As I predicted this morning...

...my only solid meal today is gonna be the choccie Weetabix I had for my breakfast.

My bum is gonna be awful tomorrow after so much liquid and so little solid today, but never mind eh?

Cor lummy!

In the last 2 hours I've:

• Eaten my lunch
• Done my laps
• Got myself a drink of water
• Sat down for 2 minutes
• Rebooted my laptop
• Brought in the cookie dough
• Put the cookie dough away
• Sat down for 39 seconds
• Brought the Diet Coke in
• Put the Diet Coke away
• Put the bags in front of the door for my groceries
• Been for a wee
• Taken my lunchtime pill
• Sat down for 3 minutes

My groceries are due in 16 minutes then the only time I'm getting off the sofa before I head to bed is to get myself a well-deserved creamy drinking chocolate and go for as many wee's as I need to.

I was right with my prediction about everything coming together lol

Mornin' all

As I predicted last night, I was awake and desperate for a wee in the early hours lol  I've only got one more teabag left and if I don't drink so much during the day then hopefully it won't be so bad.

I've taken my 6 morning pills with my glass of water and made myself a decaff coffee so far this morning.

I've also just put in my grocery order - I've just gotta remember to put the bags in front of the door when my carer has gone today.

Not feeling cold is such an amazing feeling and it's already sooo worth all the stress and strain for those 2 weeks.  My electricity smart metre hasn't come on yet this morning, but if I hopefully kept it at around the £3 mark yesterday which is still, thankfully, under budget.

This mornings virus scan was reassuringly clear again, so that's a relief.

This blog post is getting a bit too long so I'm gonna publish it now then make a start on putting today's to-do list together before my morning carer gets here.

TTFN

I was right...

...the carer signed in, socialised for 18 minutes then signed out.  I've asked her to tell the agency that the house will be the same as it is now so the carers definitely won't be able to do anything to support me (not that they do anyway, but that's a whole other kettle of fish that I'm used to now) so it'll be at least 3 weeks since I last ate anything and I'm already underweight as it is, so things aren't looking good for me right now.

As predicted...

...I was awake at just gone 3.30am needing a wee, so I stayed down here, drank my morning glass of water, set the virus scan going (it's found an advanced issue so that's getting resolved as I type this), took my 5 morning pills, put my Fitbit then phone on to charge for the third time in 24 hours and made myself a decaff mocha, ready to start writing.  Will I be able to produce another 8 chapters today?  I hope so, but not at the expense of enjoyment.

I've just weighed myself and...

...logged it into the FitBit app, then downloaded, coded and uploaded last weeks spreadsheet to my homepage and if you said, in reply to my question, that I'd gained weight, you'd be wrong.  If you said I'd maintained my weight, you'd be wrong, but if you'd agreed with me and said that I'd lost weight, we'd both have been right.  I've lost 950g in the last 7 days, which is nowhere near as much as I was thinking, thankfully, but it's still a loss.

What do you reckon will happen this week?  I'm not having anything other than a 250ml bottle of orange juice today and tomorrow then it'll hopefully be back to toast for breakfast each morning after that.

I thought, for several years, that the dairy-free spread I have on my toast was over 500 calories per slice but I recently (as in last week) discovered that it was the calorie count for 100g not 1 serving like I'd originally thought, so each breakfast will be 321 calories instead of over 1,000 like I'd wrongly thought, so what do you reckon will happen with my weight next week after hopefully having 4 (or ideally 5 if my carer gets here early enough on Sunday) lots of breakfast as well as either a tin of baked beans or a tin of spaghetti for lunch every day?  I'd like to put on a kilo or so, but I'm still within the healthy weight range my GP gave me for my height so it's no biggie if I don't.

Leave your comments in reply to this (it'll give me a confidence boost to have your comment and it'll mean that I can keep all the opinions together) and let me know what you think will happen at next Monday's weigh-in.

Mornin' mornin'

Are we all ready to start a new week?

I was semi right and semi wrong with last night's prediction... I was right about my bladder waking me up 'cos of drinking so much past my cut-off time, but wrong about it being at 4am 'cos it was my usual kinda time of 5.15am this morning.

I've swallowed my morning pills and finished the daily virus scan, which was thankfully still clear, so I'm just waiting for my morning carer now, then have my breakfast and weigh myself, then the rubbish and recyclers to collect everything so that I can bring the bags and boxes back in for another week.

I'm really itchy all over this morning and sooo cold, so I'm thinking that it'll be a warm cardigan day today instead of just a light top.

Wanna test out my new microphone today... gotta remember to ask C if he fancies meeting up on Zoom to try it out again - keep your fingers crossed that it works!

My hayfever is in full force already this morning so I'll be waking my neighbours up with the sneezes and making my carers think that I've been crying today!

