It's been a few months since my last message in here so thought I would update you all on me... don't run away too fast! lol
I'm pretty much always walking down the stairs in the house now... the only time I bump down on me bum is when I'm bringing the Doggington babe down after she's come up here and refuses to go down the stairs on her own... she can do it when she doesn't think about it but as soon as the paranoia cogs start whirring she just won't go down on her own for some reason!
I'm still gloomy about not having a name for what is wrong with me but that's nothing new.
I'm writing 2 books and a short story that I'm hoping to have published in the not-too-distant future... I've got to finish writing them first though! lol I emailed a publisher that sounds ideal a few days ago about my Toni book - keep your fingers crossed for me! I'm also doing a creative writing for children course which is why I'm writing a short story, not 3 novels! lol Everything is going well with that I think... my memory is letting me down though :(
Ho hum... enough of that!
Monday, 7 March 2011
Tuesday, 23 November 2010
OK, so it was slow going but I did it again!
I’ve just walked down the stairs without holding on to the rail again! It took 5 minutes (as opposed to a few seconds that anyone else could have got down the stairs in) and the top couple of steps were hard until I got into the swing of things but this time 6 months ago I was still bumping down the stairs on my bum with the occasional walk down them holding onto both the wall *and* the rail when I felt brave. OK, so I’ve only done it twice but even the tallest mountain is climbed after a few smaller mountains have previously been climbed!
I’m on my way up now! Yay for me!
Saturday, 20 November 2010
I only went and did it!
I know this may not sound like a big thing to be proud of but it's a big deal to me so go somewhere else if you don't want to hear me blowing my own trumpet! :-)
I've just walked downstairs without holding onto the rail... I haven't been able to do that since before I went into hospital so it's a huge deal to me!
I've been slowly talking myself into trying it for a few days but I did it! It's a major achievement and it's given a huge boost to my confidence to such a degree that I don't think it'll be too much longer before I can walk into town alone again! I'll be able to take our little girl for proper walks instead of just up and down the street!
I know I'm probably talking months or years before I can do it but an hour ago I had to cling on to both the rail and the wall to get downstairs so I think I've got every right to feel proud of myself!
I'm going to take my pills and head to bed with a huge smile on my face now! :-D
I've just walked downstairs without holding onto the rail... I haven't been able to do that since before I went into hospital so it's a huge deal to me!
I've been slowly talking myself into trying it for a few days but I did it! It's a major achievement and it's given a huge boost to my confidence to such a degree that I don't think it'll be too much longer before I can walk into town alone again! I'll be able to take our little girl for proper walks instead of just up and down the street!
I know I'm probably talking months or years before I can do it but an hour ago I had to cling on to both the rail and the wall to get downstairs so I think I've got every right to feel proud of myself!
I'm going to take my pills and head to bed with a huge smile on my face now! :-D
Sunday, 31 October 2010
I'm now...
I’m feeling really proud of myself right now… I’ve just got into a size 16 skirt and done the button and zip up straight after drying myself after getting out of the bath!
Last time I tried to get into this skirt it was my fat bum holding it up and I couldn’t do up the zip let alone the button! Thanks to this, I’m now officially a size 16 which means I’ve dropped 5 clothes sizes since I came out of hospital a few years ago! It also means that I’ve only got 3 sizes to go down before I can get into size 10 clothes again!
I’m feeling really proud of myself right now!
Thursday, 28 October 2010
Is it wrong of me to
Is it wrong of me to not want children that are ours by blood and to want to adopt instead?
I've got several reasons for wanting to adopt and they are:
1) Both me and my mum are short in height so whatever it is it's obviously a genetic thing that I don't want to pass on to our children
2) There are already lots of unwanted children looking for parents so why not adopt one (or more) of them instead of bringing another child into the world
3) Steven is obese and I'm about 2 stone overweight so I don't want to pass that on either
4) I've been ill for over a decade and still don't know what it is so don't want to pass it on just in case it's hereditary
5) I've got Endometriosis so might be infertile and even if I'm not the Endometriosis might be passed on to female children
6) My dad died of cancer back in June this year so this is another reason I'm wondering about adopting instead of having our own flesh and blood knowing that they could get cancer too
7) We are both getting on a bit in age (I'm 33 and Steven is 39) so we would be getting on a bit by the time a flesh-and-blood child went to school but if we adopt then we could adopt an older child so that we wouldn't be so much older than them
8) Because of the Growth Hormone I took as a child I'm not allowed to give blood so I'm worried about passing whatever it is that stops me onto our biological children.
