Steve's got...

...his breakfast now and there aren't any clean spoons and I'm nowhere near stable enough to do the washing up, so I'm already going without my first meal of the day.  I'll see if I'm stable enough to make a hot drink when he's finished eating, but today could, potentially, be a purely drinking chocolate day if he doesn't fancy cooking lunch for us.  There's only one clean plate too, so unless the washing up gets done before lunch, I'll definitely be missing that meal too 'cos perish the thought that my carer misses a meal!

I was wrong, I'm sorry

My carer has just finished in the bathroom and wants his breakfast when he's washed his pooey hands in the kitchen sink, so I've gotta make that for him first and I dunno if I'll be stable enough on my feet to make anything for myself after that, so today could be my second liquids only day of the week.

Mornin' all

Thanks to the reminder on my mobile and laptop, I've remembered that I've got a book to read and review today, in amongst caring for my carer of course.

I've already taken my morning pills and cared for my carer for just over an hour.  He made me a bottle of squash overnight, so I need to give him credit for that on the spreadsheet... hold on and I'll do that now before I forget.

He said (and I quote) "put half one or something, that'll do" and judging by his lack of wanting to give me even feedback so that he gets credit for his support of me, I'm predicting, at 7.06am, that he'll find an excuse not to cook lunch today, so he'll be the only one having lunch and it'll be made by me for the fourth time this week and I'll be missing yet another meal, so I'd best have breakfast so that I gain rather than lose weight this week.

I'm gonna go and grab my breakfast now, while he's in the bathroom, so that I can eat *something* today, even though it'll be less than 500 calories to live on today.

 

I'm making a second prediction, at 7.10am, that it'll be down to me to take the rubbish and recycling out too

BBL

Nite nite orl

I'm gonna shut down now... it's been a looong exhausting day and I've gotta remember to put the rubbish and recycling out tomorrow, as well as potentially making lunch for my carer (I won't be able to eat if I cook 'cos I can't safely reach the bottom of the oven) so I'm gonna head to bed and hopefully fall asleep pretty rapidly tonight.

Nite nite orl.

Pills taken, carer...

...has eaten 3 times today (I've only had breakfast and a tub of ice cream) all made by me and means that I've made the same amount of meals in one single day for him as he's made for me in the last 6 days combined - apparently he makes all my meals and drinks for me though.

I've also cared for him for over 12 hours today too, which takes the running total for the week so far up to over 71 hours for me and 2 hours and 8 minutes for my carer.  There's no way you can fit 33 hours of care into the 31 hours left of the week and we've both gotta sleep so take 8 from 31 leaves 23 hours which just ain't gonna happen and that's without taking off the 4 hours I'll be asleep before midnight tomorrow night too, which takes it down to 33 hours of care needed in 19 hours, which just doesn't add up, right?

Apparently he does everything for me though <shrug>

I'm gonna start shutting down for the night now, so that I can be ready to head to bed at whatever time my carer deems to be fit for me to actually be allowed to rest and recover for the night again.

Looks like...

...I won't be consuming anything other than J2O's for the first 10 days of November and then not even that while Steve gets through his inevitable stockpile of meat that he's bought and can't be bothered to cook for just one person, so he'll literally have a fridge and 2 freezers full of meat and I'll have literally nothing because there won't be room left anywhere for me-friendly food.  Steve'll just about have made enough room in the fridge by the end of November for me to get a couple of soya milk cartons so that I can at least have a bowl of granola a day in December then it'll start again in January with him stockpiling the meat again so I will be living on the J2O's for the first part of January and nothing again 'cos there is still so much meat in the fridge and freezers that I won't be able to even store any soya milk for myself, so I'll be eating very little until February.

Tuesday's grocery totals now break down like this:

My stuff:  £0.00
Steve's stuff:  £33.36
Joint stuff:  £14.35

So Steve's stuff comes to considerably more than double the stuff for both of us and that's only 'cos there are toilet rolls and bread on the joint stuff, even though I can't remember the last time I ate any bread.

I guess it's good practice for November to January kinda time, right?

Today's (1st October 2022) lunch photo

T'was a late and freezing cold lunch today - Steve (my hubby/carer) had a MugShot and I had a tub of Oatly salted caramel ice cream then a decaff coffee to warm me up, while Steve slept the afternoon away.

 

Having a bowl of granola and a 500ml tub of dairy-free ice cream all day is far from healthy, but the only way I could get my calories up enough and better than not eating at all, right?

Here's the photo of today's lunch:

Aaand...

...my editathon year is officially finished.  All of my manuscripts that I've written have been edited, I've archived a few and I've just got NaNo and JanNo to conquer now then that's it sorted and I can spend next year reading and getting my submission package to be the best it can be - 2023 is gonna be my year.

I've had my lunch (a tub of Oatly salted caramel ice cream) and I've got a decaf coffee on the go now, but I'm nicely over budget with my calories again, thanks to the ice cream, so I'm gonna spend all afternoon warming up again and catching up on the things I've missed out on recently. 

 

Assuming my carer stays asleep, I'll have hit 10 hours of caring for him at 5pm on the dot today, whereas he hasn't spent a single minute caring for me since lunchtime yesterday.  He's also eaten 17 times this week and I've eaten 8 meals and a tub of ice cream - he's already saying that he makes all my meals and drinks though <shrug>

 

I'm hoping I'll have put on a pretty decent amount of weight on Monday 'cos I'm already 4,006 calories over budget for the week and if I can aim for around 5,000 extra calories a week it'll hopefully be enough to see off any nasty side effects I get from my Covid booster as well as hopefully seeing me through the week to 10 days of barely eating during NaNo then I'll be able to regain a lot of calories during the rest of November and into December in preparation for JanNo, then I'll be back on track for the rest of the year then.

Today's (1st October 2022) breakfast photo

Take a guess at what I had for breakfast today?  Yep, my usual Tropical fruits granola and soya milk.  I got myself a cheeky drinking chocolate to really increase my calories this morning after I'd taken the empty bowls through to the kitchen.

Here's today's breakfast photo:

Mornin' all

I ended up caring for my carer for 12 hours and 23 minutes yesterday 'cos I didn't get to bed until 9pm and woke up this morning at 6am so I managed to get 8 hours of sleep after all.  I've achieved over 60 hours of care so far this week and my carer has provided me with 124 minutes of care so far, so there is no way he can cram 33 hours of care into less than 40 hours when I'll be asleep for about 16 of 'em.

I've taken my morning pills, made breakfast for both of us, made myself a hot choccie so now it's time to put the breakfast photo up, then get cracking with the editing.

It's MugShots for lunch today and there is only enough for one of us to have it, so guess who will be forced to fill up on drinking chocolates instead of proper food again?  Yep, me.  My carer has already started talking about making every meal for me, despite only making 3 so far this week and it'll be a maximum of 4 if he does the pizzas instead of me tomorrow.

Time to put up the photo before I start the day off with ranting.