my to-do list yet!  Woops!

I've popped my morning pills, run the virus scan and had my first creamy drinking chocolate of the day.  I've also been shopping for a pill cutter and I've put a crystal cabinet and fake plant for the kitchen onto the order too, to bump it up to the free delivery otherwise I'd be paying more for the postage than the pill cutter!

I've got a delivery due "by 9pm" of a cardigan and ankle socks to replace the ones that the elastic that my current ones have gone in.  The cardigan was an extra for the same reason as today's shop lol

This is getting long and I wanna put my day's to-do list up before the carer arrives, so that I don't forget that too!

BBIAB I hope.

I don't care, I've earnt it!

I don't care that I'll have a tougher job than ever on my hands, I've earnt the drinking choccie and sharing bar of chocolate!

My calories are through the roof and I'll have to be strict with myself for a long time to come to get through the other side of this slip-up with my addiction but I've managed to achieve something I haven't done since before I went into hospital back in 2003, I'm immensely proud of myself and I've earnt every mouthful!

I've realised today that...

...I rely waaaay too heavily on food and drink when I'm lonely or bored - especially chocolate.  

I've currently got a drinking chocolate as well as a 5 serving bar of chocolate on the go because I'm bored out of my tree and I have already re-read a book today so tomorrow is gonna be a nightmare while I am waiting for the cable to arrive!

I've put my laptop on the floor so that I don't use up the battery but I'm bored silly right now lol