I'm seriously thinking of getting my tubes tied but every time I mention it to Steven he says "it's your body so it's up to you" which doesn't really help!
Just thinking is all... I'm hitting the hay now... nite all!
I've got several reasons for wanting to adopt and they are:
1) Both me and my mum are short in height so whatever it is it's obviously a genetic thing that I don't want to pass on to our children
2) There are already lots of unwanted children looking for parents so why not adopt one (or more) of them instead of bringing another child into the world
3) Steven is obese and I'm about 2 stone overweight so I don't want to pass that on either
4) I've been ill for over a decade and still don't know what it is so don't want to pass it on just in case it's hereditary
5) I've got Endometriosis so might be infertile and even if I'm not the Endometriosis might be passed on to female children
6) My dad died of cancer back in June this year so this is another reason I'm wondering about adopting instead of having our own flesh and blood knowing that they could get cancer too
7) We are both getting on a bit in age (I'm 33 and Steven is 39) so we would be getting on a bit by the time a flesh-and-blood child went to school but if we adopt then we could adopt an older child so that we wouldn't be so much older than them
8) Because of the Growth Hormone I took as a child I'm not allowed to give blood so I'm worried about passing whatever it is that stops me onto our biological children.
I'm seriously thinking of getting my tubes tied but every time I mention it to Steven he says "it's your body so it's up to you" which doesn't really help!
Just thinking is all... I'm hitting the hay now... nite all!
Wednesday, 29 September 2010
Our little girl is brilliant!
I didn't write anything in August or most of September but this is going to be about our little girl again!
Since I last wrote about her she's run out of the open front door even though I'd told her to "stay" which she had done until then so Steven and I have been holding onto her collar when the door has been open since then!
This isn't about that though... last night the electricity went off and Mitzi woke both Steven and I so that we could turn it back on - it might have been the shock of the room suddenly going black or the "pop" as the switch flicked but our little girl knew that she had to wake us and she did... thank you Mitzi!
She's also off all her medicine and doesn't have to see the vet any more too! We've just got to remember to ask about getting our little girl spayed next time we go over there! We've still got to shampoo our little girl every couple of weeks but she lets us know when she's ready for a bath by licking her front paws... she's an amazing little dog!
We've only had her for a few months but she's such a huge part of our life already!
Since I last wrote about her she's run out of the open front door even though I'd told her to "stay" which she had done until then so Steven and I have been holding onto her collar when the door has been open since then!
This isn't about that though... last night the electricity went off and Mitzi woke both Steven and I so that we could turn it back on - it might have been the shock of the room suddenly going black or the "pop" as the switch flicked but our little girl knew that she had to wake us and she did... thank you Mitzi!
She's also off all her medicine and doesn't have to see the vet any more too! We've just got to remember to ask about getting our little girl spayed next time we go over there! We've still got to shampoo our little girl every couple of weeks but she lets us know when she's ready for a bath by licking her front paws... she's an amazing little dog!
We've only had her for a few months but she's such a huge part of our life already!
Saturday, 31 July 2010
Our little girl has amazed me even more today!
Mitzi is our little girl that we got from the Dogs Trust almost 3 weeks ago and she is an amazing puppy (she's 1 year, 1 month and 1 day so is that still a puppy?) and is so much more mature than her age!
Today alone she has done 3 things which make me so proud of her and I feel sorry for those that rejected her just because she was missing half her fur (it's pretty much grown back now - it just needs to thicken up and grow a bit longer)! Those 3 things are: a) she knows not to go out of the front door if she hasn't got her lead on, b) she knows the meaning of "stay" and does it and c) she likes raw carrots!
