As predicted...

...my carer is already finding excuses to not cook our lunch yet again, but wants me to make it for him instead, despite feeling motivated to do it yesterday and even this morning, so I've gotta put my health at risk yet again so that we can both eat something today.  It'll either be a MugShot for him or Cous Cous for both of us, depenging on how stable I feel on my feet in a few minutes time.  

 

I believe less and less about what he says now and put my health at risk at least once a day so that he can eat, despite him telling everyone that he "cooks all her meals" which is already bollox this week 'cos I made his breakfast and looks like I'm making his lunch again too.  

 

He's made 1 meal for me in two weeks and that was yesterdays lunch.  He won't be cooking tomorrow either 'cos of our groceries being delivered, Wednesday he's got a medical appointment, so Thursday to Sunday are potentially the only lunches he'll cook this week, but I'm predicting that he'll find an excuse then too.

Almost time to go and make the cous cous now, when my carer has woken up enough to eat.

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Just made the cous cous for my carer in the end 'cos there was only enough for half a bowl, so my carer has had both meals prepared by me and I've only had breakfast 'cos there's no way I can stand up any longer to do my own, so I'm gonna go hungry for the next three or four days then, while my carer has at least two meals each day, likely all made entirely by me.  So out of the 14 meals he says he makes for me (and assuming he cooks all four lunches from Thurday to Sunday which I'm predicting now won't happen) he'll have made four meals for both of us and I'll have made ten for him.  

 

Cooking is pretty much the only care he provides for me each week, so by the time I head to bed tonight he'll have provided zero care for me today.  He might bag up the groceries at the door tomorrow then come back in here because he's so wiped out, so I'll put the groceries away and re-start the day's caring 'cos I can pretty much guarantee that he'll be asleep by the time I wobble back in so tomorrow's care will be a maximum of 5 minutes due to him bagging up the groceries.  Wednesday he'll be too stressed out to do anything other than rant and sleep so I'll get zero support from him that day too, which takes us to the only days there's even a remote possibility of him cooking for us, but if he doesn't then it'll be another week of 5 minutes of care from my carer, yet apparently he does everything for me 🤷 😞

 

I've already hit the minimum 5 hours of care for my carer today so this afternoon's care will be overtime... except that I don't get paid or even recognition for what I do every day and my carer does!