Gotta remember to get washed and changed tomorrow morning, ready for my medical appointment in the afternoon.
I've just finished the hopefully last edit of my second memoir and emailed it across to my best friend.
I'm giving my personal phone some emergency juice so that I can take it with me to call the taxi tomorrow.
My last two pills of the day have been popped and I'm gonna head on up to beddy-byes now.
I'll see you all in the morning.
Nite nite orl
I'm giving my second memoir another going over just to make sure everything is as it should be and I've picked up a few gramatical errors. I wanna try and get through the first section before I head to bed tonight if I can possibly manage it, so I'm saying nite nite to you all now even though I'm not going to bed just yet.
I'll see you all in the morning.
Nite nite orl
...absolutely knackered after waiting up for yesterday's delivery and only just getting 6 hours of sleep, so I'm gonna take my pills then head straight on up to beddy-byes for an early night tonight and I'm really hoping that I'll be asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow tonight!
I've finished the editing now and I've made a start on Steve's bank statements so I'm gonna try and do a bit every day with that so that it's not so overwhelmingly frustrating for me.
I'm gonna have a peach instant tea tomorrow after breakfast and me-friendly creamy hot chocolates for the rest of the day 'cos I need and deserve both of them!
Can someone remind me to put the vegan mayo onto Olio tomorrow please? I'm gonna keep eating the fruit for my lunches so don't need it any more and don't want it to go to waste.
I'm also expecting my Omegas to turn up tomorrow and they are due around lunchtime, so it'll be early exercises (assuming my 'Morning Stability' score is high enough) and a late lunch of 2 apricots, 10 cherries, a banana and a large pear tomorrow.
Well, after my delivery arrived so late last night, I dragged myself on up to beddy-byes.
I managed 6 hours of sleep according to my HLTH band.
I'm feeling really rotten today after such a late night and not taking my APs so barely sleeping. My 'Morning Stability' score is 3 so, even though I technically can do my laps and exercises, I know I'd end up on the floor unable to get up, so I'm not gonna risk it today.
I've taken my blood pressure and it was 109 so at the high end of my normal range. My morning pills have been popped and my breakfast eaten and the washing up done. The daily virus scan was clear, so I'm gonna get my breakfast photo up, then today's to-do list, then hopefully finish the read-through and any last minute editing of my memoir today.
I wanna go through Steve's bank statements and come up with a spreadsheet of his incomings and outgoings so that I can see what he really spent his money on when I paid him for the vast majority of household bills - I know it was £70-£100 a day on porn and that he paid for private shows at least once a week at about £1000 each too, because it was his last transaction before going into hospital then passing away, so I wanna see the exact numbers. It'll break my heart but I need to see just what his payments were for so that I can put that part of my grief away. I'm dreading it, but I feel like I have to find out the truth once and for all.
Time to get the breakfast photos resized and put up on this blog and Instagram now, as a slow start to my day I reckon.
BBS
I'm just about up to the psychosis diagnosis in hopefully the last edit of my second memoir and it seems like a wise place to stop so that I don't get crushed by a psychotic episode tonight. It feels like I've achieved a pretty decent amount today and I'm only 124 pages away from going through my memoir almost twice today and it feels like I'm on the home stretch with it now.
It's too late after waiting up for my delivery to take my evening pills, so I'm just gonna head on up to bed to see how long it takes me to fall asleep tonight.
My HLTH band is doing really well 'cos it's been around my ankle for 31 days so far and the battery is still at 44% and is still working which is awesome! I'm gonna keep a closer eye on the battery and when/if it starts to struggle, it'll be straight on to charge up again, but a month per charge is awesome!
I'll see you all in the morning (or later tonight if my insomnia strikes again).
Nite nite orl
It's Wednesday today so it was my weekly virus scan and backups this morning, which is why I didn't get my breakfast photo up first thing and I wasn't hungry, so I just had my usual 500ml glass of water for my breakfast to wash my 8 morning pills down with. I then got stuck into my 6th round of edits for my second memoir and seriously lost track of time, so I've only just had my lunch of 2 wonky apricots, 10 wonky cherries (my favourite fruit) and a wonky banana, all from OddBox, washed down with a 330ml can of a Sparkling Guava pop. I've also had a home-made, me-friendly, caffeinated creamy mocha this morning too, in between the backups starting and starting the edits.