I don't know about you but that's an amazing 3 things from a rescue puppy who has only been with us for 3 weeks (it'll be 3 weeks on Tuesday, yes I *am* counting)! My previous dog, Whiskey, was 17.5 years old when he went to Rainbow Bridge and he wasn't a rescue puppy and I had him when he was a lot younger too and the only time he would do "stay" was in the garden, with his flexi-lead on and constant eye contact. I kept trying to train him to "stay" and he would remember to do it for a week or so then conveniently forget it!
Mitzi does it with no training so she was either trained by her previous owner or the Dogs Trust to "stay" and it was a wonderful surprise when Steven told me about it this afternoon! Apparently he was taking a bag of rubbish out to the bin and had the front door wide open when our little girl appeared. Steven told her to "stay" and she didn't move at all until the door was closed and Steven praised her!
So, with pretty much no training from either Steven or I, our little girl is already house trained, knows "sit", "no", "stay", "come", "good girl", "say please" and "say thank you" (she learnt those last 2 after I said them to her 3 times on 3 different days but that is literally the only training she's had from us).
With the raw carrots, Steven saw a programme on TV a few days ago that said to give dogs raw carrots as a healthy treat so he ordered a bag of carrots with the shopping, knowing that if our little girl didn't like them then I do so they wouldn't be wasted.
When he'd put the shopping away, Steven opened the bag of carrots, broke one in half and offered half to Mitzi. She gladly took it from him and started chomping away on it! Steven peeled the other half and gave it to me... by the time I was half way down my half, Mitzi had finished her half and was looking up at me with her gorgeous pleading eyes wanting the other half! lol
I want to publicly say thank you to those people who rejected Mitzi just based on her fur problem - we have got a wonderful little girl living with us now and you don't! So there!
We are lucky to have Mitzi! She's an incredible little girl who is ours for the next decade!
Today alone she has done 3 things which make me so proud of her and I feel sorry for those that rejected her just because she was missing half her fur (it's pretty much grown back now - it just needs to thicken up and grow a bit longer)! Those 3 things are: a) she knows not to go out of the front door if she hasn't got her lead on, b) she knows the meaning of "stay" and does it and c) she likes raw carrots!
I don't know about you but that's an amazing 3 things from a rescue puppy who has only been with us for 3 weeks (it'll be 3 weeks on Tuesday, yes I *am* counting)! My previous dog, Whiskey, was 17.5 years old when he went to Rainbow Bridge and he wasn't a rescue puppy and I had him when he was a lot younger too and the only time he would do "stay" was in the garden, with his flexi-lead on and constant eye contact. I kept trying to train him to "stay" and he would remember to do it for a week or so then conveniently forget it!
Mitzi does it with no training so she was either trained by her previous owner or the Dogs Trust to "stay" and it was a wonderful surprise when Steven told me about it this afternoon! Apparently he was taking a bag of rubbish out to the bin and had the front door wide open when our little girl appeared. Steven told her to "stay" and she didn't move at all until the door was closed and Steven praised her!
So, with pretty much no training from either Steven or I, our little girl is already house trained, knows "sit", "no", "stay", "come", "good girl", "say please" and "say thank you" (she learnt those last 2 after I said them to her 3 times on 3 different days but that is literally the only training she's had from us).
With the raw carrots, Steven saw a programme on TV a few days ago that said to give dogs raw carrots as a healthy treat so he ordered a bag of carrots with the shopping, knowing that if our little girl didn't like them then I do so they wouldn't be wasted.
When he'd put the shopping away, Steven opened the bag of carrots, broke one in half and offered half to Mitzi. She gladly took it from him and started chomping away on it! Steven peeled the other half and gave it to me... by the time I was half way down my half, Mitzi had finished her half and was looking up at me with her gorgeous pleading eyes wanting the other half! lol
I want to publicly say thank you to those people who rejected Mitzi just based on her fur problem - we have got a wonderful little girl living with us now and you don't! So there!
We are lucky to have Mitzi! She's an incredible little girl who is ours for the next decade!
Thursday, 22 July 2010
For those that don't know...
