I've had an exhausting, emotional, highly anxious day today, but I've finished the final read-through of my second memoir and made a few last minute corrections, so it's all good to go on Monday now. I'm absolutely knackered so I've taken my pills and I'm heading on up to beddy-byes now.
I'll see you all in the morning.
Nite nite orl
Literally just finished giving my second memoir it's final read-through and spotted a couple of typo's (a 0 in the middle of a word etc) which is now all sorted and I can officially start on the final stage of the journey to publication on Monday now.
I've got another busy week ahead of me next week 'cos of the start of the publication journey on Monday, Tuesday morning is my groceries and an interview about my illnesses at 5pm, Wednesday is the weekly virus scan and backups, Thursday I'm seeing my best friend again then Friday I can finally breathe.
I've officially turned the final corner in the marathon and the home stretch is finally in sight now, 10 months after writing the first word.
...page 198 now and it's the start of the dark times so I'm gonna take a break for a while and reply to my best friend's email before my mood gets dragged into not-good places from reading about the start of the slope. I'll hopefully get a bit more read after the email, but right now I need to take a breather to keep myself safe.
I've woken up to a behaving bladder this morning 'cos I wasn't about to wet myself as soon as I opened my eyes this morning, which was a relief. I've also got a Visible score of 4 but won't be lapping or exercising today 'cos I don't wanna get sweaty after having my weekly bath. I've pulled the water heating switch on so it's bathtime at 6am today. I've also taken my blood pressure which was 116 and popped my morning pills. I've brought my new clothes down and put the towel in the bathroom before remembering to put my new Pentagram around my neck, but it's all sorted now though.
The daily virus scan found an advanced issue, which is now being resolved.
I'm gonna make the most of a quiet afternoon by giving my memoir one last read-through then getting things started with publishing my second memoir and I'm gonna carry on deleting the photos in between everything else this morning.
Time to get today's to-do list together before I have my bath.
BBS
I'm now >this< close to finally getting my second memoir published, almost a year after I first wrote it and about 6 weeks before I write my third and final one. I need to remember to look for edit 7 on my external hard drive tomorrow 'cos I saved the wrong file so both edit 7 and edit 8 have got today's date on, which is frustrating.
I've popped my last two pills of the day and I'm gonna head on up to beddy-byes now. I've got a busy morning tomorrow 'cos as well as my weekly bath, I've also got an Olio-er coming at 8am for her peppers and I wanna put my crystals in today's deliveries and charge up my HLTH band too. For tonight though, I'm off to bed.
I'll see you all in the morning.
Nite nite orl
It's been a long, emotional day today 'cos I finished editing and reading through my second memoir for hopefully the last time, but it's done now and I've emailed my best friend to see if he wants one last read-through of it before I set to work with publishing it.
I've got a busy Tuesday next week with potentially only being able to eat breakfast 'cos I've got a medical appointment as soon as they open after lunch and I don't wanna be throwing up in the car on the way there (I get travel sick)!
I've gotta remember to bring in my recycling when it's been picked up tomorrow, but my OddBox has already been delivered and put away, so I'll get up when my bladder says to in the morning.
I've popped my last two pills of the day and I'm heading off to beddy-byes now.
I'll see you all in the morning.
Nite nite orl
I've woken up in a fairly decent mood today, my 'Morning Stability' score was another 3, my blood pressure was 105, I've swallowed my 14 morning pills, had my breakfast and made myself my last caffeinated drink of the week.
Gotta remember to have a proper lunch today with the last of the broccoli, refill my dosette box after lunch (I've only missed one pill this week, so that's another positive) and I've gotta do hopefully the last edit of my memoir and have my reward of a J2O. I've also gotta box up and take out the recycling and put my OddBox container out too... lots to remember to do today!
The virus scan was reassuringly clear again, so I'm gonna get today's two breakfast photos up, then my day's to-do list, then make a start on the editing, while I charge up my Visible methinks.
BBS
My body is really struggling tonight, so I'm gonna head to bed.
Tomorrow is the day for my second memoir to go through its hopefully final edit and read-through, then I can start on getting things ready to publish it with any luck, depending on whether my best friend, C, is willing to give it one final read through before I hit the 'publish' button.
I'll see you all in the morning.
Nite nite orl
Gotta remember to get washed and changed tomorrow morning, ready for my medical appointment in the afternoon.
I've just finished the hopefully last edit of my second memoir and emailed it across to my best friend.
I'm giving my personal phone some emergency juice so that I can take it with me to call the taxi tomorrow.
My last two pills of the day have been popped and I'm gonna head on up to beddy-byes now.
I'll see you all in the morning.
Nite nite orl
I'm giving my second memoir another going over just to make sure everything is as it should be and I've picked up a few gramatical errors. I wanna try and get through the first section before I head to bed tonight if I can possibly manage it, so I'm saying nite nite to you all now even though I'm not going to bed just yet.
I'll see you all in the morning.
Nite nite orl
...absolutely knackered after waiting up for yesterday's delivery and only just getting 6 hours of sleep, so I'm gonna take my pills then head straight on up to beddy-byes for an early night tonight and I'm really hoping that I'll be asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow tonight!
I've finished the editing now and I've made a start on Steve's bank statements so I'm gonna try and do a bit every day with that so that it's not so overwhelmingly frustrating for me.
I'm gonna have a peach instant tea tomorrow after breakfast and me-friendly creamy hot chocolates for the rest of the day 'cos I need and deserve both of them!
Can someone remind me to put the vegan mayo onto Olio tomorrow please? I'm gonna keep eating the fruit for my lunches so don't need it any more and don't want it to go to waste.
I'm also expecting my Omegas to turn up tomorrow and they are due around lunchtime, so it'll be early exercises (assuming my 'Morning Stability' score is high enough) and a late lunch of 2 apricots, 10 cherries, a banana and a large pear tomorrow.