Here are today's breakfast and lunch photos:
I've woken up in a semi-positive mood this morning and my 'Morning Stability' score was 4. I had to do a FunCap reading this morning 'cos it's the first day of the month and I've improved by 0.3 over the last month.
I'm not hungry this morning (prolly 'cos of my body still processing all the cream from yesterday lol) so I've just had my 500ml glass of water to take my 8 morning pills with today, rather than anything solid.
I've gotta keep my ear on the door for my batteries this morning, so won't be exercising until they've arrived and been put away.
Time to get today's to-do list together, then start editing now I reckon, while the weekly virus scan is running, then the backups.
BBS
...edit number 5 is finished and sent off to my wonderful best friend. I hope he can help me to get it bang on this time so that I can get a headache with trying to deal with Amazon again soonish then finally hit the "publish" button again.
I'm rewarding myself with the last in the tub of drinking chocolate and the Olio-er has said that they will be here at 6.30pm so this is their final chance otherwise I'll block them and report them as a no-show.
...306 now and I'm gonna leave it there in case I start sobbing... I'll hopefully start again after lunch though :-)
...I'm up to page 241 of the read-through and I wanna try and get it finished before I head to bed tomorrow so that I can send it to my best friend for hopefully the last round of edits.
I've woken up in a pretty decent mood, but I'm completely exhausted so won't be lapping or exercising today, even though my 'Morning Stability' score is 4 out of 5... maybe this afternoon, but definitely not this morning otherwise I'll end up on the floor, unable to get up.
I pulled the water heating switch in the bathroom at 5.06am so it'll be bathtime at just gone 6am. My blood pressure was at the top end of my normal range (108) and my 9 morning pills have been popped.
I was debating whether to have a shower instead of a bath 'cos my hair desperately needs a good wash, but my legs aren't stable enough to use the shower stool and I've definitely earned the bath so it's definitely bath not shower day today.
The daily virus scan found another 'Advanced Issue' which I'm guessing is the memoir that I edited yesterday 'cos of the things that I've said in it.
This first blog post of the day is getting long, so I'm gonna shut up, get my breakfast photo sorted then put today's to-do list together.
BBS
I'll be glad when this week is finally over and done with! lol
I've gotta remember to pull the water heating switch on in the bathroom tomorrow so that I can have a hopefully long soak in a hot bubble bath to wash off the stresses and strains of the last couple of weeks lol It'll also be a solid breakfast and my first morning of apple juice too, so I'm looking forward to that.
I've also gotta remember to charge up my Visible while I'm in the bath too - you watch me forget though lol
Will I have enough "Morning Stability" score to do my laps too? I really don't know based on my last couple of scores, but we'll have to wait and see tomorrow morning.
I've been able to edit my second memoir this afternoon and sent it off to C to have another plough through, so I'll have to wait and see what he says... I'm hoping it'll be the last edit, but I'll stay open-minded to see what he thinks.
It's been a long ole day with lots of stress and anxiety so I'm gonna take myself on up to beddy-byes.
Nite nite orl
I've woken up in a positive mood and my new HLTH band said that I was asleep for almost 10 hours. I've taken my blood pressure which was 110 this morning and popped my 10 morning pills with my breakfast glass of water. It's not healthy to just live on water, so depending on what time my delivery comes today I'm gonna try and have fruit for lunch as long as it comes by 12.30pm. I'm gonna put the onions onto Olio as I won't be able to eat them this week.
My 'Morning Stability Score' this morning was 3 out of 5 so I'm gonna do my laps and exercises this afternoon.
I've put my next grocery order in and the bags down in front of the door, so I've just gotta wait for the delivery and this week's groceries now
The daily virus scan was reassuringly clear and I've remembered to start charging up my power bank thing again.
Time to get the photos of the onions done and advertised on Olio, then my breakfast photo, then my to-do list now I reckon.
BBS
After a very late night last night with so little sleep, I'm taking myself off to beddy-byes now that my last delivery has arrived and I'm not planning on getting up as soon as I wake up tomorrow morning.