If you have read my domain, you will know that I'm a huge Take That fan and I'm not sure how I feel about Robbie re-joining the group! He said a lot of nasty things when he left the group but if Jason, Gary, Howard and Mark can forgive him and let him back into the group then I don't have any reason to keep disliking him either!
Should I forgive him for hurting Take That and several thousand fans 15 years ago or should I realise that he's hopefully grown up since being a solo artist?
I really don't know right now!
Should I forgive him for hurting Take That and several thousand fans 15 years ago or should I realise that he's hopefully grown up since being a solo artist?
I really don't know right now!
Sunday, 11 July 2010
Some good news before I forget again!
If you are a member of any of the same groups and/or communities as me then this won't be new news but we were officially accepted to rehome Mitzi from Evesham Dogs Trust yesterday afternoon! Big yay!
I've been nagging Steven since January about re-homing a dog from them and last Saturday (not yesterday, the Saturday before that - 8 days ago) he surprised me by suggesting going over there as long as we didn't bring a dog back with us which I happily agreed to.
When we arrived we told them that I had filled in the rehoming form online back in January so they found the form on the computer, printed it out and told us to take it down to the kennels... oh boy were my legs hurting by the time we got down there! lol
The bods at the kennels took the printout off us and gave us another form to fill in letting them know the names of the dogs we were interested in. After an hour or so of walking around the kennels looking at all of the dogs we came up with a list of 3 that we wanted to know more about.
We took the form back to the reception of the kennels (the bit where we handed in the re-homing form) and were told that 2 of the 3 dogs were 'booked' and the third was now on a walk with someone who had the same idea as us but got there before us!
After waiting for the dog to come back for 45 minutes with no sign of them coming back any time soon we decided to go home and try again on a different day. We told the woman behind the counter that and left. I'd met the dogs and seen how they were homed and fallen in love with several of them and we knew where to go now and both Steven and I had fallen in love with the dogs they homed so I knew we'd be back.
The centre is huge though and we quickly got lost as we were trying to find our way back to the car. That's when things went better than I was expecting because someone came after us and told us that there was a wonderful West Highland Terrier looking for a new home. We'd both seen her on our way around and hadn't put her down on the form because I was worried she would be too small for me to bend over and put her lead on (I'm not very steady on my feet and I was worried that bending down would unbalance me so much that I would fall flat on my face and not be able to get back up alone) so we hadn't put her down on the form.
Steven and I looked at each other and I think I must have fluttered my eyes at him or something because we went back to reception to meet her and I fell in love with her then and there!
I held onto the desk and bent down enough to let her sniff my outstretched hand and her tail started wagging... that sold me more than anything - she had literally only just met me but she was already pleased to see me!
So, after she let me and Steven stroke her for a couple of minutes we went for a short walk so that we could both get to know her on the lead too... she pulled a bit but I reckon that was just because she was excited to be out of the kennel! As she is so small the pulling didn't unbalance me like I thought it would - I've never been so glad to be wrong!
We found out that her name is Mitzi and we both went back to reception to say we wanted to take her home. We were told that we would need to go to a pre-adoption talk (we went to that yesterday) then we could take her home the next day (today).
It's my dad's funeral tomorrow though so we didn't think it would be fair on her to leave her on her own so soon after bringing her home so we are going to collect her on Tuesday instead!
Steven is going to take his mobile with him so that we can take a photo of the centre, Mitzi and hopefully the bods who have been looking after her... keep an eye on my domain as that's where all the photos (and hopefully videos if I can work out how to put them on YouTube) will be!
If you live in the UK and are thinking of getting a dog then I definitely recommend going to your nearest Dogs Trust re-homing centre and getting your dog from there! If you don't want to re-home a dog then maybe sponsor one (or more) of the dogs on the site instead? It's only £1 per week per dog which is £4 a month! The Dogs Trust URL is dogstrust.org.uk
I seem to have written a book already so I'm going to shut up now and give you a bit of peace and quiet!
I've been nagging Steven since January about re-homing a dog from them and last Saturday (not yesterday, the Saturday before that - 8 days ago) he surprised me by suggesting going over there as long as we didn't bring a dog back with us which I happily agreed to.
