In the space of 12 years I've lost:
- My father
- My last two grandparents
- Mitzi
- My FIL
- My husband
I've now gotta cope with everything totally alone 'cos there's no way I can see my mum again because neither of us can drive and I don't wanna make my in-laws cope with helping me as well as each other.
- Marie has already got too much on her plate with working full-time and being her mum's carer.
- Andrew has got a young family of his own
- There's nothing more that can be done for my main disability
- I can't afford all the bills that I'll now have to pay alone
- There's too much stuff to tidy up in the house
- I need to get the washer/drier fixed or replaced
- I need to get a new microwave 'cos the one I've got now hasn't been used since 1999 so it's not safe any more
- I've gotta deal with Steve's finances and I bet I won't even do that right
- I've gotta sort out the mortgage
- I've gotta find out about getting a better deal on the water
- I've gotta cancel Steve's phone and prolly have to pay astronomical fees for cancelling it mid-contract
- I've gotta find out about benefits and grants
- I can't safely get up and down the stairs alone, but I don't have a choice in that either
- Just having a digital reminder thing that I could wear around my neck would be a huge help 'cos I forget what I'm doing or where I'm going before I've even left the room
- I can't safely live alone but I don't have a choice and I really don't wanna move but it's looking like I'll have to
- and if all that wasn't enough, I've gotta get the emersion heater/outside plumbing fixed too.
- My care package only lasts for 12 weeks
- And now I can't even have toast 'cos the lunchtime carer yesterday has pushed the toaster so far back that I don't stand a chance of even touching it, let alone using it!
Basically I'm fucked and people still expect me to support them and update their fucking website for them.
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