I've just taken the last two pills of the day and my heart is breaking all over again, but it's too late to back out now... as of tomorrow afternoon I will only have Steve's jacket left - everything else will be or has gone now 😢
I'll see you all in the morning as an emotional wreck to do the weekly virus scan and backups.
Nite nite orl
...the email about the clothes collection tomorrow, and it's between 11am and 1pm so I'll be able, bottom permitting, to do my exercises and hopefully get my virus scan and backups finished in plenty of time - could be a late lunch though, but that's OK. I'll definitely be needing the chocolate when it's been picked up tomorrow though, so it could be an afternoon of bars of chocolate from the fridge lol
They'll give me a more accurate slot tomorrow morning, but right now, I know roughly the kinda time that they're aiming to be here, so that's fine by me.
...booked a slot to donate the last of Steve's clothes to a charity collection service (Anglo Doorstep Collections), who are coming for them next Wednesday (1st April)... it's like saying goodbye to him all over again ðŸ˜
I've woken up feeling a lot lighter, but I struggled to get out of bed so I popped a happy pill along with my 9 other morning pills this morning.
I'm feeling sooo proud of myself for going through with the shave yesterday and it's gonna take some time to get used to having a lighter head lol
I've got a delivery due today so that I can send my hair off in hopefully a more sensibly-sized envelope lol
The virus scan was clear and I've run the tune-up thing that got rid of 700mb of un-needed stuff, so I'm all set now.
Gotta remember to clear my browser caches before I head to bed tonight ready for tomorrow morning's weekly virus scan.
Gonna do my laps after each carer has gone... it'll be interesting to see how wobbly and hot I get on my first full day with my buzz cut!
My groceries are due today too and I've gotta put in my next order before I forget.
This blog post is getting a bit long so I'm gonna shut up and put today's to-do list together now.
BBS
I've finally Braved the Shave and got my first ever buzz cut in memory of my father!
My wonderful sister-in-law, Marie, also coloured my hair for me, but because I'm naturally dark brown it's not too noticeable, but I've got a pinky-purple scalp and apparently it's more noticeable in the sunlight. But that's two first's that I've wanted to do for many years that I can finally tick off my list now.
The donation pages are still open at MacMillan and The Little Princess Trust for those of you who wanted to wait until I'd done it before sponsoring me.
I'm on top of the world and treating myself to an iced latte for lunch, to make it 3 firsts in about 5 hours.
I'm on a roll!
...I'm shutting down ready for getting my head shaved <gulp> It's suddenly feeling very real lol
...to put the MacMillan t-shirt and LPT bracelets on because tomorrow morning is shave day.
I've also gotta put in my Discount Dragon order and also the Amazon order now that my favourite instant tea is back in stock and caffeine free.
Gotta weigh myself and log it into the FitBit app after I've had my breakfast too, so that I know if I can do my laps again next week and if I can, how many times a day.
...I'm getting a buzz cut in memory of my father on 30th June and it'll be dyed pinky purple (depending on how it reacts to the natural colour of my hair) for a few washes.
I also know that I can use ordinary shampoo but not conditioner while it's so short, thanks to a friend on Facebook overnight.
In 8 days' time I will officially have shaved my hair for MacMillan and donated it to the Little Princess Trust. It's something I've wanted to do since I first heard about it and it's another two big (for me) things I can cross off my long-term "wanna try" list.
I'm gonna celebrate with a mocktail when I get home and if there's a sudden flurry of mid-Summer snow, it'll be my fault lol
...Thursday now.
The medical appointment was fine but the electricity had gone off before I arrived and the emergency power hadn't kicked in, but everyone kept a cool head and carried on, just doing things on paper instead of the computer.
Apparently the nurse printed off the form earlier on so I didn't have to wait for that, but it all went fine and I'm sore, light-headed and wobbly atm so I'm gonna curl up with a tub of Pringles and glass of water to try and replace what was taken out of me.
That's it until my smear, then the doc appointment for the results of today's blood test then my sponsored head shave and hopefully patch test then dying my hair for the first time in my life a few days later, as long as I don't get a reaction to the dye then I can finally breathe for the first time in two months lol
Well, it looks like I was wrong at bedtime yesterday 'cos I'm obviously online pre-shower this morning lol
I've pulled the water heating switch in the bathroom, taken my blood pressure and popped my morning pills so I'm just waiting for the time to tick over to 6.15am so that I can go and wash my hair in the shower instead of having a bath today.