AFAIK I've got a clear day today, so I'm hoping that I'll be able to get the news done then stick my nose into a book for the rest of the day.

This blog post is waaay to long, so I'm gonna publish it now and make a start on putting my daily to-do list together before my first carer of the day arrives.  Gotta remember to download last week's FitBit spreadsheet after I've logged my weight too.

Just as I suspected this morning...

...the nausea and pain straight after I took my pills *was* psychosomatic and spending a bit of time reading my emails was all that was needed for me to take my mind off the new-ness of the recipe - I was fine again within minutes!

I'm having a pretty good day today, so I've got myself a mug of drinking choccie to celebrate with until bedtime now.  I won't be anywhere near the minimum for my calories or liquids today, but that's OK 'cos it doesn't happen very often now and I'll pig out tomorrow instead.

lol I was right!

Just as I was pouring the hot water into my mug of tea, Steve told me to look upstairs, even though I knew that I'd brought it down with me.

As soon as I walked through the bedroom door, I spotted it, sitting upright in its usual place, even though I *know* I put the foot down and brought it down here with me lol

Thank you Steve!

Kinda right, kinda wrong

I was told (by something in my being) this morning, that my carer would be late and that I wouldn't be able to have breakfast.

The first bit was wrong 'cos she turned up at about 7.20am and left at 7.40am but the breakfast bit was spot on!  I went to make my breakfast and discovered that the bread had gone mouldy, so breakfast this morning was a bottle of orange juice, 4 treat-sized bars of chocolate and a home-made decaff mocha so today's calories are gonna be soooo low after not having the 1080 calories for breakfast lol

I was right this morning...

...my lunchtime carer is due at 12.30 and the bars etc are being fitted at 12.30 too, so I was right in my prediction this morning.  

When my lunchtime carer turns up, I'll explain to him/her that I've got some safety stuff happening at the same time and that I've already let their boss know as well as the last 4 carers since I found out.  Depending on what time the safety installers go, depends on whether I have soup for lunch (if they leave soon enough) or fill up on drinking chocolate this afternoon.

Just taken...

...my lunchtime pill, only 3½ hours later than it should have been lol

I've only just drunk 2½ litres today (I've bought in a mug which takes it up to that but I haven't drunk any of it yet) but it was well over 3½ litres by this time yesterday, so I think I've done OK and it really is hot drinks that mean I drink less, so I'll try again tomorrow in case today is just a fluke.

Thankfully my...

...bladder has calmed down after first thing, which means it's gonna go mental on me again now.  It's been about an hour since I last wee'd so that's reassuring.  

When/if I have lunch today (depending on if my carer cooks or if it's left up to me) I'll be able to recover before I head to bed tonight.

As predicted, my bladder has woken up again lol

Mornin' all

I've woken up feeling worse than I did when I went to bed last night and my FitBit is telling me that I woke up once, so that'll be why.

I'm up before the sparrows start farting again and I'm so cold that I've turned the heating up a bit more 'cos I'm, as I predicted yesterday morning, still cold and unable to warm up.

I'm gonna book for someone to come out and fit a smart water and a smart electricity metre so that I don't have to do any more readings and hopefully those bills will come down too.

Assuming I don't get back from my in-laws when it's dark, I've gotta remember to put the rubbish and recycling out and refill my dosette box ready for next week.  I haven't missed a single pill so far this week, reassuringly.

I've already dosed myself up with my morning pills and given myself 4 squirts of B12 in preparation for today.

The virus scan is under way and I'm hopeful that'll be clear by the time it finishes.

I'm gonna sort out my to-do list now then go and get my last breakfast of the week.  Gotta remember to adjust the stock take to take the soup and crisps off that I had for yesterday's lunch.

Time to sort out my to-do list for today now.

BFN

80 hours and 16 minutes

As of 12.50pm today, I've cared for my carer for 80 hours and 16 minutes this week (6 hours and 22 minutes so far today) and my carer has cared for me for 89 minutes all week.  I can't see him doing anything to support me this afternoon but I'll be taking out the rubbish and caring for him all afternoon.  I've already cared for my carer for well over double the minimum required and he's yet to even reach 2 hours for the week... you all know that rant by now though, right?

I was right this morning, when I said my calories today would come from drinks alone.  I've had 2 drinking chocolates so far today and I'm sooo thirsty right now, but I can't have a hot drink 'cos we've only got caffeinated drinks left and I've already had all the caffeine I'm allowed in a week, so I'll be going thirsty as well as hungry today by the looks of things.