When we arrived we told them that I had filled in the rehoming form online back in January so they found the form on the computer, printed it out and told us to take it down to the kennels... oh boy were my legs hurting by the time we got down there! lol
The bods at the kennels took the printout off us and gave us another form to fill in letting them know the names of the dogs we were interested in. After an hour or so of walking around the kennels looking at all of the dogs we came up with a list of 3 that we wanted to know more about.
We took the form back to the reception of the kennels (the bit where we handed in the re-homing form) and were told that 2 of the 3 dogs were 'booked' and the third was now on a walk with someone who had the same idea as us but got there before us!
After waiting for the dog to come back for 45 minutes with no sign of them coming back any time soon we decided to go home and try again on a different day. We told the woman behind the counter that and left. I'd met the dogs and seen how they were homed and fallen in love with several of them and we knew where to go now and both Steven and I had fallen in love with the dogs they homed so I knew we'd be back.
The centre is huge though and we quickly got lost as we were trying to find our way back to the car. That's when things went better than I was expecting because someone came after us and told us that there was a wonderful West Highland Terrier looking for a new home. We'd both seen her on our way around and hadn't put her down on the form because I was worried she would be too small for me to bend over and put her lead on (I'm not very steady on my feet and I was worried that bending down would unbalance me so much that I would fall flat on my face and not be able to get back up alone) so we hadn't put her down on the form.
Steven and I looked at each other and I think I must have fluttered my eyes at him or something because we went back to reception to meet her and I fell in love with her then and there!
I held onto the desk and bent down enough to let her sniff my outstretched hand and her tail started wagging... that sold me more than anything - she had literally only just met me but she was already pleased to see me!
So, after she let me and Steven stroke her for a couple of minutes we went for a short walk so that we could both get to know her on the lead too... she pulled a bit but I reckon that was just because she was excited to be out of the kennel! As she is so small the pulling didn't unbalance me like I thought it would - I've never been so glad to be wrong!
We found out that her name is Mitzi and we both went back to reception to say we wanted to take her home. We were told that we would need to go to a pre-adoption talk (we went to that yesterday) then we could take her home the next day (today).
It's my dad's funeral tomorrow though so we didn't think it would be fair on her to leave her on her own so soon after bringing her home so we are going to collect her on Tuesday instead!
Steven is going to take his mobile with him so that we can take a photo of the centre, Mitzi and hopefully the bods who have been looking after her... keep an eye on my domain as that's where all the photos (and hopefully videos if I can work out how to put them on YouTube) will be!
If you live in the UK and are thinking of getting a dog then I definitely recommend going to your nearest Dogs Trust re-homing centre and getting your dog from there! If you don't want to re-home a dog then maybe sponsor one (or more) of the dogs on the site instead? It's only £1 per week per dog which is £4 a month! The Dogs Trust URL is dogstrust.org.uk
I seem to have written a book already so I'm going to shut up now and give you a bit of peace and quiet!
Saturday, 26 June 2010
Second time lucky?
I've just realised that I've paid £41.27 for pretty much word for word what I paid for before Steven went into hospital! Drat and double drat! I'll be following it word for word this time though and if I'm not making money in 12 weeks (like the site promises) I'll ask for a full refund (like the site promises).
I won't post the URL yet in case it's a scam - I don't want you to make the same mistake I might be making now!
It's stupid really, right down to the way I got the message about it to how much the individual had "cut the cost" in half, right down to the not getting any sleep the previous night and even listening to the same radio station... it's all pretty much word for word and I've fallen for it twice!
Ah well, 12 weeks is 3 months yeah? So if I haven't started making money by 26 September I'll be asking for a refund! You watch me forget now! lol
I won't post the URL yet in case it's a scam - I don't want you to make the same mistake I might be making now!
It's stupid really, right down to the way I got the message about it to how much the individual had "cut the cost" in half, right down to the not getting any sleep the previous night and even listening to the same radio station... it's all pretty much word for word and I've fallen for it twice!
Ah well, 12 weeks is 3 months yeah? So if I haven't started making money by 26 September I'll be asking for a refund! You watch me forget now! lol
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