When I get out of the shower, I've gotta remember to put my hair into the Alice band instead of a ponytail as it dries and use the non-greasy hair brush so that it doesn't need to be washed twice in the same day.
Not sure how I'll feel when I get out of the shower, but I'm not having breakfast before I get in, purely because there isn't time to make and eat it so I'll have to wait and see what my stomach is like when I get out.
I've potentially got a delivery arriving at some point soon too, so that's another reason for an early shower!
Gotta remember to do the videos for my 3 nephews before the charity buzz cut thing too.
Today's daily virus scan was reassuringly clear, so that's a positive.
This blog post is getting a bit long, so I'm gonna publish it and put today's to-do list together then it'll hopefully be time to clamber into the shower.
TTFN
I'm not sure what time I'll be online tomorrow morning 'cos I've gotta wash my hair and do part 1 of the 2 charity videos for my nephews which I'm hoping I'll remember to do as soon as I've taken my blood pressure and popped my morning pills. I've gotta try and sort out the reviews issue on my homepage at some point too.
I'm gonna head on up to beddy-byes now.
I'll see you all at some point hopefully in the morning.
Nite nite orl
...to have a shower and wash my grease-pit of hair then take two videos for my three nephews to prepare them for the massive change in how I look next time I see them.
Can someone remind me please?
I'm gonna get my first ever buzz cut on 30th June 2025 in memory of my dad and my hair is being donated to make real hair wigs for children and young people who have lost theirs because of Chemo or Alopecia or whatever then I'm having the hopefully tiny amount of hair that's left on my head, dyed a weird and wacky colour depending on what my fantastic SIL can get her hands on.
Whether you think I'll go through with it or not, you can donate to the Little Princess Trust at https://www.justgiving.com/page/amanda-lpt and/or MacMillan at https://bravetheshave.macmillan.org.uk/shavers/f08d2555-ab9c-45ab-ac15-e2b1e8ec85a8
Every penny goes a long way to helping these two incredible charities to keep on doing what they're doing and will give me the boost I need to do it on 30th June.
I wrote a letter to the hairdresser who had agreed to do my hair shaving and apparently it was a good thing I did because she wasn't comfortable shaving it all off as it can be an emotional experience, which is fair enough.
What's happening now is that the hairdresser will plait and cut me as short as she's comfortable with so that I can donate it to the Little Princess Trust, Marie will then give me a "buzz cut" because that's as short as she's willing to go, then she'll hopefully help me to dye my hair a totally outrageous colour (like pink or purple or orange or green or whatever) ready for going to get it all shaved off with a salon who has done it before so know what they're doing for MacMillan.
It's still definitely going ahead on 30th June (plus whenever the salon can fit me in), but I could be emotional 3 times instead of the once that I was hoping for.
Well, today is potentially the last bedlammy day of the week unless my central heating installers come out, but I'm not planning on doing much today.
A charity are coming over to pick up a couple of things between 8.45am and 10.45am this morning so I'll do my laps this afternoon.
I started the weekly virus scan before I took my morning pills and had my breakfast so hopefully that'll be done and dusted in plenty of time for me to finish the backups before my lunchtime carer gets here.
I'm giving myself the day off today - I think I've earnt it!
Time to get today's to-do list online while I slurp my way down my first hot drink of the day.
BBS
It's been a loooong, stressful, but also semi-productive day today and I'm not planning on doing much tomorrow... the clothes are being picked up between 8.45am and 10.45am so I've asked for an early carer and I'll do my laps after lunch so that I'm not rushed off my feet mid-laps.
I've gotta remember that it's the weekly virus scan and backups tomorrow too.
If I don't post much tomorrow it's 'cos I'm having the day off and I'll be back again on Thursday, but for now it's...
nite nite orl.
I've just installed new printer cartridges in my new printer for the very first time and I even solved a techie issue with the installation too for the first time in my life.
I'm thinking that Loki maybe meddled slightly, just to test me and let me know that He still likes messing with technology as well as causing chaos on Friday 13ths. What's even better was that there was an envelope to recycle the used printer cartridges too, so maybe that was the Green Man stepping in too?
I think I've earnt a celebratory Mocktail after lunch and it'll be a major positive to feel smug about this evening.
...charity donation picked up by a lovely bloke who had a very strong Welsh accent lol
Time for lunch now, then my blood pressure, then reading this afternoon then I can tidy up a bit more of the spare room as soon as it's safe enough for me to stay on my feet for long enough, however long it takes me to start to recover properly.