My watch is vibrating, so I'd best take my last lunchtime pill of the week while Steve's eating, then I'll: 

• refill my dosette box 
• take Steve's plate back through to the kitchen
• take the rubbish out
• make a hot drink for my carer
  
• do the washing up
• then keep caring for my carer for the rest of the afternoon

 

If I remember to take my last lunchtime pill of the week, that'll be every single one taken at the right time this week which hasn't happened in a looong time!

 

 

This morning's prediction was...

...spot on 'cos I predicted that I'd be making lunch and Steve would be eating it all so I was spot on.

Mornin' all

As I think I predicted yesterday, Steve is gonna cancel his medical appointment yet again today and ask for a stronger prescription for one of his meds.  He also doesn't want me to pay off some of the mortgage "in case they charge more for paying it off in a lump sum, so wait until I talk to them tomorrow" and he'll definitely call up about the savings account today too, just like he's promised for the last 3 days.  Basically, whatever I try and do to help is rejected then I get blamed when we fall behind with things like the mortgage and electricity and it's always my stuff that comes off the groceries to make room for more of Steve's stuff too.

It's instant soup on the menu for today, so I'll be making all of Steve's three meals today and going without for the third day this week.  By the time I go to bed tonight, I'll have made more meals for Steve in one single day (ie 3) than he has for me throughout November so far (ie 2).

I've taken my morning pills, so my body has got what it needs to see me through until tomorrow now.

Yep, today will be totally calorie free 'cos I've just been out to make us the first hot drink of the day and Steve's hidden the washing up brush so I couldn't wash my mug up, so my entire day will be tap water alone while Steve has multiple hot drinks, entire packets of biscuits entirely alone, entire sharing bags of crisps to himself and 3 meals.  I'm just grateful that I've eaten three times already this week (twice on Monday and once yesterday) is all.

The daily virus scan is under way and I haven't got any deliveries today, so I'll hopefully be able to ignore my hunger and thirst by reading and reviewing a book today.

My first prediction at lunchtime was...

...spot on 'cos I had to cook his chicken breasts for him so that they didn't go to waste.  We'll have to wait until Friday to see the result of my second lunch-time prediction but I reckon, based on the last two weeks, that that'll be spot on too.

My lunchtime prediction was...

...spot on again and pretty much word for word too.  Apparently it's my fault that I haven't eaten anything (other than 10 biscuits) today and it's my fault that I'm not having any tea - if I have anything now, then it'll be about 2am before I can safely lay down without feeling sick, then I'll have to be up with a clear head, cheery mood and well-rested body ready to support my carer at 5am again tomorrow.  Apparently we're definitely having a proper lunch tomorrow because "I get worried about how little you eat sometimes" but he's always known the rules for my cut-off times and I can't eat later than that otherwise I start throwing up.

By the time the take-away arrives, Steve will have eaten 3 full meals today which is more than I've had for the entire week combined.  I wish I was over-exagerating but I had breakfast and lunch on Wednesday and I've been picking at crisps (yesterday) and biscuits for the meals that I've missed during the rest of the week.

Apparently he "make[s] all her meals and drinks for her" though <shrug>

This week has been good preparation for the first two weeks of November when Steve'll be chomping down on meat day after day and I'll be left with literally nothing except water and J2O's again, unless he decides that he'll keep this morning's promise of making me endless drinks, which I honestly can't see happening at all 'cos he hasn't done it for the last 11 years, so why should this year be any different?

As I think I predicted yesterday...

...or was it this morning, we're not having a proper lunch again, just the same as we had yesterday and today's things have been moved to "a later lunch tomorrow" instead, so I'll be having 2 slices of toast and 2 mince pies and Steve'll be having 4 slices of toast, 3 mince pies, a sharing packet of crisps all to himself (like usual) and an entire packet of biscuits to himself (like usual) for lunch today.  

 

Not at all happy about it, but I'm used to it now.  

 

I'm predicting that he'll find an excuse not to cook tomorrow afternoon either and will want a MugShot for lunch instead, so I'll have made 9 meals for him by the time I go to bed tomorrow and he won't have made any for me.  It'll be the same on Thursday 'cos of his regular medical appointment so he'll just want a mug of instant soup, which'll take the tally up to 12 meals by me and none by him.  Friday is onion rings, prolly made by me which takes it up to 15-0 to me.  Saturday is potentially the only lunch he'll make this week but I'll still make his breakfast and tea, which makes it 17-1 by the time I head to bed on Saturday.  Sunday is potentially another lunch made by me, with Steve just helping to dish up when it's all cooked so it'll be 20-1 to me by the time I head to bed on Sunday... apparently he "make[s] all her meals and drinks for her" though, which is utter bullshit 'cos he hasn't made a single drink for me this year (other than the squashes so that I can take my pills) and only cooks a maximum of 3 times on a very good week.

Apparently he's the carer though <shrug>