Well, after my delivery arrived so late last night, I dragged myself on up to beddy-byes.
I managed 6 hours of sleep according to my HLTH band.
I'm feeling really rotten today after such a late night and not taking my APs so barely sleeping. My 'Morning Stability' score is 3 so, even though I technically can do my laps and exercises, I know I'd end up on the floor unable to get up, so I'm not gonna risk it today.
I've taken my blood pressure and it was 109 so at the high end of my normal range. My morning pills have been popped and my breakfast eaten and the washing up done. The daily virus scan was clear, so I'm gonna get my breakfast photo up, then today's to-do list, then hopefully finish the read-through and any last minute editing of my memoir today.
I wanna go through Steve's bank statements and come up with a spreadsheet of his incomings and outgoings so that I can see what he really spent his money on when I paid him for the vast majority of household bills - I know it was £70-£100 a day on porn and that he paid for private shows at least once a week at about £1000 each too, because it was his last transaction before going into hospital then passing away, so I wanna see the exact numbers. It'll break my heart but I need to see just what his payments were for so that I can put that part of my grief away. I'm dreading it, but I feel like I have to find out the truth once and for all.
Time to get the breakfast photos resized and put up on this blog and Instagram now, as a slow start to my day I reckon.
BBS
I'm just about up to the psychosis diagnosis in hopefully the last edit of my second memoir and it seems like a wise place to stop so that I don't get crushed by a psychotic episode tonight. It feels like I've achieved a pretty decent amount today and I'm only 124 pages away from going through my memoir almost twice today and it feels like I'm on the home stretch with it now.
It's too late after waiting up for my delivery to take my evening pills, so I'm just gonna head on up to bed to see how long it takes me to fall asleep tonight.
My HLTH band is doing really well 'cos it's been around my ankle for 31 days so far and the battery is still at 44% and is still working which is awesome! I'm gonna keep a closer eye on the battery and when/if it starts to struggle, it'll be straight on to charge up again, but a month per charge is awesome!
I'll see you all in the morning (or later tonight if my insomnia strikes again).
Nite nite orl
It's Wednesday today so it was my weekly virus scan and backups this morning, which is why I didn't get my breakfast photo up first thing and I wasn't hungry, so I just had my usual 500ml glass of water for my breakfast to wash my 8 morning pills down with. I then got stuck into my 6th round of edits for my second memoir and seriously lost track of time, so I've only just had my lunch of 2 wonky apricots, 10 wonky cherries (my favourite fruit) and a wonky banana, all from OddBox, washed down with a 330ml can of a Sparkling Guava pop. I've also had a home-made, me-friendly, caffeinated creamy mocha this morning too, in between the backups starting and starting the edits.
Here are today's breakfast and lunch photos:
I've woken up in a semi-positive mood this morning and my 'Morning Stability' score was 4. I had to do a FunCap reading this morning 'cos it's the first day of the month and I've improved by 0.3 over the last month.
I'm not hungry this morning (prolly 'cos of my body still processing all the cream from yesterday lol) so I've just had my 500ml glass of water to take my 8 morning pills with today, rather than anything solid.
I've gotta keep my ear on the door for my batteries this morning, so won't be exercising until they've arrived and been put away.
Time to get today's to-do list together, then start editing now I reckon, while the weekly virus scan is running, then the backups.
BBS
...edit number 5 is finished and sent off to my wonderful best friend. I hope he can help me to get it bang on this time so that I can get a headache with trying to deal with Amazon again soonish then finally hit the "publish" button again.
I'm rewarding myself with the last in the tub of drinking chocolate and the Olio-er has said that they will be here at 6.30pm so this is their final chance otherwise I'll block them and report them as a no-show.
...306 now and I'm gonna leave it there in case I start sobbing... I'll hopefully start again after lunch though :-)
...I'm up to page 241 of the read-through and I wanna try and get it finished before I head to bed tomorrow so that I can send it to my best friend for hopefully the last round of edits.
I've woken up in a pretty decent mood, but I'm completely exhausted so won't be lapping or exercising today, even though my 'Morning Stability' score is 4 out of 5... maybe this afternoon, but definitely not this morning otherwise I'll end up on the floor, unable to get up.
I pulled the water heating switch in the bathroom at 5.06am so it'll be bathtime at just gone 6am. My blood pressure was at the top end of my normal range (108) and my 9 morning pills have been popped.
I was debating whether to have a shower instead of a bath 'cos my hair desperately needs a good wash, but my legs aren't stable enough to use the shower stool and I've definitely earned the bath so it's definitely bath not shower day today.
The daily virus scan found another 'Advanced Issue' which I'm guessing is the memoir that I edited yesterday 'cos of the things that I've said in it.
This first blog post of the day is getting long, so I'm gonna shut up, get my breakfast photo sorted then put today's to-do list together.
BBS
I'll be glad when this week is finally over and done with! lol
I've gotta remember to pull the water heating switch on in the bathroom tomorrow so that I can have a hopefully long soak in a hot bubble bath to wash off the stresses and strains of the last couple of weeks lol It'll also be a solid breakfast and my first morning of apple juice too, so I'm looking forward to that.
I've also gotta remember to charge up my Visible while I'm in the bath too - you watch me forget though lol
Will I have enough "Morning Stability" score to do my laps too? I really don't know based on my last couple of scores, but we'll have to wait and see tomorrow morning.
I've been able to edit my second memoir this afternoon and sent it off to C to have another plough through, so I'll have to wait and see what he says... I'm hoping it'll be the last edit, but I'll stay open-minded to see what he thinks.
It's been a long ole day with lots of stress and anxiety so I'm gonna take myself on up to beddy-byes.
Nite nite orl