I think I've decided to go back to taking my pills at 6pm again from tomorrow onwards and waking up at around 3.30-4am as that seems to be what my body likes and can cope with best.
If you've got any questions about my rare mental illness that you are dying to ask but don't want to offend me, now's your chance 'cos they will be going into my second memoir along with my answer, so just let me know in the comments what your question is and how you wanna be credited and I'll try and put it into the memoir 😃
Gotta remember to charge up my Charge 6 and potentially my Inspire too tomorrow... I hope I don't forget!
The side effects of my last two pills of the day are kicking in rapidly, so I'm heading off to bed now.
I'll see you all at some point in the morning.
Nite nite orl
It.'s been a long ole day today, but I've achieved a fair amount and I've got through the first of two stages of the fourth edit of my second memoir today so that's good. I've got at least one, potentially two deliveries due tomorrow and I've ordered more AP's so they will hopefully be with me next week.
I'm gonna have to do tomorrow morning in a very strict order so that I can fit everything in:
I didn't want to get out of bed again this morning, so the 5-HTP was one of the 11 pills I popped this morning and it's already working!
My blood pressure was pretty normal for me at 104 and I've discovered that I need to put my toast in for a second toasting using the minimum setting after using the maximum setting. I'm wearing my new glasses to write this and everything has sharp edges so it was work the extra money for this second set.
The daily virus scan was still reassuringly clear, so today's task is gonna be to start the editing of my second memoir after my best friend sent me the latest feedback last night.
I'm definitely into my hayfever season now 'cos my eyes are itchy, my nose is streaming and I can't stop coughing.
Time to get today's to-do list together, then my breakfast photo, then hopefully my OCD will be happy with me doing my first set of laps of the day.
BBIAB
I've had a busy day today with my groceries this morning and finishing editing my memoir after lunch and the two sets of exercises which my body is making me pay for now.
It's Wednesday tomorrow, so I've gotta remember that it's the weekly virus scan and backups when I come downstairs.
I've taken my last two pills of the day and the side effects are already kicking in, so I'll see you all in the morning.
Nite nite orl
My Visible is being stroppy again after working for a week but it's refusing to pair to my phone this time, so I'm not a happy bunny.
I've popped my 10 morning pills with my 500ml glass of water and I'm not gonna have any breakfast this morning 'cos I'm still full from yesterday's leftovers.
The daily virus scan found an advanced issue again, which I've just resolved, so I'm good to go now.
Time to get today's to-do list together then hopefully finish editing my manuscript and with any luck remembering to put the questions and answers bit at the end this time.
BBS
It's been a long ole day today with bringing the rubbish and recycling in, adjusting tomorrow's grocery order and then spending the day nit-picking on my second memoir manuscript. I'm over ⅔ of the way there now and less than 100 pages left to sort out and then the question and answer bits et voila, it should be finished.
I've popped my last two pills of the day and I'm wondering if my arm-ache has got anything to do with my Visible maybe?
My Visible is misbehaving again and won't re-pair itself tonight, so I'm giving it until I shut down before I give up and try again in the morning.
It's grocery delivery day tomorrow so I've gotta put the bags in front of the door and put my next order in at sparrow's fart o'clock, then bag up and put away my groceries when they arrive then I can spend the rest of the day finishing off the edits on the manuscript.
A busy and potentially stressful day tomorrow, but for tonight I'm going to bed.
I'll see you all in the morning.
Nite nite orl
I've started the read-through and tweaking of my second memoir since soon after I had my breakfast and I've stopped at an appropriate point at an appropriate time to have my lunch, so that's what I'm gonna do. Go and make my lunch of leftovers from yesterday, eat, drink, wash up, pop my lunchtime pill, do the second set of laps of the day then carry on editing until bed-time.
There have been a few tweaks to make, but not too bad so far. I'm up to page 85 of 327, so I'm hoping I'll be around half way through it by the time I head to bed then I'll finish the rest of it off tomorrow around my exercising and grocery delivery. Gotta remember to put in my next grocery order tomorrow morning and I'll have to put last week's FitBit image together, then code and upload it to my homepage tomorrow too... you watch me forget though lol